First of all let me say that I need to apologize for not adding an alert before continuing. My last chapter was 13 but it came up as 14. I completely forgot about it. One of my faithful reviewers pointed it out to me. I am so sorry and with me deleting the chapter since I am new at this I somehow messed the chapters up. I am pretty sure this one will be chapter 15 even though it's supposed to be 14. Sorry for the confusion. Cause I saw a few that said it's the same chapter word for word. It was but when I posted it again I added the alert. As I said this is my first story and I am bound to make mistakes and I did. I don't have a beta I check all my writing
Now I want to thank all my faithful reviewers again for staying with me through my first story. I know I have shocked quite a few of you if not many. I love writing this story. This story is writing itself which is weird but I am going with it. I will tell y'all now this chapter made me cry. I feel so bad for Christian with what he has to deal with and the aftermath. It is hard and it is going to be rougher than he imagined because he has not heard it all yet but it's coming.
Christian is going to think back on his childhood with his birth mother and the Grey's as he was going from a toddler to an adult. Some of this will be sad. Tissues ready
Alright now this one is a tearjerker and tissue alert
From the last chapter we left it where the mighty Grace Trevelyan Grey fell from grace. She has lost everything. She has no job, she has no husband and no children. Wow she might as well dig a hole and bury herself in it. She is accused of pedophilia and unlawful use of drugs.
Grace is led out of the hospital amongst all the paparazzi and the news crews. Wow news spreads fast when it's one of the Grey's and oh my word it's the mother Grace Trevelyan Grey herself. Let's see if she says anything
" This is news anchor Addison McDaniels of Seattle Evening News reporting live outside Seattle Grace Hospital. We see none other than Grace Treveylan Grey being led out in what it is.. yes handcuffs folks she is handcuffed. Where is her family? Um she has no one since her husband and daughter are "apparently" under arrest and her sons are not here. Let's move in closer guys." she says
"Mrs. Grey, My name is Addison McDaniels. Is it true you are under arrest for pedophila and unlawful use of drugs and more?"
Grace looks at her like with no remorse whatever on her face. The bitch is smiling. Can you believe that "I have nothing to say to you or anyone else but my lawyer." she says
"Mrs. Grey, is it true that your husband and daughter are "apparently" under arrest for the theft of your son Christian Grey?" she ask her
"No comment for that wasted piece of space." she says as she is led to the detectives car
"Well you heard here first but who was she talking about? This Addison McDaniels for Seattle Evening news channel 5. We will update you as details become available"
"This is Stacey Knowles Seattle Evening News channel 5 live outside Seattle Police Department. We are waiting on an update from the jail on what is going on with the Grey's. We will update as details become available."
Now we are back at Christian's penthouse where everyone just finished a huge breakfast. They are all sitting in the great room wondering what Christian is going to do. They are waiting patiently; they know it won't be long before he blows. Ana hasn't shown him everything yet. She just got copies of the files that the detectives sent her. She can't believe what she just read and Detective Maxine Reynolds is informing her there will be more files coming
"Christian, Boo we don't know what all is going on in your head but we are here for you. Hell, throw something, scream, cry. Let it out. You can talk to me. Talk to us, we are all here for you. I can't imagine what you are going through. But I am here for you. If you want to let off some steam, go to the gym. We can work up a good sweat… I'll get you all riled up..she says smirking at need to work it out here or there. we are all here. If you want Elliot to go to the gym with you that's fine. You just need to get out of your system cause I know you are a powder keg waiting to explode." she tells him
He turns around and sees his finest Bourbon that Grace and Carrick gave him one Christmas. fuck them both he says out loud and picks it up from the shelf and smashes it on floor and screams I hate you both. Why did you have to do this to me.? he is crying and shaking but all of a sudden he stops and says damn that felt good
He just looks off into space and finally back at everyone
He turns around again and walks over to Ana and hugs her tight and kisses her head and tells her thank you and he loves her and always will.
He walks over to Elliot and hugs his big bro telling him he loves him
He walks over to Ray and says
"Ray, will it be alright if you and I go and talk for a while? I want to talk to Ana and Elliot but I need your ear more than anything. You are older and wiser and you have been around me for quite a while and my so-called family. I just need your input please." he says
"Of course son, where would you like to talk? Anywhere is fine with me." he says
"Umm the balcony if that is alright with you? I know it's a little chilly but we have blankets out there unless you would rather go to my office." he says
"No, no Christian the balcony is fine. It's a nice evening." Ray tells him
"Ana, Elliot I will talk to both of you later right now I just need Ray. I hope that is alright?" he ask
They both look at him and nod and say
"Whatever you need Boo, bro we are here for you. We are not leaving you. We will be here when you need us."Elliot tells him
"Ok we will be in later." Christian says
Christian and Ray walk out on the balcony and take a seat on the couch
Christian looks apprehensive he doesn't really know how to start this or what to say
"Christian, son I don't know what is going through your head and I don't dare to try and figure it out. All I do know is that you are hurting and angry and I don't blame you one bit. Hell if it was me I would be down there at the jail ready to beat the hell out of all of them. But right now I know this is about what Grace and Elena did to you. If you want to talk about Carrick and Mia that is fine too. So whenever you are ready to talk I am right here for you. Take as long as you need." Ray tells him
Christian looks at Ray like he can't believe he would want to have anything to do with him after the way he treated Ana over the years. Damn this self loathing you have. It's time to let it go. You didn't kill your mother, it's not your fault that she could not be saved, you are not to blame for what happened to her. It is not your fault that the pimp got ahold of you and burnt you. It was not your fault that the Bitch troll got her claws into us. It is not your fault that you were adopted by a bunch of sicko fools. It was not your fault that you let the love of your life go. She is here now and you need to be thankful that if it wasn't for her you would still be at square one. Ray and Ana didn't have to do this but they love and care for you so suck it up and talk to Ray. He is here for you just like everyone else is.
"Ray first off I want to thank you for everything you have done for me. I know you didn't have to but I am so thankful you did. Without you I would have gone crazy. I am thankful you got Ana here. I had no idea she was FBI, CIA and NCIS. Wow, that girl is very talented and owns her own company. I am sure she has more secrets but I am not going to ask you." he says
"You are very welcome son and yes she is very talented. She has achieved some of the highest honors but I will let her tell you about them. Now let's talk about what is going on in your head." Ray says
"Ray, I don't know where to start, there are so many things going on." he says
"I understand that Christian that but start wherever you want you to. If it be Grace, or Carrick or Mia or Jonathan let it out. I am here for you. As Annie said we can take it to the gym and you can duke it out." Ray tells him smirking
"One question before I start. How can you look at me and know what I have been doing for the last decade?" he ask nothing looking at Ray
"Christian what you have been through is a miracle that you are still alive and able to ask that question. It is tough I know but you will preserve you have Ana, Elliot and myself to help you through all this. It is not your fault that Grace decided to send you over that woman that she knew was a pedophile and she knew what the bitch was doing to you. You have to get over this and you will because you are strong and you are a CEO hell son you built your own company and became a billionaire. That is saying that you are a smart man and you will come out on top of all of this." Ray says
"Ray this is tough, how could my so-called mother do this to me? She showed no remorse when I was talking to her. It's like she didn't care. What was her end goal or theirs? That's what I really want to know? I know they tried to set it up for me to marry that bitch but there was no way in hell I was going to do that. You know I felt what I was doing wrong but for the life of me I couldn't stop it. I guess they thought if I married the bitch they would take me for everything I have and then some. Joke was on them there was no way that was going to happen. I have had my will made up from the time I became a millionaire and I have updated it since I became a billionaire. Only my lawyers know this and it's not GEH lawyers. I felt I had to do this somewhere else. Why I can't rightly say but it just felt like I had to do it that way. There are only two people in and it is not any of the Grey's and my will has stayed like that. Now in the end I ended up broke because of my so-called sister and father." He laughs but there is tears in his eyes
"You know ,son life is hard for all of us at one point in our lives. We just have to take it day by day and pray really hard that it will get better. I know you are having a hard time dealing with all of this. Have you thought about seeing a psychiatrist to work through this? They are there to help you if you need one and I can recommend a really good one that helped Annie after she got older when she started asking questions about her mother." he tells him
"I used to have one but he didn't really help me much. He just droned on and on about the same old thing. Yes please give me the name I will call them. I need all the help I can get. Thank you." he says
"Christian you do not have to thank me. I am here for you anytime." Ray tells him
"Ok well now you were there when the bitches were talking about me. How could Grace say things like that? It made me feel so dirty and unloved…wait a minute I was unloved by her just didn't know it. You know the day I met Grace I thought she was an angel sent from heaven to save me. I didn't know where my mother was. The last time I saw her she was lying on the floor cold and I couldn't wake her up. I put my blanket on her to keep her warm. I don't know how long we were there before someone found us." he said almost in tears
"Yes I know Grace told me how she saw you all huddle up in a corner of the hospital room they had you in. You know she told me that she was meant to be there that night to meet you and take care of you. I know that is hard to hear after everything that has happened but it was so true. She was so full of love for you and she wanted you as her son. She told me she told Carrick that you were meant to be her son. I don't know why everything changed but it did. So we have to question, was it because of Elena or was it that Grace wanted more from you like your money?" Ray says
"You know when they took me home with them they were never really there for us. They had nannies for Elliot and I. Then they decided to adopt Mia. That still puzzles me..well it did until I found out that Mia was Carricks daughter for real. But anyway they had nannies for all three of us. They worked a lot and we hardly ever saw them unless they were home on the weekend. Carrick was but Grace was on-call or somewhere else now we know where she was and who she was with. It hurts so much to think that the loving parents I had before I became a teenager could turn out to be so bad. Where did I go wrong and why?" he says crying
Ray looks at him and thinks about his answer before he says anything. He leans over and puts his arm around his shoulder and says
"I don't know what they were thinking when they adopted all of y'all. But at one time I am pretty sure they loved you all. They doted on y'all like you all meant the world to them. Now come to think about it, they really did pay a lot of attention to you all especially when there was a lot of company. I also noticed when it was just family they didn't care if you all were in the same room with them. I still believe if Elena hadn't come into the picture it would not have ended this way. I may be wrong but you all were happy before her arrival in the neighborhood.
I remember Carrick saying why did they have to move next door to us. He didn't like either of them. As you all got older Carrick said Elena was looking at you both rather weird as you were growing up but you know he never did anything about it. Now when she looked and talked to Mia he was hell bent to keep her away. I wonder if he knew what she was up to. I know your so-called mother did. I still can't believe she did that. Ok now your thoughts or rants on what we have been talking about? Let it out I am here for you." he says
"Well from what the Analyst said I agree with her Grace and Carrick never should have adopted any of us. They didn't have the time to raise us like they should have. Yes they took us on trips for vacations but the nannies went with us. We saw them more than we saw Grace and Carrick. They were always coming and going. I remember one time we were in Paris and I wanted to go to the Eiffel Tower and they told me they would get my nanny to go with me. I told them never mind that I wanted to go with my parents. They just looked at me and said we already have plans and no children are allowed.
"Wow, that was cold." Ray said
"Yes it was so I didn't ask anymore. We just stayed in our rooms unless it was time to go out and eat with the parents. Which was rarely." he said
Ray looks at him and he knows what he wants to hear
"Ok Ray here it is the nitty gritty of how I feel about all of this and I am sure there is more that Ana is getting but she just hasn't said anything yet. I guess a little at a time is better than all at once right?" he says
'Yes Christian I am sure there is more and of course a little at a time is better." he says
Christian gets up and walks over the edge of the balcony and looks out over the city of Seattle with all the skyscrapers and looks down at what he can barely see of the cars and people; they look like little ants. He looks back up and shakes his head, wipes his eyes and clears his throat and starts to tell Ray how he feels
"Ray I am..I don't know the words for how I really feel about all of this. I do know if they were in front of me man or woman I would not be responsible for my actions toward any of them. I cannot believe that the woman that I have looked up to for the last twenty one years has done this to me. My God how in the world did she do all this without anyone finding out? I mean come on someone had to know something about her illicit behavior don't you think? I know the bitch troll knew hell they were in this together. But how did they continue this with the kids they screwed up? I just want to beat them all with a belt and tie them up and let them rot on the side of the road. No, I want them all in prison where they know that they will never get out and they can all become someone's bitch." he says
Ray just sits there listening
"Grace was my angel. She saved me and gave me a home. She gave me a will to live. I never had that before. I was able to eat when I wanted to. I had my own room that was awesome. Never had that before. I didn't have to wear the same clothes every day hell every week.
My bio mother never had food or clothes for me. She never said she loved me or gave me a hug. Hell she never even bathed me not once. She bought me a toy car one time when I begged her for it. I remember once I saw a train set. It was very old but she only bought me the engine. I played with that train piece and little car until the wheels came off the car and the smokestack broke off the train engine. You know I was the happiest kid when she got me those and the saddest when she threw them away because they were broken. She said you are getting too big to play with those toys. I wasn't three years old and she told me that. For some reason that just popped in my head." he said with tears in his eyes
Ray still hasn't said anything just listening
"You know Ray, as young as I was I still remember the way the man, well the pimp I learned later what he was. How he treated my mother. She was always doing what he wanted. She would cook for us but I never got much to eat. He said I wasn't worth feeding. My mother just sat there and didn't say a word. She was like a zombie just doing his bidding.
He only came around when he wanted to eat or to fuck her. Then he would walk out of her room and come find me. He would slap me across the face and throw me against the wall. I was only three years old for God sake. I remember one time he was so mad at me for yelling at him to leave my mother alone he backhanded me and I went flying with my back into the kitchen table and I just laid there stunned but I didn't cry. He liked me to cry. He would hit me harder if I did." he said holding his tears at bay
"My mother walked out of the bedroom and looked at me and said mind and he won't hurt you. I didn't do anything but try to help her when I yelled at him. She looked at my face and back and said you will learn next time. You are not bleeding. How could she say that and walk off?" he asked Ray
"A few days later he came back and the same oh stuff happened again as always. I was hiding in the closet and he found me. I don't know why he grabbed me. I didn't do anything to him. He pulled me by my hair and said that I was a worthless piece of shit and he took the cigarette he was smoking and me on my back. I felt it two times and then he ripped my little shirt open and did the same to my chest. It hurt so bad but you know I never cried. Tell me how I can remember all of that? I still don't know. He would come day after day sometimes in a good mood and others in a bad way." his voice is cracking and he is breathing hard
"Christian calm down son deep breaths come on that's it. Breath with me in and out, in and out. That's better." Rays as he walks over to the fridge in the corner and gets two bottles of water and hands one to Christian
Christian drinks his one in about two big gulps and takes a few more deep breaths
"Better now? You know sometimes when we have traumatic expressions in our lives no matter how old you are you always remember them at some point in time. They are always there but just stuck in your subconscious and when it's time for you to remember them whether they are good or bad they come to the surface." Ray tells him
"I guess you are right but I still remember every time he would burn me. I have eight little round holes on my chest and eight on my back. That is why I'm always leery of someone getting close to me. I tense up and want to scream or fight them off me. You know Ana can touch me with or without my shirt on. No one else can. Mia couldn't hug me like Ana does." he says smiling
"I know the day my mother died. I just sat there with her holding her cold hand and putting my blanket on her. Granted at the time I didn't know she was dead. Hell, I didn't know what death meant. He came in and saw her on the floor and felt of her and called her a worthless bitch and kicked me and said it was all my fault and left us. Someone must have noticed something was wrong and called 911.
All I remember is someone breaking down the door and saying police. Some woman grabbed me and took me out the door and that's the last time I saw my mother. I didn't even get to go to her funeral if she even had one. No one told me about it but you know I had a right to know where she was and what was going on. I still to this day I should know what really happened to her and where she is buried. Yes I hated her for the way she treated me but in the end she was my mother for four years a sorry excuse for a mother but my mother no less.
"All I know is what Grace and Carrick told me years laters which wasn't much. They said she died of a drug overdose and she was sexually assaulted. That's all I know. So for a while now I have been trying to figure out how Grace and Elena decided that my mother was a crack whore when she died of an overdose. Did she do it herself or did the pimp do it over the last few days he was there. I remember him giving her something and I saw him roll her sleeve up but that is what I can remember." he tells Ray
"Christian who had your file and your belongings when you lived with your mother? Does Carrick have them at home or at his law office?" Ray asked him
"Um, I don't know, they never showed me anything, they just told me about her. Why do you ask?" he says
"Well the house is yours so later not right now but when all this dies down and you are doing better go to the house and look through Carrick's office and see if you can find your file and read it. It might give you some perspective on your life and your mothers on how she really died." Ray tells him
"You know Ray, I think I will do that later. I would like to know what really happened to her. Thank you for thinking of that. It never crossed my mind." he says
"Ok enough about my birth mother. Let 's talk about the so-called family." he says deadpan
"Whenever you are ready. Do you need a break?" Ray asked him
"No I am good, how about you? Have I talked you to death already?" he says laughing
"Oh no I am good just asking about you. That was a lot to talk about and I know it hurt to talk about her and your life when you were younger." Ray says
"Yes it was but that is all done for now. Only thing missing is getting my file and finding out about my mother and where she is buried." he says
Ray just sits back down and nods his head
Well now for the Grey's. Meeting Grace and being adopted
"I was scared when I was in the hospital. I wouldn't talk and wouldn't let anyone touch me, not even Grace. She would look at me with tears in her eyes. She asked me if I was hungry or thirsty. I know I just nodded my head. She said she would be back soon. She walked off and a few minutes later she came in with some kind of fruit juice and a cup of jello. I remember grabbing it and eating it like I had been starving. She asked if I wanted more and I nodded my head again. She got me more.
She stayed with me I guess until I went to sleep. I woke up and she was sitting beside me. She saw that I was awake and got up and walked over to my bed and I swear she was an angel all dressed in white. She was so soft spoken and had a very nice smile. I think I smiled at her. I must have because her smile got wider.
She told me she had some things to do and she would be back later. I went to sleep and woke up when I heard someone in my room and it was Grace and some man. I jumped off the bed and ran to the corner of the room and tried to hide.
Grace told him that he was scaring me. He walked out of the room but came back a little while later and he just sat on the chair that was close to the door. Grace introduced him to me and me to him. She said he was her husband Carrick and he wanted to meet me. Why at that time I didn't know. But later I found out that Grace wanted to adopt me. I didn't know what that meant at the time. They later explained it to me. They already had one son. His name was Elliot and he was a few years older than me. They wanted to know if it would be okay for them to bring him here so we could meet each other. I just shrugged my shoulders and nodded my head." he said
"So you got to meet Elliot. What did you think of him?" Ray asked him
"When he came into my room with the Grey's he was a big boy to be either six or seven years old. Well you see him today he is like a giant." Christian laughs
"Elliot wanted to talk to me. Grace says he could but I didn't talk. He wanted to know why and she said he was scared. Elliot looked at me like I was crazy. He said why is he scared? I am not gonna hurt him. He needs to talk to me and then we can play. I thought he was funny.
Grace said that something bad happened and I was scared that is why I didn't want to talk . She said I would talk when I was ready. They left and the next day Grace came back and said they were going to adopt me but they had to see if I had any family that would take me. What makes it so bad I didn't Ray." No one wanted me or loved me.'He says, his shoulders shaking.
That was a very sad day for me when she told me I had no family. I asked about my mother and all she said was she was gone. Then she told me I had to go into foster care for a little while while they did more checking. To this day I still don't remember that. All I do remember is they came and picked me up a few weeks later and took me home with them.
"Grace bought me new clothes. She let me pick out the sheets and comforter for my bed. I got a new lamp and a bookcase that I never had before. You know that was a great feeling. I was able to have books in my room and I could read when I wanted too. She treated me just like she did Elliot well almost except I wouldn't allow her to touch me. She would fix my bath water and help me wash my hair but that was all. She never attempted to touch me; she knew my boundaries but she could have tried. That's what one of the therapists said.
"It wasn't long after that that we moved to Seattle and Bellevue into the biggest house I have ever seen. And we got to pick our rooms and fix them like we wanted." he said
But neither of them even after we moved would try or even ask me if they could touch me. Just on the arm or hand nothing. My new therapist even told them that they needed to try with me in his office but you know they said they didn't want to mess anything up. What the hell were they messing up? Damn Ray Grace was a pediatrician she knew how to take care of kids or she should have known. If not, the bitch was in the wrong profession and we found it she was, didn't we. Lordy how we did…. my God how could she be a pediatrician and do that?...he was thinking to himself…They didn't do anything. Carrick would play with Elliot in the pool and I would think come on dad dunk me but he never did. Grace would say she loved me and just kiss my cheek really fast, never touching me." he says all that and Ray can hear his voice crack
"They always showed more love for him than they did me. Were they afraid that I was going to run or something?" he says
"Wanna take a break?" Ray ask him
"Not really unless you do?" he says
"No son I am good it just seems like you are having a difficult time at the moment." Ray tells him
"I am but I am ok. I need to get all this out before hell breaks loose with your daughter in there. Cause I know it is coming soon." he says with a smile even though he has nothing to smile about
"Whenever you are ready. Take some deep breaths and you will be fine." Ray says
Ray walks over to him and they stand side by side looking at the hussle and bussle of Seattle below them. Ray touches him on his shoulder and says he is going to get them some coffee. Christian just nods his head
While Ray is gone Christian thinks about what all they did to him and what they wanted to do to him. Well Grace got one thing right it will always be Anastasia Steele they never could make him forget her. All the times Elena beat him and whipped and drove it into his head that he was to stay away from her or else. He just couldn't do it. He saw her at school and wanted to be with her but in the back of his mind something was telling him he couldn't be there with her. God I need to talk to her soon and explain all this. I know she hates me for what I said to her. He hears the balcony doors open and looks up thinking it's Ray but it's Ana
"Hey sugar are you doing alright?" Ana ask him
"Where did Ray go? Did he get tired of me already?" he ask laughing
"No, no sugar he is getting y'alls coffee and I made some donuts for everyone. I just thought I would walk out and keep you company until daddy comes back out. I also need to tell you I have more files that came in while y'all have been out here. I want you to finish your talk with daddy then we will all go over these files. They can wait a little longer. Remember a little at a time." she says and walks over and hugs him as she looks up she can see tears on his face
"Christian my boy here is your coffee and Annie made some of her famous donuts they are to die for. Here try one." he says as he turns around from closing the doors
"Well Annie I didn't expect to find you out here." he says eyeing her
"Oh daddy I just wanted to check on my Boo and make sure he was still doing alright." she tells him
She hugs Christian again and walks back inside leaving them to continue their talk
"Oh my lord these are delicious and she makes her baby food taste like this doesn't she?" he says moaning
Ray looks at him and says.. "Christian you alright over there?" Ray says laughing when he hears Christian moaning
Christian is thinking oh my let the floor just give away. I didn't just moan in front of Ana's dad. Lord help me
"Yes sir I am good." that's all he can say
"Alright then let's get back to it, nothing like a good cup of coffee and a homemade donut to hit the spot." he says
"Absolutely damn that was delicious. Ok where were we? Oh yes I was talking about my touch issues. You know they adopted me when I was four and they brought Mia home when I was six. During that time they never tried to get close to me. Now when Mia got there and I remember when she was crying one night I went into her room and saw that she was awake and I gave her her pacifier and stood there looking down at her wondering if I could let her touch me. I was six years old and I reached over the crib and got Mia out and sat down in the rocking chair and rocked her back to sleep. There was no plain and I felt like at that moment I belonged I was really home." he said smiling
"Yes I remember hearing about how you bonded with baby Mia. That was a special moment for you." Ray says
"It was until Grace ran there scared to death that I was going to drop or hurt Mia. I was fine with her and put her back in bed and turned around and looked at Grace, I didn't say a word and went to my room. You know I was in there for a good hour before Grace came in to check Mia." he says
"Grace asked me at breakfast the next morning what I was doing in Mia's room but I just shrugged my shoulders. I guess she was trying to get me to talk but I didn't. I was always scared to talk or as the doctors said my voice was scared." he says
"We were all in the family room one day and Mia was crying and I walked over to her and looked down in the bassinet and saw she was smiling at me. She wasn't crying but smiling. I thought it was so sweet and I reached in and rubbed her soft cheek and said Mia. I thought Grace and Carrick were going to yell at me but they were so happy that I was talking. They asked me to say her name again and I did. I have never seen two people so happy in my life than I did that day. And you know Ray, I was happy. I think that was the happiest day ever for me in their house." he says
"I can imagine it was. It sounded special, a very happy occasion I would say. It was your first word they heard you say." Ray says
"Yes it was but you know they never tried to get close to me. I picked Mia up and held her against my chest. I saw Grace crying but it was because I was getting close to Mia." he says
"In my opinion they should have taken the time to at least touch you a little. That was two breakthroughs for you. First you said Mia and second you hugged her to you." he said
"Yes it was. You know my psychiatrist at the time said they should try to touch me now that I can tolerate touch with Mia. But they never did." he said sounding sad
"They told him they didn't want to disrupt me. Whatever that meant but it was ok." he said
"I remember you and Ana lived next door to us when we were small. I remember she was so pretty and had the prettiest aqua blue eyes or that's the color I thought of back then. Well they are still Aqua blue..he smiles.. anyway I know that Grace helped take care of Ana when you were working. I remember once she was so clumsy that she fell right on me and I was holding my breath afraid to breathe or move. But you know it didn't hurt or burn like when someone else would accidently touch me. I knew right then she was my friend and wouldn't hurt me. I never talked to her I guess she thought I was crazy or something." he says laughing
"Not long after you moved is when I started talking like I said earlier with baby Mia. Then a few years later the bitch and her husband moved in next door. Grace was so happy to have new neighbors that she was so excited that she had to have our cook make cookies so she could take them over to the Lincoln's." he said
"I wish that day never came. I didn't like her because she was always touchy feely. I told Grace but she said Mrs. Lincoln wouldn't do that. She believed her over her own son. I never understood that and I was probably eight or close to nine years old." he says
"Christian your well Grace should have believed you not the other way around. You always sit down and talk to your kids. It's strange she didn't want to accept what you told her." Ray says
"I walked over to Mrs. Lincoln one day when she was at our house and asked her why she lied to Grace. You know what she said? She said because Grace would believe her over her son because I was always lying and getting into trouble. I was only about nine years old and I wasn't getting into any trouble. I don't know where she got that at. Elliot and I would play fight unless it got too rough or he made me very mad but nothing like later in my teens. I ask her why she would touch me when I ask her not to. She said because I can. Grace walked in and heard the last of it. She believed me then but she should have taken my word before. Mrs. Lincoln just laughed and said Grace I didn't mean any harm.
From then on she would try to touch my arm or hand and did the same with Elliot a few times. I remember she tried to touch Elliot's face once and he slapped her hand away and told not to touch him ever again"..he is laughing now
"Wow!" Ray said
"Later as I was in my teens I got bigger. I didn't really look like a thirteen or fourteen year old. I could pass for older but everyone knew I was only thirteen. That's the time when Mrs. Lincoln would try to get close to me. I mean really close and I would move away from her. Damn she was old enough to be my mother. I just wanted to be left alone. I told Grace but I know to this day she never told Carrrick.
I started getting into fights, some were bad, some were just a hit to the face. I got expelled from a few schools but then I got into the one prep school where Ana was going. I didn't know she was going to school there and I didn't know she would be a junior. Well in my defense I wouldn't really talk to her when y'all moved back.
"Oh Christian Annie liked you, it's just she couldn't get you to talk. You surprised her when we came back right before y'all started high school and you were talking but you wouldn't say much to her." he says
"Over the years my talking got better. I just think when you both moved back I was a little scared of her. No really I was. She started talking to me running her mouth a mile a minute and I wasn't sure when I was supposed to say something." he says laughing
"I was doing good in school you know until we got in the tenth grade and girls were all over me and the boys wanted to fight and hell I fought. That was one way I had contact was to fight. I know it wasn't right but you know it burned off energy. My grades weren't that bad but I did want Ana to tutor me. I was glad you agreed to it. I hated when you said I couldn't see her until I straightened myself up with the fighting and drinking. It killed me to be away from her. I did stop drinking but yeah the fighting was still there. I saw a guy one day put his hands on Ana and she told him to leave her alone but he wouldn't. So yeah I took it upon myself to fix the problem. I knew there was a better way but at the time I was seeing red." he said
Ray just smiled
"You know Annie liked you? I hated breaking y'alls friendship up but I thought if I did you would realize that I was not only doing for Annie but for you too."he says
"Yes Ray I saw that and I cut back on the fighting but when push came to shove I fought or got beaten up by more than one guy. They thought that I was better than them. I don't see how. We were all in the private school together and our families had money. I know they thought I was too good to hang out with them but they knew about my touch issues but they didn't know why." he says
"Grace and Carrick told me if I didn' straighten up' they were going to send me away to Military school. You know now I wished they had done it. Thinking back hindsight is twenty twenty."he says
"Yes my boy it sure is." Ray said
"There for a while I got my grades back up with Ana's help and my drinking stopped and the fighting wasn't so bad. Until one day a few of the guys pushed me and I fell and they jumped on me and I fought yes I fought to get away from them. I thought I was having a heart attack. It hurt so bad." he said he was in tears
"The principal called Grace and Carrick to the school to take me home for the rest of the week. But the bad part was I didn't start it the other boys did. but no one would listen to me. I still to this day don't know why my so-called parents just told me to sit in the car and shut up. When we got home Carrick yelled at me a lot and sent me to my room. Grace didn't say anything." he says
"Sorry, sorry parents who won't listen to their child. So damn true they didn't need you they sure as hell didn't deserve you and where was the love?" Ray asked
"It wasn't but a few days later I saw and heard Grace and Mrs. Lincoln talking in Carrick's study but couldn't understand much of what they were saying except he needs to straighten up and get better if he wants to go to college. That was what Grace said." he says
"So you didn't hear what Mrs. Lincoln was saying?" Ray asked
"Not much except I think she said he needs to work off that anger and that she could help me and said you know Grace I can do it. And that's about all I heard from her. I didn't understand what she was saying. Grace said she was fed up and at her wits end." he says
"I walked off at that point. Wish I had stayed around longer." he says
"You know we wish things but this is not something that you did. It was pushed on you by your so-called mother and fucking pedophile. Have you ever thought that she has done this before you or after you?" Rays asked him
Christian just looks lost as he looks at Ray. Thinking back that she already had the dungeon and the stuff in place to use on him. Oh hell no
"Ray I am so fucking stupid I never realized that she might have done this before me. She said I was special and Grace said I needed help to curb my anger. She said I was the only one she has ever done this for and she wanted to make sure she helped me the right way.
Help me the right way yeah by beating the hell out of me and then fucking me in all ways you would not believe or comprehend. She knew I was a virgin, how I don't know but she did. She told me to think about it and there was more where that came from but I couldn't tell anyone. Because they wouldn't believe me. She said Grace gave her her permission to straighten my ass out." he says and throws up right there on the balcony
"Son, are you alright? Let's stop this for now. You have so much running around in your brain that you are ready to collapse from all the overhaul you have up there." Ray tells him, handing him another bottle of water.
Christian rinses his mouth out and says he is alright now. It was just so much to take in at one time.
"Ray one question and then we will go in okay?" Christian says
"Of course son what is it?" Ray asked him
"Why didn't I realize that her setup wasn't new and she lied to me about me being her first? Well that was two questions." he said
Ray is rubbing his forehead and trying to figure out how best to answer him
"Well son you were only fifteen years old and from what your well Grace told you she knew that Elena was going to help you. For some reason I am not sure but whatever she told you you believed her because Grace said it was alright. And you know mothers don't lie or they are not supposed to right?" He says he looks over at Christian and he is rolling on the floor laughing his ass off and that starts Ray to laugh. They are laughing so loud that Ana and Elliot hear them and walk out on the balcony and see what is so funny.
Christian just looks at them and says in the best damn deadpan voice ever…
"Mothers don't' lie ever they always tell the truth." he says still laughing
"Are you two alright alright?" Elliot asked them
"Oh bro we are better than alright. I have learned quite a few truths these last few weeks and a whole lot of knowledge this week and tonight. Thank you for everything Ray "he says and walks over to Ray and pulls him into a big hug….not only Ray but Ana and Elliot have tears in their eyes
"Let's go inside and dinner is ready." Ana says
"Oh mercy what have you made this evening? It smells so damn good."Ray asked
"Just my shrimp scampi with Old Bay Seasoning added a little garlic and butter, kosher salt to taste, a little red pepper flakes and topped it off with Slap Ya Mama Seasoning and lemon juice. Made rice and chicken and added smoked sausage with Andouille so good. Come on, let's eat. We have Steamed broccoli and air fry baked potatoes with a special side salad and my homemade vinaigrette dressing." she tells them
She walks over to Christian and tells him she her homemade double fudge chocolate cake for him
"Come on slow pokes I am starving and Ms. Boss Lady said I had to wait on you two. So mosey on in here." Elliot says laughing
"Let's go son before Elliot has a conniption fit." Ray says laughing
As they all enter the dining room everyone is waiting on them.
"Alright let's munch down everyone is here and my tummy is rumbling." Elliot tells them
They all laugh at Elliot and dig in to the food
"I have an announcement to make. Would everyone please stay seated for a few more minutes." Christian says
They all stay seated and wait for Christian to talk
"Well as you all know Ana and Ray and her team of top notch agents have found my money and it will be returned to me very soon. I am making this announcement letting each of you know I am selling Escala and moving into my home on the sound. I am sick and tired of this place. It only holds bad memories for me and some of you as well. So as soon as I can make arrangements we will be moving. Jason, Luke and a few of Ana's guy have made sure it is secure and safe to move into." he tells them
Christian looks over at Ana and smiles then looks at Mrs. Jones and smiles
"Gail, you have your job back. Please go with Elliot when you have the time and make sure the kitchen is up to par for you. Ana said it was because she designed it to the specifications that are here in the penthouse and added a few things. I am sure you will be pleased with." he tells her
"Thank you Mr. Grey I mean Christian. That is going to take a while getting used to sir." she tells him
"Who is ready for cake and homemade vanilla ice cream?" Ana asked them
"Whoa little lady you made a cake? When did you have the time to do that?" Elliot asked her
"Oh I have my ways Elliot." she says smirking at him
Mrs. Jones brings the cake out and Ana has the ice cream
"First piece is mine." Christian says
"Of course bro you deserve the first piece and here is your ice cream." Elliot tells him and puts the ice cream on the cake
Elliot gets his cake and ice cream and just moans so loud with his eyes closed
He hears everyone laughing at him. He opens one eye and looks at them
"What this is heaven better than sex…well maybe not sex but a close second. Oh shut up and eat your damn cake and ice cream." he smirks at them
"Yes my god that was the best cake and ice cream I have had." Christian says smiling
"Bro I am full, how about you? We are going to get fat if we keep eating Ana's food." he tells him
"Well Mr. Grey you don't have to eat my food you know?Ana tells him
"Oh but yes I do, if not I will starve." Elliot says
Everyone just laughs and walks off into great room
"Leave all that for now Gail. We will get it later. Why don't you go and rest. You have been helping me since sunup." she tells her
"Ana, are you sure? There is a lot to do." she says looking at all the dishes and pots and pans
"Yes ma'am now go. There are quite a few abled body men that can and WILL HELP ME RIGHT Y'ALL?" she asked them
"Oh yes ma'am no problem." they all say
"Alright see you all for breakfast." Gail says and walks off
Christian starts talking to Ana
"Ana I have had a few breakthroughs while talking to Ray earlier. He has helped in some ways to see that it wasn't my fault what the bitches were doing to me and to us." he tells her
"I have told you over and over it wasn't your fault Christian. You are just so damn hard headed and don't want to believe it. This self loathing you have, you need help with it." Ana tells him
"I know Ana and I am trying to work on it but it is tough especially now you know with everything going on." he tells her
"Yes I know but I was just pointing it out to you is all. I know a lot has gone down and there is more. But right now I don't believe you are ready for me to divulge the files I have that have been coming in all morning and afternoon." she tells him
Christian looks at her like he wants to ask but he isn't sure if he wants to know anymore yet. But then again he does need to know. Ray helped him a lot earlier and he wants to know what she has found out. Even if it puts him in a tailspin he needs to know what the bitches were up too
"Let's have some coffee and you show me the files. If I feel like it is to much I will tell you and we will stop for now." he tells her
"If you are sure Boo but I want daddy, Jason and Elliot jere when I do. This is not something you will like and I know you will be fit to be tied. But if you want to know I will show them to you just remember we are all here for you." Ana tells him hugging him tight
"Alright everyone let's get this over with I need to know what they were planning." he says
Ana pulls the files out of her briefcase and takes a deep breath before handing just one page of the file to him
Everyone looks at her then christian and wonders what she gave him. She hasn't told anyone yet. She felt like Christian should know first and if he wanted to he could share it. Not even Ray knows
Ana looks at Christian as he reads the first page she gave him and waits patiently for him to say something but he doesn't yet
She hands him the second page and he reads it and the he flies off the deep end.. he saw where they were hypnotizing him
"Oh my God how…why…how…..oh hell this is so wrong. How could they…. oh God I am having a heart attack this is so damn wrong….. How could she do this … how could she do this to me…how…why …how he keeps repeating… and his eyes starts to close
"Christian come on breath you have to breath Boo. Come on bro, come on breath we are all here. Christian son snap out of it of we are calling 911…Taylor call them now he isn't responding to us." Ray says
"I tried to tell him it was too much too soon but the stubborn man just won't listen to reason." Ana says crying as she leans over Christian trying to get him to come too.
"He will be alright. Annie Jason has taken his blood pressure and it is a little high but not dangerous. He just finally realized it was too much to handle. He will be alright. He just had a panic attack I bet it all. Let's wait for the paramedics to tell us what is wrong with him." Ray tells her
{{{{{{{These are the files that the detectives found on Grace's laptop and computer when they went to arrest her….and found she was working with none other than the bitch troll Elena Lincoln}}}}}}
Detective's Roland Abernathy and Maxine Reynolds with the hospital security take Mrs. Grey's property and walks out of her office and goes to an empty conference room and opens up her laptop and computer to see what evidence is on it. They can not believe what they are seeing. How could a doctor no less a world known Pediatrician do this to her child and so many others
"Roland, come look at this. This was in a file marked Christian Grey and Hypnosis." Maxine tells him as she is shaking her head not understanding how someone of her caliber could agree to do that to her son and help a pedophile.
There are lists of names for hypnosis doctors that they are looking at. None of them are from Seattle. They have a few with red ink drawn around the names. They are assuming they were the ones Grace contacted but for what purpose? Were they going to have Christian hypnotized and why?
Christian only got to read two pages and after the one about him being hypnotized he had a panic attack. He will be alright. It just with everything it has finally hit him really hard. We are not going to lose Christian anytime soon. He is going to fight these bitches with Ana, Ray and Elliot by his side
That's it for now, the next chapter coming up very soon. I hope you all liked it. It was sad and hard to write. I had to stop a few times because my tears were flowing and I had to walk away from this chapter for a little while. Thank you all for staying with me.
Next chapter will continue with Christian and he will learn more of what they were planning to do and what they have been doing
It's time for the long awaited talk between Christian and Ana don't ya think
Ana is going to arrest the bitch and her sidekick Kathy Beckwith but first there is going to be a chat off the record but Elena doesn't know she is being recorded…this part of the conversation is for her and Christian not for the law…Oh my