Hi Readers: I want to apologize for how late I am starting to write today, but I ended up doing some other things first; but now, I'm ready to write…and it's going to be something a bit different. And that's due to the fact that I am going to set this chapter to a song. And that song is Hands to Myself by Selena Gomez. The italics will be used to note the lyrics, which will try and lead the chapter.

Chapter Three Hundred and Forty-Six
Can't Keep My Hands to Myself

"Can't keep my hands to myself."

That was exactly the sentiment that Jay Halstead felt right now, as that most certainly was the last thing that he was going to be able to do today; keep his hands away from the gorgeous lingerie that his wife was wearing for him, that she was wearing with the hopes of getting exactly what he was in the midst of giving her at the moment. And just what might that be? Well, that would be his attention; of course. I mean, what other reason could Alex have to wear this type of lingerie? Lingerie that fit her body like a glove and made him want to just hold her right against his chest; and not let her go, for the rest of the day. And Alex was more than okay with that, due to the fact that Alex loved the feeling of Jay's hands on her body; and that was why she wanted this more than ever, even though she knew that her husband was also trying to do something. And that was to try and fight the urge, the urge to touch her body right now.

"No matter how hard I'm trying to. I want you all to myself."

He just wants to run his hand all over her body, and have her all to himself; but unfortunately, that can't happen due to the fact that they have two beautiful children who are going to need them eventually. But right now, that most certainly is not the case. The children don't need them at the moment, and that means that Jay and Alex are in the clear when it comes to the two of them being allowed to spend this quality time with each other. Quality time where they can isolate and escape the rest of the world; especially Hank, as that was something that they both wanted to do. They wanted to stay as far away from Hank as they can, and they don't even want to talk about it right now. They just want to hold each other, and Alex wants to have Jay run his hand all over her body; and right now, that most certainly is exactly what she wants. She wants to feel him just hold her and "massage" her body while also…

"Giving her a taste of what it's like to be next to him."

And that most certainly is exactly what Jay is in the midst of doing, as is Alex as she soon found herself running her hand down his toned chest; after which, she wrapped her arms around his waist as they cuddled up to each other. And that was exactly what Jay wanted right now, due to the fact that he loves having Alex so close to him; especially if it means that he gets a chance to run his hands all over her body. And that's exactly what Jay's in the midst of doing. Running his hands all over her lingerie-clad body as they laid down in bed with each other, while just staying quiet; as that was more than okay with Jay, if they just lay here in silence as they cuddle up to each other. And that's due to the fact that there's just something about the two of them being all cuddled up to each other that makes him happy, which most certainly is how he's feeling at the move. This is all he wants right now, and Alex knows that.

"Let me guess, you're okay with being quiet right now; because you only want me to be close to you?"

Jay laughed as he heard Alex ask him that question, as that most certainly is exactly what he wants at the moment; he wants his wife close to him, and just cuddling up to him. "I most certainly do want this, due to the fact that I am very comfortable right now." Alex agreed with Jay as he said that, before moving even close to him; after which, she wrapped her arms around his neck and smiled as they held each other close. Meanwhile, Jay wrapped his arms around her back and smiled as he proceeded to lean in and kissed the woman he loves more than anything in the entire world. "I am so glad that we're alone right now, as this is all we need at the moment." Alex agreed with Jay as he said that. "And even better, it's just us and the kids." Jay smiled as he heard Alex say that, as that really is all he wants. He wants it to be the two of them, and their beautiful children; but at the same time, Jay knew he had to tell her.

"Uhm…I told Hank that we can't have kids anymore."

Alex agreed with Jay as he told her that he told Hank that they can't have kids anymore, well aware that was the case; and that was okay, due to the fact that he needs to realize the gravity of everything that he's done to them. "Bae, it's okay. I know why you told him." Jay agreed with Alex as she told him that, while also feeling her put her hand on the side of her face; after which, he leaned in and kissed the woman he loves softly. "I'm glad that we stayed six feet away from him anyways." Alex agreed with her husband, as that was something that they had to do. "Jay, we had to do it; remember, he's a police officer and may have been exposed by either the other members of the team….or even on site." Jay agreed with Alex as she said that, before sighing as he put his hand on her side and stroked it. "I'm just sorry that we have to deal with this right now." Alex agreed with Jay, well aware that was the case.

"I know you are Jay; I know that you're sorry that this is our life now."

Jay agreed with his wife as she said that, but that wasn't the entire truth; and that's due to the fact that he loves their life, the life that they have with each other. And, of course, the life that they have with their beautiful children. "Alex, what we have to deal with…what we've had to deal with recently, it's a lot to deal with. But as long as we deal with it together, then I am more than okay with it; and that's due to the fact that I love you, and I am never going to give up on us." Moving her hand on top of Jay's arm, Alex smiled as she stroked it with her thumb; after which, she cuddled up to him some more due to the fact that she wants to be right against his chest. Meanwhile, Jay wrapped his arm around her back and smiled as he watched Alex get really close to him; after which, he turned his head and looked down at his gorgeous wife. "Well, I have a feeling why you just got close to me." Alex smiled, and agreed

After which, she put her hand on his face and smirked as she stared into his eyes. "Oh, do you now?" Jay agreed as he moved his hand up her back; after which, he moved his hand to the back of her head and bent down so that he could kiss her softly. And boy was that exactly what the wife wanted at the moment. She wanted to feel her husband take things nice and slow with her husband, due to the fact that he's such a great kisser. "God, I love the feeling of your soft lips on mine." Jay snickered as he heard Alex say that, well aware that was the case; after all, he always knows that Alex loves it when he kisses her. "I think we both know why that's the case." Alex as a bit confused as she heard Jay say that. "Why would that be?" Jay smirked as he looked into Alex's eyes, while moving his hand to her back; running his fingers up and down her back, Jay then proceeded to answer her question. A question he loves to answer.

"Because I'm the man you love, and the love of your life."

Alex agreed with Jay, as he most certainly is the man she loves; and he's also the love of her life, that's something that will never be in question. "Oh, that's something that will never be in question; the fact that you're the man I love, and the love of my life." Jay agreed with Alex as she said that, before bending down so that he could kiss her again. After which, he took things nice and slow with the woman he loves once more; the woman he has a lot of time to enjoy with her right now, as this is what they both want…especially due to the fact that their kids are currently sleeping. "I love that the kids are…" Right when Jay was about to say that they were asleep, he sighed due to the fact that he just started to hear his princess cry. "I swear, why does my princess have to be the one to ruin my time with you." Alex smiled as she heard Jay say that, before leaning in and kissing the man she loves once more. "God, I love you."

Jay agreed with Alex as he bent down, and kissed the woman he loves once more; after which, he proceeded to get up so that he could go get his beautiful daughter. "I swear, that daughter of ours is lucky that I love her." Alex agreed with Jay as she watched him adjust his boxers for her, which most certainly is something that turned her on. "God, now that was a real turn on." Turning his head, Jay smirked and agreed with the woman he loves more than anything in the entire world. "Okay, are you going to grab the bottles? Or do I need to do that as well?" Alex smiled as she got up, before smiling at him. "I got the bottles; you go get the kids." Jay agreed with Alex as she said that, before walking away so that he can go get Olivia for his beautiful wife this morning. At least, he was until he heard his wife. "Actually, Jay?" Turning to look at Alex, Jay smiled. "What is it?" Alex sighed. "Get dressed please?" Jay was confused.

"Why do you want me to get dressed?"

Alex sighed. "I want to spend time with the kids and cuddle up to each other…" Walking over to Alex, Jay agreed with his wife as she stood at the end of their bed; after which, he wrapped his arms around her and held her close. Meanwhile, Alex put her hands on his arms and smiled at the man she loves. "Alex, I promise that I'm going to do just that. But first, let me get Olivia for you and you can feed her in bed as I get dressed." Alex agreed with Jay as he said that, before leaning up to kiss the man she loves; after which, Jay smiled as he wrapped his arms around her and kissed her forehead softly. Jay then proceeded to walk away so that he could get his daughter for Alex, who went to grab some clothes for her handsome husband; after all, they're both going to relax with each other at the moment. They're going to relax, and they're going to take it easy as a family today. And that's going to be a nice time for them.

Tugging his shirt down on top of his toned body, Jay smiled as he looked at Alex while she held their beautiful baby girl in her arms; and that can only mean one thing, he's going to be feeding his son instead of his baby girl. "Looks like I'm feeding Michael, rather than my little girl." Turning her head, Alex looked at her husband while snickering. "Gee, so you're the only one that gets to feed Olivia." Jay shook his head as Alex asked him that, before making his way over to his dresser; grabbing his deodorant, Jay smiled as he proceeded to put some on. After which, he looked at the woman he loves once more. "How are you feeling, just curious?" Turning her head, Alex was a bit confused. "What are you talking about Jay?" Taking a breath, Jay walked over to their bed so that he could get in with her. "I mean, when it comes to everything that's went down today." Alex agreed with her husband, now understanding what he meant.

He's talking about how things are when it comes to what they just dealt with, with her father and everything. "I think we need to talk about that. So, do you mind if we do that. I know we said that we were done but…" Jay shook his head as Alex asked him that, as that most certainly isn't something that she needs to worry about. "Babe, if you need to talk to me about something; then you most certainly can talk to me about it, which is exactly what we're going to do right now." Alex agreed with Jay as he said that, while watching him as he made his way over to their bed where he was going to feed Michael. "Sorry that I'm feeding Olivia." Jay shook his head as Alex apologized for being the one feeding Olivia, as he knew that she needed that right now; she needs to feed their baby girl, who always makes the both of them smile more than anything in the entire world. "I know she makes you smile." Alex agreed.

Turning her head, Alex looked down at her daughter as she fed her with a bottle. "I swear, we really did get lucky when it came to the kids we have." Jay agreed with Alex, as that most certainly is the truth. They got lucky, and they just have the best children in the entire world. "Even better, our children have the best mom in the entire world." Finally picking Michael up in his arms, Jay smiled as he cuddled up to the lil' guy he loves. After which, he kissed his forehead and then proceeded to get in bed with the rest of his family; Jay then went ahead and reached over to his side table, while grabbing the bottle of milk that he had there on his side table. And let's just say that really made Michael happy, due to the fact that he got a chance to drink some milk with the help of his father. "I have to say that I love the sight of you holding our son, as you feed him." Jay snickered, and agreed with the woman he loves more than anything.

After which, he turned his head and looked at Alex. "Okay, be honest with me. Who do you like watching me feed more? Michael or Olivia?" Alex bit her lip as Jay asked her that, as that was a question that was hard to answer as there was two separate reasons why she likes it when he feeds both of their children. "OK. That's a hard question to answer because there's things I love about you feeding each of the kids. When you feed Olivia, especially when you're shirtless; I can just see that big smile, and you get really protective. You wrap you arm around her and make her feel safe. But when you feed Michael, you guys are just like two peas in a pod; and it's like you guys are looking in a mirror, as you guys are really starting to look alike." Turning his head as he looked down at his son, Jay smiled as he bent down and kissed his forehead softly. "I think that he's starting to look like me too." Alex smiled as she heard Jay say that.

After which, she turned her head and looked at Olivia; and unfortunately, she can't really see herself in Olivia. "I wish I could say the same when it comes to Olivia." Turning his head, Jay shook his head as that most certainly isn't the truth; Olivia looks more like her mother each and every day, and Alex should know that. "Babe, you have to know that isn't the truth. She looks like you more each and every day, and I just love the sight of you guys holding each other." Alex agreed with Jay, believing him due to the fact that he's the one that looks at the two of them the most. "And I hope you believe me, as I'm the one that looks at you the most." Laughing, Alex turned her head and smiled at the man of her dreams. "That was the exact thing that I was thinking, about how you're the one that looks at us the most." Jay smirked as he heard Alex say that, before leaning over and kissing her softly. "I love you." Alex agreed and smiled.

"I love you too Jay, forever. And I mean it when I say that, because nobody is going to come in between us."

Jay was a bit surprised as he heard Alex say that, as that wasn't something that he needed to hear; he already knew that she was always going to choose him first, and that they aren't going to ever split up. "Hey, I already know that Alex. Alex, I know that we're forever. You've stood up for us, and our marriage each and every time you've been confronted by Hank; and right now, I know that you're more than okay with being alone with me for a while." Alex laughed as she looked at the man of her dreams. "Babe, of course I love the fact that we're alone right now. I love that we have time to concentrate on each other, and just make sure that we're holding each other and feeling okay." Alex smiled as she heard Jay say that, before reaching for his hand and proceeding to grab it; after which, she intertwined their fingers as they both held each other close. "I'm not worthy of you." Jay laughed, before shaking his head.

"Now, that's the biggest lie in the entire world."

Alex smiled as she heard the man she loves say that, before turning her attention back to Olivia as she feeds her this morning. Something that a fellow mom was in the midst of thinking about, as she stood in the baby aisle at the grocery store.