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Chapter 31
authors note : Lucas is fully aware of the lack of closeness between him and Brooke. But bringing that up at least right now isn't something Lucas is focusing on because Brooke is dealing with enough emotional turmoil. As we get an update on Peyton.
"Be happy Luke. I want that with all my heart." Peyton said
He was barely able to watch her walk away. He felt his heart breaking and longing to go after her but he didn't.
He had made his choice. And had to live with it.
Lucas awoke in his office at work. He spent alot more time here then he used too. And if he was honest it didn't really have to do with work.
It was easier to focus on writing and characters in a made up reality. Then put a spotlight on the fact that. His marriage had become what is was now.
He found a freedom and escape in being able to be creative.
Why was Peyton somehow resurfacing in his mind. Alot more now.
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Days Later
"My husband suggested i talk to someone."
"See i'm a Davis. The last thing we ever did in that family is talk to outside people about our problems."
"But given the state of my marriage. I'm showing up because i don't want to lose him. I can't." Brooke proclaimed.
"It sounds like things between the two of you have hit a breaking point." The therapist said.
"It's bad. We're distant and disconnected."
"It started when I almost died during delivering our twins."
"There were complications with our daughter. I waited to tell about the complications. But i made it clear. I wanted her to be saved and he choose me."
"Our daughter could of died. And it took time for me to come to grips to him having no other choice but to do what he did."
"I went through needed lengths to get pregnant. Without letting him know. Right away."
"Currently I want cosmetic surgery to give myself the vision of myself that i envision. My husband is against it."
"But i feel like i need it. I won't feel like myself until my body looks like what i'm used too."
"That's why i haven't had the want or desire to be close to him like we used to be."
"I don't like how i look. How i feel. But i know that's taking a toll on us as a couple and i hate that." Brooke proclaimed.
She wrote down the notes then looked to Brooke.
"Let me ask you Brooke. Why are you so hell bent on keeping Lucas at arms length. Pushing him away?"
"When he's make it very clear what and who he wants." The therapist asked.
"Because he's going to leave me too. I don't deserve his love and devotion and in time he'll that. I'm too much to deal with. And he'll get torn down and go. And never look back."
"If my parents can live without me all these years. What is keeping by my side really? We got married because i needed a favor?"
"We spent playing house. What kind of person gives up the life he had for that.? "
"I've been the footnote. The rebound."
"He's going to end up back with her."
"I know it i can feel it." Brooke proclaimed. Before bursting into tears.
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Julian left me. I wear my wedding ring for the media. To keep this nosey town off my back.
Last i heard he was back in LA. I wanted to love him. I did. I tried.
But Lucas has never left my head or my heart. Peyton thought to herself.
As she watched her daughter sleep beside her.
All blond curls and green eyes.