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Chapter 49
3 years earlier
Divorce is like a death
As much as Lucas and I attempted to keep things out of the public eye. Soon enough they caught on to our marriage being over especially when he moved out.
Once things were final which took a few months. Lucas and I were strongly focusing on our kids. Making sure the routine and their time with us was still a priority even though we lived separately.
Brenda and Brendan weren't as affected given their young ages but Ethan was affected.
He was used to the stability and safety of the life we had built for him.
When that change was clear and hard to afford. He started acting out.
Which Lucas and I caught on too and our love support and reassure didn't exactly take. The way we expected.
And decided together to get Ethan someone to talk too.
And once we got into a routine involving that we saw a change in him for the better.
Ted and Victoria reached out to me. Which is still unsettling to think about.
I had been married had kids yet my divorce they wanted to be in person to celebrate.
The whole encounter made me uncomfortable.
Me no longer having Lucas in my life in such a serious way was a relief to them.
Which I couldn't care less about.
When they expressed interest in wanting to meet their grandchildren I thought maybe they had grown somewhat but I was wrong. Of course.
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Book sales are dropping. We need new fresh.!) My editor announced.
Writing was the last thing on my mind. That's when my love and drive for my career started to change. Even when I had the time and space to write I came up with nothing.
I didn't like being at the office and I hated being home alone.
When I didn't have my kids. I was out all night. Eventually I would make it home and crash in the living room.
I should of really paid better attention to that. When the nightmares started again.
And staying out when I didn't have my kids got old.
I started taking sleeping pills without out I would stay awake.
And that affected my mood.
Looking back on it that's when the spiral really started.
The darkness shame and guilt I carried started a seep through.
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Current time
(I want you sticking around to be you're choice. So you don't feel forced or boxed in.)
(I'll leave it for you to decide. I'll be at the store. My cellphone is on as always.) Brooke said. As she made her way towards the entryway.
(Dance with me daddy!) Brenda 's small voice announced.
As she came in from the living room.
He smiled up at her. And took her hand. As they went into the living room.
(Dance party!) Brendan announced.
And so they danced until they couldn't anymore. Then had a picnic in the living room.