My God...
Seeing the nurses, and the emergency doctors trying to revive Goren, was the most awful thing for her.
Was she going to have to go through the same nightmare again as she had with Joe.
No...
It couldn't be.
Eames couldn't bear a second loss.
The monitor connected to Goren made a continuous shrill noise.
- Quick, get me the defibrillator.
At the sound of the monitor, and the doctor's voice shouting this command, Eames' heart stopped beating and her blood ran cold.
Had she heard correctly...
The defibrillator
It could only mean one thing.
Goren's heart had stopped.
That was the only time a defibrillator was used.
Oh, dear.
No.
It couldn't be possible.
Eames put his hands to his ears, not wanting to hear the sound of the monitor, and shook his head.
No.
It couldn't be.
Goren couldn't do this to him.
Eames felt a violent panic overcome her, tears welled up in her eyes, and she had to take it upon herself not to scream, not to burst into tears.
Small, hurried footsteps approached her.
- Alex... What the...
Barek stopped dead in her tracks when she saw the scene unfolding before her eyes.
One of the doctors held a defibrillator in his hands, and placed it on Goren's chest, trying to reactivate Goren's heart.
My God...
Could it be...
No.
She had to be in the middle of a nightmare, and she was about to wake up.
Goren couldn't die.
With his fiery temperament, he could only fight his way back to life.
- There's a slight pulse.
At the cry of the doctor holding the defibrillator in his hands, Eames felt her heart beat again, and her legs gave way beneath her.
Barek barely caught her, just before she fell to the ground.
- He's a fighter... Barek turned his attention to the doctors and nurses. He would never have left you like that.
Was it true.
Goren wouldn't have left him like that.
Like Joe had.
But Barek was right about one thing, Goren was a fighter.
And he wouldn't let death take him without a fight.
Eames felt an immense sense of relief, and tears of joy rolled down her cheeks.
- If you only knew how scared I was.
Yes, Barek could.
Eames had lost her husband in hospital.
The doctors and nurses hadn't been able to save him.
But today was different.
They had succeeded in reactivating Goren's heart.
- Barek... Eames...
At Logan's worried voice, they turned to him. What happened...
- I can leave you... and go talk to Logan...
Eames nodded, letting Barek move away from her and go to Logan, to talk to him.
- Goren's heart stopped beating for a few minutes... But they managed to restart it.
Pardon.
Goren's heart had stopped...
So Goren was dead for a few minutes.
No.
It couldn't be.
But the gravity of Barek's voice, the look on Eames' face that he'd seen crying in Barek's arms, Logan told him it was true.
My God...
- Ma'am... I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry.
My God...
Eames felt a violent anguish come over her again.
What else could go wrong?
- We did everything we could to revive him... But...
But what...
Why was the doctor taking such good care of her.
Eames couldn't take it anymore.
She was going to have a nervous breakdown.
She needed to know what Goren's condition was.
She couldn't stand not knowing.
- He's still between life and death.
What.
Between life and death...
No.
It couldn't be.
They'd revived his heart.
Then how could he be between life and death.
But then she remembered what the doctor had said the moment Goren's heart had been revived.
He had said a slight pulse.
Did that mean she'd overreacted.
It certainly sounded like it.
- Only time would tell... if he survived the night.
If Goren survived the night.
My God...
No.
Eames was in the middle of a nightmare.
She couldn't take it anymore.
And she was going to go crazy if this continued.
With a heavy heart, she turned away from the doctor.
Logan and Barek looked at each other, understanding that the doctor had just told Eames something serious about Goren.
- Go talk to Eames... Barek put his hand on Logan's arm, who nodded. I wouldn't know what to say.
Barek let his arm drop, leaving Logan to walk towards Eames, looking worried.
Barek wanted so much to support Eames at this moment, but she was afraid of using the wrong words, and risking hurting Eames even more.
And she didn't want that.
So she preferred Logan to talk to Eames.
Maybe he'd find the right words.
Or what to say.
- Eames...
At Logan's voice, Eames snapped out of her dark thoughts, to see Logan approaching her, his face worried.
He stopped in front of her and put his hand to the back of her neck, searching for the right words.
But it wasn't easy.
How, in such a situation, could one help the person.
Without hurting her even more.
- Goren is between life and death. Tears welled up in Eames' eyes. The doctor told me... His voice broke. That he didn't know if he'd make it through the night.
Pardon.
That Goren wouldn't make it through the night.
Then it was so serious.
They'd got his heart going again.
So what...
But remembering the accident, and the blood Goren had lost.
That could be one of the main causes.
My God...
What could he say...
In addition, if the firemen hadn't taken so long to arrive on the scene, maybe Goren wouldn't be in such a state.
And Goren had done everything he could to put on a brave face for Eames as he lay dying.
This suffering he had tried to hide from Eames, smiling and laughing, wanting to spare him.
But right now, nothing could spare Eames.
Not even what he would say.
In addition, nothing could be worse than the diagnosis the doctor had just given Eames.
But first, Logan had to get Eames away from Goren, out of the way so she could try and get some rest, or at least sit down and breathe.
- Eames... Follow me... Logan gently laid his hand on her wrist, forcing her to follow gently. Come and sit down.
Sit...
While Goren was between life and death.
No.
Eames couldn't do that.
She couldn't leave him.
- No... I want to stay with Bobby.
Stay close to Bobby.
At her words, Logan's heart broke.
He could feel all of Eames' distress.
But for her sake, she needed to rest a little.
Or sit down.
And get her away from Goren.
Otherwise, Logan was afraid of the state he'd find Eames in.
Logan turned his face to Barek, nodding for him to join them.
Barek didn't waste a second, and approached them.
Seeing Barek closing in on them, Eames understood what Logan wanted to do.
He wanted to ask Barek to intervene, and get him away from Goren.
- I refuse to leave Bobby.
At Eames's shout, and arriving at his side, Barek put his hand on Eames's shoulder, and plunged his big brown eyes into Eames's hazel gaze.
- We just want you to sit a bit apart... Not away from Goren.
Was that lie true.
Barek and Logan really didn't want to take her away from Goren.
She looked at them suspiciously.
But from the sincerity in Barek's eyes, Eames knew she was telling him the truth, and not looking for an excuse to keep her away from Goren.
- Very well... I don't mind sitting down...
At her words, Barek and Logan felt a sense of relief.
They couldn't have seen themselves fighting in the hospital, at the risk of everyone hearing them.
- But not for long... Barek put his hand on Eames' arm, holding her close. I can't leave him.
Barek nodded, and gently moved Eames to a seat, where she made him sit down.
- Thank you, Carolyn.
Thanked her...
And for what.
What Barek was doing was perfectly normal.
She couldn't leave Eames in this state.
Especially knowing the bond she had with her partner.
If she didn't act.
Eames would eventually collapse from exhaustion.
- Carolyn... Goren will survive the night... Hein...
Good God...
Survive the night.
So Goren's condition was just as bad.
Barek had thought that reactivating his heart would make everything better.
But it didn't.
Barek felt powerless in front of Eames.
What could she say to Eames without hurting her even more.
Barek didn't know what to do.
But there was one thing she could do.
She could support him physically, with her presence.
- He's between life and death.
Between life and death...
My God.
What to say to Eames.
- If we hadn't had that violent argument.
At her words, Barek put his hands on Eames' arms, forcing her to turn towards him.
- It's not your fault... And I'm sure Goren has already forgotten everything.
Forget everything...
Eames thought back to the moment Goren had asked her his name.
My God...
Eames raised her hands to her head, shaking it, tears welling up in her eyes.
If they hadn't had that argument.
All this wouldn't have happened.
And Goren wouldn't be between life and death.
Why had she proposed this evening, with their respective boyfriends.
If she hadn't proposed this evening, nothing would have happened, and Goren wouldn't be in this state.
So when Barek told her it wasn't her fault...
Yes, it was.
- What am I going to do without him.
Gently, Barek moved Eames's hands away from her face, where tears were cascading down her cheeks.
She intertwined her fingers with his, squeezing them gently.
- Goren's going to be fine. He's a fighter.
Goren's gonna make it.
A fighter.
If only Barek's words were true.
But right now, Eames doubted everything.
The only thing she wanted...
was to hear all of Goren's boring theories, the ones that had so bored her.
Yes...
It was the only thing she wanted.
Eames wanted Goren boring and alive.