- Bobby... Please.
Goren awoke with a start, his body breaking out in a cold sweat.
What was this recurring dream again.
Oh no, it wasn't.
It wasn't going to happen again.
The little blonde woman whose face he couldn't see, would she keep popping up in his dreams, preventing him from sleeping and making him wake up totally lost.
But why had she appeared again.
What could it possibly mean.
And above all, why.
Something was eluding him.
Goren was trying to figure out if her dreams meant something, but he didn't know.
What's more, the little blonde woman had spoken other words.
New words.
And strangely enough...
Goren was making a connection.
Every time the little blonde woman appeared in his dreams, something sexual had happened with Alexa.
And every time, it was the same scenario.
She'd appear in his dreams and say things he couldn't understand.
It couldn't have been a coincidence.
Thinking back to what had happened the day before with Alexa, shame took its place again.
And to think he'd almost possessed her.
No longer in control.
Behaving like a real savage.
He hadn't even done foreplay, he'd spread her thighs, ripped her panties, and ...
Good God...
It was a nightmare.
He was so ashamed of his behavior, but against his will, what he had at his crotch was reacting.
Name of God...
But it was that he had an erection, as he recalled his shameful behavior of the day before.
This wasn't right.
And he absolutely had to behave differently.
And above all, he had to stop this.
This obsession with Alexa, wanting her so badly that she would do anything and everything.
Openly disrespecting her.
He couldn't behave like that with her.
It was wrong.
And she didn't deserve it.
Alexa was purity itself, gentleness.
Whereas he was just a barbarian.
And behaving the way he had was no excuse.
Even if he wanted to possess her to death.
It wasn't right.
In addition, Goren had the strange impression that the little blonde woman was appearing to call him to order, and prevent him from taking the final step with Alexa.
By the way...
Thinking of the little blonde woman...
What had been her exact words to him.
He concentrated, trying to remember.
But yes.
He tapped his forehead, remembering word for word what she'd said.
- Bobby... Don't do the irreparable.
Do the irreparable...
But what had she meant…
What could it mean?
And what was he to understand by committing the irreparable.
Goren understood nothing of the ramblings of the little blonde woman in his dreams.
At least, he never understood the meaning.
And he would have liked to understand.
- Or it would be too late.
She'd said that too.
What would be too late...
And for what reason.
Name of God...
Goren understood absolutely nothing.
And he needed Alexa, to help him clarify the situation.
To help him understand.
Yes, he was sure she could help him.
And maybe she'd see what he didn't understand.
He put his hand to his side, but his fingers met only the sheet.
The place was cold.
And above all, empty.
Alexa wasn't there.
Goren's heart sank at her absence.
Since the previous night's incident, Alexa hadn't come to join him in bed, or even slept with him.
He hadn't been able to hold her in his arms, or kiss her.
And he missed that.
Or at least, he missed Alexa.
During the day, it wasn't as bad.
But even so, it wasn't necessarily better, since she avoided him as much as possible.
She avoided being in the same room as him, and only spoke a word or two to him.
This made him feel very uneasy, and that there was a rift between them.
Had he irrigated a wall between Alexa and himself...
Something irretrievable.
All because he'd stopped everything.
Was that really the reason.
Or was it something else...
Something deeper.
- Goren raised his hand to his forehead. I don't understand a thing.
He wished he had a manual to help him sort out the situation between Alexa and himself.
And for everything to go back to the way it was.
That at night, she'd come and join him in bed again.
That she would come and snuggle up to him.
He missed her terribly at night.
To no longer have her warm little body against his, in his arms, was torture.
But having her hardly speak to him anymore was just as painful.
He felt desperately alone.
So alone.
And strangely enough, it felt familiar.
As if he'd always been alone all his life.
Without anyone to be by his side.
Goren so wished he could talk to Alexa, let her talk to him about anything and everything, just to hear her voice, and above all, he'd love to hug her again, and steal kisses.
He was obsessed.
But he couldn't.
As long as the situation between Alexa and himself didn't improve, he couldn't try anything.
He couldn't risk offending her even more, and making her turn away from him for good.
But it was hard to go from being pampered to being ignored and virtually invisible in front of the person you cared about most.
Goren needed his little angel, his presence close to him, to hear the timbre of his voice.
Day or night.
Alexa meant so much to him.
She was everything.
If only Goren could find a solution, so that everything could go back to the way it was.
But he couldn't.
The more he thought about it, the more he couldn't think straight.
The situation between Alexa and himself was so upsetting.
And he felt totally lost.