Our Love Story
(In this story Bella didn't move to Forks because of Renee. She moved to spend time with Charlie after getting diagnosed with cancer and given 2-3 years to live.)
(Bella's POV)
"Mom I'll be fine. Charlie needs to spend time with me too. I promise I'll come back to visit and planes do work both ways you can come visit us too" I say to a fretting Renee as we stand outside the security checkpoint.
"I know baby but it's hard to let you go now and not being with you throughout this. And what if you find love and i'm not there to meet the man that gives you happiness these next couple years" she says as tears well up in her eyes.
"There won't be a man mom. I'm not looking for love now with this diagnosis. Why should I put someone else in that position to love me and then I die in a few years anyway. Putting you, dad and Phil through this is enough for me. I can't watch another person mourn me while I'm still alive" I say and look over her shoulder at the clock.
We purposely got here early because I knew Renee would not want to let go of me but this needed to be done. I need to live with Charlie for a bit before my time came to an end. I'd never given much thought to how I would die because what 17 year old thinks of that. But dying in place of someone I love, seems like a good way to go. Forks was my birth place so it only seemed right to die there.
"Mom I need to go soon" I say gently and the tears escaped and roll down her cheeks.
"You don't know baby maybe you can find the best Gynecologic Oncologist in Washington. This isn't going to be good bye. Not yet.. I promise you that." Renee says.
"I'll look mom but we shall see. We can't afford the best though and I want to live for a bit before attempting any treatment. And this isn't goodbye I promise. We'll visit each other. " I says and throw myself into her arms.
It was rough talking about this. This isn't right. A 17 year old female shouldn't have gynecological cancer but I do which makes it even harder to fight because the options get smaller and smaller with my age patients because most doctors don't want to make a 17 year old infertile that young because taking the hormones away before the age of 25 when a woman's brain fully matures and finished developing has bad effects on the person's mental capacity and how they would act for the rest of their lives. If I had to live like a 17 year old girl for the rest of my life it wouldn't bother me that bad but there would be certain aspects that I wouldn't like. I never wanted to have this conversation with Renee and I knew she didn't want to have this conversation either.
"Renee honey, we should really let Bells go for now. Or she'll miss her plane. We'll go visit I promise" Phil says stepping in to help me get a now sobbing Renee off me.
I pull back and wipe the few tears away. Renee is now sobbing into Phil's shoulder as the holds her to him. I grab my carry on and give a small smile and wave to Phil before turning and walking towards the security checkpoint. I get in line and turn to glance back and Renee and Phil. Phil moved them to a row of chairs to sit down and Renee looks up and I give a sad smile and another wave before turning back to pay attention to what's going on in front of me. As I walk through the security checkpoint and go to grab my carry on after it goes through the x-ray and I walk through the scanner I take one last glance at Renee and Phil. This time Renee isn't crying and she waves goodbye to me. I wave back with a smile on my face before turning to get to my gate.
Once at the gate I sit down in an empty chair and pull out my anti nausea medication before grabbing my I-pod and headphones and my copy of wuthering heights. I only put one ear bud in so I can hear when my sections starts to board. Around two chapters in my boarding pass letter is called and I quickly shove everything back in my carry on before standing up and making my way over to board the plane. Before boarding I look out the windows and get one last look of Arizona.
"Good bye Arizona. I'm gonna miss your warmth and the sun." I whisper to myself before walking over to the desk and handing the attendant my boarding pass.
Once on the plane I quickly find my seat which thankfully was an aisle seat because with my new medication I was put on I got motion sickness very easily. I put my one ear bud in and wait for us to get ready to leave. I sigh in relief when no one sits next to me so I wouldn't have to worry about someone staring at me if I do get sick. After another 20 minutes the seatbelt sign comes on and we start to slowly make our way away from the gate. The flight attendants come out and start the safety speech. After the speech I put both earbuds in and close my eyes and relax as we get into the air.
I doze off and on throughout the flight thankfully not getting sick at all. When we land I'm anxious to get up and stretch and catch up with Charlie. We slowly unload of the plane and once in the airport, I make my way to the baggage claim. Even though I haven't seen my father in a few years I pick him out very easy in the busy airport. He's standing by himself off to the side away from the crowds. When the sees me the smiles and makes his way to me.
"There's my sweetheart" he says and pulls me into a hug.
"Hi dad" I greet and hug him back.
"Should we go get your bags and then head out to the cruiser?" he suggests and I nod and we make our way over to the baggage claim. Without even saying which bags were mine he's pulling them off the belt.
"Let me guess your mother?" he asks as he pulls out the handles so he can pull them instead of carrying.
"Yep she insisted that I get brand new luggage for the trip" I say and try and take a suitcase but he shakes his head.
"I got it. And the cruiser is parked right outside anyway" he says and we make our way to the door.
"Really dad you parked in no parking zone?" I ask as I open the front passenger door.
"Of course I did that's the perks of being chief of police and I didn't want you to exert yourself too much" he says as the throws my luggage in the trunk before making his way to the drivers side.
"Dad I can still do normal activity I'm not dying yet" i say and Charlie frowns at the mention of dying.
"Please Bella let's not talk about that now. Let's enjoy some time together before we talk about that at least till you see the new doctor in town" he says.
"New doctor?" I ask in shock. Forks has always had the same doctor's. The primary one being who does almost every specialty with living in such a small town.
"Yes a new doctor. Dr. Carlisle Cullen he's a gynecological oncologist. Him and his wife and 5 kids moved to town about a month ago but dr. Cullen didn't start at the hospital till last week. Dr. Gernady talked to me the other day and highly recommended you see Dr. Cullen first before we try doctors in Seattle" He says and I nod.
Having a new doctor in town specializing in what I have would be a whole lot easier than going to Seattle.
"I'll call on Monday to male an appointment and see what is possible" I say and Charlie nods.
"I hope you moving here will be a good thing and we can get a plan of treatment for you" He says and squeezes my shoulder.
"Anything new and exciting besides the new doctor happening in forks since I've been here last?" I ask trying to get the attention of my disease. It works because Charlie starts rattling off everything that has happened in Forks lately and I sit back and relax into the seat listening to him ramble on. After about a half hour of rambling Charlie's attention goes onto forks high.
"I called and you'll start Monday" He says and I nod.
"Thanks dad that's one less thing I need to worry about" I say and he nods.
"Your welcome sweetheart. I want to help you as much as I can" He says and takes my hand in his and rubs his thumb over the top of my hand.
We're pretty silent the rest of the way home just a few odd conversations. When we pull onto our street I see a red truck sitting in our driveway and I look over at Dad in confusion. He gives me a sheepish smile as the parks next to the truck.
"Do we have visitors?" I ask as I got out of the car.
"No Bella I got you this truck so we won't have to carpool as much because I'm sure you don't want me going to your lady appointments and I figured you didn't want me to have to drive you to school" Dad says as he's grabbing my bags from the trunk of the car.
Tears well up in my eyes and I walked over to him and hug him.
"Thank you dad" I say and tears cascade down my cheeks slowly.
"Your welcome baby girl" The says and wraps one arm around me for a few moments.
I pull back and we make our way to the house.
"I had sue come over and help me set up your bedroom. She helped me pick out the comforter so I hope you like it" Charlie says as we make our way up the stairs.
He opened my bedroom door and even with the new bedding I'm transported back to my childhood. All the drawing I did are still hanging on the walls and the old desktop is sitting on the desk. The desk chair is new and elegant looking. The bookshelf still has my old childhood books with a few of the young adult books I left after my last visit here. The purple bedding complements the purple color of the walls. There's a new dresser with a mirror attached where my old little kids dresser was. The night stands are the same with the pictures in the frames since the last time I was here. One picture was a picture of Charlie and I at my kindergarten graduation. The other was a picture Billy took last time I was here when Charlie took me fishing with them.
"So?" Dad asks as the sets my luggage on the bed.
"It's perfect thank you" I say and the smiles.
"Your very welcome sweetheart. I'll let you get settled in and then I figured we can go to the diner for dinner and then go grocery shopping after" Charlie says.
"Sounds good dad" I say and he nods and he leaves the room.
I sit on the bed for a second and look around the room. Well here's to a life back in forks. Hopefully it turns out for the better than for the worst.