A/N :

Hi huys I deleted this story earlier due to some personal reasons but ive decided to repost it again.

I hope you guys enjoy.

Chapter 1

What's the worst feeling in the world that one can experience, the impotency that helplessness and vulnerability brought. The burden of shame and guilt one doled or the utter despair that pain and loss lended. If anyone were to ask Caroline Forbes what the worst feeling she had ever endured was, she would have said all of the above but the one foremost was the sheer torment and anguish the heartache yielded. Heartache at watching the man she loved become someone else's.

The man for whom she would give up her entire world , sacrifice relationships and kinships and even forget her own existence for, hold someone else. The rough calloused hands that had once held her with an aching tenderness now caressed someone else's cheek.

Caroline saw Klaus kiss some other girl as she stood a few feet apart her heart in her throat and tears rolling down her cheeks. The soul shattering pain it brought her at witnessing him with some girl other than herself was immense. She didn't know who exactly the girl was, nor did Caroline bother to look at her again because all she saw was Klaus. She saw his handsome face and unconsciously noted every nuance if it.

He leaned his head inside the window of the taxi and mumbled something with a smile, a smile that always stole Caroline's breath.

Caroline then hastily turned around, as the taxi zoomed off and she stood on the sidewalk across the road. She twisted her head back to look at his face one more time and saw he had turned to alight the steps to the building where he lived. Her vision clouded by the tears filling her eyes she saw that he stopped for awhile on the last step up for a few precious seconds before he went inside.

She couldn't blame him for moving on she thought, getting inside her car as a choked cry escaped her lips. She deserved this. She deserved every second of the torture and pain that she was going through ever since she had turned away from him, thinking that she was doing the right thing even when she had been aware that it wasn't. Her life that was once everything that she aspired to achieve was now just a pain filled void.

She rested her head on the steering wheel and wept as she knew that all of this was of her own making. Everything that was happening to her was because she had not only broken Klaus's heart but she had also hurt her friend , the guy whom she had initially set out to marry, Tyler Lockwood.

This was fate's ultimate punishment for her, for hurting the two people she had cared for and loved. And now she would have to live with it as long as the last breath in her broken soul and body remained.

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(1 YEAR AGO)

She was absolutely fetching in an exquisite and ….. ethereal kind of way. Yes ethereal was the word that suited the blonde with curly hair and a stunning smile that walked into the bar.

Klaus Mikaelson had seen many beautiful women, some much more than her but never before he had this strong urge to keep staring and not take his eyes off of a woman.

His drink forgotten in his hand he saw her move over to a booth in the corner. The black skirt she was wearing with a blue top swirled around her knees.

She stopped and a brunette guy with his back towards Klaus got up and kissed her. Feeling a little uneasy at the small gesture of intimacy they shared Klaus turned towards the bartender and ordered another drink.

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"Hey." Caroline said as she walked over and greeted her boyfriend of two years and the DA's son Tyler Lockwood. They were having the celebrations for their two year anniversary and that's why she had dressed for the occasion in a silk blouse of cobalt blue and black skirt with lace at its hem.

She had expected Tyler to take her to some fancy restaurant but when she had gotten a call that he was waiting for her at the "Rusty's Bar", she had been a little surprised.

Tyler got up, "Hi sweetheart. You look amazing." He said giving her a kiss.

"You look dashing yourself." She said sliding into the booth.

"Happy Anniversary." Tyler announced with a smile and took out a small velvet box

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Caroline knew it wasn't a ring because Tyler knew her, her fantasies about the perfect proposal and the fact that she wasn't ready for such a huge commitment. Marriage wasn't in her plans right now but she always loved when he gave her gifts showing her that he loved her.

For her it was never about the monetary value of the gift but more about the gesture behind it, that he cared for her and loved her. With a huge smile she took the box and her eyes lit up when she found a beautiful pair of earrings.

"This is so beautiful Tyler. I love it.", then she threaded her fingers with his and said, "I love you. Happy anniversary."

"I love you too Caroline. So where's my gift?" He asked with a grin.

She giggled. "Are you forgetting that I'm the one who has been reminding you of our anniversary for the last two weeks? How can I forget your gift? But honey I didn't bring it here. I'll give it to you when we get home. I hope it's okay with you?"

Tyler waved his hand in an it's okay gesture, "Of course. But I was thinking maybe I could ask something else of you." His expression a little difficult to read so she cautiously replied, "Oookaay. What?"

"I was thinking maybe we could do something special tonight." Tyler leaned closer and whispered ," In bed." He said with a lustful tone.

She knew she blushed. She was a mature independent woman but every time he suggested something remotely ….kinky she blushed like a virgin and you'd think a woman who owned half of a company would snort at the idea of blushing like one.

It wasn't that Caroline was timid or prudish it was just her stupid body's natural reaction which apparently had something to do with her sympathetic system's response as she had read online.

Controlling herself from biting her lip she asked, "What do you have in mind?"

Last time it had been something to do with lots of melted chocolate which she had thoroughly enjoyed. Every once in awhile they did fun stuff.

"How about a threeway?" Tyler said and for the first time in his life had the pleasure of seeing Caroline's mouth hang open like it was loose at the hinges.

"Are you kidding me?" She said as she felt her volume rising. "Is this about you wanting to screw some other girl?" She spat out snatching her hand away feeling irritated that he would suggest something like that.

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"Caroline. There is no other girl for me. It's just you." Tyler told her as he tried to take her hand back but she didn't let him.

"Then why?" She asked, crossing her arms.

"Why? Why not? Couples do it all the time to spice up their sex lives. I mean our sex life is great. But I just thought it would be fun."

"Fun..Uhh. And let me guess you have already have chosen a girl." Caroline scoffed.

"I told you there is no girl. Plus threeways aren't always with a girl it can be with a guy too. And before you ask me, no this is not about me being gay." Tyler said jokingly, hoping to lighten the mood back up.

"Then what?"

"Didn't you hear what I said? For fun. Anyway forget I said anything. I knew you wouldn't be into it. Let's just go home." Tyler said, sulking like a child not getting his own way.

"No. We are not going until this is resolved. And what does it mean that you knew I wouldn't agree. I'm not some prudish old maid okay." she replied a little defensively , "Just because I was raised in a small town doesn't mean I'm not mature enough to handle such stuff."

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Tyler knew that it was a sore spot for her. She had been born and brought up in a small backward town where such things were still frowned upon. Not only it was the place of her birth but the circumstances of her birth that always left her wanting to prove that she wasn't some socially stunted, lowly woman who had once lived frugally.

He knew maybe he was taking advantage of her insecurities but he sometimes wished that she would be a little more open-minded.

"I can see you are not comfortable with this. I don't want you to do something you're not at ease with. Let's go." Tyler replied.

Caroline saw that he was upset with her. He was so nice and caring and she felt a little guilty at hurting him like that.

"I'm sorry Ty. I questioned you like that. Forgive me?"

"It's okay honey."

"Yeah?"

"Yep."

"Let's do it." She said. She knew she was compensating but she loved him and would do anything to make him happy. Besides she could still control it a little she thought.

"Are you sure?" Tyler asked with excitement in his eyes...

"Yes. But it can be either a girl or a guy right?" She enquired.

"Yes. And since I know you so well I'll say what do you think about the blonde guy at the bar."

"What guy?" Caroline asked as she began to look around.

"The one sitting at the third stool." Tyler said as he pointed the blonde stranger out to her.

"He looks handsome from the side pose. But how did you know? I mean your back is towards him."

"I saw him when I went to order my drink." Tyler said with a shrug.

"Maybe it's a different guy now." Caroline replied.

Tyler tilted his head , "Nope same guy."

"Okay so how do we initiate this?" she asked feeling nervous and edgy as she had never had a threeway before but she tried to appease herself by thinking how bad could it be.

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(THE MORNING AFTER)

A faint ray of light that pierced a crease in the curtain of the window indicated that dawn was fast approaching. She stirred trying to change her side but was anchored by a set of strong arms and legs. Her head resting on his bare shoulder she opened her eyes and looked at his stunning face. He really was dashing in the true sense of the word.

Caroline's brain was still foggy with sleep hence she was unaware of her actions when she leaned forward and kissed his jaw.

Her light kiss woke him up but he was still half asleep, his lashes fluttered half open to gaze into her eyes which were almost the same colour as his. He edged forward and took her lips in a sweet kiss.

When his lips touched hers she made a small sexy sound against his mouth. Klaus wanted to devour all of her all at once. Her responses to his touch fuelled his lust. Who would have thought that the girl he had been thinking about, since he had seen her walk into the bar, would be in his arms but she was now and he would never let her go he thought, not fully conscious of his thoughts and actions.

Both still in a slumberous dazed state kissed each other and at the wee hours snuggled closer in each other's arms, as if belonged with each other slept.

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She woke up the second time but unlike the last time she was fully conscious when she found herself wrapped around the stranger she and Tyler had brought home for their threeway. Not only she was curled against him but he had his limbs around her, as if they fit perfectly against each other. He was a stranger and she felt a sense of security with him that she had never felt with Tyler and that was what made her harshly jerk out of his arms.

She sat up grabbing the sheet and saw Tyler was lying away from them on the other side of the bed. She got out of the bed and quickly put on Tyler's shirt. Then she turned and saw that her getting out of his arms had woken him up.

He looked at Tyler, who was lying at the other far end of the bed, and she realized that he might be thinking the same thing she had been contemplating a while ago.

Suddenly consumed with panic she swallowed and said, " You need to leave."

The stricken look on her face had lasted for a few seconds but he was perceptive enough to notice it. Klaus grabbed his jeans from the floor and leisurely began putting them on. He didn't know why but he didn't like it that she was kicking him to the curb when last night after their party for three she had all but slept wrapped in his arms ….. only in his arms.

Caroline saw how he was taking time to put on his clothes and with every protracted second her panic grew. The emotions she had experienced last night and this morning when she had kissed him, like it was the most natural thing to do, were all of a sudden suffocating her. These unidentified feelings were augmenting her distress with each passing moment and he was just sitting there casually.

"Didn't you hear me? I said leave. And I mean you have to leave right now before Tyler wakes up." she said and with nervy and fidgety movements she picked up his shirt and shoved it at him as he stood up.

"Why? It's not like you cheated on him with me. He was there too last night, love." Klaus went to stand before her. He wanted to tuck her hair behind her ears and comfort her by taking that pained expression away from her magnificent face but stopped himself knowing it wouldn't be welcomed.

Oh but it felt like it. To Caroline it felt like she had just cheated on Tyler. Wasn't it cheating when she felt a unique sense of belonging in arm's other than Tyler's, it was and it was of the most horrid kind.

Spurred on by anger now more than alarm at witnessing Klaus's laid back attitude she picked up his shoes and rudely bit out, "Because you were supposed to leave. We didn't invite you to sleep in … spend the night in our bed. Now get out."

He was dumbfounded when the next instant she physically began pushing him out of the bedroom.

"At least let me.." Klaus tried to say.

"No. You need to leave right now!!" Caroline said as she grasped his arm and led him through the living room and opening the main door pushed him out.

Those were the last words she said before Klaus found himself dressed only in jeans his hands full of his shirt, shoes and belt, outside her house with the door slammed shut in his face.

Before moving away he once touched the door as if unsure of what had just happened and then accepting his fate he turned away.

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She shut the door with a loud thud and leaned her head against it taking a calming breath.

"Caroline. What's going on?" Tyler said as he came out of the bedroom wearing only his jeans, scratching his head and she hastily turned.

"Nothing." she replied with a hesitant smile feeling as if she had just gotten caught doing something she shouldn't have.

"Did you just kick him out?" he asked obviously having gotten up when she was shoving Klaus out.

"Yes. No. I mean he wasn't supposed to stay the night." Caroline stated.

Tyler looked at her as if she had lost her mind. Last night they all had fallen asleep so it wasn't a big deal to him that Klaus had stayed the night. "Honey it's no big deal. Are you okay? Do you regret it? " he asked.

Caroline walked over to where he was standing near their bedroom door. She hugged him and rested her head over his heart wanting to make sure that his was the heartbeat that she wanted to wake up against and not….no she didn't feel anything for Klaus. It was lust colouring her reactions , just lust and nothing else.

"No I don't regret it." she mumbled as his arms encircled around him.

"I love you." Tyler responded.

And she repeated the words but they sounded hollow and meaningless even to her own ears.

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