September the sixteenth I am four years seizure free. (counting only big tonic-clonic seizures. But good enough) and I'm so happy.

Hello everyone.

Just like I've put in the summary, this will be a story for Epilepsy awareness. Even though you might not know it already from this first chapter.

Two years ago I wrote a oneshot in memory of Pat Morita. Anyway, except for the age difference in between Anthony and Sam (I'll change it some in that oneshot so it makes sense here) this story will refer to it every now and again. If you want to read it, it's called "Words I could say, feelings I couldn't"

The birthdays and stuff will also be changed from what they are in the actual series to fit into this story and universe.

It's told from Anthony's POV.

Through my freshman year of high school I would be able to ride with my older sister to school. Because she was in her senior year and I was a freshman…

Well, that would be every day except for the first, where I wouldn't start my day around lunch time and had to take the bus- that was already jammed with other students, and only one stop and student left to get before going to school.

I could spot my "friends" at the back of the bus when I came inside…

It seemed all seats were taken. But I was on my way to go to the back anyway, where I could stand when the bus hit a bump and I was more or less thrown into a (thankfully) empty seat. And if I was one to believe that things happened in ways they were supposed to…

"Hi Lia." I had ended up right behind her. "Did you… did you have a good summer? I didn't see you this whole summer."

That was when I realized I actually hadn't seen much of her at all of last year…

"My parents made me spend the whole summer by my grandparents' lake. We only came back last night… And before then, I spent all of the year studying and getting caught up in all classes before we graduated from junior high. So we didn't see much of each other then either…"

"LAPUSSO" I heard someone yelling from the back of the bus. "WHY DON'T YOU COME HERE? LEAVE THAT GIRL!"

I hesitated, Lia just rolled her eyes and turned to her girlfriends next to her and in front of her.

And that was when I realized that Lia wasn't the only one, I had been without the whole past few months.

Zack, who had been my best friend for as far back as I could remember. Along with Marcus and Slade had been behind me- laughing and pushing me bullying Kenny… Yet, when everything had been revealed. I had my punishment and I was the victim I hadn't seen them anywhere near…

"You can sit here if you want…" Kenny was the last one to come onto the bus, going through the whole, long aisle to find an empty seat while I sat up properly towards the window. "…I think… I think it's the only empty seat." Kenny hesitated, if I was him I would have stayed as far away from me as possible but when the bus sped up he sat.

I didn't know what it was about just that moment. Maybe it was only that I and Kenny were quiet next to each other, or maybe it was the fact that Zack's voice had broken without me knowing about it until now…

I just knew I had never seen things so clearly.

"LaPusso…" I whispered to myself. "LaPusso…"

"Did you say something?"

I didn't even realize I had said it out loud before Kenny asked…

"No. Nothing…" I hesitated while he turned away again. "LaPusso…"

There was so much about the past year that I simply wanted to forget and do over. But then what would that make me?

"LaPusso for real…" At last I held my hand forward and prayed to whatever higher power that this would work. "I'm Anthony… Anthony LaRusso."

If looks could kill, there wouldn't have been much left of me after Kenny eyed me up and down. And it felt like years before I realized I had to go on.

"Better late than never. Right? If we just go on… You're with… Kyler and the guys. I'm with Marcus, Slade and Zack and we bully you, you bully us, revenge- revenge- revenge… We'll just be stuck in a vicious circle and…." I sighed deeply. "This is making my head spin… at last we'll just be stuck in something like Kreese and Silver. Old and bitter and so many people hurt…" I could almost see it as Kenny's own memories flashed by for his inner vision. "…I don't want that."

A few seconds, that once again felt like years Kenny seemed to wonder about what to answer. While I felt nervousness growing inside my stomach- I had just pretty much poured my heart out, maybe Kenny wanted nothing more than for us to stay bullies and arch enemies.

"Me neither…" Kenny agreed at last. "And it's not like I can blame you or anyone else. What we did to you It just took me a while, and that video… and Robby… Gosh. I can't believe it took me so many pieces before I saw Silver for what he really was."

Kenny hadn't taken my hand but I lowered it at last and had it lying on my knee while I really had to think of something.

"I think Silver was… I think he… He just knew what he was doing. Really. I'm a whole lot more to blame than you. I, my sister and our mum, we should have listened to dad. A lot of us should have done that because he was the only one of us who had actually met Silver… the real Silver before. And knew… He knew…" I lost my words. "We should have listened."

"Well, like you just said- better than never. And at last Silver showed his ass… Its just so easy in hindsight- looking back. Should have done this! Should have done that! Hmm… I wonder where all of this wisdom suddenly came from!" I couldn't help but laugh shortly with him.

Maybe someone had hit wisdom into my head by the time I had done actual karate. Then, just while I did my best to find something to answer the bus stopped and everyone started rushing to get out first to the school that was meant to be ours for the nearest four years.

Somehow Kenny ended up getting out before me. By the time I came out (last of everyone) Zack, Marcus and Slade were standing waiting for me while I could only see Kenny in the corner of my eye-but saw how he slumped slightly when I went over to my old "friends".

"Come on now …" Marcus said, with a smirk. "Why didn't you come to be with us? Why did you stay with…" He smirked and his vision sent lightnings towards Kenny. "…him…" He spat on the ground as if to show what he thought of Kenny and then smirked again. "Loser!"

"HEY!" I interrupted and I just had to go for it and jump. "Don't call him that…" I breathed in. "If there is anything that…. This past year have taught me is that… It's just that… I have been taught what would have made me LaPusso for real… and that is why I'm done with you…" I backed towards Kenny. "Done with all three of you. Have some great lives."

"So that's it?"

I had just been about to turn my back against the three and turn towards Kenny when Zack tried to call me back.

"We grow up together. And one other guy turns up and that's it… Now LaPusso? What kind of friend in that?"

"You tell me." I suddenly heard Kenny next to me. "What kind of friend is the one turning their back and acting like they won't see when someone is getting pushed into a pool or dipped in the toilet? Because that doesn't sound like very good friends to me." The three that had been my friends laughed. "I saw you there, I saw you watching even if you, Anthony didn't do that yourself."

I really hadn't. But I would guess I had known anyway.

And I guessed I had made my decision after all.

"And if you find someone to go against this- against us…" I sighed, this was it! "Then warn them. Because then they'll have us both to deal with."

Random fact

I know you don't know how yet. But I do promise you, that this story is one for Epilepsy awareness.