TW: Homophobia
At dinner Blaine is quiet. Everyone is. Their dinner is always quiet but Blaine doesn't even tries to talk. Talk about this one topic. He's scared for their reactions and his dad is way to drunk already. One more scotch after dinner and he'll be out like a lamp.
But if he tells them he tells them together. He has no clue hwo his mom will react but it's better to have her there when he tells his dad and he doesn't want to do it twice to do it one at a time. He rather get done with that quickly.
After dinner Blaine goes back to his room. He takes a book and reads while music plays quietly. A few minutes later there's a knock on the door and his mom pops her head in "You want to come down for dessert? Your fahter is out in bed so we can watch a movie in the living room or so". Yeah sure" the boy answers and puts his book away.
Mother and son sit down in the living room on the couch with ice cream and soda. Quickly they agreed to watch Mamma Mia and from time to time Blaine hums or quietly sings along to the songs. Everytime he does his mom smiles a little more, making Blaine smile too. Times like that are the good ones in this house.
"Hey Mom?" Blaine asks after the movie but he stops. For a second it felt right but he's not ready to tell yet and he wants to tell them together. His dad is still his dad and he doesn't want to put his mom in the position of keeping her sons favorite from her husband. He will tell them together but not now.
"Yes?" Pam brings him back to reality. The curly haired boy smiles "Should we watch the sequal too?". His mother laughs "Of course. More ice cream?". "No thanks. I still have some" Blaine says and smiles. Today was a good day.
Dear Blaine
I just got back and I'll unpack later because first I wanted to read your letters and now take the time to write back, I missed this, Writing with you, To you,
I'm really happy for you and proud that you figured yourself out, Also I'm glad everything with Wes went so well and congrats to him and his girlfriend,
I'm really honored that you wanted to tell me first and I wish you good luck with telling your parents, I have a good feeling with your mom but I'm scared for you because of your dads reaction,
Keep me updated on that and I hope he doesn't react too bad because I don't know what he's capable of, I hope it goes well,
It's been a while since you wrote, Did you tell them already? Anything else I missed? Any progress? I hope you're okay, I'll think of you,
I'll go unpack now,
Love Kurt
Dear Kurt
I'm glad to have you back. How was vacation?
I almost told my mom but then I thought it's better to tell them together so I just have to do it once. But honestly? I'm scared. I don't think my dad reacts good but I don't know how bad he can actually get.
But I want to tell them soon. Before I start high school so I have it off my chest and my head is free for the first year in the new school and of course for my audition for the Warblers.
I was thinking Teenage Dream as an audition song? Wess will sing Silly Love Songs which is also a great choice but I'm not sure about mine yet.
I will keep you updated on my coming out to my parents when I do.
Love Blaine
It's been two weeks since Kurt came back home and wrote back and now it's finally time to tell his parents that he's gay. Today when both are back from work he will tell them. Before dinner so his dad isn't completely wasted.
"Mom? Dad?" he asks once both are home and put down their stuff "Can I talk to you? In the living room?". "Of course" his mom answers and comes to the living room where Robert already sat down. Pam sits down next to him but Blaine stands still in front of them and nervously rubs his hands. "I'm hungry. What do you want to tell us?" his dad asks impatiently. Blaine knows he isn't really hungry. He just wants the beer from the kitchen.
"I- uhm- I realized something about myself. Recently. I am- I like boys! I'm gay!" he blurs out and holds his breath, waiting for his parents reactions. His mom stays quiet and looks neutral. She probably wants to see her husbands reaction before she says something. Her own expression stays unreadable. His dad takes a moment in shock before the information really reaches his brain and his mood changes completely. He's angry. Disgusted.
"You better tell me you're joking" he says. His voice is dangerous low. Blaine knows that's not a good sign but Blaine knows he has to go through this "I'm not joking dad". "You're not gay! My son is not gay! Pam we need to find a girl for him. She needs to open his eyes" Robert says but his wife stays quiet. "Dad I am gay and no girl can change that" the curly haired boy says. He just wants this torture to stop. "You! Are! Not! Gay!" now the man yells and stands up. Robert is a tall man. Way taller than his son who flinches but answers "Yes I am. Accept it or not but you can't change it". "Go up to your room! Go now or I might not be able to control myself!" Robert says and points to the stairs.
Blaine follows his dads finger with his eyes before looking back to his mom. Nothing. With tears in his eyes the curly haired boy nods and runs up the stairs. He locks the door behind him, throws himself on his bed and cries. He kind of expected it to go this way but it still hurts. Especially because he hoped for some kind of reaction from his mom but she just looked at him.
Blaine doesn't know how long he has been crying but he stops when he hears a knock on the door. He's quiet, holding his breath. For a second he thought it's his dad but the knock was way to soft to be his dads. "Blaine?" his mom asks from the other side of the door "Please let me in". She sounds sad and sorry and Blaine really wants to talk to someone so he stands up and opens the door. He pulls his mom inside and locks the door behind her again.
Pam puts a plate down on Blaines desk. She brought him dinner. Then she sits down on the edge of the bed. Silence. Then she sighs "I'm sorry for how he reacted and for not saying anything". "Don't apologize for him. But yes I hoped for something from you. Anything" Blaine answers and his mom can hear the pain in his voice. The boy sighs too and sits down on the chair opposite of his mom.
"I know but you get something now. Only from me and without your dad between us" Pam says and adds "He passed out on the couch 10 minutes ago". Hearing that Blaine lets out a breath he didn't knew he was holding. "I know I should've said it already but hear me out okay? It's okay that you're gay. You're still my son and I still love you so don't worry about that. I'm gonna be honest with you. From what I heard we need to worry about your father. I'm proud for what you did. So proud. Now we have to stick together against your dad. We're a team" Pam says.
"Now come and give me a hug" she adds and Blaine is next to her within a second. Tears fill his eyes but he just hugs his mom tightly. "I am so proud. You were so so brave" she whispers. Great. Now they are both crying. "I love you mom" the boy whispers just loud enough for her to hear it. "I love you too Blaine" she whispers back. Mother and son hug for a little longer before she kisses him on the head and says "Now eat up. I'll bring you some dessert later". "Thanks mom" her son sniffs and smiles a little.
Blaine eats dinner and while eating dessert he takes paper and pen and starts writing
Dear Kurt
I did it. I came out to my parents today. I think I wouldn't have been able to focus on school once the holidays are over so maybe now I can.
I went like expected which means not really good but I won't spare you the details.
My father was more angry than I expected and definitly doesn't accept that his son is gay. Y mom didn't said anything and I don't blame her. Not anymore. M dad was already furious so she only would've made it worse if she said something.
She came to my room a little later and we talked alone. She told me that she accepts me and that she still loves me. She also said that she's proud of me so my mom and I are okay but god knows what will happen next with my dad. Mom and I are a team that's clear but we'll see what's coming.
I'm okay now I guess. Still an emotional wreck but I calmed down. I think I just go to bed now and hope that tomorrow everything looks a little better.
School starts next week. How are you feeling?
Love Blaine
Dear Blaine
That's a lot to take in for you. Hope you're okay?
I'm glad you and your mom are still going strong. I'd be lying if I say that I'm not concerned because of your dad and what I read from you. Make sure you both are okay and safe okay?
I'm proud that you did it and that you went through with it no matter how they reacted. Feel hugged from me!
First day of school was okay. Kinda boring. Did you already had your audition? If yes how did it go? Did you get it?
Love Kurt