"That is the problem. If she wanted to dance I would let her wreck the furniture. If she wanted to cook I would let her burn the house down. If she wanted to scream I would let her deafen me. I've never loved anyone enough to let them destroy me but by god, she could take me by the throat and my eyes would sparkle at the mere inches between us." Johnny Zacchara shook his head as he spoke out loud, knowing that he would forever let her hold his heart...he didn't have a choice.
"Johnny, you love this woman. You need to talk to Lulu, before she's unavailable to you forever." Abby looked at him, his words still fresh in her mind.
"I don't deserve her...even if she did return the sentiments-why would she ever settle for an asshole like me? I might as well keep all this to myself." Johnny disagreed, unknowing that Lulu and Maxie had heard everything...because they were sitting near Johnny and Abby at Jake's.
"So, you were just never gonna fucking say anything? How would that be fair to me? I can't read you're fucking mind, Johnny! Who says I want to end up with Dante day in and day out? Men disgust me!" Lulu snapped , abruptly getting up from her seat and stalking out of the bar.
"Oh Johnny, when will you learn? It's always been you...for someone so smart, you can be too dense." Maxie Jones shook her head, amused.
"What are you talking about?" Johnny sighs, confused.
"Lulu doesn't even love Dante-She got under him because she saw you with Olivia. Now, she's trying to figure out how to leave him without hurting his feelings. Though, I don't really think that can be avoided now...all Dante throws on her is their future. That's not how Lulu's brain works. You've always been the one for Lulu, just like she's always been the one for you. You two are dumb as hell." Maxie explained, slightly flirting her eyelashes.
"I've gotta go, see you tomorrow." Johnny laid down a twenty dollar bill to pay for the drinks, and walked out of the bar.
"I was wondering how long it would take you to move you're ass." Lulu chuckled, sitting on the hood of his Yellow Mustang. If it were anyone else-he would have yelled at them to get off his fucking car but, a slow smirk spread across his face.
"You know, I hear men can be dense." Johnny shrugged, walking over to her.
"Yeah, no shit." Lulu rolled her eyes.
"I'm sorry about keeping all of that from you...I just know that I've never deserved to have you in my life. I just want you to be happy-even if it's not with me. I'd be lying if I said that I didn't want you by my side, I think we both know I do. I really do." Johnny explained, running an anxious hand through his hair.
"You've always deserved me, that's Anthony talking. You've let him manipulate you for so many years that sometimes you just shut everything out because you feel like you're unworthy-nothing could be further from the truth. You deserve everything and that's a fact. I'm not happy with Dante but, I was always happy with you. I'd be lying if I said I didn't worry about you, or that I don't care about you...because I do." Lulu frowned hating to hear him down himself, especially about her.
"I guess you're right...it's hard to turn that off. I guess sometimes I put you on a pedestal because I just think you're perfect and just the coolest woman I've ever met. It's like I made you in a computer...growing up I never really had a girlfriend or even a crush because it just wasn't practical." Johnny quickly explained.
"I know but, you've come such a long way from the boy you used to be... I'm so proud of you. I know how hard it must be but, you never let yourself sink to other people's levels. I'm definitely not perfect but, that means so much to me. Nobody else that I've ever been involved with has said anything close to that...thank you." Lulu did her best to fight the urge to blush at the "coolest woman I've ever met " comment but, failed.
"You're a big part of that, you know. If it wasn't for meeting you that night, I'd still be stuck at Crimson Pointe manipulated by Anthony. You truly were my best friend, at one point you were all I had. Even though I have Lovett, Abby, Michael, Kristina, Maxie and Spinelli now...you're still the most important person in my life. I can promise that will ALWAYS be the case." Johnny wanted her to know how much she really meant to him.
"I think you would have figured it out eventually Johnny, you're not stupid. You were an important part of my life and you still are. At one point you were all I had too, and if it weren't for you I really don't know if I'd be standing here right now." Lulu admitted, as Johnny took a seat beside her.