Credits Rolled

Chapter 32

Author's note : When I said Sawyer was like Lucas. I meant that. Lucas has been the hands on Parent. Since both boys were born. Who they are what they like to do and who they are growing to be has alot to do with Lucas 's influence. But that doesn't mean Peyton didn't leave an imprint because she did. And we will see that. Peyton had her problems. Some Lucas knew about other things he didn't. Yes Clay still had feelings for Brooke. Even though he knows it won't go anywhere.

I'm just trying to figure it out. It being everything.

If I'm being honest I feel like I failed as a father. I stayed in my relationship with Peyton longer than I should of. Wanting my sons to have the stable two parent home I didn't.

I woke up to different versions of Peyton. years And And my children were exposed to that for years and I didn't understand why she acted like that.

Until I found the cocaine in the bathroom. When her make up fell and she didn't pick up her things fast enough.

She looked at me. And said she wasn't addicted. She used for recreational use only.

And when I flushed down the toilet. She thanked me. And things were normal for awhile and I thought this was over.

But when things around the house went missing. When Sawyer mentioned his allowance was gone.

I knew Peyton 's use was serious. But so was her hold on me.

And I loved her. And she knew that.

She cry. Beg. And stop for some time then start again. She was a functioning addict. I would learn that later.

I don't deserve to be with Brooke. The chaos and turmoil my life brings especially now.

Why should she have to deal with any of it. Lucas thought to himself.

(I think me and the boys need to leave. Give you you're house back.) Lucas announced.

Brooke was taken off guard by this announcement.

(Don't you like it here? Us all being together?) She asked

(More than anything. But dealing with my kids you're ex boyfriend.)

(None of that is right. Or fair.) Lucas proclaimed

(I love you. I'm in love with you.)

(Are things all over the place right now. Yes.)

(But one day. We'll be married. I'll have adopted the boys and we'll have a baby of our own.)

(This is just the grey. We'll get through it together.) Brooke replied.

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