June 17th, 99 ADD

Glad that I'm alone again. everything is always easier when i'm alone. woke up and she wasn't there and it was a relief. Killing her felt good it felt good to shut her up so she could stop telling me she cared about me even though it was a lie. The whole time i killed her i wanted to laugh at how fucking pathetic she was. she's supposed to be the best of the whole district and she didn't even see me coming I can't believe how easy it was to kill her all i had to do was hold the knife on her throat and she stopped. Why didn't i do that sooner. could have avoided this whole mess if i just shut her up sooner so she didn't try to be like hideo because she's not him she's nothing like him amar isn't hideo and she can't use him against me anymore. it won't stop raining and she hit my leg and now it keeps bleeding but once it stops again i'm going out there and i'm going to show amar exactly why she should leave me alone i'm better off alone and i'm going to kill them all so no one tries that bullshit again Why do people keep trying to care about me why why why why why leave me the fuck alone forever fuck you amar