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A/N: As always, thank you so much to everyone for the lovely reviews you left on the previous chapters, it means the world. This chapter will revert to a bit of a darker turn because Adam's not out of the woods where his grief is concerned. Enjoy.

When Kim rolled to her other side and her eyes blinked away the sleep, she noticed the numbers on the clock. It was almost nine and she was surprised that the whole apartment was still basked in semi darkness, not a sound to be heard. She pushed the covers from her body and rose quietly from the comfort of her mattress. She reached for her robe and padded her way inside the hallway. It was mostly quiet but she could hear noise coming from the kitchen. She leaned against the wall as she watched Adam move around, the smell of bacon and eggs making its way to her nose.

"Morning." She croaked, prompting him to turn around.

"Morning sunshine." He smiled at her. "Hungry?" He questionned as she walked farther inside and took a seat at her island.

"Yeah." She smiled back at him.

"Good because it's ready." He pulled toasts out of the toaster and placed them on the plate before putting it front of her.

"Thanks." She pulled the plate closer to her as he set a steaming cup of coffee in front of her.

"It's the least I can do for you letting me use your spare bedroom." He leaned against the counter with his own cup of coffee in his hands.

"It's nothing." She insisted, putting some food in her mouth. He watched her in silence as he sipped his coffee. This was always his favourite part of the day when they were together. She was fresh faced and had a permanant smile on her lips and he suddenly missed her. "What?" She asked after taking a sip of her cup.

"You're beautiful." He simply said.

"Adam." She looked down out of embarassment. "Don't." They had yet to talk about their status and they had more pressing things to talk about.

"I'm just saying it as I see it." He could see the blush creep on her neck and he smiled at the fact that he was the one to put it there.

"We're not ready for this. You're not ready for it." Kim finally looked back up at him.

"We don't have to rush it this time." He set his cup down and leaned against the island in front of him. He reached for her hand and for a few seconds, she didn't move it. She looked at their joined hands and closed her eyes, taking a deep breath.

"I know that Adam but it's not our time yet." She wanted nothing more than to start fresh with him but he was vulnerable ,too vulnerable. "These next few days won't be easy Adam and I'm going to be by your side the whole time. Let me help you get through this and I promise that we can talk about us and where we go from here." Adam could do nothing else but nod. He knew she was right but it still stung.

"You, eh, said you wanted to talk this morning." He shook his head to lift the fog she had planted in it and his heart.

"Yeah." She pushed her empty plate of food away from her. "Platt texted me last night." She suddenly admitted.

"About what?" His curiosity was peaked.

"I asked her and Voight some help on your behalf." She said sheepishly.

"Come again?" He suddely fealt some anger rise inside his chest.

"Adam, you were beside yourself. I just asked them for some help with the funeral, some contact information. I didn't know what you would need." She watched him as he stood quickly.

"I don't need this shit." He put his cup of coffee down roughly on her counter, droplets of coffee spurting around.

"Adam, don't go. We need to talk about this." She followed him as he walked to her door and pulled it open roughly.

"We don't need to talk about shit." He stormed off, not even registering Kevin on the other side of the door. Kevin and Kim locked eyes and Kim knew they had to let him go.

"Let him cool off." Kevin walked inside and wrapped Kim in a hug. "What happened though?" He asked as she pulled away from him.

"I just told him that Platt texted me last night, that I asked her for help where the funeral was concerned and he just went off on me. I'm scared for him Kevin." She finally admitted.

"He's got a lot going on. How're you holding up?"

"It doesn't matter, I have to go after him." She turned on a dime and slipped on some shoes, grabbing onto the door handle only to be stopped by Kevin's hand on her shoulder.

"Burgess, don't."

"No, I'm not letting him do this alone." Tears stung as she tried to keep them at bay.

"And we won't. Just give him some time." If Kevin knew one thing was that Adam had a tendency to run when things didn't go his way but this time he also knew that he was filled with grief, not thinking straight. "He won't go too far."

"How can you be so calm?" She couldn't understand how he could be so calm like that when she swore her heart was about to beat right out of her chest with fear.

"One of us had to be. Don't worry, I got both your backs." He guided her towards the couch. "Sit right here and I'll get you a cup of tea." He watched her as he moved around to her kitchen. He knew both his friends were hurting and he promised himself he'd be there for them both. "You sit tight and i'll be right back." She nodded, her eyes trained to the closed tv in front of her. "You good?"

"Yeah." She finally looked at him as he leaned down and pressed a kiss to her forehead. "Call me if you find him, please."

"Will do." He walked out the door and went in search of Adam.

Adam got in his car and drove off. He didn't care where he ended up but he knew he needed to get out of there. He didn't really know why he was so upset with Kim but the fact that she had gone behind his back angered him. He drove around the city and ended up in front of Molly's North. He had far less chances of bumping into someone there than at Molly's so he parked and headed inside. He counted his lucky stars that no one he knew was there so he took a seat at the bar and ordered shots.

"Another one." He looked at the barmaid who hesitated half a second, angering Adam further. "Just leave the damn bottle." He watched her look at the other guy behind the bar with her and she put the bottle in front of him.

"If you need anything else, just flag me." She gave him a sweet smile and left him alone. He downed shot after shot, hoping to drown what he was feeling inside. The only one who really had his back was gone and the girl he longed to be with didn't share the same feelings.

Kevin drove around town, not knowing where else to look. He had tried all of Adam's usual spots, then he tried his apartment and his dad's place but came empty. His last stop was Molly's and he kept his fingers crossed, stepping inside and scanning the place, no sign of Ruzek. He made his way towards the bar where Herrmann was bartending.

"Yo Herrmann!" He waited to be acknowledged and the older man finally made it to him.

"What can I do for you Kevin?"

"Have you seen Ruzek tonight?"

"No, is everything ok?" Christopher knew about Disco Bob's death.

"Not sure. You mind giving me a call if you do?"

"Sure thing." Kevin was almost at the door when Herrmann called him back.

"Everything ok?"

"I think your boy is at Molly's North. I'll let you check it out." Kevin nodded as Chris said something into his phone before he left in a sprint. The drive to Molly's North was short and sure enough, Adam's Charger was parked in front. As soon as he walked in, his voice betrayed him.

"AWW COME ON!" Adam yelled over the crowd, trying to reach over the bar.

"You can't do that." The girl manning the bar looked like she was scared so Kevin hurried, pulling Adam back.

"Come on Ruzek, you're done."

"FUCK OFF KEV." He tried shoving Kevin but his attempt failed, Kevin's larger frame damn near impossible to move in his present state.

"Can't do that. Come on, let's go." He pulled him roughly to his feet, Adam giving up a fight.

"I said leave me alone."

"Not going to do that. You can either come quietly or I can just haul your ass out. You're damn lucky Herrmann isn't pressing charges." Adam gave one last shove against Kevin before he was pushed towards the door. "Get in." Atwater was less then impressed right now. He knew his friend was in pain but this was certainly NOT the way to handle it.

Adam did as he was told for the first time in the evening and sat in Kevin's car. He pinched the bridge of his nose and emited a low growl. "You're such an ass Kev."

"You'll thank me in the morning." He simply said as he started driving. He knew that he'd be pissed but he didn't care. It didn't take long before Adam realized where they were heading.

"I'm not going back there. Turn the car around Kev."

"It's not up for discussion." He wasn't going to give him any options tonight, not after the way he had acted towards Kim or his attitude at the bar. Once the car came to a stop, Adam refused to get out. "You're seriously starting to piss me off." Kevin growled as he opened the passenger door and pulled Adam out. He was acting like a stubborn teanager with a chip on his shoulder and he was all but done with it. The ascension to Kim's apartment was painful but Kevin let himself in, knowing she was still awake and pushed him past her and to his room. "You better get some sleep because you got some groveling to do in the morning." Adam simply slammed the door in his face.

Kim watched the whole thing from the living room, tears pooling in her eyes. She took a few deep breaths while she let Kevin take care of Adam. She knew he was in pain but it still hurt all the same. Kevin returned and they went into the kitchen for a little bit more quiet.

"Where did you find him?" She took a seat at her island.

"Almost didn't. I went to Molly's and Herrmann hadn't seen him but he got a call from Molly's North. He was three sheets gone."

"Damn it Adam." She cursed under her breath. "What's next?"

"I'm going to swing by first thing tomorrow and knock some sense into him."

"You think he's going to be ok?" She looked in the direction of the bedrooms where it was already quiet.

" I think so. Just give him some more time."

"Thanks for helping him out."

"I told you before, I've got your backs." Kim excused herself to see if Adam was ok and when she made it to his room, she found him face down on the bed, his feet dangling from the side, a soft snore coming from him. She tip toed inside and put a blanket on him before she closed the door, leaving it slightly ajar and returning to the kitchen.

"He's out cold."

"Not surprised. You'll be ok?" He looked down at her as her eyes lingered on the hallway.

"Yeah, I'm good. Thanks for helping us out." He pulled her in for a hug and she held onto him tightly.

"Always. Get some sleep, I'll see you in the morning."

"I don't know what I would do without you." She whispered into his chest.

"I love you too." He chuckled, kissing the top of her head." She walked him to the door and locked up as soon as he was gone. She made as little sound as possible on her way to her bedroom and made sure Adam was ok before retreating to hers. She was lying on her back, her face in her hands, taking slow breaths, trying to calm herself but it was no use. She became strangled by sobs as her breathing became hectic. She didn't know what to do to help Adam and only hoped that tomorrow would be a better day for him. It didn't take long for her to fall asleep, her body and mind totally exhausted.

A/N: What had started as a good day turned out pretty bad with Adam getting plastered. I know I'm hinting at getting them back together and the goal is exactly that but I want to make them their way slowly back. Please take a few seconds to review before you go, I always love knowing what you guys think - Sarra