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A/N: So thank you for everyone's nice words on the last chapter about my little Burzek moment. I hope this one will give you those same feelings.

The sound in the bullpen was starting to become chaotic and Kim had missed it. She couldn't wait to get back in full capacity but this was enough for now. She had to concentrate her energy on getting Adam through this particularly tough spot. She was concentrating on what Antonio was saying when the sound of her phone cut through all that chaos.

"Shit." She blinked a few times when she realized that she had said that out loud and that everyone was looking at her.

"Everything ok Burgess?" Her eyes shifted towards Voight who was standing in his doorway.

"I don't think so. I have to go." She raised her phone in answer.

"You need one of to come with you?" Kevin took a step in her direction, his protective side of her on full display.

"No, I'll be fine but I'll call of that changes." Voight nodded his confirmation that she could leave and she was out the door in a second. She ran to her car that was in the back lot and she drove off. She drove, complete silence in her car. Her mind was racing and her heart was pounding, Adam's voice in hear head.

I don't think I can do this without you. I'm at my dad's, meet me there please.

"I hope everything is ok." She whispered to herself as she turned on her ex father in law's street, spotting Adam's car immediately. She parked behind the charger and slowly exited the car. She didn't know what to expect at this point and it scared her a bit. She slowly pushed the door open. "Adam?" Her hand was hovering over her service weapon, really not knowing what to expect. She walked past the kitchen that was clean, something she was sure Adam had done. It's only when she heard the sobs coming from the room just beyond the living room that she knew where to look. She found him on his knees on the carpeted floor, overtaken by sobs. "Aw baby." She kneeled down next to him and pulled her into her embrace, allowing him to let all the tears flow. It didn't matter how long it took, she knew he had to let it all out. He had put on a brave face since the very beginning because that is what Adam Ruzek does but now, he couldn't keep any of his emotions in anymore.

Her phone dinged but she ignored it, wanting to be with Adam only and simply concentrate on him. The sobs diminished and soon all that was left was laboured breathing and occasional hiccups.

"What am I supposed to do now?" His fingers were pulling at an invisible lint on her shirt. "I don't even know where to start."

"How about we go through his papers, see if he left specific instructions?"

"We never walked about it."

"What about your mom and sister?" He scoffed.

"She have come to the hospital the first time but that won't change a thing. She hated his guts and she won't lift a hand. And my sister, I highly doubt she'll be any more equipped to know about this. They didn't really speak to each other."

"Alright. Let's get you a splash of cold water and we can see what we can find." She rubbed his back as she helped him stand. "I'm really sorry I pulled you from work. I know you've been missing it." She followed him to the bathroom and let him go inside while she leaned against the doorframe, her arms crossed over her chest.

"It's ok Adam. I'm there for you for everything that you need." She looked at him as he splashed some water on his face, his hands vigorously rubbing his cheeks, trying to remove the tears stain from his face.

"You know, sometimes I have a feeling that I'm drowning and I don't know if I have the strength to stay above water." He admitted as he looked at her through the mirror after a few minutes of silence, his eyes bloodshot.

"Adam." Her heart broke for him and she knew that until he could make some progress where the funeral was concerned, she was afraid it wouldn't get better just yet. "I'm there for you, no matter what. I told you before, I'm not giving up on us and this is just another storm that we have to weather together." She took the few steps that separated them and she ran her hand on his back before she pulled him to her chest. "I've got you baby." She whispered to his ears as he wrapped his arms around her waist, holding on to dear life.

"Thank you for not giving up on me." He mumbled into her neck.

"Never." She smiled at him as she pulled away. "You ready."

"Not really but what choice do I have?" He walked ahead of her and she placed her hands on his hips, giving them a gentle squeeze of support. She waited for him to make the first step, not wanting to overwhelm him. He pointed to a few boxes on the floor. "Maybe you can start in there." He looked at her and she simply nodded. She watched as he made it to the shelving unit on the left wall of the office.

It had been an hour already and still they hadn't found anything useful in regards to Bob Ruzek's wishes. Kim had gone through all the boxes and places them in a corner, labelling them as much as she could so it could help Adam for another hard moment for him down the line.

"Did you find anything?" She put the last box on top and turned to face Adam.

"Nothing." He sighed, starting to feel like he wasn't getting anywhere. "This cabinet is the last hope."

"Do you want some help or your good?"

"How does moral support sound to you?"

"Not going anywhere." She smiled as she watched him open the doors and go one shelf at a time. Adam was almost losing hope when he saw a thick envelop with his name on it in his father's handwriting. "Hey, you ok?" She ran her hand against his forearm.

"Not even close." His hands were shaking lightly as he took a few shaky breaths. He took a couple of steps backwards and took a seat at his dad's desk.

"I'm right here." She was with him in an instant. She stood behind him and ran her fingers through his hair, placing a kiss on the top of his head. She stayed there in silence as she waited for him to open the envelop on his own time. He turned it around and finally slipped his finger between the tab and the back, breaking the seal. He unfolded the pile of papers and found a letter on the top. He took a few breaths before he read it.

To my son.

If you're reading this, it means that I'm gone. I know we haven't always had the best relationship but know that I loved you with all my heart and that you are my greatest accomplishment. Now I know that these following weeks will be difficult but I know you can do it. Inclosed, you'll find all the information you'll need to give me a proper send off. As for the house, take what you want and give the rest. Then you can put it on the market. Whatever is left is all yours to use as you see fit. I've done all I can in this life for you and I know that you will live the rest of your life with integrity and pride but if I can give you just one piece of advice, you need to find Kim and get her back. Fight for her and if you can manage to conquer her again, don't ever let her go. Life isn't worth living if you don't have love in it and I know that you still love that woman with all your heart. So if you ever do one last thing for your old man, let be that.

Love

Dad.

Kim could feel his shoulders shake as the sobs overtook him, his hands falling to his lap, the papers still in his grasp.

"Your father was proud of you, don't ever forget that." She wrapped her arms around his shoulders and let him cry. Cry for his father and all the years he wouldn't have to spend with him.

"You know that he loved you right?" He said as he ran a hand against his eyes.

"Adam."

"No, I mean it. See for yourself." He pulled her to him and positioned her on his lap, giving her the letter and playing the rest of the envelops contents on the desk. Kim took the letter with shaky fingers and read every word of it. Her eyes filled with tears as she read the last lines of the letter.

"I'm not going anywhere." She choked up as she leaned down and pressed her lips to his in a tender kiss. "So what do we do next?"

"I think we should give Platt a phone call, get the ball rolling?"

"Ok yeah, I can do that." They spent the following hour going through the whole stack of papers and with Platt on the phone to get all the details ironed out before they went back to Kim's place, the two of them cuddled up on the couch where they fell asleep, knowing they still had a lot of work to do.

A/N: So here's for another one. Please take a few seconds to review before you go, it encourages me to write more and I love to read your thoughts-Sarra