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A/N: Thank you so much for the reviews on the last chapter. I think it's the most that I've gotten at a time, you guys are amazing. Here's another sad one.

The two following days went by like a blur. The only constant was Kim. She had been at his side for every step of it. She found him pacing her living room the morning of the funeral.

"Adam, what are you doing awake?" It was barely dawn when she heard the faint noises.

"I can't get it right." His eyes were filled with tears and his shoulders looked tense but the look through those tears told her that he was more angry than sad about it. "I need to get this right.

"Hey." She was at his side in an instant. "You can do it Adam. Just speak from your heart." She placed her fingers over his t-shirt, right above his heart. HE closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths.

"Thanks." He wrapped his fingers around her hand that still lingered on his chest. "I'm sorry I woke you darling."

"Don't worry about it." She smiled at him. "Do you want something to eat?"

"I'm not sure i'll be able to keep it down." He said honestly, his stomach queasy.

"Ok. I'll be in the kitchen in you need me." She kissed the corner of his lips and padded back there, wanting to give him some space to get his ideas in order. She pulled some different things from her cupboard, deciding on some french toast and some fruits. She didn't want to make something too heavy but knew that both she and Adam would need something to keep their strength up. She could see him pacing out of the corner of her eyes so she filled a cup of coffee and headed back towards him. "Here you go." She placed the cup on the living room table. She rubbed his arm and returned to the kitchen to fix herself a plate. She sipped her cup and her mind kept taking her back to two days before.

Kim blinked the sleep away from her eyes and realized that she was wrapped into familiar arms. His arms were wrapped around her waist, her back tucked into his chest. She exhaled a shaky breath and smiled. She had missed him terribly and all she could think about it how good she felt in his arms.

"You're thinking awfully loud." She chuckled lightly as he whispered the words in her ear.

"I've missed this." She turned around in his arms so she could face him.

"I've missed you." He rubbed his nose against hers. "What made you change your mind?"He pushed a strand of hair behind her ear. He didn't need to give her an explanation about what he meant by that.

"Life's too short but I meant what I said about going slow. I don't want to make the same mistakes."

"I don't intend to do that either." Their lips met and it was short and soft but it made her heart flutter.

"You're thinking awfully loud." He gave her a crooked smile and sat in front of her.

"You have that effect on me." She smiled back. "Did you manage to get it right?" She pushed a plate of french toast in front of him. "Just a few bites?"

"I think I finally got it ok." He pulled the plate closer to him and grabbed the fork she was offering him. "Thanks for this." He pointed at the plate.

"Anytime." She watched him eat as they sat in silence. He was concentrated on his task of eating, trying to clear his mind. When he set the pen down, he was finally satisfied with what he had written and tried not to overthink it but he wanted to make his dad proud. He wanted to live up to the words that were in the letter.

"What time do we have to be there?" He finally pushed his empty plate aside.

"We still have a couple of hours." She tried to keep it light, not wanting to put any more stress on Adam than necessary. "Grab a shower and try to take it easy ok?" She stood and cleared the table. Adam didn't try to stop her, his nerves starting to show again. She waited until she heard the shower running and watched Adam walk back out and towards his room and back in the bathroom again before she went to the front closet.

She had asked Kevin about Adam's dress blues and he had made sure to get them for her the previous night, clean and pressed. She took the garment bag and went in Adam's room, hanging it against the wall to the left of the bed. She unzipped it and set it on his bed, his tie and hat next to it before she went to her own room, running the shower for herself. She walked under the hot mist and her thoughts drifted to Adam.

Adam turned the water hotter once under the mist. His palms were against the cool tiles and his thoughts were muddled. Pain for the father he lost and love for the woman that was only doors away from him. She had helped him through the hardest stage of his life and even know he knew some hard days were still ahead of him, he knew that he'd get through it because of her. He didn't know how he was supposed to get through the service at the church and it was all to much for him. He turned his face upward and let the mist wash the tears that were falling uncontrollably from his eyes. It took it a few minutes to settle himself before he washed himself and shut the water. The person staring back at him had bloodshot eyes from crying so he splashed some water against his face and wiped it for before he made his way back to his room.

Kim had heard Adam's cries as she stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around her body. Her heart broke a little more for him and she knew that he'd need her today more than ever to be able to help him through the service. She noticed him out of the corner of her eye, wearing nothing but a towel around his waist as he made it back to his room, making her insides on fire. She couldn't deny her attraction to him and her heart had always been his regardless of the bumps in the road they had faced and deep inside, she hoped that once Adam had settled past his grief that they'd be able to come back to each other for good. She got changed into her dress blues to keep her thoughts from traveling to him as he did the same a few doors down from her.

Adam's fingers were shaking as he tried to make the knot in his tie and he was growing increasingly frustrated with it as it didn't look the way he wanted it to.

"Damn it." He growled, pulling the offensive object and throwing it on the bed, Adam plopping down heavily on the mattress, his head in his hands.

"Adam, what's wrong?" Kim had dashed out of her bedroom at the sound of his voice filled with anger.

"I can't tie that damn thing properly." He sat up straight and slumped his shoulders.

"Let me give you a hand." He took his tie back in his hand and stood to face her. She raised the collar of his shirt properly and slipped it around his neck. "I know you're nervous and you're scared but it'll be ok." She said as she worked diligently on his tie.

"I don't think I'm strong enough."

"I'm in your corner, always. If you need me, I'll be in the front row ok?"

"Ok."

"Are you ready to go?" She lowered the collar and ironed out the material of his shirt with her hands.

"Yeah." He closed his eyes and she placed her hand against his cheek, the three day stubble prickling her hand.

"Come on." She let him slip his arms through his jacket and she pinned his badge to it and placed the black elastic over it. "I'll drive." He let her guide him down to her car and he took the passenger seat and watched the Chicago scenery pass him by. It wasn't until Kim found a parking spot next to the church that he looked up and saw everyone that was there. Trucks from firehouse 51 stood with raised aerials and an American flag floating. The Hearst carrying his fathers coffin arrived moments later and Kim slipped his hand to his and gave it a squeeze.

Colleagues of his dad's from the 31st were carrying the casket inside, Adam not in any state to do it. He found a spot in the front pew and sat with his elbows on his knees, his eyes never leaving his father's casket. The church was still empty but Kim found him alone inside and went to sit next to him, placing a hand on his leg. They were able to have a quiet moment together, Kim's head on his shoulder, Adam drawing strength from her presence. The rest of Intelligence joined them in the front and the 31st sat behind them. He felt a hand on his shoulder and turned to find Dan, his father's partner sitting behind him.

"He was proud of you Adam, never forget that." Adam simply nodded, not trusting his voice. The church was already silent when the reverend started talking. Adam couldn't stay concentrated on the words that were being said, his eyes never leaving his father's side. His father's sargent was the first to talk and then Dan spoke about the bond that he had with Robert and all bets were off. Adam could barely contain the tears that were pooling in his eyes at the words of his dad's long time partner on the beat.

Adam was asked to come up next and for a few seconds, it's as if his body didn't want to cooperate. Kim gave his knee a squeeze and winked at him, Adam giving her a small smile before he stood. He stopped at the casket, placed his hand on it and stayed like that for a few seconds before he stood to say a few words.

"I had this whole speech prepared when I got here but after hearing stories about my father, it only seems fitting that I tell one of my own. I was maybe seven or eight, I'm not sure." He cracked a crooked smile as he remembered the exact day in his mind. "Dad had finally taken me to work with him after I had begged him for months. He always said that it was too dangerous to bring me along and he was right." He chuckled. "Do you remember what happened Dan?" Dan couldn't help the laugh that escaped his throat. "First it was a robbery in a convenient store. I was scared shitless and I remember him telling me: Adam, I want you to stay inside the car and not make a sound. As all of you who know me, I didn't listen. It was just one peak and that was it for me. Shots were fired but in the end, Bob Ruzek had the guy, face first on the hood of that police cruiser, in handcuffs and that's when I knew. The day ended up being a crazy one and I had been dropped off at the 31st but that one call, my dad was my hero and I just knew I wanted to grow up to be just like him. He worked hard and when he had his chance at a promotion, he didn't take it because that would mean spending less time with me and he refused to do that. He taught me to keep my head down, do the work and do it well. That it wasn't worth to be done half assed and that's what I'll keep with me. I hope I make you proud pops, I love you." He didn't even attempt to hide his tears from everyone and in that moment, he locked eyes with Kim and her eyes were equally teary. He mouthed a thank you and came back to join her, patting the coffin twice on his way.

Kim held onto his hand for the rest of the service and when it was over, Adam was handed the American adorned the casket and it was taken back outside. Officers, Detectives and other people who knew Bob lined up to pay their last respect, everyone at attention. Adam and Kim followed behind as Kim helped to steady him and they headed for the cemetery. He had requested that the number of people there be limited to his close friends and his own team because he didn't know how much more he could take. The casket was lowered to the ground and he finally allowed everyone to give him some sort of comfort before he was left alone with Kim. They didn't say anything because they didn't need to until Adam silently asked her to have a few minutes alone with his dad before they left. She kissed his cheek and went back to her car to wait for him.

"I didn't know how hard today would be but you were right about one thing. I'm going to keep fighting for Kim and I'm never going to let her go again. She's been my rock these past few days and I'd be a mess without her. I'm going to do my best to make you proud pops." He crouched down and put a rose in the open grave. He stood and wiped a lone tear that had fallen on his cheek. "I'm going to miss you like crazy, I love you." He stayed there a few more seconds before he returned to Kim who was patiently waiting. "Let's go back to your lace yeah?" She nodded with a smile and they drove back to her place. The ride was silent but Adam held onto her hand on his lap the whole way, running his thumb against her knuckles.

As soon as they made it inside, they changed out of their dress blues and Kim sat on the couch, Adam's head in her lap. She ran her fingers through his hair and Adam closed his eyes, the two enjoying the rest of their day away from the rest of the world.

A/N: I hope I didn't make you cry too much. I know these chapters have a lot of sadness in them but soon Burzek will rise for good. Please take a few seconds to review before you go it's always fun to see the thoughts - Sarra