Apov

Dr.Fylnn was here for about three hours. It took one hour for me to relax and actually talk to him. And I can say I feel a little bit better and can let Christian hands go without freaking out. No one could understand why I attached myself to Christian, considering we have barely hung out since I moved back, but deep down, I think I know. Ever since I remember Christian and I childhood, we was always on that balcony together. We kept each other company when we had no one else, so we slowly made a bond where if the other was lost, hurt or upset then we needed each other. I know its weird and I dont expect them to understand, shit I dont even think me or Christian understand it. We just know its something we got to do, but with that is also the weird sexual tension, Which I was not about to talk about with my father in the room. I know he knows something cause who is that calm when a boy is stripping their daughter even if it is for a good purpose.

Yea I know everything that happened but I couldnt control my fear when Christian wasnt touching me, it was as soon as he let go Jack's words would be whispering in my ear, about how I wouldnt be with Christian and it just shooked me to my core cause i thought i was back there where he almost raped me. I guess it was a good thing I gave myself to christian, it would of been way worse if jack raped me while i was still a virgin.

After Dr.fylnn left, Kate and all the Grey's came in to show their gratitude of me being ok. Carrick told me to rest a little bit longer and that the police will be wanting their statement shortly but him and my father will hold them off a little bit longer. I just nodded my head and looked at Christian, he looked like he was lost in his thoughts. So I asked if everyone could leave so i could talk to Christian for a moment, who didnt even here me ask everyone. My dad said he will just go down to the caferteria and have some coffee which carrick and grace said they would join him.

Once they left I could feel the energy in the room change, it became so charged with electricity, it was actually pretty suffocating considering thats not why I asked everyone to leave. I looked at Chrisitan ready to talk to him but he was already staring at me with so much lust, he must feel it too. I tossed my legs over the bed facing him, He looked at my legs and I watched his adam apple go up and down while he licked his lips. God he was so good looking it was a sin, and knowing what was between his legs didnt help. Stop it Ana, nows the time to get everything off your chest before we lose the chance again. So I shook my head and grabbed Christian's hands, causing him to stand up, which was a horrible idea cause now he was standing between my legs.

" Christian I wanted to talk to you about um my first visit back."

his eyes snapped to mine, I could see he was trying to control his self, so he only nodded at me, like he was afraid of what he would if he moved too much.

so I started explaining everything that happened from the time we seperated up until now. When he heard about my moms boyfriend and how I screamed for him even though I couldnt quite rememeber him, he clenched his fist and looked ready to explode. I had to regrab his hands for him to calm down a little for me to finish and hiw Dr.Fylnn was the one to help me remember everything.

After everything was said and done, we sat in silence. I felt like it was too much for christian and thats why he hasn't said anything. Maybe he realised I wasnt worth the trouble considering I attract nothing but drama, or perhaps he would leave me since ive done it to him more than once. Fuck I could feel the air stuck in my lungs, just the thought of him leaving put me into a panic attack. I was trying to think of anything else but I couldnt. I stood up and started pacing everything was a blur, it wasnt until Christian yanked me around to where I was facing him that all I could see was him, I just couldnt hear him. I felt like this was it, black spots started taking over my vision but all of a sudden I felt a spark of electric current on my lips. I felt myself calm down and thats when I realised Christian was kissing me, I opened my mouth in shock which he took as permission to stick his tongue in my mouth. He tasted like mint, and when I finally relaxed and started kissing him back, his hand came up to my waist and he pulled me closer. It was like everything else didnt matter, it was finally just me and him.

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we jumped apart like we was being burned and we both looked at the door. Out of all people my dad was standing there with his arms crossed.

" As much as im glad your doing a whole lot better, i think we need to set some boundaries dont yall think?"

" sir..I... Umm... its not what it looks like, she was having a panic attack and I didnt know what else to do."

dad raised his brow, and said so you kiss her? taking the rest of her oxygen away?

Both me and christian blushed and looked down.

" Look, i knew this would happen eventually ever since yall was kids, ever since Ana snuck in your tent when yall was little. but now yall are at that age. Well, to put it simple, Im not ready to be a grandpa, and after hearing about yalls first mistake, im gonna keep you two separated until Ana is on birthcontrol. Which is the best option, cause i was a kid once and i dont need you sneaking behind my back. got it"

Me and Christian looked at each other then looked at my father and nodded, he chuckled at us and told us to enjoy cause once i left the hospital, I couldnt see him for two weeks, once the lab comes back saying i wasnt pregnant and they gave me the shot cause he didnt want to risk me forgetting the pill. God this was so embarrassing, I went to look at Christian but when I did, he smacked his lips right back on mine.