A/N: I wanna thank you followers, for reading because I am completely overwhelmed by this story. I know I have to work on others so that I have them ready but... This story though. I hope you are enjoying it

Penn State

I downed a Jello shot and tossed the little cup as I walked through the frat party. Everyone at Penn swore the Omega's threw the best parties. It was the end of Junior Year and I had yet to participate in college life. I lived on campus, yeah… It was part of the scholarship and work study program I ran. I was an RA… more like a fucking warden.

I really did enjoy my classes. I couldn't wait til I could take my MCATs and really get into the med program at any of the med schools around. I had my eye on Princeton. So I worked my ass off.

"FUCK you're hot." a frat boy said, obviously drunk off his ass.

"Yeah? Well I'm not interested." I said and kept moving. I spotted Clair, one the girls on my floor. I secretly had a crush on her and I tended to watch her. I never said more than three words to her.

"Oh come on…" He looked at me then traced my view to Claire and smirked. "Wait, you're into chicks?"

"I'm not into drunken sex." I said.

"Come on, it's fun!" He said. "I'm Jay by they way."

I looked at Jay and frowned. "Emma…" I answered reluctantly.

"Claire is my boys girl… she's a freak." He said.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"I mean, if you're willing to fuck her and her boyfriend at the same time, she will." Jay said. I looked at him skeptically.

"She's like a freshman." I said aghast.

"Freshmen are freaks!" He said and laughed.

"Gross." I said pushing him aside and walked toward Claire and her boyfriend. "Claire?"

She looked at me and stared blankly for a moment. Blankly, but Claire wasn't high or drunk. She just didn't know who I was for a second. "Emma right?"

"Yeah," I said.

"It's my RA baby… The hot one I told you about." She said to her boyfriend.

I felt a tingle go down my spine when she said it, and looked at her man who was also really easy on the eyes. I reached for another jello shot and downed it. Okay, I could let loose, just for today.

That was the beginning of a wild untamed summer. As I hopped from bed partner to bed partner. It had been the first time I felt wanted. I felt like I was maybe good enough. I was able to be loved. I filled my days with books and my nights with sex and booze, it was a wonder I was well into my senior year by the time Fall came along.

"So when do you graduate?" I heard from behind me.

I smiled at Jay who was the only person who ever approached me just to talk to me. I knew it was him. He'd looked really off lately and I had been meaning to ask him what was up. "December… Three more months jay, Then I'm headed to Ohio."

"That's where I'm from." He said. "Cleveland."

I smiled, "Are you headed back?"

"I don't graduate for six months." He said.

"Oh…" I said.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sure," I said stopping in front of my Anatomy class door. His pale blue eyes were rimmed with red and dark circles. He looked so sick. I let my eyes wonder down his body, and he was thinner than he had been the summer. Frail even.

"Will you go out with me?" He asked.

"Jay…" I said stepping back.

"Emma, please… I don't want to pull the dying man card but I will." He said.

I stopped, furrowing my brows. "Dying?"

"I've been watching you for months, wanting to ask you out, and I see the people you sleep with they are super hot Emma I know I can't compare, but I had to try… because you are it for me." He sighed. "But I don't have much more time to wait for the right time to ask you out."

"Jay…"

"I know it's not fair, I know that I'm kind of dumping all of this on you, but I have three months with you here and then you are gone. Who know's maybe you'll like me back."

I sighed and Nodded. "Okay." He smiled the most brilliant beautiful smile I had ever seen on anyone.

"Sign your name here." The officiant asked about two weeks later. I signed Alison Emma Cameron. That was my new Married name. Now I knew I could be untraceable by my baby's parents if they chose to look for his loser mother.

"By the power vested in me by the state of Pennsylvania, I now pronounce you Mr. and Mrs. Jay Cameron." The officiant said.

I looked at my husband's beautiful blue eyes. They were alight with happiness and I was glad that I was giving him this. Jay had a Secondary Glioblastoma growing on his right temporal lobe. The erratic behavior he had been presenting when I first met him was part of it. Alcohol made it worse. He'd been battling it for about two years, and now… well he has all of a six month prognosis.

He told me on our first date, and it broke my heart because I had been taking him for granted as a friend the whole year. Dinner we talked, and I told him things things I didn't think I'd tell anyone. about the foster care system, and Prison and the baby and wanting to be someone completely different.

"you know, if we get married you can change your whole name for free." He said.

I laughed. "Yeah I could be called Alison Cameron."

"Doctor Alison Cameron M.D. sounds good to me." He said. I smiled and nodded sounded good to me too. "Marry me…" he said.

I stayed silent for a few minutes. Maybe I could just push my entrance to Mayo to the summer semester. I could take some time off. I can afford that. "Okay."

"Hey Al… did this really happen?"

I looked at Jay and wrinkled my nose. "Did you just call me Al? Like a dude?"

He laughed. "Yeah I like it. You better get used to it."

I smiled and kissed him. "Lets go home."

We had a decent honeymoon. I mean He wasn't sick the whole weekend, and the sex… well he fucked me like he was dying. It was good.

About a month later I came home from school and the apartment was dark. "Babe?" I said turning on the lights. "Why is it so dark in here?"

"Everything is dark." He said from behind me. He was sitting on the couch tears streaming down his face.

I came closer to him. " What do you mean?"

"I … Loved waking up at night and watching you sleep. You're so beautiful when you sleep. I can't even keep such a small joy as seeing you sleep till I die."

I don't know why I thought I could live with him his last days without breaking entirely. He was just someone else that was going to leave me. I cried. "Maybe, maybe… it's only for tonight." I whispered holding him to me.

He held on to me that night and cried for a long time. I stood and took his hands to lead him to bed and helped him undress. He put his hands on the hollow at the base of my neck and he ran the palms of his hands down my arms and back up pulling me closer to kiss me. "It might be the last time." He whispered.

I"I want to go to Ohio when you graduate." He said to me a few weeks later, his blindness had been a temporary symptom, though now he couldn't drive anymore. "You'll start at Mayo on schedule."

"Jay… I need to take care of you." I said.

"No. I will not slow the Alison train. You have to figure out how to cure these things so no other couple has to suffer like this."

I leaned closer to him and kissed him. "okay." I whispered.

"You ready to deliver the best salutatorian speech ever?" He asked.

I smiled. "I'm so nervous. I don't think I'm brave enough to face all those people expecting the right words from me."

He smiled. "I bet you will know just what to say at the right time."

I slid out of bed and headed for the shower. "I better get going."

"Can I join you?" He asked with a grin.

I blushed a little and paused to look at him. "You think you're up to it?"

He chuckled and shook his head. "Nah… I just like to see that pretty blush."

I showered and headed back out to the room. I never bother to cover myself, I let him see me all the time just to give him a little thrill because thrills was all he could get. I dressed then helped him get ready so that we could get to the auditorium where my graduation ceremony would be.

I took a semester off anyway. I know he didn't want me to but I told him that I needed the break I had been going to school non stop since prison and I needed the break. "Some break" he said.

"Mayo will be there next semester." The underlying you might not be was not said. but he understood. He pulled me to him and held me.

His health declined fast after we moved to Ohio. His mother and father helped while I worked. His brother would come over and hang out with us all the time. He went into Mayo clinic a month into the semester. I watched as the first years rounded on him. I listened intently as if I were one of them. " This is Mr. Cameron, 22 year old male with a Glioblas tumor on his Right temporal lobe. He was admitted after his wife reported a high fever and a bloody vomit." The doctor said to his students. "He had a resection ten months ago through a right temporal craniotomy with a prognosis of an additional half to full year to live. The radiation treatment proved to make the cancer more aggressive and the patient has chosen not to do another resection."

I looked at Jay and frowned. I can't say that I blame him for not wanting to go under the knife again, but It would buy him just a little more time. "So we're just keeping him comfortable." one of the interns asked.

"We treat the symptom ensure he is stable enough to go home or place him in hospice." The doctor said.

I looked at Jay again then back at the doctor. "What about Chemo? I know that's usually reserved for young children but radiation didn't work on him…" I said

They all looked at me. "Baby…" Jay said and I looked at him. "I don't want to get chemo."

"Jay I need more time." I said turning to me.

"Alison I'm tired." He said

I looked at him really looked at him and sighed. The Doctor and the interns just stood there quietly for a few minutes and then The attending said. "What is the treatment recommended?"

"Put him on a morphine drip and an order for hospice." I folded my arms over my chest and answered automatically. My mind turning toward what I knew, what I was studying what I was readying myself for.

"You heard the lady." The doctor said and they all turned to go. but before he left he said. "Can't wait to have you in these halls Dr. Cameron."

After they left Jay turned to me. "You hear that? Dr. Cameron." I sat next to him, he was trying to make me smile, but his mortality was becoming more and more real every day. "Come on Al… take it from me, Life is too short to be sad all the time."

"You're leaving me too…" I said softly.

"Not on purpose Alison, you know this." He said

"I think... I love you Jay." I said. It was the first time I had even uttered the words to him. He smiled.

"Thank you." He said softly, "'cause you know I love you."

I kissed his forehead. "I'm gonna go grab some food, I'll sneak you up a milkshake when I come back."

He kissed my hand and let me go. I never saw his big blue eyes again. He fell into a coma as I walked away, and a full week later, he died in his sleep.

A/N: I know I change her name when she got married because it is a free transaction when you sign your license you can change your name to anything you want. I hope that was filled with enough medical jargon for you we should be getting to the House folk really soon. Til next time, much love!~S.K.