EPOV

I woke up earlier than I expected, and I hated it.

It would remind me of the time I'd wake up early to talk to Isabella... And well, I didn't want to think about it.

I grabbed my phone and opened the photo gallery.

I started browsing through Isabella's photos.

I was missing her.

I wanted to be with her.

I wondered what she was doing right now.

Should I call her?

Oh right, and what would I say?

I put my phone aside and buried my face in my hands.

Had I been too harsh on her?

I mean, she was not wrong. She was working... She was going as per the plans!

Maybe it's not her fault that things changed so drastically!

No, I wouldn't be able to do it on my own.

I was going to tell her that I really needed her.

I would ask her to come here to be with me.

Dad's latest reports were suggesting that things were deteriorating faster than expected, and I didn't know what to do.

I was pretty sure I was about to have a panic attack any moment.

"Hey baby... Are you not able to sleep?" she asked as she answered.

"Yeah..." I said, "I wanted to talk to you."

"Ummm... I'm trying to get this report ready," she said, "Can I talk to you after an hour?"

"Yeah, okay," I said.

And that gave me time to think.

What was I doing?

Why would I beg her to leave everything behind and come to me?

She would do it if I explicitly asked her to do that. I was pretty sure about it.

But what was the point?

She would get tired someday.

I knew what she thought about our culture and traditions.

How could I force her to follow the traditions when she didn't give a damn about it?

She would do it because she loved me... But what was the point?

Loving 'me' wasn't enough.

This country and the crown were part of who I was.

If anyone wanted to love me, they needed to love the 'baggage' that comes with it.

The 'baggage' wasn't optional!

They had to love and respect this 'baggage'... Yeah, they had no other choice!

I sighed again.

Would I ever be able to get over her?

I was missing her so much!

Did I make a mistake by breaking up with her?

And shouldn't I have let her attend the coronation ceremony?

Didn't she deserve to be here?

But what was the point in her attending a ceremony she had got no respect for?

Yeah... I did the right thing.