Two days have passed. I keep thinking of the cute doctor, yet I don't dare doing anything. One day, I will find a permanent antidote and Shinichi will be delighted but I'm not sure I will take it. He will go back to the people waiting for him on the other side: his parents, his high school friends, Ran, and they'll all be happy to have him back. No one's waiting for me, not even my sister. The Detective Boys are the only real friends I ever had and I don't want to lose them. Not yet. I'm not ready to move on.
He's waiting in front of the professor's home. He's not wearing his white coat and he looks even more handsome this way. My heart jumps. What's he doing here?
"Hi," he says. "May I talk to Kate Agasa, please?"
"She moved out of town yesterday."
"That's a shame. Do you know if she'll be back soon?"
"I don't think so. Why?"
"You're her cousin, aren't you?"
"Yes?"
"Then could you please send this to her?"
He gives me an envelope. I'm confused.
"Why? What do you want to do to her?!"
He laughs.
"Don't worry," he says. "I don't want to hurt your cousin. I'd just like to have a cup of coffee with her one day, that's all."
The cat appears from nowhere, rubs herself against our ankles and purrs. I sit down onto the ground and he sits too. We both pet the cat. I feel weird. He wants to ask me out?"
"My cousin is a bit… complicated," I say.
"Is she? She stroke me as a beautiful soul."
"I'm sorry?!"
I'm anything but a beautiful soul. I created a deadly poison, killed many, many people and was unable to save my own sister. He would run away if he knew the truth about me.
"I saw her holding this cat and taking care of it," he says. "People who are kind to animals are beautiful souls."
"You don't even know her."
"That's why I want to get to know her better."
What? What, what, what?! This must be a dream, I'm going to wake up.
"You look like you're desperately looking for someone," I say. "Why? Do your parents put pressure on you?"
"Actually, they cannot put pressure on me. They're dead."
Another thing we have in common. It's weird. Maybe we're not that different.
"I'm sorry for your parents," I say. "But I still don't understand you."
"I guess that maybe you're still too young to understand. But one day, things will change. Someday you're going to meet someone and this person will become very special to you, you see? This is called falling in love."
"Or maybe I'll grow into a strong, powerful woman who won't need to rely on anyone to be complete."
"That would be great, too! Strong women are the best. Anyway, I'm sure you'll grow into a wonderful person."
He ruffles the cat's head playfully. Then he ruffles my hair, too. Suddenly, I'm burning inside. I want to hug him and tell him it's me, I'm the woman he calls Kate Agasa, I'm nearly 19 and I would love to have coffee with him, all the cups of coffee on Earth and even more! But…
"I'll give your letter to my cousin," I say. "Have a nice day!"
I rush inside and I close the door. Then I peep through the window and I watch the cute doctor giving the cat one last cuddle and walking away slowly. I cannot take my eyes off him, he's so…
What's happening to me?
Now I have his email and his phone number. I could send him a message and try to start something long-distance. I could get to know him. Maybe he would wait for me. The problem is, I'm still afraid to move on.
What can I do? What am I going to do? Am I worthy to start something with this angel from heaven? Could it work?
Maybe it wouldn't. But maybe I just want someone to wait for me on the other side…
The end.