The past hour was spent in this same position cuddled in the middle of the mattress, the warmth radiating off Callie's body offering comfort, the strong arms felt like a safety blanket, her steady breaths created a calm.

Arizona hadn't said a word. She couldn't. Her thoughts were consuming her. Her mind felt like a clouded battle field. The feeling was crippling. She hoped if she wound her hands tightly enough around the arms that brought a sense of safety or snuggled closely enough to the body engulfed around her, it would chase away the dark rain cloud that loomed over her head.

But this was good enough, she wasn't alone.

Callie tried to stay as still as possible, if this was the only way she could help right now she would stay like this as long as Arizona needed her to.

One hour ago

"I um... I know you were probably sleeping but I couldn't. I can't... um... I can't stop crying and ..." Her voice cracked on the last word before she bursted into tears.

Callie was greeted with sparking blues and a tear stained face. The blonde could barely form a full sentence.

Callie stepped in from out of the door way and straight to her. "Hey, it's ok, I'm here ok? I'm here for you."

"I tried calling Teddy but think she's asleep. I didn't mean to wake you I just...I-" The latina noticed her breaths getting shallow, pale palms were shaking within her own.

"Hey listen to me ok? You don't have to talk about it right now. I promise I don't mind." A small reassuring smile went along with it. "We're gonna take some deep breaths together. Ready?"

Her eyes still seemed unfocused, like there was some type of an internal dialogue going on but she gave a small nod.

"Ok. We're gonna inhale for three, exhale three."

They did it twice.

Callie could tell she was exhausted, like she really hadn't been getting much rest and it was well past 12. "Do you wanna lie down?"

She didn't really get an answer, she was just led in the direction of Arizona's bedroom.

They got onto the bed and every other after that just fell on instinct.

"How are you feeling?" The burnette thought they'd been quiet long enough for her to have been a little more calm.

"I don't know." There was a silence between them while she thought. "I haven't been sleeping."

"Why and for how long?"

"About 2 weeks. I don't sleep for a couple nights then I'm so tired I crash and it repeats. Since Tim sleeps at his place now, there hasn't really been anything keeping me distracted except if he needs help taking stuff over there. I have so many lesson plans I haven't finished and I want the syllabus to be completed by the end of next month, I can barely focus between not getting enough sleep and my mind constantly running and the only real time I eat a meal is at lunch with you."

Her voice so small, like if she spoke too loudly it would awaken someone.

"You haven't been eating properly for the past two weeks either? I don't like how that sounds." Callie was a little concerned now.

"It's hard to get out of bed in the morning so I don't really have time to do anything but a quick lunch or but something and I'm usually too tired once I get home so I don't make anything. I don't really have much of an appetite anyway." It was hard for her to admit she was struggling, especially because she wasn't even completely sure why.

"Did you have anything to eat tonight? What happened earlier with the crying?"

"I'm useless and I can't get anything done and I keep crying... I don't know what's wrong with me."

Callie sat them up in the bed so they could see one another's faces. "There's nothing wrong with you, we can figure this out one thing at a time yh?"

"Ok." it was soft and hesitant. "I just feel sad and all I do lately is worry, I don't know why. I'm stuck in this hole and the way out is slippery. My dad called yesterday and said my mom has been having a lot of doctor's visits recently, he didn't say much else, I guess that was icing on the cake." Arizona let out a sigh, it was frustrating not having all the right words to explain exactly how she felt.

"Have you felt like this before?"

"It kinda feels how I felt last time. It's really hard but I'm trying." Blue eyes met chocolate brown ones, Arizona hoped all of this wasn't repelling Callie.

"How can I help you?" She would be lying if she said she knew what to say or do.

"Just be there. that's all I need right now." the pink lips turned up in a small smile for the first time that night. "Do you want to go? I know it's late, you probably have stuff to do tomorrow." It was almost 3am, she didn't realise the burnette had stayed with her that long. She honestly didn't even know what time it was when she made the phone call.

"No it's fine, I'm here with you right now. I'm making sure you're ok. I'm gonna go make you something to eat." Callie said getting off the bed.

"Callie no, I'm fine. I'm not that hungry, I can have some cereal or something. It's fine, really." Arizona tried pleading with her.

"I don't mind. You can come out and watch if you want, we can talk some more out there while I put something together. We don't have to talk about anything you don't want to talk about." She held out her hand for the blonde to take.

Arizona got up taking the hand hesitantly letting herself be led into the kitchen.

Sunday

"Um what are you doing here?" She was greeted with Aria in the middle of taking ingredients out of her shelf.

"I live here... occasionally." a lopsided smile that Callie knew would be accompanied by a nosey comment, graced her face. "Where were you?" the question was said in a particularly chirpy voice.

"I asked you a question first." She tried dodging the question.

"Ohhhhhh. You were at your girlfriend's house huh?" Aria circled around the kitchen island to get in some playful pokes.

Callie rolled her eyes trying not to let a smile escape. "You're so annoying. If you must know, yes I was at Arizona's. Now what are you doing in my apartment? We talked about this, you can't just come here to steal food."

"I can't just come over to say hey to my little sis? And I'm not stealing your food, I'm cooking for us."

"Cooking so you can steal some of the food..." Callie grumbled under her breath.

"What was that?" She heard her very well but she took pleasure in getting under her sister's skin. "How's it going with you two anyway? Did you get some last night?"

"Aria shut up!" She threw the kitchen mitten hoping it would hit her square in the head.

It fell short and Aria laughed before changing the subject. "Tìa said she's thinking about coming here for little while."

"Why?" Callie's back straightened a little.

"Call her a little more than ten minutes once a month and maybe you'd know. " Aria said sarcastically with a bit of agitation in her voice. "We keep talking about this, did you ever think maybe she misses you?"

"I called her last week!" Callie said defensively.

"And when's the next time you're gonna call her? Two months from now?" She shot back. "You can't keep ignoring the conversation, you haven't talked to her on the phone for more than fifteen minutes since you left. She wants you to know what exactly happened now that you're old enough to understand fully. She wasn't hiding it from you."

"No! Did the two of you ever think maybe I don't want to know?! That that's why I never bothered asking myself?! Did that idea ever cross your minds by chance." Callie had somehow ended off the kitchen stool and standing directly in front of her sister.

There was a long silence in the room before Callie sat back down where she previously was. She ran her fingers through loose curls, taking a breath, "I'll give her a call soon."

They didn't say much after that they just sat in silence as the food was prepared.

Author's Note

I was thinking about adding more but i didn't want to give to much all at once but i hope you like this chapter, it took a little longer than I planned to finish. I don't know if I did the Arizona bit justice but you all can give your feedback.

I already started the next chapter so another one will be up in a couple hours.