UPDATED CHAPTER

Thank you to Guest Stacy pointing out about Arizona working at the hospital. I appreciate it.

I updated chapter16.

Arizona's POV

I just had to get out of Callie's place. I know I have no reason to be angry. I walked out on her. She had every reason to go on with her life. I don't think I will be able to be this close to her and see her with someone new. I will have to set boundaries. Clear boundaries. We talk to each other about the kids and the kids only.

Callie has been calling me like crazy. Her second text was for me to please just call her, but I can't do that now.

I park the car Carlos had bought us and I find myself in front of the hospital. I feel like I'm on auto pilot. I head straight to Bailey's office. She looks shock to see me.

"Robbins? Shouldn't you be babysitting?"

"Well actually no, or maybe yes. I don't know. I just wanted to know If I can maybe come back to work tomorrow?"

"Woah hold up Robbins. Calm down!"

Bailey probably thinks I've lost it all.

"Listen Robbins, I'm confused? You are kind of still on maternity leave.."

"I know but I just need to like do things, you know. Things other than seeing Calliope Torres all day. And this Head of Peads is leaving end of the month so…."

"What? Robbins no, she is leaving at the end of next month. Then we have someone to fill in for you until you get back, so we are sorted. We made arrangements so you can take your time to get back.. You are technically still on maternity leave if we look at it. That's the reason we asked her to stay an additional month, so you could enjoy Mia. And Aaron and Sofia for that matter."

I look at hera bit confused.

I need to dive deep into work again. I need to spend less time with Callie. The off time I have I need to be spending with my kids. My three beautiful babies.

Again my phone vibrates and Callie just don't stop with the phoning.

"Bailey , look I need to get started . I will go crazy."

"Robbins . Go home. Dr's orders." – she says , showing me the door.

I can see that I won't be persuading Miranda Bailey. Well, who would be able to persuade this woman except maybe Warren.

. I make my way through the hospital back to the car.

Shit she is approaching me. Jada is approaching me and obviously she knows me. We just met the other day. She starts smiling and I know she is smiling at me. Lucky for me I know this hospital by heart. This is my hospital after all. So, I took a slight left. Down the walls of ward C, I move as quickly as possible. My phone is still vibrating.

My word, I can't with this woman. Callie is still calling. Is she not getting the picture? Does she not understand that I don't want to talk to her?

I got to the car and then I realized I can just start walking home. I mean my home is technically just right across the road.

So, as I'm walking my phone is still ringing and again it's Callie. I approach the lobby of the apartment block and my phone stops ringing. I get onto the elevator and as soon as the doors open for the fifth floor my phones rings again. Calliope Torres again!

As I lift my hand to open the door of the apartment, someone opens it from the inside.

The beautiful Latina opened the door to our old apartment. I look at her and it feels like she is looking right through my soul. Her arms are folded, and I can see, she is quite irritated. I am in shock. Actually, I'm speechless. What is she doing here? She hates this apartment. She stares at and me and then she picks up her phone.

Why is my phone ringing? I take my phone out and it's her name showing.

I look up and I see the grin on her face. Her one eyebrow raised, and I sigh. Before I could explain myself, Callie goes on a ramble.

"So you do have your phone. I've been calling you since you left this morning. Why aren't you answering? I thought something happened. What the hell is wrong with you. You have three kids now. Something could have happened to them. Why are you acting like this? Why are you not answering?" She doesn't give me a chance to complete. Then she starts rambling in Spanish.

I looked so confused. She walked inside, still rambling and I followed her inside. I raise my hands to stop her, but a cute little black-haired girly comes and stands between us.

"Mama, you know mommy don't speak Spanish." Sofia says to Callie.

Callie snaps out of her rambling and before Callie can answer back to Sofia, Sofia disrupts her.

"Are you guys fighting?"

I look at Callie's face. She had to fight questions and insecurities from my beautiful little girl for years. I bailed. When things get tough I bail and I need to prove to Callie that this time it will be different.

I bend down to Sofia and hold her face in my hands. "No baby girl, we are not fighting."

"Okay cool." She just pulls up her shoulders and then grabs her iPad. She calls for Aaron and the little boy comes running to her and joins her on the couch. They are watching videos on how to make slime. God help me and Callie with the mess they are about to make.

"Excuse me little man, not even a hello mommy nothing?" – I say as I go and hug and kiss Aaron. I sneak in a little kiss for Sofia too.

I can feel Callie giving me a stare down. She must be so upset by now. She wants to talk but how do we talk with these two cuties around.

"Callie, where is Mia?"

"She is asleep in Sofia's old room." I can see her eyes starts to glitter, she hates this place.

"I know you want to talk but do you want to do it here? I know that you hate this place so we can grab the kids and head back to your house if you want to?"

She doesn't say anything she just tilts her head to what use to be our bedroom. She starts going that way and I follow her. Before I close the door behind me, I tell the kids to be good.

As I close the door, almost shocked Callie looks around and asks me: "You sleep in here."

I guess she still remembers that it is only me that can mess up a bed this much. The sheets are everywhere. She knows I don't particularly like to make my bed.

I look around and all the memories come back. My body almost goes into shock, and I basically had to pull myself from it. "Yes I do." I laugh as I answer.

"There's that laugh again." She says.

She continues. "I know that laugh Arizona, you laugh like that when you anxious or nervous or just upset."

"God, you know me so well." – I sigh.

Before she continues, I set my record straight. "I laughed because I was upset. Upset because I was caught up in this dream that somewhere we are living happily ever after. In my mind you were my wife, you have always been my wife."

I look at the beautiful Latina, a Latina that was once all mine and she is crying.

"I don't want you to cry and I don't want you to be upset. I just… I don't know what we are doing. For me , for now, I just need to focus on our kids.

I don't want to relapse and I nearly did. When I left your house, I wanted to go to a bar but I didn't because of those three beautiful kids on the other side of that door.

That to me says that if we didn't have them and you told me you had sex with some else, I would've relapsed. And yes I know we are not together and we weren't together but still to me we've always been together.

To me , this that happened this morning…. Me almost having a relapse… to me that means I'm not strong enough for anything other than co-parenting with you."

Callie walks up to me she gives me a hug and then she pulls me away. And then she asks me something I don't know how to answer.

"I don't understand Arizona, I honestly don't. You just said all of this just now but you also said you would wait for me. Wait for me for what? What did you mean?

REMEMBER TO REVIEW? ALSO, ANYONE ON WATTPAD? THINKING OF TRANSFERING THIS STORY AND A NEW ONE I STARTED ON.

I WILL TRY AND FINISH THIS STORY UP TO CHAPTER 20 SO WE ARE NEARLY AT THE END OF IT. SO I CAN COMPLETELY FOCUS ON THE NEW ON.

ALSO BEAR IN MIND THAT ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE AND I'M TRYING.

THANKS FOR ALL THE LOVE. HOPEFULLY WHEN GREY'S FINAL SEASON REACH WE WILL HAVE THE FULL CALZONA ENDGAME.

LOVE

Xx QUEER SOLDIER.