Warning this story is for Mature readers only.

I heard my name being called over and over again. "Sakura, Sakura my mother voice is calling me from the kitchen.

I growl to myself and roll out of my comfortable bed.

I take my sweet time to neatly tuck the corners of my bed sheets under white mattress this the last morning that I will be here! to do any task for months to come.

"Who know's If I will return," I said to myself.

"What if I feel in love with someone else there!?" I said.

"If I'm lucky, I will get married to him," I said.

"Sakura!" She calls again.

"Mothers can be annoying," I said.

The smell of breakfast triggers my noise.

I hear two voice echoing through the house.

"I wonder who mother is talking too?" she has the habit of talking to herself."

"Where did I put those oranges," she said.

"I found them Mrs. Haruno, " a male voice said.

"The voice sounds familiar," I said.

I slap myself on my cheek, my boyfriend Deidara is here! to company me and my mother, as she drops me off on a college campus.

I feel a knot in my stomach that is growing with each step, I take to the bathroom, by the time I start the shower, It's a pain in the butt.

I spent the last few years nervously think of going to college.

I have attended a high school party with my sister Shayla, I got very drunk on Smirnoff sour watermelon and I didn't know I was passing a joint among my friend and my sister Shayla, after an hour I and my sister Shayla got the munchies.

Since that day I and my sister didn't attend any more parties, so instead my weekends I spent them with my sister Shayla studying and preparing are selves for this day while my high school friends, continue to get drunk somewhere, frying their brains out by smoking the natural herb of weed, letting their future slip through their fingers like water.

Flashback.

I remember like it was yesterday, I was sitting outside on my stairs waiting for Yuney the mail lady to deliver the mail when I saw the white mail truck stop in front of my pink house.

I blink a couple of times when, I saw Yuney heading my way, "hello pinkie she said.

Don't call me that Yuney" I said.

"It slips through my lips pinkie," she said.

"Oops It slips again," she said.

I just give her a mad face.

I saw yuney looking inside her huge mail bag, searching for are mail, her you go, sweetie, she said.

I grabbed the mail from her hands, as I looked through, I did a dance, my acceptance letter to George, Washington State University, was finally here!.

"Should I open it," I said.

"No I shouldn't" I answer my own question.

I can hear a voice inside my head, "open it" she said.

"You never know if you got accepted," the voice said.

I listen to the voice inside my head, I open it.

"Yes, I got accepted" I shouted inside my head.

"Good for you!" the voice said.

"Thanks," I said.

"I'm talking to myself," I said.

"Mother, mother, mother were are you," I said.

I saw mother running out of the kitchen wearing an apron.

"Sakura why are you shouting," mother said.

"Mother I got accepted as I flash the paper in front of her face.

"Let me see," mother said.

I placed the letter on her hands.

I saw her eyes roaming the paper up and down, and then she read it.

She cried for hours, and I have to admit, I was very proud of myself, all my hard work finally paid off. I had once considered leaving Washington for college but... I was thinking about leaving mother on her own.

My father passed away a year ago, he got shot a couple of times, he was called in to check on a violence call. Since that day he passed away, I have not stopped visiting his grave. I went on my own to visit him on father days, mother was at work and, I bought him a balloon that said, to the best father in the world, I wrap it around the flower vase.

When the holidays come around it was hard for me and mother, to celebrate thanksgiving dinner, It was not the same anymore since father passed away, so instead of mother cooking turkey. We will go out in eat at a fancy restaurant. For christmas it was the same, we didn't decorated the christmas tree or hang christmas lights, Instead I and my mother will go to his grave, and we will decorate it with Christmas ornaments.

I will look up at the sky to have a conversation with him, daddy I miss you so much, I remember sitting in your lap when I was smaller, and you open the books of memory lane, you will tell me you join the police academy after turning 18

Father has served the police force for 30 years. He died when he was 48

"Fuck it, " I said. Mother has survived on her own.

The end of Flashback.

I moan as I felt the hot water relaxing my strained muscles, how long have I been in here? I hurry and wash my hair and body, running a razor over my legs to remove the small stubble that has appeared over the weekend.

As I wrap the towel around my wet body, my mother calls my name again. I ignore her, I know she is nervous for my first day at college, but I have had this day planned down for months. My boyfriend Deidara shouted "hurry up girl" he said. He is one grade younger than me and for the hundredth time, I scolded his mother for putting him in Kindergarten a year late. Deidara keeps a perfect grade point average, he is smart and handsome, he will be joining me at George, Washington University next year.

I wish that he was coming with me, we can be roommates, I won't feel like, I was the only single person at college.

"Sakura"

"I am coming down now, please don't call my name again!" I yell as I walk down the stairs.

I was wearing a black shirt with short sleeves "saying I look hot." And a pair of khakis, with black pumps.

Mother didn't know that I have a cherry blossom tattoo on my back, I had it done three months ago, she against them.

Father had a couple of tattoos that he show me, and mother had to deal with it every time, she wipe a blood stain from his back or on his wrist.

My father name was Kizashi, he died at 48 year's old. He had his last name on the back as a tattoo Haruno. On his right wrist, he had my name Sakura, on his left wrist he had my mother name Mebuki. Cross his chest he had the word live your life like if you were dying.

Deidara is sitting at the table across from my mother, dressed in a black polo shirt and khakis. His blonde hair is pulled back into a ponytail and half is covering his slanted blue eyes.

Deidara has a tattoo of a bird on his back.

"There she is my college girl," He said.

I saw a smile on his lips so bright as the sun while standing he pull me into a tight hug.

"Hey," I give him a smile and pull my bubble gum hair into a bun once he releases me from his grip.

"Honey, we don't have time for you to fix your hair," My mom says quietly, giving me a worried look.

I make my way to the mirror in the hallway and I give a nod, mother is right. My hair needs to be presentable for today, and of course, she didn't hesitate to remind me. She never does.

"I will put your bags in the car babe" Deidara offers and picks up the keys from the table. With a quick kiss on my lips, he disappears.

I heard the door being closed.

The knot in my stomach keeps turning more into a huge knot, I walk out of the house and make my way towards the car, at least, I have two hours for this knot to disappeared. My twin sister Shayla is already on campus Gaara drop her off on campus about an hour.

AN1: This story contains mature content, including cursing, some fighting, and some lemons, and drinking and some smoking, and also some drugs, and party animals.

AN2: You can leave a review, but I love the favorites and followers more.

AN3: There be more pairing along the way.