A/N LONG CHAPTER BUT THIS IS A GREAT ONE.

"Spencer, are you okay?" I asked as I entered Spencer's bedroom. It was clear that day that Alison wasn't even remotely interested in engaging with me. As soon as I entered the bedroom, she turned and looked at the window, completely avoiding me. Just as I was doing the same exact thing all day.

Spencer was plopped on her bed with her knees folded and raised up to her chest. She was sandwiched between Aria and Hanna. Meanwhile Alison was sitting on the bay window.

"I was at the barn feeding the horses," Spencer responds, shaking with fear. "I know I shouldn't have been out late after what happened to Alison. I could feel someone following me, next thing I know, A is there and he grabs me and throws me to the ground and starts kicking me. And then when I tried to get up, he sprayed me in the eye and ran away."

"Do you think we should call the police," Hanna asks, stroking Spencer's hair trying to calm our friend down.

"No," Alison responds, finally shifting her gaze at us. "It won't do us any good. That'll just piss A off even more. Plus I think they are useless. They should have figured it out with all the technology we have these days."

"Like what Alison said, " Aria pointed at the blonde girl at the bay window. "We need to figure out a plan. How we can catch A."

Alison stands up and walks towards us with her arms crossed. She shakes with fear and says breathlessly. "I'm the one that A wants. Whoever this person is, when they give me a text, i'll reply back and give them a location, date and time."

"No," I said firmly, finally looking at her eyes. She looks back at me in surprise. Even though we weren't on good terms at the moment "You are not going to take the fall for this. Not like last time."

"So I guess I finally get a thanks for it," Alison remarked snarkily. "But no Emily, I have a plan."

"And so what is your plan, Alison?" Spencer's voice spoke up hoarsely. "Because your plan sounds dangerous and could get you killed especially if you bring us into this."

"But don't you see," Alison rolled her eyes. "You guys are being brought to this either way. But if we just sit here and do nothing. It won't help us."

"Alison, please stop thinking just about yourself this time," Aria snapped. "Every decision you make affects not just met but all of us."

Alison walked back to the bay window, picked up her bag and turned around. She was furious and my god, she looked so beautiful with her annoying attitude. I shook my thoughts away in anger.

"Trust me, I know what I'm doing," Alison shoots back, her eyes darkening. "If you don't want it on my plan then that's fine. I can fend for myself while you girls swaddle like ducks in a pond waiting for A's next move."

"Alison," I walked slowly to her. I watched her swallow her throat as I moved closer, she could tell I was getting pissed by the moment "I thought we were in this together. You said it yourself, we are supposed to work on this together."

"We are," Alison replied, gaining confidence back in her voice. "But you girls refuse to listen to me. And that's fine by me, but I'm not going to stand and take this anymore. You don't understand what I'm going through right now."

Furious, I raised my voice at her. "What the fuck do you mean we don't understand what you are going through? The girls and i literally got chased in a car by A the other day, Spencer got attacked, i got a rat in my locker and was choked by A. This past year hasn't been easy for us. But what makes this okay is that we stick together. We don't turn on each other."

The other girl's eyes widened in shock as they watched me argue with Alison. Her blue eyes went from anger to desperation. "Look Em, I have a plan."

"Oh, i'm sure you do," I shake my head and roll my eyes. "The problem is that your plans affect all of us. You ruined my life this past year and with all this negative attention since this incident. Alison, i, no i mean we…wish we never met you. "

Alison looks ataken back, i could see the hurt in her eyes. She shifts her gaze towards the girls and back at me. My voice starts to crack and I continue with tears rolling down my eyes. "I stuck up for you, against Paige, against Spencer, against my parents and against everyone. I wasted so much time on you."

"Em," She said softly, she moved closer and placed her hand on my shoulder. I move it away in disgust. "I can still find who A is."

"No, Ali," I shot back angrily. "I'm so done with you. We are done with you."

It pained me to see the hurt look on her face. But I couldn't just deal with this girl anymore. She was too toxic, she always cared about herself more than everyone else and always toyed with my feelings. I was done with getting my heart broken. My anger took away my empathy, I don't care anymore. I was so fucking done with this bitch.

Alison looked at us with hurt in her eyes. "See, this is what A wants. He, she, they or whoever doesn't want us all together. Stop with this dumb bullshit because A will come after you too once this person gets to me. But not if i get to A first. But if something happens to me. you will all be next. Don't you see?. Who's going to help you get out of it when i'm not there to protect you?"

We said nothing. Her facial expressions went from hurt to vicious. "Don't say I didn't warn you." She said sharply. Alison turned around and left the room leaving all 4 of us.

Spencer started clapping her hands. "Way to go Em!" The other girls start clapping too.

I stood there wondering if I regretted my actions and that it was for the best for leaving Ali high and dry with no one to protect her. I shake my thoughts away. No, i was not going to give Ali another chance. If you give someone too many chances, they'll burn right through them without learning a lesson or giving an ounce of remorse.

ALISON POV

I turn off the lights and cover my body underneath the warm comforters. I lay here unable to sleep because of the thoughts running through my body. I couldn't help but think about my former friends? Was Emily right? Was I just selfish and only thought about myself? Sure, I have made terrible decisions these past four years. But i think i was a good friend to them, the only thing was, i did a shitty job of showing it. I wasn't perfect, but maybe it was because of how i was raised to be this way. If I was this terrible person, I wouldn't have an ounce of remorse.

Yes, I admit, I thought I was the shit. I was beautiful and I had every guy chasing me for my heart. I was rich, beautiful and I had everything. My mother taught me to be confident and not care what others thought at a young age. I owe it all to my mom though as I believed her. She told me that I was perfect and could do no wrong. Ultimately, it led me to think that I was higher than everyone else. It was drilled into me from a young age when I took ballet lessons and did pageants. My mom told me I was better than everyone else. I believed her and it led me to treat everyone as if they were losers. But they were these moments that in fact, I did feel insecure about myself. It was only then when I learned about taunting others that it made me feel good. I watched my mom berate a co-worker and I saw how good it made her feel. Once I entered high school, I wanted a group of girls to boss around and more or less be friends with. I was the queen bee of Rosewood High and had the entire school on my finger tips. But where did that get me?. I took advantage of my power and where did that lead me to? It sent me to jail. It was only then that I had lot of time to think. Especially about Emily, I didn't want to think about her. i would rather not go there

Have you ever wanted a do-over?.I always thought do-overs were for losers. They make tragic choices about their hair, clothes and boys. While I had everything figured out. But lately I have had a lot of time to think. What would i do-over if i could?. Would a second chance change history?

Flashback

I was walking through downtown Rosewood. I stop and stare at my reflection through a store window. Suddenly, i hear a voice call out my name. "Alison" I spun around to find loser mona running towards me. I smirked at her, she was so fucking ugly.

"I really like your hair," She smiles widely at me. "I've been trying to get my hair like that but it just won't cooperate."

"Mona, there are cancer patients with better hair. If I were you and I'm happy that I'm not," i sneered. "I would stop trying."

Flash Back Ends

I close my eyes with a tear rolling down my cheek. But it's easier to say you do something different. But If I had a chance to do a do-over. It would change both of our lives. But the question is, would I take it?.

REDO FLASHBACK

"Mona," I say. "I think I can help you. But you have to trust me okay?"

She smiles widely at me as I grab into the store for new clothes. An hour or two later, we both walk around laughing, smiling and holding hands. She was my friend now.

Redo Flashback Ends

Maybe if it had been different. I wouldn't have gone to jail and maybe just maybe, I wouldn't be dealing with A. I wouldn't have dealt with the karma i was given

ALISON POV

At least it was Friday, I was in the bathroom checking on my makeup. I hear a noise. I turn around and see Paige McCullers. I had a gut feeling in my stomach that she was A. It was then i decided to butter her up so she wouldn't do anything to me at this moment. I hate to admit it, i was scared of her. She was physically stronger than me. I had to be more careful with what i say especially since i'm alone with this bitch. Now that i know what she's capable of.

I slowly walk towards her and say shakily. "I'm really sorry about yesterday. It's just me and the girls have been going through something scary right now. Thank you for not calling the police."

"Don't be," Paige responded. "I actually was looking for you. I wanted to talk to you about something."

I look at her with confusion and say. "Ok, go ahead. Talk."

"I need to know," Paige respond gaining confidence in her voice. "Do you love her?"

I give her a confused look, "Love who?"

"Emily, " Paige answered.

Shocked and scared, I turned around. I knew it. She was doing this to separate Emily and i. I couldn't answer her question so I replied. "I'm the last person you should be asking about love."

"You didn't answer the question, " Paige said looking for the truth in my eyes. "You know Emily loves you. Maybe you've known about it and that scares you. That's why it made you such a terrible person and that's why you were always so vicious to me. You are jealous and so you decided to scheme against me and taunt me with all of these years."

She pauses for a moment, thinks to herself and says quickly. "Like Emily said, you must have changed because you stopped bullying the kids here at school so for that, I'm sorry."

I closed my eyes, turned to her, shook my head and responded. "I was terrible and sometimes, I still am and that's why you can't ask me about Emily."

I couldn't believe the conversation I was having with Paige. Even if she was A, I couldn't understand her motives for this very specific conversation. I promised myself, I wouldn't lie because I think she could catch my bullshit from a mile away. Because if I lied, i would be dead.

"You find it so hard to be honest with yourself," Paige laughed in disbelief. "You probably don't have alot of practice.

"Not really, " I admitted. "People don't like the truth. The truth is slippery, you can't depend on it."

"Try it, just for a minute." Paige whispered.

"I know how I feel when she looks at me. I never felt like that with anyone before. It's like she sees who you really are," i answered back, finally acknowledging my own feelings. And maybe that's the scariest part. You look at her, you look at her eyes and you wanna be worth the effort and you want to be the person she sees."

Paige's lips formed into a smile. "Thank you. That's all I wanted to know."

I shake out of my own thoughts. "But i didn't answer your question.

"You didn't," Paige interjected. "But the old Alison might have lied to me to get out of this." Thank you. That's all I wanted to know."

I sigh breathlessly as I watch her walk to the bathroom. Tears spilled out of my eyes, this was the first time I ever vocalized my own feelings to someone and finally admitting to myself that i loved Emily after all these years. I only chalked it up to just wanting to be her favorite best friend out of the group since I trusted her the most and she was the weakest link of the group. She was the easiest to control. But lately, it has been getting hard to get her to listen to me these days. She's stronger now and I played a huge role in that. I just couldn't bring myself to think the thoughts that i've been having.

I realized I was wrong, I thought I knew everything about myself. But i didn't.

EMILY POV

It had been a week since I had a falling out with Alison. A has been quiet this past week. I was enjoying myself in bed watching movies and digging myself through bowls and bowls of popcorn. I shove it into my mouth. I honestly didn't want to think about her anymore.

Suddenly the door opens and my mom walks in with the phone in her hand. She looks at me with a concerned face. I look back at her in worry.

"Miss. DiLaurentis called. She told me Alison went shopping with a friend but never came home that afternoon. Now it's morning and she would figure she would be with you or any of the girls but she's not, " She says with fear shaking in her voice. "Honey, Alison is missing."