SmackDown Filming: March 5, 2013
Randy massaged my shoulders as we're in our locker-room on the couch together. "So the baby shower is the weekend after WrestleMania? Okay."
I nod as I lay against Randy. "The Saturday after WrestleMania more specifically."
"Okay, what's the date?"
"April 13."
"Okay, I'll make sure to not have any plans that day."
"Good, we'll be busy."
"Ya know, it's odd. Obviously, family was important as I was growing up, but I didn't think I was going to be such a big family man."
"Well, you can surprise yourself. Between you and me, I like the whole you being such a big family man thing. It's attractive."
Randy kissed my cheek. "Something tells me that you were a part of bringing that side out of me."
"And you gave me the chance to do better than my mom did. I know I'm still going to worry about being good at this, but nobody's perfect. Plus, there's something that you said way back that does apply here."
"What's that?"
"You're not always going to have your life go the expected way. Sometimes, it'll wonderfully surprise you and change everything."
Randy nodded. "I remember when I said that. I don't think I was wrong. I've been spectacularly surprised by my life. I could've not been that successful as a wrestler. I could've never gotten married. I could've never been able to have kids. I'm lucky."
"Sounds like someone is getting sentimental."
"I am and also am very appreciative, especially of you."
"Thank you. I appreciate you too."
"Good. I want to get home and soak up as much time with you as I can get."
"Thank you. You're a great husband, ya know."
"I hear that's true. I hope it is true. I try not to be a pain most of the time."
"You're not…most of the time. You have your moments, but I think everyone has those."
"Yeah, you're not wrong. I think you're still upset about your brother and what he said when he showed up at our house about a month ago."
"I am. I won't lie about it. He's ridiculous."
"I think ridiculous is an understatement. His behavior is toxic. It's not good for you. Of course, I was friends with him, and we got along. However, even as kids, I remember him having a tendency to lash out, especially at you. I know I've had my moments too, but I like to think I've gotten better. I know occasionally I slip up, but I've apologized for those. He repeatedly does it, especially when he's in relationships for some odd reason, and then he justifies it with something like your mom leaving you guys or your dad not being present since he worked all the time. I notice that he comes off like he thinks you're spoiled. I may spoil you a bit at times, but that's all. Other than that, you're not. I even think he's worse towards Colby at times because your mom left due to being pregnant with Colby. That's not Colby's fault. I try to be civil towards Tyler. I really do, but it's hard these days, especially since I'm now family too. I married you. I can't tolerate his behavior towards you much these days, and sometimes, I don't want to even tolerate how he is towards Colby. I know I'm rambling, but I've had enough of it. That whole thing about a month ago really pissed me off."
"I know." I kiss his cheek. "Do you remember how you mentioned not letting Tyler and Lauren around the kids?"
"Yeah…"
"I think we shouldn't let them around the kids. I hate saying it since he's my brother and it's essentially cutting our kids off from cousins, but I don't like the idea of him being around them at the moment. Tyler could lash out at them or upset them by lashing out at one of us. He could even make them think it's okay to lash out like that, especially at siblings, when it's not. I'm not going to let my kids be exposed to that. I don't know what you want, but I'm letting you know what I think."
"I don't think I could agree with you more. I don't think we should be closed off from reconnecting in the future, but I think for now, you're right. We shouldn't allow our kids to be exposed to that behavior."
"Glad to know we're on the same page."
Randy pulled me close. "Of course. I need to get ready for my match."
"You should probably do that."
After the SmackDown filming was over, Randy and I went to dinner with Colby, Roman, and Dean to discuss the Six Man Tag Team match that all of the guys were involved in at WrestleMania. Everyone except Colby and I had ordered food from the a la carte section of the menu, so everyone else was up getting their food while Colby and I were alone at the table, waiting on our food.
"Randy and I made a pretty big decision." I tell Colby.
Colby raises an eyebrow. "What's that?"
"We're not going to allow Tyler and Lauren around our kids. Tyler's behavior has gotten too toxic for me to tolerate it. I feel like Lauren is almost encouraging it. It's gotten out of hand. I don't want my kids to be exposed to that. Hell, Randy and I probably won't talk to them for quite some time."
"I understand. I still don't intend on being around them any time soon either."
"That's fair. Just remember that you're more than welcome around me and Randy and the kids any time you want."
"I know. I appreciate it."
I nod as the others are heading back. "Of course."
Randy kisses my forehead as he sits next to me. "Still waiting on your food?"
"Yeah."
"Here. Eat some of my mozzarella sticks."
"Thanks, babe."
The guys are discussing the plans for WrestleMania as my food arrives and I quietly start eating. I feel the baby kick and smile to myself.
Randy looks at me. "Are you okay?"
I nod. "Yeah, the baby just kicked."
Randy laughed. "Good. He seems like an athletic little boy already."
I try my best to enjoy the remainder of the dinner, but I honestly couldn't fully enjoy it due to thinking about the decision made to not allow Tyler near the kids.
