Wednesday: April 10, 2013 12:24 P.M.

Randy looked at me as we were both in my hospital room. "So I think I have an apartment we can go check out to have rented out while we're still here in New Jersey for the baby."

"You're gonna go look at it first?" I ask as I lay in the hospital bed.

"Yeah, I'm making sure the place is up to standard before we rent it out for you to stay in after the hospital releases you."

"Thank you, Randy."

"Eve and Ryse were talking about staying up here with you Monday and Tuesday next week while I'm gone for work."

"That'd be nice, but I hope they don't feel forced."

"I doubt they do. They offered to. I told them that I'd leave it up to you."

"I'll talk to them about it later."

"I know. How are you feeling today?"

"Tired, but I'm anxious since they're supposed to be bringing the baby in today."

"I get that. I'm anxious about it too."

"I've been anxious ever since he's been out of my womb."

Randy nods. "Me too, sweetheart."

"I feel really weird about you not being around so much."

"You and I both. I'm still going to be here as much as I can, but I know it won't be the same."

"I know that too. I love you."

"I love you too." Randy walks over and kisses my forehead.

"We need to open more of these gifts."

Randy grabs the bag. "Do you want to open some now?"

I nod. "It'd be a good idea."

Randy pulls one gift out of the bag. "This one is from Natalya."

I take it from him and open it. "This is a cute onesie."

Randy smiles. "It is."

"You should open one."

"Okay." Randy pulls another gift out of the bag. "This one is from AJ."

I nod. "This should be a good one."

Randy opens the gift. "These are adorable little shoes. These are gonna look good on our little boy."

"Yeah, are you having a hard time really enjoying this right now?"

Randy sighs. "Yeah, I am. It's hard to enjoy it when I'm stressed about you and the baby."

"I agree. Let's just not open any more for now."

"Okay, man, I'm so stressed about everything."

"I understand what you mean. We've just gotta try our best to be optimistic about things."

"It's hard."

"I know."


Ryse, Ted, Cody, and Eve all stood in my hospital room, where Randy and I had been all day.

"How are you holding up?" Eve asks.

"I'm still stressed and tired, but apparently, the baby is doing well enough that they're supposed to bring him by some time today." I answer.

"That's great news!" Ryse exclaims.

"It is, but this is such a stressful situation."

Randy grabs onto my hand. "It is, but like you said, we'll need to be optimistic."

"So you really named the baby after Randy?" Ted asks.

"Yeah, we did." I answer. "And I'm fine with that."

"I got an apartment to look at to possibly get for while we're here. Does anyone want to join me when I check it out to make sure it's up to standard?" Randy asks.

"I'll go." Ted answers.

"Me too." Cody adds.

"Ryse and I can stay with Rissa while you do that." Eve says to Randy.

"Okay, thank you." Randy responds.

I smile at Randy. "I love you so much."

"I love you too."

"Just out of curiosity, does anyone know if the dirt sheets picked up on me giving birth yet?"

"Not that any of us have seen." Ryse answers. "We were gonna let you know if we found out it was."

"I'm glad it's not. I like the idea of privacy for a while."

"Hopefully we'll get it." Randy mutters.

I sighed as I played with Randy's hand. "We will for a little bit at least."

"You're right. A little bit."

"I'm just hoping not too much information gets out right now."

"Same here."


Randy and I both were in the hospital room when they brought the baby in inside his incubator. I was a bit upset about the condition I had to see him in, but I was glad to see my child.

"He's precious." Randy whispers.

"He's amazing." I reply with tears in my eyes.

There's a part of the incubator that I can use to touch the baby, so I do just that. He seemed comforted by my touch. I smiled at the baby.

"He knows his mommy." Randy comments.

I smile. "Yeah, hi, little one, mommy's here. I'm sorry you're going through all of this."

Randy looked at me. "Things are going to be okay. They have to be."

"I know. Now that I'm looking at him, I'm certain that naming him after you was the right thing."

"I'm glad you're happy with that. I love you two and Al so much. I couldn't ask for anything more."

"We all love you too. Do you want to touch the baby?"

"Sure." Randy moved closer, so he could do that. "I can't wait to be able to hold him."

"You and me both. I already feel so overprotective of him."

"Me too honestly. He's our little guy."

"He's the cutest little thing. I love him so much."

"Me too. He's fighting through all of this. He's already a fighter like us. He'll be okay."

"I just wish this wasn't so hard for all of us."

"Me too."

I look over at Randy. "Are you crying?"

Randy nods. "Yeah."

I hug him as I start to cry myself. "We'll get through all of this."

"I know, but everything about the situation sucks. We're gonna be separated. The baby is in the hospital. There's too much to do for me to be with you before Al is out of school for the summer. This situation sucks."

"I couldn't agree more. But we'll get through this because that's what we always do."