Sunday: April 14, 2013 5:43 P.M.

I sat on the bed in the master bedroom in the apartment that I'm going to be living in for now until the baby is released from the hospital. Randy was about to leave with Cody and Ted to get on the road to head to Raw tomorrow. However, he wasn't coming back to me this week as Al needed him at home more than I needed him here. It was completely reasonable, but I felt really bothered by knowing Randy and I wouldn't be seeing each other much for a while.

Randy walked into the bedroom and closed the door behind him. "Hey."

I look over at him. "Hey."

Randy sighed as he sat next to me before wrapping an arm around me. "It's not going to be forever that we have to do this."

I leaned against him. "It'll be over a month for sure."

"I know, but we'll be okay. Just make sure to keep an eye on your phone. I'm going to call you a lot."

"Okay. If you don't call, I'll call you."

"Good. Don't hesitate to tell me if you're upset either. Don't bottle it up because I'm not here with you."

"I'll try not to."

"Also please keep me updated if they tell you anything about the baby."

"I will. Tell Al that I said hi and that I love her."

"I will. There's something I wanted to ask you. It's pretty important, and I was going to ask originally after WrestleMania. If you don't want to worry about it right now, that's okay, but I wanted to at least let you know that there was something I wanted to ask about."

"What's going on, Randy?"

"Well, I think we need to start planning for just in case something happens to either of us. I know it's not something fun for us to think about, but it wouldn't just affect the two of us. I hate the fact that it keeps crossing my mind, but do you think it's a good idea?"

I nod. "You're right. It's something we do need to plan for just to be safe. Man, it does suck to think about that though."

"I know. I probably shouldn't have brought it up. We've got enough to stress over right now."

"But we do need to be thinking about it. We're parents. It's not just the two of us."

"I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks it's worth planning."

"It is. Plus, with everything going on right now, I'm worried about anything that can be worried about."

Randy shook his head. "Why do things have to be like this?"

"I don't know. Maybe I was stressing too much while pregnant."

"It isn't your fault that you went into early labor."

"I'm still not so sure about that."

Randy pulled me close and wrapped his arms around me. "I don't think it was your fault. Please don't blame yourself."

I start to cry. "This is so hard."

Randy rubbed my back. "Oh, sweetheart, I know, but you're strong. It'll be okay. We'll get through it. I love you so much."

"I love you too. I'm gonna miss you so much."

"We'll talk everyday. Like I said, I'll call."

"It won't quite be the same."

"I know, Marissa, but that's all we can do for now."

"I know. I love you, Randy."

"I love you too. I can't stay much longer."

"I know." I sigh.

"Hey, it's still forever and always, Rissa."

"I know."

"Things will be okay. Our son is going to get through all of this. We will eventually be able to all be home together."

"But we don't know how long it'll be."

"We don't know, but we'll get there. I actually wanted to give you something before I go." Randy passes me a small book.

"This is the book you read while the baby was in the womb." I comment as I take the book from him.

"Yeah, I figured somebody should read it to him if the chance comes up. I won't be here to do it, so I figured the best thing to do would be to leave it with you."

"Again, you're an amazing dad. I'll read it to him when I can, Randy."

"Good, I need to go."

"I'll walk you out."

Randy stands up and grabs my arm as I also stood up. "Alright."

We walk out of the bedroom. Ryse and Eve are sitting on the couch.

"Ted and Cody are already in the car. They said to take as much time as you need." Ryse tells Randy.

"Alright." Randy replies before turning to me. "I love you so much."

I smile. "I love you too."

Randy pulls me into a long passionate kiss. I kiss him back, knowing it may be the last one for a while.

"Let me know when you get there." I whisper.

"I will. I'll call you. Goodbye, beautiful."

"Bye."

Randy kisses my forehead before exiting the apartment. I close the door behind him with tears rolling down my face.

Eve gives me a concerned look. "Are you okay?"

I shake my head. "Not at all. I don't even know when I'll get to spend time with him again."

Ryse gave me a concerned look. "Do you need anything?"

"No, I think I'm just going to head to my bedroom. Help yourselves to whatever you want."

"Okay. We're here if you need anything."

"I know. Thanks." I walk back into the master bedroom and close the door behind me.

I sit down on the bed, knowing I'm about to start crying again. I knew I'd need to take some time to adjust to this, but that still wasn't going to help how much I'm missing Randy.

I looked over at the book Randy had left for me to read to the baby when I got the chance. I knew without a doubt that him leaving me and the baby here was so hard for him too.

I knew we'd end up getting through this, but it was going to be so hard.