It has been so long since Riley left. Things are getting better in our friend group, but we are all branching out. We are making new friends and trying new experiences. Which is what Riley would want for us.

Maya and I are struggling. We have put some distance between us while we figure out what our future holds. We both just feel so guilty. We lied to Riley and because of it not only did we lose her, but our friends did too.

People love being around Riley, she's just so fun and caring, so I have no doubt she has made new friends. I just hope they do better than we did. I hope they care, but they don't try to make decisions for her. We never should have done that.

Zay and I managed to get on the soccer team and we are both really excited to move forward with this experience. Zay and I have managed to patch our relationship up and are back to being the best friends we always were. Which I am so happy about.

I know my next step is to fix things with Maya. Whether that is us fixing our relationship or going back to our friendship, I'm not sure. We need to have a long serious talk and figure out the best decision for the two of us.

What we have going on isn't healthy and Riley would hate to see us like this. If any of us ever want Riley to forgive us, we have to keep moving forward. We have to do better and not try to use Riley as an excuse for why we aren't.

I am going to play soccer and work hard in school. And try to do better with my friends and Maya. I just want to try to enjoy this school experience, Riley wants that for us.