Pound after pound against his skull, the pain kept his awareness nullified. No other migraine came close to this level of pain. It made his movements inoperable and kept him grounded. Geus was forced into a ball and constantly dug his fingers down from the back of his head and to his eyes. The only positive side found of is his pain was his senses and mind returned.
"Just leave me behind with the rest of my friends." The fourth brother complained. "I think my nerves finally died out, can't feel a god damn thing"
"We can't leave you behind like this, the extent of your injuries are unclear." Yaoyorozu looked out into the scenery as she thought of a plan. All of them are locked for the second round and carried safe passage around. Yet once she looked back at the scraps of a man, it didn't feel safe.
"My brothers will come to get me anyways." He eyed Geus. "They won't understand the situation but they won't hold back anything once they see me." He shifted his body to Tsu. "Take your big friend and get out of here. I'll survive."
"Ribbit. I have to agree with Yao-Momo here, ribbit. If we leave you here and help doesn't arrive on time then things could get much worse for you."
"Arghu!" He head slammed back in into the behind him. "I don't want to see the guy who ruined my life!"
'Ruined my life.' Geus mind dived back, resurfacing old memories. Probably the earliest memories he had as a child, and the ones he so desperately tried to suppress. All were said by different people, at different times, and different places. And they all shared one thing in common. Each one ruined their life.
It wasn't happy birthdays sung to him, it was 'another year of shame'. 'No I love you', but a 'you ruined my life'. The thought that he left this side of him sadly returned. To bring on more embarrassment and also regret. Now the thought became something he'd never forget. No matter where he ran or surrounded himself with. Somebody somewhere would get their lives destroyed by his quirk.
'What are you doing out here boy!' Geus grandpa shouted. 'You ruined your mother and father's livelihood, so don't ruin mine!' He would slap Geus across the face and shoved him out the nearest door. 'Sad enough I have to watch you. Get back and study, make yourself useful somehow.' A large cigar started to burn in his mouth and the door closed. 'Another boy trying to rescue you needs your smarts. And don't let him down boy.'
"No!" Geus shouted out. 'It's not your fault' a voice other than his own stammered his movement. 'I know that voice.' His own played over the other. 'Come on, the rally is in town lets go see it. Come on Gaz, you need another hug?' The other voice took over again, and with it, the migraine disappeared alongside it.
Geus slammed his fist into the pillar and pulled himself up. He reached back down and retrieved the mask before he strapped it on. "I didn't ruin nobody's lives!" Geus squatted down to his level. Geus's eyes beat red from the pressure he shoved through them. "I told you once what would happen if you continued on that with me. You saw first hand what happened!" Geus's fist closed down and slammed into the wall and half an inch away from his face.
"You don't deserve to be here! You have no control over your power and your emotions, you're the reason we'll all die by you!"
'You're the sole reason your mother and father died. For the sake of returning you to normal.' Maria's voice echoed in his head. It was their first visit when Geus was first placed in the detention center. Her eyes poured out all her emotions; the pain and agony, the desire to get revenge. And Geus was the center of it all. 'You're going to kill the whole family if you get out. I can't wait to sue your ass into a pit of no return when you turn eighteen. Two years, two fun years of waiting.'
"Fuck this." Geus burst back up to a full stance. He looked at Momo with eyes the same as Maria's. A year ago and today have the same look, to kill the person that caused them. "It's obvious you're leading them all. Your choice if I get to leave him, bring him, or"
Tsu grabbed his arm and tugged it. "I don't think you should finish that."
His eyes didn't break with Momo's. Right now Momo's fear didn't phase him. In a couple minutes it would but right now is right now. He didn't hide the factor or deny his emotions led how he acted. Ignoring it was different. As long as he didn't do anything to regret it later. After that was a whole other situation.
"I'm going to the victor's room. Your choice for how it happens." Geus pulled off Tsu from his arm and walked over to the hole he created. His feet jumped up to the ledge, he turned over to the crew. His fingers tapped his forehead then out to them. "Choice decided huh?" His feet jumped off the edge and out into the air. A free moment of peace. "I'll apologize later."
Geus pulled the mask off his face and cracked open his mouth. The hard gas flowed out into a giant spike and struck into the glass. Each panel of glass he passed, his gas broke through each one. And one by one it slowed his free fall decent to the ground.
He kept his head down and walked away from the building. It was a long and thought fulfilled walked back. The one positive thing out of this experience was a free time to think. Nobody was around from his school to bother him and all the other students had to avoid him. As cool and calm as it was, the thought still lingered. Who was that girl? What happened after his mind went blank?
Any excuse was a good enough excuse to Apologize to Yoa-Momo. Everything was already on the top of his mind. All points could be spat out one after the other in pure sincerity. The other questions for himself weren't easy to come out with.
If that memory was from as far as he could remember, that voice was different to the max degree. As familiar as it was nobody he remembers had that voice. Not Jiro, or Ms. Joke, Maria, his mother, Midnight, nobody he's ever encountered had that voice. Plus there was nobody to ask, all connections previous of his quirk were abandoned. Until his mind could recuperate what was repressed, it seemed like a dead end.
Then there was Jiro. Whatever he said to her made her distant. When he first regained consciousness Jiro was as close as they've been physically. Then his mind became conscious of everything. And Jiro pushed away, even Tsu was adamant about things.
So many questions that had no answers. It didn't matter if they were resolved right away. The building was insight and a full another round had to be played off. As soon as that door was pushed open, all other thoughts had to be switched off.
Geus pushed open the front doors. At first, it was loud and full of rowdy teenagers. The closest man to him hushed when their eyes met. And the chain reaction followed as everybody else became silent. No one in sight was his ally, Todoroki was still questionable at this point. Then the hushed whispers began.
It was hard to hear them all but the simple jist played through. All of them thought he was out of control and worried about themselves. It made his heart race and the gas stronger. His eyes glanced at the monitors in the room, they saw everything he did. The row of monitors played different parts of the field and focused on different battles. Nothing he did was a secret to these people.
"Don't push anything." Todoroki's hand grabbed Geus's neck and the other shoved a mask in his chest. "You've come this far."
The coldness Shoto placed on Geus's neck managed to settle his flow down to a whisper. "Glad you have my back." Geus grabbed the mask from his grip and attached the magnets together.
"Thank Beka. I wasn't paying attention when she stopped in."
"Close enough."
"Ah thank goodness everyone's okay!" Momo broke the silence from everyone. She became the relief of the room and returned things to how they were. The groups reappeared and the chatters started up.
"Everything alright?" Midoriya walked over Geus's other shoulder. "The room is not what I thought It'd be."
"Everything's fine."
"Tensions are high." Todoroki said. "Eleven of us here and only eighteen spots left."
Geus looked up to the monitors. "I'm sorry Momo, Tsu, Shoji, Jiro, I lost control of who I was and what my goals are. I was set off track of who I was, it's not a good apology I know. But I know no other way to say it."
"Ah, did you hurt somebody's feelings?" Kaminari jumped around Geus's back and shook his body around. "And now you have to apologize to a bunch of girls? And Shoji?" Denki continued to laugh.
"I cut off both hands of a boy, exploded his leg and wanted to leave him behind to die."
Kaminari froze, the expression on his face became one Geus knew immediately of. "You're serious aren't you?"
"Woah man." Kirishima grabbed Geus's arm and pulled on it. "What happened out there?"
Geus tugged his arm back and shoved Kaminari off his body. "I don't deserve to be here. Not being in control of my body is no excuse for what happened out in the field. And Jiro." His eyes closed and his fingers curled tight into a fist. He couldn't bear to see their faces. Even if this was a weak outburst in his part, right and wrong still plagued his mind. "It's only right if I pull myself from the exam. Somebody with control of their quirk deserves this spot."
"You're damn right somebody does." Bailey shouted out into the room. The people inside turned to the back doors, four new men stood at the open spot. In a diamond formation, the back three were in all black from head to toe and didn't show any of their skin. The frontman was the best surprise he's seen since the departure of the facility. In the same gear as the other men but didn't have the helmet on like the rest. "Going that careless." The gun in his hands was pushed around to his back. He moved forward and created a free path to Geus. "Someone this reckless that places other future heroes in harm's way and murders one another is not heroes." Bailey wrapped his hand around Geus's neck and lifted him off the ground. "Everyone in this room sees the damage you created and the impact it had on everyone. In regular exhibition you'd be pulled from ranks and shoved into custody. And I can tell you right now that you'd never get out if that happened and tarnish the brand U.A. has created for themselves." Bailey smirked. His eyes closed as his mouth began to swell up. His mouth broke open though and the laughter came rushing out. "Boy you're lucky this isn't normal." Bailey placed Geus back on the ground and slapped one of the filters on his mask. "But we have the highest quality possible cameras and surveillance tapped into this whole place. You did everything in your right to hold back your opponent. Warnings verbally and physically and gave off a complete understanding of the situation on hand and on sight. As horrible as it may seem, you're at wrong and in the right at the same time."
"I don't need this special treatment, I know what I did I don't deserve to be here."
"As dark and treacherous as your actions were, you were deemed safe. You should accept it and move on to better yourself."
"Your bird-friend is right. I understand how you feel about all of this. It hurts and you feel horrible about yourself."
"Ah excuse me." A dreaded yawn filled the room. The tired organizer of the events entered the room and dragged his body to the center. He barely looked human by how much he needed to sleep. He groaned and rubbed his eyes. "Ah, I appreciate your help here in providing a military personnel. On such short notice we didn't have much of a choice. A new decision has come through, to avoid any controversial calls by parents, heroes, and other factors, we've decided to pull Geus Sansei away from the second round. He'll have a chance to take the provisional license again through a second attempt after taking several classes and learning what it means to be a hero."
"Come on it wasn't in his fault!" Kirishima shouted. "He just explained that it wasn't his fault!"
He groaned as he extended his back out. "Everything shows that it wasn't directly linked to his fault. At the end of the day a kid got hurt and mutilated. I can't see anything farther than what a hero is." With a big yawn he patted on Bailey's back. "Escort him out of the building."
Geus pushed and shoved his way through the armed combatants. "I've been through this once. I didn't have control of my body." His head snapped back at the group. "But it doesn't mean I don't feel with every fiber of my being of what I did to these people!" His fist slammed into his chest. "I killed them! I ruined their future! I hurt anyone attached to them! I'm the worst god damn hero out there but damn it I know the consequences of what I do. I appreciate the fucking opportunity everyone has ever given me."
Bailey chuckled as he walked up to Geus. His arm wrapped around Geus's head and forced him into his side. His arm tightened and kept his head squeezed into his armpit.
It was never really spoken out loud of how Bailey felt Geus. A year ago he was ready to out him down if the time called for it. And only in a few months he felt a bond grow between them. If he'd ever had a child, this was the believed feeling he carried. He felt shame, empowered, defined, proud of the child attached to him.
Whether Geus felt this or something similar was never a concern for him. He could feel the complete opposite and just see him as the second in command as always. It didn't matter which end of the spectrum he was on. There wasn't time concern himself with this, the moments he had with him were meant to be special.
"You know you are a little bastard don't you?" Bailey laughed. "Can't accept anything right."
"This isn't a laughing matter, I ruined a person's entire life in one attack because I don't have full control with my quirk."
Bailey's head lowered a bit into Geus's ear. "Listen you shit." He whispered inside the eardrum. His fingers curled into the jacket and pinched the skin underneath. " listen to me. You want to look at somebody like you, look at the number one hero. You aren't the hero that will get the attention of the crowd for being pleasant and a bright leader. You're going to be the one that has to get work done with your quirk. It won't be pretty, nobody will see you as number one. But the power you hold back is the power to keep everyone safe. As long as you know what your fighting for and what's right, then you're doing the work of a hero. People will get hurt, but you have to be the force to protect the rest." He grabbed Geus's cheek and shoved it to his eyesight. "Be the hero nobody else will, be the son of a bitch that will take things too far." Bailey stopped talking as several students from other staff walked by them. His eyes followed their bodies till they disappeared from sight.
"What happened to you? You were always a by the book kind of guy."
Bailey pushed open the front entrance doors to the bright and warm sunlight. He looked out to Geus's bus where Beka stood by. "I haven't changed. Ever since I took over as warden I learned how much the higher levels demand from me. I follow by the rules written in every book I've ever read. Some of those kids never learn or get a will to change. If a villain feels the worst that will happen to them is a broken arm and prison time. They don't learn." He looked down to Geus. "Change that."
Geus smirked and chuckled once. "You giving me personal permission to use my quirk to the highest degree? If my dad ever cared he'd say something like that."
"If the court would've given me authority I would've adopted you."
Geus's right arm twitched. "What?"
"I would've taken you into my home and raised you as my own. Your aunt had a higher position than me and was offered first."
"Why would you want me? You could hardly watch me without death on your mind. And now you want me inside your house, with your family, wife, kids? I'm a monster."
"My wife always wanted a kid. I think you would've been perfect. Even if it was only for a year, it would've brought some light into her soul."
"I want to ask you something important." Geus looked straight and removed his mask. "Why is it that every time I do something truly wrong I'm never punished. And when I do something not my fault I'm punished by everyone?"
"People get scared about what they don't know. So you get punished for what they can't see. The actions you set in place allows them to see you and place their trust in you."
Geus chuckled again and shoved his mask back on. He started his way down the steps. "You are my dad."
