Welp I said final stage like 6 chapters ago and I said ten…I mean we are at the final stage but its not going to be ten, its taking me a bit of trouble to make them fight since I love them so much and I think I did a pretty decent job at developing their relationship. But yeah im gonna try to enter into the final stage I promise
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Yeahyeayeayeayayaya…they sleep together. And it was satisfying.
Of course he wouldn't be so silly to think that they were deeply in love again after some sex nononono…but he was glad they did, they were definitely closer than other days at least for now. Nora was playing with the hairs in his chest and he missed being this close.
There's some things off, like, she didn't want to be touched on the belly, he realized at the third time she moved him off there, he gets it, still it was weird, she wasn't feeling comfortable of that part of her body even if obviously it was too early for something to be visible, he would swear she wasn't pregnant at all if it wasn't for all daily Cade test.
His primitive human brain felt so aroused about knocking his pregnant partner but sadly it was too early yet to fully enjoy it.
-I was going to be the new leader of the institute you know? –welp, a sudden open of heart, yes, he can deal with it now, okay. Although the institute was around no more he appreciates this efforts deeply, even if some were…mind-blowing- Shaun told me and his workers that his illness was too far to be stopped, and he wanted to give someone the leadership of the institute.
-Mmm –he leaves a smooch on her head before hugging her tighter- you haven't much of a clue how to manage the institute of what they were even doing until now.
-Exactly, I know the place for only…a few weeks and still wasn't sure how they managed to convince themselves that what they were doing was a good thing, I was open-minded because I wanted to try it for Shaun but I still hadn't see anything good from them, I didn't see any justification-her gaze turned dark at the memory and he waited until she was ready to talk- until I insisted, and he just say that I wouldn't understand like I was some ignorant prick
-You could continue to live the life you wanted so much as leader –it was crazy how this vault dweller had so much opportunities, crazy things happens in the wastelands- people do crazy stuff just a maintain a certain lifestyle.
-Don't tell me, I knew a guy who would enslave and kick people out of their settlements just to maintain his lifestyle with a bunch of raiders…but anyway he offers me that option…-she took a moment to breath and swallow saliva, heard it- and I betray him –Arthur didn't want to say anything, it didn't feel right to make an opinion in this subject- his mother betray him
-Its not like that –he coudltn judge if it was manipulation or if she was just talking out loud but she say this things about being a horrible mom to put her image down…not sure if it was to punish herself or try to convince him.
-I turn down one of the little things he tried to gave me –welp the leadership of the institute didn't look like a little thing- my only son
Arthur wanted to…speak what it feel like truth for him out loud: that her son turned to be a son of a bitch mass killer that will use and test with his own mother, that bastard didn't have anything real to give her and it wasn't her fault at all, she didn't betray him, she wasn't a bad mom for not supporting and stay around such a bastard. Enough with feeling bad, that man turned into an adult enough to knew what he was doing, a grown-ass man much older than her and even wiser with much opportunities and time to reflect, he didn't have on his entire life any lack of anything, neither a rought life apparently and choose that path anyway, just a motherfucker. He didn't deserve any of Noras time and thoughts, too much credit.
She didn't need to feel this bad and confused for that dead bastard. It wasn't worth it. Piece of scum.
His hand place in the back of her head and Nora take the chance to snuffle her nose in his chest and smell, breathing deeply, crushing her warm breath against his skin. Why they cant be like this forever? He feared she will go again.
-Are you afraid of performing as a mom again or being a mom again? –Nora didn't understand the question.
-Isnt the same thing?
-No –she stay in silence for a few seconds, thinking her words carefully.
-Being a mom.
Shit.
He stay in silence for a few seconds, thinking in his words carefully.
-Im going to be a dad too you know? Ill be happy if you stay by my side and guide me.
Truth is he wasn't scared at all, he was prepared for this since a long time, much even before knowing her, it was expected from him to have a son and continue the legacy of his lastname. This wasn't bad.
She took some time before moving again, leaving a trail of kisses starting on his chest and rising trough the neck to his cheek. Gosh he missed his.
Its not like he think that because they have sex they were good now…but even if he tried to sleep in her arms he cant, Nora would have…apparently nightmares and wake up all night. Arthur pretended to be sleep but everytime she went off the bed to walk in circles around the bedroom…well of course he notices. Obviously it was dark and he cant see much, but the gestures in her hands, the way she touches her hair and specially how she grabbed her belly…she wasn't having a good night. Dark thoughts were haunting her tonight, filling her head with noise and her body with anxiety.
The first time he wake up too, fearing that she would take the chance of him being sleepy to run away. But when ask her to come back to bed she said something about needing a cup of tea, she made it, and come back to bed to drink it inside the sheets, warming up her feets with his, playing lightly with his toes.
The second time he caught her looking at her siluette in a mirror, it was the first time she seem interested in…her body…
Then she came back to bed and try to sleep.
The third time…she was walking in circles in front of the bed playing with her hair while taking big breaths out.
Arthur would watch everything. She was indeed conflictuated.
There wasn't a fourth time but…he knew she wasn't sleeping, Nora would move and spin around the bed a lot, he even caught her looking at the ceiling once.
He wished for her to feel safe and at peace around him.
Lately he was a light sleeping person, he had to, this week specially, so when Nora approached him to leave a smooch on his forehead in the morning he wake up, immediately recognizing the sensation, but not opening the eyes, just enjoying the feeling. Yeah, he loved this, he could be in any place in the world and recognize it, the warm of her skin so close to his, the softness of her lips, the sticky of her lipstick, the sound of her breath, how her black locks fall in his cheeks…
He stay there for a few seconds, smiling with his eyes closed until she went away, Arthur open his eyes slowly to get amused to sunlight, still smiling, until his vision turn clear and see her, she wasn't as happy as him, her face seemed…sad.
She had a cup of something brewing in her hand, by the smell it could be coffee and also was dressed…dressed to go outside, dressed for battle, prepared.
-Drink elder, it's a cold morning –he sat on the bed, looking at her crossed eyebrows and plain eyes, taking the cup between his hands.
-Its something wrong? –he simply ask but she look to another side, a dead point in the wall.
-Im going out
What?
-No –his voice tone failed to him, full of worries.
-I said im going, im not asking this time
-Nora…-not now, not so early, not in the mornings he didn't want to have problems.
-Im the sentinel and I still have time until obligatory maternity leave –ohnonono not this.
-Yeah, like 5 days, you are almost 2 months now –he said taking a sip of his hot coffee, ridiculous.
-Cool, im taking them –Arthur sighted, rolling his eyes, Nora cross her arms still not looking at him.
-Don't be a clod –his hands started shaking with the heavy coffee cup, he didn't need this stress with the hot liquid.
-I have things to do
-You don't fool me, I know what you are trying and you are being mad if you think ill let you…-there was a hint of rancor and disgust in his voice and that hurt Nora, like getting stabbed in the chest.
-I don't know what im going to do! –Arthur saw her scream and shout her eyes- all options were horrible! You know why im still here!? Why I didn't die in the wastelands when Shaun dropped me out there like an abandoned dog!? Because im afraid of dying! I will do everything to survive! To go on! But I do not want to be a mother again!
-Then stay! –he put the coffee at a side, fearing to drop it and burn both- I can help to overcome your fears, ill be at your side!
-They were all so risky and unsafe and i…i…I done a lot of dangerous things, I mostly don't fear to go wild, im usually brave or stupid to go on on so many things that everybody ask me but…that was on myself…-she put a hand over her stomach, Arthur swallow saliva, it was the first time he see her…recognizing her belly as a pregnancy one- only myself and people who agreed to be there, or thrust me to be there with them.
-You don't want to hurt it, I get it –slowly, very slowly, his hands placed in her knees, doing little circles to play a bit, trying to be close- stay, you don't need to do any of this
-But I wish none of this would happen, ever –that hit Arthurs heart like a heavy rock, but he shaked his head, there was no time to feel bad- I never wanted to get pregnant again
-I love you in any state
-I need to find a solution Arthur –the way she said that broke his heart.
-There's no solution where the three of us aren't together –he was trying so hard to convince her, to put her feelings first in consideration to approach in the direction he needed
-I took none of that options also because…I was afraid of hurting you…-his hands stopped, then why? Why would she make him go through this?
-Im hurt –he said plane and simply, he knew this wasn't about Nora not wanting a family particularly with him, but anyone, he wasn't the problem, she loved him but his situation was testing their relationship. She pressed her lips hating to be in this place right now, she should leave first, to not cause him all this pain, or at least not be present to see it, it was so hurtful to watch, it burned.
-I need to do something about it, find another path
Both stay in silent, he wanted to cry so much, his breathing was preparing him for that and Nora could see it.
-I can respect this five days…then ill go find you, after five days Ill search for you in every dusty corner of the Commonwealth, but if you decide to come early, don't come back unless you are still pregnant –that felt wrong for Nora, her whole body shiver so bad it hurt her back.
-That's all that matter to you of me!?
-No –he said firm, taking his hands out, now he was looking at a dead point in the opposite direction- but I don't know what ill do if you are not pregnant, I don't know how ill be able to handle it, to keep it together
Hearing that was like getting punched in the middle of the nose for Nora.
-I don't know what im going to do –she just said, feeling the man gripping the sheets under her
-You are confused –he just said, voice lacking of emotions.
-This isn't about you at all, I love you Arthur Maxson
-I know it hurts –he wished so hard to take her warm hand and feel it between his fingers again, to be close and comfortable again- I know you have been trough a lot, that is hard to forgive yourself sometimes, that you don't want me around in this thing because is between you and your son but its inevitable for me to not be involved, we made it together, i need to be involved, I want to be around –his eyes water, Nora wanted to just get up and leave already at seeing it. When he took a big breath through his nose to avoid…crying…in front of her, the smell of coffee suffocate him.
-I love you
-I can help you
She stopped breathing for a moment, heasiating, like time was frozen around. The thought of taking his hand and surrender in his arms was there, take the chance to try to get ahead and get over it but…no…There was something deep in her core telling her that she shouldn't be a mother again. A giant black void inside her chest taking her breathing away.
-Im sorry –Nora went up and off bed, but Arthur wont look at her- Im sorry to cause you all this pain
-You have five days to come back, or ill find you and our son
-I love you Arthur Maxson –despite everything, she knew deep inside that this wasn't the last time they will see each other, that she will say this words again to him. She wasn't going to give up on him.
He stay in silence, until she was in front of the door.
-Let me help you Nora
The last thing he heard was the door opening and the sounds of the outside: Nora breaking his way out of the guards, the mess, the chaos and the runaway Sentinel was causing to the tripulation.
He knew she wouldn't kill anyone, only hurt them just a bit, she was more than capable enough to do friendly fire and still get away, to run off, all this time, she choosed to stay until her heart was filled with negativity and he can't…push it away from her head. This wasn't against him but it hurt that it wasn't enough to crave in her head that together everything was going to be just fine.
Hell deal with the consequences of making this vault dweller his woman later, now he needed to cry.
She was the problem, not him.
He tried enough.
The coffe now smelled horrible.
