Chapter 15

Jess POV

A couple of hours after the guys had been arrested, I was sitting around the clubhouse when one of the Prospects approached me. I looked up at him and he handed me an envelope. "What's this?" I asked.

He shrugged. "I don't know. I was just asked to give it to you. But you need to destroy it after you read it." The Prospect said. I nodded.

I waited until he walked away before I looked down at the envelope. My name was written across the front. I recognized the handwriting. It was from Jax. I flipped the envelope over and opened it, pulling a letter out of it.

"Jess -

I know that I've been an asshole lately and I have no reason except excuses. When you told me that you were picking Hap, I reacted badly and I shouldn't have. I ruined our relationship, because of choices that I made in the past. I should have done better about communicating with you than I did. I want you to be happy. That's all that I've ever wanted.

I know that a lot of things were probably said today, and it probably has you questioning a lot of things you know. But you should know that I didn't rat on the club. I would never rat on my club or my family. It was a club decision. I know that Hap gave you a heads up about the time that we would be serving. I have no right to ask this, but I need for you check in with Gemma from time to time. She's not taking any of this well. I won't ask you to check in on Tara because I know that you won't. Take care of yourself Jess.

Jax"

When I finished reading the letter, I walked over to a burn barrel, pulled my lighter out and set it ablaze. I watched it burn until there was nothing but ash left. I turned around and headed into the clubhouse. Lee was sitting at the bar with Ope and Donut. I walked over to them. "Hey guys." I said.

The guys gave me a small smile. "Did you decide what your gonna do?" Lee asked me.

Hap must have said something to Lee. "I'm heading home with you guys." I told Lee.

He nodded. "We're gonna stick around tonight, just in case. We'll leave first thing in the morning." He told me. I smiled at him.

I made my way back to Hap's dorm. I didn't really feel like being around anyone. I took a quick shower before I threw on some comfy clothes and climbed into bed, inhaling Hap's scent on his pillow and on the sheets. I already missed him. It was going to be a long fourteen months.

The next morning, I was being woken up by Ope. He told me Lee and the boys were getting ready to head out shortly and if I was still planning on going home with them I needed to get ready. I got and got dressed, quickly packing my things before I headed out to the barroom. Gemma was there waiting for us. She had a small smile on her face. "Don't worry, Gem. I'll be back in a couple months. Maybe we could go see the boys together." I told her and she nodded at me.

She quickly pulled me into a hug. When I pulled back, I headed outside to where Donut handed me a helmet. "Hap said he wanted you to ride with me." Donut said.

I rolled my eyes. "Of course he did." I said, strapping on the helmet. I climbed on behind Donut and soon we were pulling out of the lot.

On the drive back to Tacoma, I thought about how much my life had changed in the last 24 hours. Jax was with Tara. Tig killed Donna. The guys were in prison for the next year. Plus there was a secret that I was keeping. Yesterday morning, I'd found out that I was pregnant. I couldn't tell Hap knowing that he'd miss everything. He'd feel guilty. I decided that I'd wait until I went to the doctor and had ultrasound pictures I could give him.

A/N: Sorry guys I know that it's a short chapter, just thought this would be a good place to end this one.