Greetings.
Hope I didn't make you wait for too long.
At last… the most awaited chapter is here!... its 2nd part!
(sorry again for the cliffhanger)
Here's chapter 13, hope y'll enjoy
XXX
XXX
XXX
Act 13: Deliverance
"It was you… It's always been you, Ren"
Said words kept resonating in his ears and mind.
Busujima Saeko had just confessed her love for him.
And he was at total and utter shock.
He knew she was attracted to him in some kind way of course… they had already kissed even, very passionately worth mentioning, and were stopped from doing it again quite a couple of times after it. Not to mention the non-stop flirting and clear tension between them.
But… it's always been you, was the key sentence for him right now, of course.
Since when? He asked himself. Well, it was pretty clear that apparently for quite some time… but since when exactly? And how in the hell he never realized?
As she continued to look at him, although with sadness in her eyes he could tell, he tried his best to find any words to say, and at last, the first thing that came to his mind…
"…why you never told me?" he asked in a slightly shy tone.
A bit hypocritical coming from him, he immediately realized.
"I never told you how I felt… because I didn't think I had the right to tell you".
What?
Her reply left him even more shocked.
She didn't have the right to tell him?
How exactly?
Was Busujima Saeko really saying stuff like that?
If anything, she was an unreachable individual for anyone.
"But… that's… why-?" he stuttered, confused.
"Ren…" she cut him off. "…Have you ever killed someone before?"
Her question shook him to the core.
…
He had.
He had ended his friend's – Morita – life before he could turn into one of them. Of course, it wasn't a cold blooded murder or anything like that, it was to help… at least that's what he told himself.
He simply told his friend to close his eyes, and that it would end quick.
He kept his word, but it was still something he was not happy about, although he constantly told himself it was the only good choice.
But was that the type of answer she would be looking for?
Did she want an answer at all?
"Four years ago…" she began speaking, breaking him out of his pondering. "I was walking along the street at night, and was attacked by a man…"
Rentaro raised an eyebrow at this, curious and taken aback.
"I had my wooden sword, so of course I didn't lose and nothing really happened to me…" she continued, in a casual light tone. "I broke his shoulder blade and femur".
Ren raised both eyebrows at this.
Well, she had certainly showed him that if you fucked around you'd eventually find out…
It definitely could be considered slightly excessive, but also, a part of him was glad she did that. But he also knew… that's not exactly a pleasant experience for a middle-schooler.
"Given the circumstances, the police sent me home" she continued, while looking down.
Did she feel like she went overboard?
Was it guilt?
"Well… it might seem a little excessive at first, but in the end, you were just 14 years old right?" he justified her actions, trying to improve her mood. "Even the police understood the circumstances and-"
"That's not the problem…" she cut him off.
Ren eyed at her confused.
"I liked it…" she muttered, making him raise both his eyebrows this time.
What?
Saeko gripped the blanket under her before bringing a hand to her chest, as she lifted her head to look at him dead in the eye once again… but this time, while smiling widely, with her eyes screaming nothing else but intensity, an intensity he had never seen before in anyone else.
Only in himself.
"It made me feel good to make him suffer!" she revealed, her tone also full of intensity and emotion. "After immediately realizing I had the overwhelming upper hand with my bokken, I acted frightened at first, then I attacked without any hesitation, without holding back!"
Rentaro could only widen his eyes more by the second, as his heart-rate started picking the pace again.
"I liked it…" she muttered once again. "It was exhilarating".
Shock in his eyes still, Ren simply continued to stare at her in silence, as she continued to look at him intensely.
"That's the real me. That's what Busujima Saeko is really like" she whispered to him in a dark tone. "Thought I have to wonder if you can look past that… I pretend to have the heart and soul of a pure young maiden… yet I'm a tainted woman, that gets crazy when I have the upper hand on situations like that…"
"I…" he stuttered, while still in slight shock at her sudden confession. "But I… you must have noticed by now, I'm similar…"
"But you became like that after… once they appeared" she replied while looking at him weakly. "I was like that even before".
No.
She was wrong.
She was ridiculously wrong.
"I realized as I was in front of those… kids, that I haven't changed at all" she continued in a weak tone, while diverting her gaze.
"No…"
"I'd say… I've gotten even worse".
"NO!"
She looked at him in shock once he snapped. His tone harsh and even angry.
He looked at her directly in the eyes, intensely.
"You're not the only one… I'm the same" he told her, his voice full of intensity. "… in fact, I'm much worse".
It was now her turn to glare at him confused, and as she seemed to want to say something, he immediately cut her off before she started talking.
"I lied to you, about the reason why I gave up on kendo…" he told her, earning an even more confused expression from her. "…I… back then, I was cocky, intense, and stupidly over-confident… my sensei never encouraged us to really participate in tournaments, but he wouldn't stop us if we wanted. I personally wanted to show everyone my worth, the fruits of my efforts, and while sensei thought that wasn't really necessary, he did tell us, that in a battle, we should be intense, we should be ferocious, we should always give it our all without giving up. I twisted those words to make them fit my own twisted mind-set… ever since I was a kid I liked fighting, but I wasn't dumb enough to pick fights for no reason, so I was always looking for reasons; standing up to bullies, defending others, whatever that worked but didn't get me into huge trouble, and once in middle-school, I finally entered my first kendo tournament while representing my school; it was no sparring, no friendly bout in my mind… I had to crush everyone, and that's what I did. Kendo bouts are supposed to be intense, but with respect for your opponent always, and empathy in the middle… and I had none of that. I just felt like finally I could fight to my heart's content".
He looked at his own hands, as he felt slight shivers running through them. That ever familiar feeling that has always been present in him.
Power.
The feeling of having power, over others, over anything at all.
"I ran through everyone with the most intensity I could muster and I enjoyed humiliating them, I enjoyed showing everyone my superiority, that I was better than anyone that they put in front of me. I took offense by the sole fact that anyone thought they could beat me… I was completely confident that I could beat anyone back then, even you".
This last part he finished off as he looked back at her.
Now it was her who looked at him in slight surprise.
But he hadn't even gotten to the worst part yet.
"That was me for my entire middle-school run…" he continued with a smirk now, that quickly disappeared. "But then… my mother died…"
He balled his fist at the thought.
"I was angry at the world… 'why me?', I kept asking" he said, with slight anger in his tone. "I didn't even meet my father, and now my mother had been taken away from me… the person that for the sanest and most noble part of my heart I was putting all the effort I could in everything I did, trying to make her proud, now was gone, so all that was left were just the negative emotions…"
He gritted his teeth, remembering the tough time he went through during those first months after losing her parent.
"I was more emotional and volatile than ever, I kept looking tirelessly for fights, to out my anger and whatever else I could to do so" he told her, his eyes full of shame now. "…I was still practicing kendo at the time; it was probably my only escape from the bad time I was going through. Then, I remember there were three new kids with barely a few months at the dojo. For how intense and unorthodox the classes were, the dojo didn't have that many students, but during that period, it was getting more fame and recognition… after all, the 3 times in a row middle-school national champ in male competitions practiced there. I took pride in that, and I could tell those three kids were jealous of me. While Takeo-sensei wasn't known for praising others, he clearly trusted me the most; I was his oldest, longest-lasting student at the time; he even left me in charge of class at times, when his deteriorating health didn't allow him to have the energy to do so himself".
Ren took a deep breath and he passed a hand through his hair.
He felt empty.
He truly felt like the worst.
"I remember being so arrogant at the time that I felt that I had the right to judge who deserved and who didn't deserve to practice the art of kendo, or learn about the art of the sword" he continued, while making a disgusted grimace, directed to his own self. "I wasn't happy about those three new kids being in class… they were all around a year my age, and I felt they didn't take class seriously enough, it was insulting for me, and the fact that while everyone else treated me with respect in the dojo, yet they didn't, angered me even more… so one day that Takeo-sensei wasn't present, I simply decided to confront them; despite it all, they knew that I was far above them skill-wise, so they didn't do anything… so I provoked them… I baited them so they all attacked me at the same time with their bamboo swords… and while in the end, it was nothing that bad, it was easy beating them up, since I had a bamboo sword as well and they were unprotected; not even a minute later all three were laying on the floor sobbing, while the rest of the dojo watched".
Ren looked back at Saeko, who kept eyeing him silently.
"And you know what?" he said, with a sarcastic smirk. "I felt nothing… it didn't even feel good, or bad… I felt nothing at all. The only thing going through my head was, is that it? …it bored me to dead that they didn't stand back up and kept fighting… but I took pride on the fact that I had taught them 'a lesson' while in front of the rest of the dojo; that I had humiliated them".
Ren took a deep breath before continuing, while looking down.
"When Takeo-sensei asked me about the incident, I casually explained to him what had happened… and much to my shock at the time, he looked at me, with disappointment… it was the first time he ever looked at me like that; that look he gave me, it haunted me for months. He then reprehended me, told me to think about my actions and once I realized what I had done, that I should apologize".
He brought a fist to his forehead then.
"I was angry about it… confused, annoyed, in shock. 'What is he talking about?' or 'he can't be serious', were some of the stuff I thought at the time. In my dumb, immature mind, he was in the wrong for disapproving my actions… he who I saw as the father I never had, was against me now… so I was alone".
And to think that would be the last time he'd ever see him, made him feel even more stupid.
"I never came back… I felt betrayed, so I simply never returned to the dojo" he continued. "Few weeks later, his health would reach a critical point and he would close the dojo and leave the city to spent his last remaining time in his hometown; I never even came to know when he had exactly died; he just died quietly, without anyone really knowing… it was not until he died and Rika took me under her wing then gave me a good scolding, that I actually thought about my actions… and you were present in my mind as well, all the time".
He looked at her with a weak smile as she silently kept listening.
"For me kendo was the most beautiful martial art, my passion, an art-form… yet I had treated it as a medium for my unsavory violent mind-set… they called me the 'Noble Fury' right? But there was nothing noble about me, just fury" he continued as he chuckled sarcastically. "And when I saw you… when I thought about you and remembered your countless flawless performances back at the tournaments we met each other… I felt shame. Even if at the time I thought I could beat you, I still believed you were elegant, beautiful… the epitome, the peak of kendo in my eyes. 'That's how it should be done', I used to think… yet I was the complete opposite".
He gritted his teeth as he remembered.
"I started feeling stupid, dumb, full of shame. Everyone talked about the two kendo prodigies that were taking over all the glory, would finally compete in highschool after dominating middle-school competition… yet I felt disgusted; I didn't even consider myself worthy of being mentioned in the same breath as you… yet what did I do? I ran away… I left and never looked back. Instead of changing my ways, or improving myself, instead of simply apologizing and actually move on, I chose to move on by being a coward and not facing my mistakes… and to this day, I don't even feel guilt… just shame, about myself".
"But you have changed" Saeko finally spoke up.
He looked at her and was caught by surprise by her eyes, full of emotions, mainly empathy.
He didn't deserve it.
"As you said, you might have been immature back then, but now you've changed" she said, her tone of voice optimistic, almost reassuring. "The fact that you feel shame about it… means you're not empty, you're not indifferent about it. Feeling shame is also a form of guilt! …and now, you're nothing short of exemplary for everyone around you. You have lead me, lead the group to survival so far, you have saved us many times, you have even saved people you didn't even know along the way, everyone looks up to you, you're-!"
He started chuckling, cutting her off. A sinister chuckle.
It was actually funny for him how wrong she was, in his mind.
And he finally let his emotions flow after all this time.
He looked at her with the same intensity she had earlier, without being able to control a smirk to take over his features.
"Changed? Look at me Saeko" he said as he brought his hands up. "Do you honestly see a good, kind-hearted guy in me? I am a coward that never once changed his ways. I simply accepted myself, without caring at all for other's opinions or feelings… the fact that I was ok with myself was enough. And now in this world… in this new world… I've been having a fun… I've been having a blast the whole time!"
He gripped the fabric from his shirt around the chest area, hard.
"There's now a universal enemy, that nobody will frown upon if I attack and nobody will bat an eye or question me if I kill as many of them as I can… this new power now, that I hold in this New World, this freedom I have… it's addicting! It drives me nuts! It's the best! Even when we were safe and out of danger, a part of me wanted them to appear so I could experience that feeling again! Without caring about the consequences, and even if I felt dumb about it, I just shrugged it off and kept moving! Using everything I could think of as an excuse to simply continue this path of carnage!"
Finally realizing he was raising his voice uncomfortably high, decided to tone it down, as he looked down and panted, before smiling sadly.
"…all this time, when helping you guys out… even when I saved little Alice and her dad… I didn't have anything noble in me, am no hero or anything like that… I was just trying to save myself".
Ren continued looking down, but lifted his gaze once he felt Saeko's touch, as he grabbed his hand. He looked back at her, noticing she had slight tears in her eyes now, while she smiled sadly.
"That's not true" she whispered, as she moved closer to him. "…I… you saved me… years ago".
She then moved one hand to his shoulder as she got on her knees.
"I was enraptured by you… enraptured by your intensity, by your confidence… I still am. But back then all that I had received ever since I gained consciousness were high expectations and praise. I was the daughter of the legendary Busujima-sensei from the Busujima Clan; I had to be perfect, I had to make my family's name and its legacy proud, but nobody looked at me for who I truly was. It was lonely at the top… I was being called a prodigy even before I reached middle-school and everyone's eyes were on me, with their expectations always high… but once I reached middle school, somebody else's name started being mentioned in the same breath as mine. Nobody had heard his name before. I was curious about this 'Sakata Rentaro', so during the first national tournament, I had my eyes on him… and I was at loss of words at what I was witnessing… the most intense, brutal spirited style of kendo I had ever laid my eyes upon… I wanted to know more about you, but we were at different schools sadly; but after winning the tournament, you in the male's branch and I in the female's branch, when we finally met face to face, when you shook my hand and looked at me in the eyes… I had never felt anything like that before; the intensity in your gaze, the confidence in your smile… you weren't looking at me as the daughter of the Busujima Clan, or an unbeatable prodigy, but as an opponent, an opponent you could beat, you looked at me with respect… but also with superiority, and everytime we met and shared the podium in the future, it never changed".
Saeko looked at him with a newfound intensity he had never seen on her.
"It lit a fire in me, in all sorts of ways… I felt like a girl for the first time and at the same time started trained the hardest I ever trained… I wanted to face you and beat you as well… but I also knew I had fallen madly in love with you, I knew it had been love at the very first sight, and I wanted to confess… I wanted you to notice me. I knew we barely even knew each other and had just talked a handful of times, barely exchanging any words while at it, but, I wanted to tell you" she revealed, with a genuine smile. "But then that incident happened… and I just didn't consider myself worthy of it… worthy of anything. And when we entered highschool, I was both excited and nervous that we finally were sharing the same school… but my heart sunk once I found out that you were not joining Fujimi's kendo team. I tried talking to you, even thought about formally inviting you to the club, but the shame about that incident stopped me from it… but then we talked that day, and I mustered all the courage I could to invite you back, and you said you'd consider it, and I was happy… then they appeared, and I realized I was still the same. Yet, even while in the middle of that, I hoped to cross paths with you and when we did, I was happy… I felt foolish about feeling excited like that while in those circumstances, but being around you made me feel like a real woman, despite everything… and then you just gave me even more reasons to keep looking at you. You've been nothing else but reliable and a true leader to me, to all of us, and when I saw you fight them as effectively as you do… I knew I was still madly in love with you… no, even more… but not worthy of you".
Ren groaned at her words.
Did she actually listened to anything he said?
About him being an even more deranged individual than her?
He was about to snap at her.
Then he realized…
None of the two really were worse compared to the other.
A thought like that was foolish and not even worth keeping in mind.
At the end of the day, they were just teenagers… they were just a young man and a young woman that needed acceptance…
He had forcefully accepted himself to move on, and convinced himself that he didn't need anybody else's acceptance… but only damaged himself even more in the process. He beat himself up for everything and saw himself as nothing but a sadistic brute with no positive intentions about anything at all… the fake confidence he carried himself around with was nothing but a mask, and at one point he stopped even acknowledging his good deeds; he had completely forgotten that thoughts or certain views, didn't define anyone as a whole; he just kept carrying that shame over his shoulders instead of cleansing it.
Where the hell he has been all this time, really?
She on the other hand had never moved on, convincing herself that she was not worthy of doing so, and had to live with that shame of hers for her entire life… also damaging herself even more in the process. But in the end, she was just a fragile girl like any other, that needed love, not the monster she pictured her own self as.
But now, they had each other.
Could they move on together?
He still couldn't stop himself from grabbing Saeko by the collar of the tank top she was still wearing, while bringing her closer to him.
"R-Ren…?" she stuttered, while looking at him in slight shock, but even now her cheeks were red, probably from the proximity of his face.
"The only one that gets to decide that is me" he told her, his tone harsh. "No matter what has happened in the past, no matter what happens in the future… you will forever be the most amazing woman in the world in my eyes".
Her eyes widened at his words, and her blush deepened.
"My biggest inspiration, the most interesting person to be around with. You were the reason I even decided to give kendo a try again… you are all of that and much more!" he continued while bringing her closer with his grip. "No matter what you say, you're not a tainted woman… you're a caring, gentle, beautiful person, carrying a clean soul".
He could see all the emotion currently concentrating in her eyes.
"And if you ever feel like doubting yourself, if you ever feel like you can't go on… then just stand by my side. With you by my side I feel like I can stand up and face any adversity… even in a world like this, carrying all this negative emotions, this twisted resolve of mine, I feel I can go on forever… do it not only for yourself, but for me… accept yourself and stand by my side from now on, without looking back".
"If you do that… I feel I will be able to truly accept myself and move on".
She looked at him intensely now, slight shock in her eyes again, but nothing but positive emotions in her gaze now.
"Do you really mean that?" she asked weakly.
"I do" he whispered, removing the grip he had on the tank top, placing now his hand on her cheek. "…I love you. I want all of you… I want you to always be by my side".
He could see her pupils widen as her mouth slightly opened. He almost felt nervous under the intense gaze she was giving him now.
And now they were staring at each other, with barely any distance separating them, feeling each other's breathing on their skin.
He was slightly surprised, although not much when Saeko caressed both of his cheeks slightly with her hands before pulling him into a kiss.
A really deep, wanting kiss, hundred more times more intense and intimate than the one they had back at Rika's place. Seconds later she separated from him, much to his disappointment, and looked at him directly, only need and affection in her eyes now.
He quickly reciprocated her actions, kissing her back with all the intensity he had in him, to which she responded by throwing her arms around his neck. She moaned in approval as soon as he threw her arms around her waist pulling her closer, and he groaned once he felt her breast pressing against his chest.
Noticing her tongue poking at his lips, he gladly accepted her request. But as soon as he felt her tongue exploring his mouth, immediately after he couldn't stop himself from using his own to do the same. In matter of seconds, the kiss had turned hungry and wild. Their tongues fought for dominance for a small moment, but once Ren pulled her closer and lifted her slightly, so she was now straddling him, she moaned at the new contact in his mouth and he ended up dictating the pace from there.
Ren deepened the kiss as much as he could, by bringing a hand to her neck and pulling her closer if possible, fueled by the second, as Saeko just kept moaning. It didn't take long for him to slid a hand down her back and grab a handful of her ass under her skirt, to which she whimpered, and immediately after rocked her hips against him, to which he growled slightly and finally made him break the kiss.
The both were panting heavily, but Saeko kept moving, enjoying the new found sensation by grinding against him. Ren tried not to as he pressed his face against her chest, and grabbed her ass even harder, but he ended up moaning slightly, which inspired Saeko to keep moving her hips. She used her hands to lift his face and kissed him again, sinking her fingers in his hair.
Ren approved of her advances, but once he started feeling uncomfortable about how tight his pants felt know and as he kept listening to Saeko moaning against his mouth, he huffed, grabbing her by the hips before flipping their position, making her let out a small cry at the sudden move.
He knows was on top of her, while her back was against the floor.
They both knew exactly where this was heading, but still, with the lasts bits of self-control and sanity he had left, Ren gave her a look that told the whole story about how he was feeling right now and the question that lingered at his barely sane mind at the moment.
Was it ok?
She simply responded by bringing her hands to the back of his neck and pull him closer, to give him a small peck on the lips, as she then stared at him.
"Take me" she whispered against his mouth.
Ren huffed one last time, before grabbing both of Saeko's hands and pinning them with his own against the floor; he immediately attacked her mouth right after and erased any distance between them as he pressed his crotch against her center, earning another whimper from her.
He kissed her for a few more seconds, as fiercely as he could, before letting one of her hands go, to use his own to grab the tank top from below and pull it up just enough to reveal her breasts.
Saeko's blush deepened as Rentaro stared at her two mounds for a moment, before bringing his now free hand to grab one, earning a moan from her, although she quickly covered her mouth with the back of her hand right afterwards. He groped her right breast slightly, before circling her nipple with one of his fingers, which made her arch her moan even harder.
He had to hold back a smirk, seeing how she reacted to every single one of his moves. But right after, decided that it would be better to try it with his mouth. He brought his mouth to her other breast, immediately trapping the nipple and slightly sucking on it. Saeko cried in pleasure, although the sounds she made were slightly deafened by the hand she had covering her mouth at the moment.
Ren bit her nipple slightly before playing with it with his tongue. He continued his assault for a while, giving both of her breast the same attention, before finally taking a break, using the time to fully pull off the tank top from her, to which she silently complied.
Much to his satisfaction, Saeko responded to this action of his by bringing her own hands to pull of his t-shirt. He gladly complied and ended up quickly taking it off himself, before immediately after starting kissing her again, now with both their chests naked making contact.
He finally moved himself sideways, giving her legs some space, but he had better plans. While still kissing her, with his two hands groping her breast, he finally decided to slowly travel down her torso, even further.
Without never stopping looking at her, he witnessed as she watched her travel down, until it finally reached her sex, and as she widened his eyes, before she could properly react to his advances, he pressed his fingers against her pussy, making her cry in pleasure as she threw her head back.
And he was more than happy to find out that her underwear was absolutely damp… hell, not only her underwear, her inner thighs, everything; she was completely wet.
Feeling bolder than ever after the new realization, he continued rubbing her fingers against her pussy, still over the fabric. By pure instinct, she tried grabbing his hand, although with no real intention of stopping him, but he immediately replied by grabbing said hand, and pinning it against floor again, while with her other, she covered her mouth.
He started sucking and playing with one of her breasts again with his mouth, as he continued rubbing her sex. It didn't take long before Saeko started moving almost frenetically, and trashing her legs around, completely overwhelmed by the pleasure. Ren picked up the pace guided by her moans, and once he decided to use his thumb to rub on her clit and her whimpers started dying on her throat before even getting out of her mouth, he knew she was close.
He finally stopped attacking her breasts and pressed his forehead against hers, wanting to see the precise moment he made her reach her release.
"Ren-!"
She moaned his name, which made him smile.
"Ren!"
And once the mouth that was covering her mouth left to grab the arm he was pleasuring her with, he knew it had arrived.
She closed her thighs together, trapping his hand in that spot and her back arched, he even felt her grow even wetter. He immediately pressed his lips against hers, drowning her cry of pleasure with his mouth, as he continued rubbing her more intensely.
She continued moaning in his mouth, much to his satisfaction, before her back finally gave away and she separated his legs. He finally stopped his assault on her, separating their lips and bringing his hand close to his face, covered in her juices.
He looked at his hand with slight satisfaction, as she did the same, but with shyness in her features, while still panting heavily. Knowing she was looking, he brought his hand close to her mouth, before licking his fingers slightly, earning widened eyes from her and a deeper blush.
Smiling at her, he kissed her again, this time more tenderly, feeling like giving her a small rest after her pretty intense release. Which she gladly welcomed.
He made sure to taste and feel her lips as much as he could, and noticed shifting and moving a bit, in a more comfortable position, while throwing an arm behind his neck once again.
But it became his turn to widen his eyes as he felt her touch on his manhood, which was painfully hard at that point. He looked at her with slight surprise, before she gripped it, hard; he gritted his teeth together as he held back a groan. He then could only look in silence as she slid a hand under his clothes, to directly touch it; he groaned, louder this time before pressing his face against the crook of her neck and she moaned in approval at his reaction.
Already feeling like he was about to explode, he grabbed her hand to pin it against the floor yet again before moving back to his previous position on top of her and it didn't take long before he took his pants, underwear and slippers himself, as she also took off her skirt and damp underwear, followed by her boots and knee-shin guards, with the only thing that remained being her stockings.
Although Ren for some reason, stopped her before she could take them off.
It kind added to the appeal, not to mention his patience was running at an all-time low.
Even her ponytail was gone, all her hair down now.
Now with both finally fully naked, he made sure to take a good long look at her from up and down.
She was perfect.
Her breast while not huge like others - cough Shizuka cough -, were the perfect size, and beautiful with those pink rose nipples.
The rest of her body was toned and smooth. He could totally see the slight definition of abs in her flat stomach and the clear years of arduous training she had gone through. Her legs, especially her thighs looked beautifully silk.
He loved every bit of her.
She was Goddess in his eyes.
Ren noticed her starting to pant again, before her hands traced all over his torso and arms, specifically stopping to touch his abs for a bit before they traveled back to his neck.
She pulled him down and he groaned as he felt himself pressing dangerously closed to her core.
He looked down before shifting himself so he was now positioning himself at her entrance. One last time he looked at her, as she was once again covering her mouth with the back of her hand.
A shy slight – very cute, adorable even – nod, and was her only gesture for this and her begging eyes all the confirmation he needed.
Ren slowly slid and pushed into her and the deeper he went, the harder she dug her nails on his back. He groaned at the new, mind-blowing sensation, and felt her stiffen, as her opening pulsed around him.
She whimpered and he groaned, once he fully buried himself in her, with his head pushing against her womb. And while he wanted nothing else but to start thrusting and ramming her as fast and aggressively as he could, he knew she was in slight pain at the moment due to this being her first time, so decided to not move, and simply chose to look at her.
She was looking at him, with slight tears at the corner of his eyes, while deeply flushed and panting heavily. He couldn't stop himself from kissing her once again, and she gladly reciprocated; although this time, the kiss was way more tender and loving compared to the previous hungry one.
He continued kissing her, not only her mouth, but also her cheeks and neck, earning slight moans from her every now and then, before she grabbed him by the cheeks and kissed him back more intensely now before quickly separating from him.
"Please…" she whimpered.
He immediately got to the message.
Ren slowly started moving his hips, groaning as he felt her pulsating and tightening even more around him.
It was addicting.
He couldn't get enough of her.
And her moans, which got more clear and louder the more he moved and the more he picked up the pace, motivated him even more, as he groaned in pleasure not only from the sensation, but also from her digging her nails on his back even more.
She moaned his name and in approval once he started thrusting into her even after while grabbing her hips by the sides. Both their breaths became quicker and the sound of their hips meeting filled the space.
He was close and tried to slightly separate from her, but her response was to wrap her legs around his hips, bringing him even closer and essentially trapping him.
Ren groaned at this and couldn't help but to keep trusting aggressively.
Was it really okay? was probably the question he would had asked.
But his brain stopped braining immediately after her actions.
Feeling her walls tighten even more around him, he knew she was also close, so he thrusted inside her a couple more times and felt her start pulsing around him even more before arching her back, reaching her orgasm as she cried in pleasure and her eyes rolled.
He noticed her legs reacting to this as well, as she released her hold on him and pressed her feet against the floor, arching her back even more. Finally, using his last bit of sanity left, he pulled himself out of her before cumming, releasing his seed all over her front, with most falling on her stomach, as he breathed heavily. Although she probably didn't notice even, as she was still experiencing the aftermath of her orgasm.
He collapsed on top of her as she finally hugged him.
Safe to say, that for both, it had been the best feeling and most pleasurable sensation they had ever experienced.
Ren laid on top of her for almost a full minute, as he heard her pant and moan from time to time right next to his ear.
"Fucking hell…" he muttered against the crook of her neck.
He heard her melodious, and now more than ever sexy laugh then, which immediately made him react as he slightly lifted his body weight from her, helping himself with his arms before looking at her.
She looked at him with loving eyes, full of affection and… need.
Still?
A dangerous sight.
That immediately made him react.
He was getting hard again.
Fuck.
Well, he was also glad that he was young and healthy.
So his only response was to kiss her again.
She moaned in approval before opening her mouth, inviting his tongue in, to which he quickly complied and once again both started a steamy french kiss.
But he was caught by surprise once he felt her gripping his cock once again with her hand, to which he groaned.
He quickly separated his lips from her as he looked at her now new expression. She had a slight smile on her face now, while her eyes were darkened with pure lust, as she kept panting slightly.
Well shit, it seems like he flipped a switch he probably shouldn't have switched…
Lord save him.
…actually, no, don't save him… he would be fine.
Probably…
He didn't even notice when she managed to switch their positions as she was now the one on top. She kissed him then, before she started rocking her hips against his hardened member; he groaned at the contact and gripped her tights hard, digging his fingers on them.
Saeko moaned with each movement, before she finally stopped, as she lifted her hips and grabbed his cock with one hand, positioning it at her entrance on her own.
Ren gritted his teeth before throwing his head back, as she completely took him in one sitting, before also throwing her head back in pleasure, while moaning.
They both panted heavily for a small moment, before Saeko started moving her hips, picking up the pace with each passing second. She was still as tight as ever and just so, so wet. Ren could only dig his fingers even harder on her thighs, to which she moaned in pleasure and dug her own nails on his chest.
Saeko rode him, with a steady pace, whimpering in pleasure everytime his head touched her womb, until her movements became more erratic by the second.
Ren silently thanked that this was his second round; because if she would had pulled something like this on the first, he would have had already exploded inside her.
Her walls tightened around him even more and she dug her nails on his chest even further.
Groaning, he moved his hands to grip both of her ass cheeks, hard, to which she moaned in approval, before he started thrusting upwards himself and once again the sound of their hips meeting filled the place.
Saeko widened her eyes at his sudden assault and moaned his name, before she slowly collapsed, until she ended up with her face pressed against his chest, while moaning uncontrollably.
Also affected by the sudden pace, Ren felt himself getting closer to the edge, but simultaneously, Saeko once again started rocking her hips and he couldn't help his mind for going blank immediately.
Ren could only throw his head back and grip her ass even harder as he came inside her, and immediately after Saeko rose, and he could feel how she came around him, as her back straightened up and her whole body was now trembling.
He just hoped it was one of those 'safe days' at least.
Saeko panted heavily as she experienced her orgasm and the aftermath on top of him, before she collapsed on his torso. He groaned as he felt himself slowly slipping out of her entrance and couldn't help but to hug her tightly.
Ren couldn't help but notice then, just how fragile she now felt in his arms. Saeko was by no means weak of course, and she was significantly taller than the average girls of her age, not to mention she had a toned and in-form body that would put most gym enthusiasts to shame; although the same was for him. But still, she felt, well, small to him; he had also noticed that her hands were significantly smaller compared to his.
She was indeed a mature and mentally strong individual, not to mention that an elite martial artist and a master sword user as well. But at the end of the day, she was just a girl too.
They both finally managed to shift their bodies, as she now was by his side, resting her head on his arm. Was this the famous arm-pillow?
He managed to grab the blanket that he had laid around previously and cover the two of them with it. After that, he took a good look at her, she was still slightly panting and her eyes seemed a bit lost, but finally she lifted her gaze to look at him.
His only response was to give her a quick peck on the lips before separating, although immediately after she returned the favor. He then fixed her hair behind her ear before pressing his lips against the top of her head as she hugged him tighter.
It was nice.
He honestly never wanted to leave this place.
And she felt the same.
He felt sleepier than ever now and as he felt her form completely relax by his side, finally closing his eyes, he fell asleep.
Peace.
That's what he felt as soon as he opened his eyes and looked at Saeko still laying by his side.
Also a little tired, but who cared, it was no wonder.
He knew that he has had the same thought pattern for the last couple of days now, but for real this time, this had easily been the best sleep he's had since… forever. Considering last night was easily the best night of his life, it was no wonder.
Him and the woman he loved had confessed to one another.
And for once he didn't feel like he was just some asshole that had to try and make-up for his past mistakes.
He smiled at the sight of Saeko peacefully sleeping by his side, still using his arm as a pillow… also the fact that she had drooled all over his arm was both adorable and also funny.
Once again, he felt like staying in that place forever.
But they had to continue their way.
Sun-light had already returned, he could tell. Although he wasn't sure about the hour.
Ren kissed the top of Saeko's head, before moving to her cheek, then to her nose. He smiled after noticing her reacting to this a little, as her facial features slowly trembled.
A mistake it was, to look down to gaze at her naked figure by his side, touching him, because he immediately felt himself growing more excited.
He rubbed his own face against hers slightly, before kissing her in the cheek. She finally opened her eyes, and brought a hand to rub them before she finally took notice of him staring at her.
"Morni-" he tried saying, but before he could finish, Saeko closed the distance between them and kissed him.
She proceeded to throw her arms around his neck, pulling closer. Ren groaned at the contact and also deepened the kiss as much as he could, but before his mind went blank, he managed to sneak a hand to Saeko's face and pinch her cheek gently, breaking the kiss.
"We have to ready ourselves, my lady Saeko" he whispered against her lips and noticed her blushing a bit before diverting her gaze.
Not that he was a fan of stopping himself from taking her again, but they had to reach the meeting point. The rest must be extremely concerned by now.
Saeko let go of her hold around his neck and he finally stood up.
Ren rolled his shoulders and cracked his neck before doing a few stretchings, specifically around his back and hips. He could definitely feel the aftermaths of their night together, although it was nothing that bad. Though, his back did hurt a bit, but it was a light burning sensation more than anything; he instantly figured it was from Saeko diggings her nails on his back; he could feel a similar although way more lighter feeling on his chest too.
He figured it was better – for the two of them – if he put his clothes back, and proceeded to do so, staring with his underwear and his pants. But he then heard Saeko giving away a little surprised cry behind him to which he immediately turned around to witness at Saeko getting back to her feet, although with a little struggle.
Although she finally managed to, she looked at her legs for a bit with a slightly surprised expression, before she lifted her gaze to look at Ren, who immediately after started chuckling, which made her blush furiously.
Well, he was definitely proud of that.
He turned around to continue his task, and decided to look inside his back for long-sleeved pull-over that he had been using previous to the black t-shirt. It was dry now, so he could get back to using it.
But before he could put it on, he felt her arms around his stomach, followed by her still naked chest pressing against his back, as well as his forehead.
He tried his best to not turn around and take her immediately.
"Saeko…?" he muttered.
"Sorry" she muttered against his back in a weak tone.
"About?" he asked slightly confused.
"Your back" she replied, and followed by that, she gently traced it with one of her hands.
The marks, courtesy of her, were probably noticeable, he figured.
"Don't worry about it" he replied with a smile. "…I like it".
She hugged him even tighter after his comment.
"And… thanks" she muttered, still against his back.
"For?" he asked.
"For last night…" she replied. "For… that".
Ren chuckled at her honest. "A little corny, aren't we?"
She hugged him even tighter. "But it's true. That was… the best night of my life… the best feeling I've ever experienced… I will never forget it".
Ren drowned a groan in his throat at her choice of words, as well as due to her tone. Not to mention she was tracing his entire torso with her hands now.
Also… was that her breathing growing heavier?
Begrudgingly, Ren grabbed her two hands, breaking the hold he had on him before turning around, and kissing her, catching her by surprise, before quickly separating from her.
"Likewise, trust me" he whispered, still close to her face with his hands still placed on each of her cheeks. "But right now, we have to get ready to go out again. The rest must be concerned about us".
She looked at him with slight surprise, before finally nodding.
Good.
They silently got dressed again, with Ren spending most of the following time getting his equipment on, all the holsters with the handguns as well as his katana.
Saeko on the other hand, put her usual clothes on, returning back to her usual school uniform now that it was dry.
After getting everything ready, from their clothes to their equipment, finally they stood in front of the door, and after removing the wooden plank that blocked it, Ren took one last look at Saeko.
She still seemed a little down, disappointed you could say.
It was both amusing and adorable.
Ren placed a hand on top of her head, getting her attention.
"Why you looking so down for?" Ren asked casually.
Saeko looked at him with a deep blush before diverting her gaze.
"It's just… I didn't want our alone time to end yet" she muttered while blushing.
Very adorable, truly.
"It's not ending" he replied with a smirk. "We still have quite a considerable way to go in order to reach the meeting point".
Saeko's blush deepened as she kept diverting her gaze. "That's not what I meant…"
Oh, right.
Ren chuckled some more before he slightly petted her.
"I feel the same way" he told her. "But we have to reach the meeting point as soon as possible. I don't want the rest to concerned enough to do something stupid… like returning to look for us or anything like that".
She visibly relaxed as it seemed like gave it some thought, before nodding at him, with more determination in her eyes now.
He smiled at her before nodding as well, before finally opening the door.
"If it helps, I was also losing my mind and just a bit away from jumping you, a couple minutes ago" he confessed, in a joking manner, as he stepped outside first
Saeko blushed, and giggle at this, following from behind. "Maybe I should had insisted just a bit more then".
He chuckled at this.
It was very early in the morning, he noticed as soon as he looked at sky; there was mist surrounding the area as well. They both slowly walked out of the shrine, before Ren heard a familiar sound.
He clicked his tongue in annoyance as he finally visualized them through the mist. They were pretty much surrounded by a pretty considerable amount of them; he immediately counted from around 12 to 15.
"We weren't that loud, were we?" was the first thought that came to mind.
But then he noticed. It had been the sound of the breeze blowing through the trees. You actually had to be shitting him. Was there really nothing louder at all than that around?
His hand immediately went to the hilt of his katana before he turned to look at Saeko. He eyed at her expression, which seemed slightly nervous and doubtful, before smirking.
The black-haired teenager brought his hand back, before spanking Saeko slightly, although with enough intensity to create a loud enough sound, which certainly got all the zombie's attention now this time. She gave out a weak cry as she slightly jumped on her feet, as a reaction, before looking at him, blushing furiously.
"Ren-?"
"I will tear the absolute hell through all of them" he casually stated before he took a battle ready stance. "You can stand and watch…" he then smirked at her. "Or join if you want".
She looked at him for a split second in slight surprise before smiling herself.
They didn't have to hold back anymore, especially around each other.
They could be their true selves.
"I'll…" she muttered before also readying her stance. "Consent to that!"
She darted forwards immediately after, beheading the closest zombie, as then proceeded to slash and tear through the nearest one.
Ren smiled at the scene, feeling the blood start rushing through his veins as well, witnessing Saeko tear through them with a smile of her own, and a look of pure ecstasy.
She had never looked more beautiful and free in his opinion.
This was good.
No matter what anyone would think of him… of them, this was the best.
Ren grinned himself before also darting forward, splitting a zombie's head in half horizontally before immediately after looking for the next one.
He almost wished they kept coming at them forever.
As the two of them sliced and slashed through every zombie nearby, the only way to describe the scene that they were creating, was just beautiful carnage.
And Ren knew immediately at that moment, as he kept tearing through them, with Saeko by his side…
He had never felt more alive than right now, in this moment.
Ren sheathed his katana as he panted heavily, while gazing at the view in front of him.
A bloodbath, was the only way to define it.
Over a dozen corpses of them, surrounding the two, laying on the floor, with severed body parts and brains scattered around.
He tried to control his breathing as he noticed the ever familiar feeling of adrenaline was now more powerful than ever. Finally, he diverted her gaze and looked at Saeko, who also had sheathed her katana and was gazing around, with a smile and an expression of pure satisfaction in her.
Her gaze also finally landed on him, and they both stared at each other for a couple of seconds…
Before the two simultaneously darted towards each other and immediately kissed.
A hungry, steamy kiss where it didn't take long for their tongues to also join in and participate. Ren slightly spanked Saeko once again before grabbing a handful of her ass to which she moaned in his mouth. Saeko, who had thrown her arms around his neck, pulled him closer at the contact.
Ren was the one who finally broke the kiss, as he looked at Saeko, who proceeded to hide her face on his chest, while panting heavily.
He immediately figured then… killing a bunch of them then landing eyes on the other wasn't the best mix. It basically had worked as an aphrodisiac, and he was having the hardest time of his life in many different ways, in order to not carry Saeko back to the shrine and just say fuck it to his self-control; his blood and entire body felt like it was burning at the moment.
"We have to move" he muttered while resting his chin on top of her head. "Really".
He then both heard and felt Saeko taking a deep breath against his chest. Did she just inhale his scent?
He already had enough trouble to stop himself back at the shrine.
"Saeko…"
"Just a little more..." she whispered against his chest, her tone begging.
And who he was to deny it?
While she kept hugging him tightly, he kept resting his chin on top of her head while caressing her hair. Saeko even rubbed her forehead against his chest, while hugging him even tighter, very adorably. Thankfully, the situation had gone from steamy to tender, which was easier to handle.
Almost a full minute later, once both of their breathing returned to normal, Ren took one final last breath before placed hidhans on her shoulders
As Saeko felt the contact, she finally separated from him, although while still blushing.
She cleared her throat before speaking. "I'm ready".
He smiled at her. "Had fun?"
She looked at him for a split second before smiling as well. "It was… the best".
He raised an eyebrow at this. "Last night I definitely took you higher".
Saeko furiously blushed at his comment while diverting his gaze, before she grasped the fabric of his pull-over around the wrist area.
"Never said it felt better than last night…" she muttered.
Ren chuckled at her honest innocent reaction. "To think, I'd have this effect on Busujima Saeko".
She blushed even more while looking at him. "I can't help it… I always wanted to grow closer to you, to do… those sort of things with you".
"Hmm" he smirked as he eyed at entertained. Teasing her was a blast for him personally.
"I just…" she muttered before diverting her gaze once again. "Didn't want you to think I was an indecent woman or anything…"
He chuckled at both her cuteness and her honesty, before throwing an arm around her shoulders, bringing her closer to him. "Like if I ever would have. While surprised I think I would had been pretty happy if you would had pulled a move on me".
She smiled at his words before lowering her gaze a little, but also threw an arm around his lower back.
They both walked in silence to the stairs that would lead them back on the streets, side by side.
And both raised their eyebrows at the struggling zombie that currently had made it to the top of it.
"You're late to the party bud" Ren said while eyeing at the zombie.
"I wonder for how long it took him to reach here" Saeko questioned casually.
Ren smirked at this. "Well, certainly less than on the way down".
He then proceeded to kick the zombie on the stomach, launching it back to crash on the stairs. Both then eyed at the poor bastard rolling down the long stairs, taking bump after bump. It would most-likely be dead by the time it reached the finish.
Ren couldn't help to snort a bit at the sight before chuckling. Saeko also joined in, while covering her mouth with a hand, as she was also now trying not to giggle, as they slowly made their way down the stairs.
What an adorable twisted couple they were indeed.
After a while, as they finally reached the end of the stairs and where back on the streets, Ren eyed at the unmoving zombie that he had previously kicked, laying by the edge.
Yep, it was absolutely dead now.
And it had been hilarious.
He eyed at their surroundings, noticing there weren't really any zombies around for the moment. Which was good.
"This way" he said, pointing the direction to her. "It should take us from 20 to 30 minutes to reach the meeting point".
Ren started to walk then, leading the way, but was stopped once he felt Saeko's hand grasping his own. He looked back to meet her gaze, and noticed that she was smiling tenderly at him now.
"Take responsibility" she said. "Do it for me, okay?"
Ren, just looked at her silently, before grabbing the hilt of his katana and unsheathing it slightly, then sheathing it back, creating a metallic sound.
Saeko, who had lowered her gaze to witness this, slightly widened her eyes before looking back at him, knowing exactly what that had meant.
Kincho.
"Absolutely" he said, with a smile.
Blushing, Saeko smiled at him tenderly, before locking fingers with him.
Sleep, lost and numb.
They had been lost for a long time.
But now they were wide awake.
And even if there was some darkness in them, they would hold each other's light.
Make sure they could always go back home.
And both move on together.
XXX
XXX
XXX
YOOOOOOO
Finally, it arrived :)
After a whole year but it did!
REAL QUICK
The Meaning behind Rentaro unsheathing his sword slightly at the end.
What he did, as mentioned, is called Kincho, which was an old practice used by samurais, which signifies a vow that has been made, and cannot be broken
Thought it be a nice little detail!
Hope y'll enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.
It's my first time writing smutty stuff so I hope I did alright.
I also aimed to make Ren's confession and finally letting his emotions flow as raw and emotional as possible hope this worked.
Also FINALLY, everything regarding his past was revealed. The shame he was carrying, his mental block, what was holding him back from truly appreciating himself and staying true to his true self.
I'll be honest, College has kept me pretty busy lately, but I absolutely wanted to release this chapter, which is very special, right at the 1 year mark from posting the story. My Computer broke (yet again) and College ain't getting easier. Don't know when I'll be able to write again, but as soon as I find time, I will!
It has been a crazy journey so far and I hope all you have enjoyed it.
BUT IT DOESN'T END HERE.
Stay tuned for the next chapter!
Which I hope doesn't take me long...
Once again hope y'll enjoyed.
Reviews are always welcome!
And thanks for all the Reviews, Follows Favorite so far!
Have a nice day!
