Chapter 24
One memory can hide another.*
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The story can very well be understood without reading these scenes.)
"I can't wait to hear your explanation, Bella… Edward growls.
I recognized Garrett on the street.
And you thought it was a good idea to invite a vampire feeding on human blood into the living room… he quips.
I know that sounds a little dangerous...
Barely, Edward hisses.
But they looked so cute together…"
Kate and Garrett were one of my favorite couples in the book. I was honestly glad I could help bring them together earlier in the game, but Edward seemed to have a slightly different train of thought.
"You took unnecessary risks for the sake of people you don't even know!" he yells, beside himself. »
I tremble as the sound twists my eardrums.
"Secondary quest: Calm Edward… Reward: An orgasm… Penalty: An early return home. Duration: 10 minutes. »
I think quickly, choosing to ignore the award, which seems rather irrelevant to me. I decide that talking to him head-on, as usual, won't calm him down. I am wrong and he is right to be angry. So much to assume until the end. I kneel at his feet and lower my head.
"You're right…I admit. I shouldn't have put myself in danger that way. I didn't think enough and you're right to get angry. »
He doesn't move or say a word for long minutes. I'm starting to wonder if I haven't pushed things too far. Finally, he gets down on one knee and lifts my chin.
"Yes, I'm furious. »
His voice is calm, but heavy with tension.
"If you were my daughter, I would keep you in your room for an indefinite period…"
I widen my eyes.
"But you are my mate and I don't know what to do with you…
Do you want to punish me? I ask hesitantly.
What did you expect ?! After giving me the scare of my life…he said pinching his nose. »
I make a decision immediately. It's the right thing to do to take it the wrong way. I have a hunch. I take a breath, swallow, and tell him confidently:
"Then punish me!
Pardon ? he exclaims, surprised.
I made a mistake and I'm ready to accept it. If you want to punish me, you have the right. »
He is taken aback. I think my assertive tone shows him that I'm sure of my choice: it's up to him to decide the appropriate punishment. It goes so against my way of being so far that he is caught off guard. And suddenly, I see in his eyes that he is making a decision. He takes me in his arms and I find myself on his bed, in his room. I look at him, questioningly, but I don't try to get up.
"Since you're giving me the time to punish you, I won't have to be prayed for," he told me. »
I remain silent, I await his explanations. He walks over to me, climbing onto the bed and I follow his predatory gaze.
"I told you to stay quiet at home. I promised your father to keep you safe… And you deliberately chose to put yourself in danger in my absence. You have to earn my trust back. You agree with me ?
Yes, I whisper.
You're going to stay quietly lying here while I take care of you.
Should I just lie down? I have nothing to do ? I ask.
That's quite right. If you move, the punishment will be prolonged. You trust me?
Yes, I say, shaking my head.
Can I kiss you ?
Yes, I blow.
Or ?
Where you want."
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He kisses me fiercely and I struggle to find my breath. When I think I'm going to pass out, he breaks away from my lips and attacks my neck. Placing my arms next to my head, he plants small kisses along my throat. I gasp in surprise and pleasure. If this is how he intends to punish me, I agree two thousand percent. I force my body to stay still as he descends into my cleavage, his hands reach under my t-shirt and he gently lifts it, pushing it back over my eyes, immobilizing my arms in the process.
I feel my heart racing. I know it's Edward, but old memories resurface. I didn't expect him to block my arms and not seeing him stimulated my imagination in a bad way. I feel his lips descend lower on my chest and his right hand lands on my thigh. I tense up, feeling panic wash over me. I can't help clenching my thighs and I feel my eyes burning.
"Don't move, he orders me"
And I do what he tells me. I feel my eyes watering up with tears and bite my bottom lip to keep from moaning. This situation I have already experienced. I thought I had put it behind me, but it comes back to me as clear and terrifying as if it hadn't been eighteen years since the moment when this bastard, who was posing as my boyfriend, abused me.
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I try to be as still as possible, but I know I'm shaking. I hear Edward sniffle and he stops kissing my stomach. I feel him get up and lower the T-shirt. I blink, but I can't see him in the dark. He wipes away my tears.
"Bella? »
His voice is worried. But I'm still paralyzed by the resurgence of memories of my real life and I can't answer him.
"Bella, what's going on?" he urges me to answer. »
He lowers his arms to my sides and rocks me frantically.
" I hurt you ? Please answer me. »
I finally manage to move my body and I stammer.
"I…I'm sorry…
It's me who's sorry. I shouldn't have gone this far. I thought you were okay… You told me where I wanted to… And since you had spoken before… caressing each other… Oh, Bella, please forgive me. »
I realize that he is castigating himself for something for which he is not responsible.
"It's not that…it's not you…
How can you say that when I make you cry?!
Bad memories… It's… It just reminded me…
Mike went further? he growls suddenly.
No... I'm sobbing. Not Mike…far from here…A long time ago…I thought I forgot…
This happened to Phoenix? »
I shake my head.
" In France… "
Edward stops, then says:
"You didn't go to France… You never even left the United States…
You did some research, I whisper.
I told you that I would discover your secret.
I do not lie to you ! I exclaim, panicked.
I know… Jasper is quite impressed!
J…Jasper? I ask, completely lost.
He feels all kinds of emotions coming from you: fear, anger, confusion, tenderness, determination… love…"
I know he smiles at the sound of her voice. He resumed :
"But lies, never! You are one of the most honest people he has met in over a hundred and forty years. He has a lot of respect for you. »
He sighs.
"Bella, I have to ask you questions, because I don't want to hurt you anymore like I just did."
It's not your fault, I assert again.
I should have broached the subject before something like this happened.
You know I can't tell you my secret...
I know. I ask the questions and you answer honestly.
What do you want to know ? I huff, wondering if he's figured out my secret.
Is your name really Bella?
This body is called Bella.
Were you born in this body?
... No ... I answer, after a moment of hesitation.
You were born in France?
Yes, near Paris.
What is your name ?
Eowyn. »
He raises an eyebrow and I specify.
"My mother loves Lord of the Rings…
A novel heroine, he said, amused.
You do not think so well say ... I whisper.
Hmm…
Mom likes the fact that she has enough courage to take up arms against her father's decision, in order to defend her values.
I'm beginning to understand your opposition to patriarchy, Edward remarks humorously.
Just like you, my mother is my role model. »
He thought for a few minutes before asking a new question:
"Have you traveled back in time?
Uh…. I hesitate, unsure of the answer to give.
Do you come from a time more distant than 2005? he asks, adjusting his question.
Yes… but not so far.
A time when you can use your fingers to zoom in on a screen? he suggests with his crooked smile.
Yes, I chuckle. I made an unintentional mistake. I was too comfortable and let a habit from my original life return.
You... you died and reincarnated in the past? he asks hesitantly.
No ! I cry out, scandalized.
And Bella? I mean... The owner of this body?
I do not know ! At first I thought she didn't exist, and now… now I'm not so sure. »
I feel him hesitate again before asking the next question.
"Did you choose to take possession of his body?" »
Tricky question…I bite my lower lip thinking. Edward tugs my lip lightly to release it.
"I don't like you hurting yourself. If that's too hard to answer...
I would like to give you an answer...
I know… "
He caresses my cheek and his eyes drift to my lips. I fill the space between us and kiss her tenderly. He whispers against my lips:
"I would like to understand what I did wrong…
My ex-boyfriend assaulted me... I admit, the ball in my stomach and I feel him freeze... Eighteen years ago...
How old are you ?
Bella is seventeen.
And Eowyn?
Thirty-seven.
I was not far in the end! »
I chuckle at his attempt to relax me.
"What brought back that bad memory to you?"
Not being able to move your arms… and you ordering me not to move. »
I feel the tears welling up again. Edward then hugs me, swearing he won't do it again.
"You're not angry anymore then?" I ask. Do you still want to punish me?
I think you've had enough of a sudden tonight. My anger subsided as soon as I felt your tears. You better get some sleep.
I'm going to need help with this.
Want a lullaby? he scoffs.
No, I want an orgasm, I mean seriously.
Pardon ?! he exclaims, terrified.
Please make me forget my fear. I don't want to associate your touching with rape. »
The word is raw, violent, but that's what it is. That bastard raped me and that's the moment I relived. Now, Edward is nothing like him and I don't want my subconscious to make me tense up like I did before at his touch. There's no way this rot will destroy my future.
"Please...I'm begging him." Help me…
I… I can't make love to you… he said shaking his head. We are not married.
Do you know that I am not a believer and that I lost my virginity a long time ago?
Bella…Eowyn…This is the only one…I broke all the rules…I only have…
I know you believe in God and I'm not asking you to give up your virtue. »
Edward looks relieved, but looks at me, uncertain.
" Touch me. Caress me. Make me forget. »
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He nods. With a hesitant hand, he slides it down my body, while scrutinizing my face. I exhale with pleasure when he touches the curve of my breasts. He kisses my lips, then my neck and nibbles my earlobe.
"You have to tell me if I'm doing something wrong. »
I nod my head.
"Bella?
Yes, I blow. »
He then sprinkles my throat with kisses, then tugs on the bottom of my T-shirt, looking me straight in the eye. I get up and remove the garment, as well as my bra. I see Edward swallow, then ask my permission with a look. I don't answer her, but pull her head towards my left nipple. I feel him take it in his mouth and suck it. The icy touch of his mouth makes me shiver with pleasure and I tug on his hair, making him purr.
Hold on ! What ?! Is it a vampire or a cat?! My surprise is quickly surpassed by the pleasure that overwhelms me. He then takes care of my second nipple while his left hand touches my belly and the button of my pants. I breathe a "Yes". I feel him smile against my chest and he unzips my pants, then pulls them down, slightly lifting my body in the process. My shoes, socks and pants are removed in seconds and his lips regain possession of my mouth.
I feel his manhood, trapped in his pants, pressing against my hip. My hands, hitherto placed against his chest, begin to unbutton his shirt. He grabs my hands, then lets them go as he hears me whisper against his lips:
" Trust me… "
I fully open his shirt and slide it down his arms. She lands on the floor with the rest of our clothes. I run my hands over his muscular back, smiling as I feel them twitch at my touch. One of Edward passes over my panties for the first time and I moan with pleasure. He then passes his index finger more gently along my slit through the fabric. I feel the piece of lace getting wet and I push my head back when I feel his finger go under the elastic of my underwear.
I hear him growl when he feels my reaction to his touch. It's a sexy, wild growl. Probably the most exciting sound I've heard in my life. His finger finds my clitoris and caresses it gently at first, then faster and faster as my pleasure rises and my moans increase. My back arches, pressing further against his throbbing cock, trapped in his tissue barrier. At this point, his grunts make his whole body vibrate, like a gigantic vibrator. The pressure builds to a point of no return in my lower stomach and waves of pleasure surge through me, shaking my body several times as I scream his name.
He sniffs the air and purrs with happiness. I place one of my hands on his face and ask him:
"Show me… Show me how you do yourself good. »
He doesn't show a second of hesitation before dropping onto his back. I straighten up and turn to my side in time to see him free himself from his pants and boxers in one motion. His clothes land with the others, on the floor, and he takes his erect member in hand. I am fascinated by its shape and width. It is perfect and one day I will have it in me. This thought excites me again. Judging by the movement of his nostrils, he feels it and his black orbs of desire stare at me intensely.
"You're so beautiful," I whisper, running one of my hands over the one that's clutching his erect cock. I want to see you cum. »
His hand then moves up and down, running his thumb over her slit from which pearl pre-cum. I follow her eye movements, hypnotized. I want to take it in my mouth, but I just lick my lips. I hear him moan and his movements are accelerating, I see his scholarship back slightly. His movements become jerky. I look at his face and I then have a most sensual vision: Edward, his eyes rolling in his sockets, his head tilted back, his mouth open, moaning my name… My real name…
I'm in a daze as I lean into his member and lick his release off his fingers. I hear him gasp and moan. It tastes like honey and I swallow it without leaving a drop.
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Then I put my lips against his, lay my head against his chest and feel myself falling asleep. I barely have the strength to see a blue window appear:
"Quest successful. The reward has been granted. »
"Empathy + 2"
"Complicity Edward +50"