HELLO to all my followers! Welcome to book 2. Fifty Shades of Forgiveness. This book is about Ana's journey into the life of a single mom. But will she stay single for? We all know that Ana will not have to raise her baby alone. She will have all of her family there, but will the 1 person she wants to be there, be there? Will she or can she even forgive Christian? Will he find out the truth? How long will it take him to find out if he does? What are you guys wanting to see in this book? Throw some ideas out at me and I will see if I can make it fit into this story. I have this whole book planed out in my head already. So hopefully you all will enjoy the second half of this book. So lets get rolling. On to book 2!

Christian POV

Another sleepless night. I have had them for the past five months. five months ago, was one of the worst days of my life.

FLASHBACK:

I am sitting in my office at work, just got done singing a new deal that I won. I finally got the tech company that I have been waiting. Not only do they work on solar power phones, but they are also working on more solar power for homes and businesses as well, and that is something I wanted to get in on.

As I am signing for what feels like the one hundredth piece of paper, I come across a folder. It looks familiar, but I can't place it. I open it up and the top line catches my eye. OH MY GOD! Rape Kit of Anastasia Steele.

Kit confirms rape and seamen present.

Bruises at 12 o'clock, and 2 o'clock,

Bruises on arms and legs.

What the hell have I done? I knock everything off of my desk, I throw everything around. I basically destroy my office. I am screaming and yelling, pulling at my hair.

I just threw the most important person in my life away; I threw the only person I have ever truly loved away like trash. Oh shit, the things I said to her, the names I called her. I basically called her Carla! Oh shit. What have I done?

I call Taylor into my office to demand he take me to Ana.

Sir, that will be impossible.

Why the hell is that, Taylor? Tell me? Why are you refusing to take me to Grey Publishing so I can see her.

Sir, if you would have been close attention, you would have known that Ana, quite 5 months ago. In fact I am spouse to give you this letter. I was told only when you realized the truth was I to give it to you.

My Dearest Christian,

By the time you are reading this, I will have left Seattle. I am not sure if I will come back or not. This is the hardest thing I will ever have to do. But seeing how you didn't want to listen to me, maybe reading it will help.

Here is the report from the hospital proving that I was indeed raped. The kit they did proves it. I have filed a report as well, I just wish you would have listened to me. You meant so much to me. I loved you with all of my heart, but as I can see now, you never loved me like you claimed you did. If you did, then this would have never happened.

If you want to believe all the lies that you were feed, then fine. You can live with the choice you made by tossing me away. I would have never ever cheat on you. You have known me my whole life, have I ever been that kind of person? Hell, you were my first! But again, think what you want. I am done trying to prove myself to a man that wont even give me the time of day anymore.

So, I hope you are happy with the outcome that you made. I hope that once you find out the truth you will feel the kind of pain you caused me. Once you know that truth don't come looking for me. I don't want to be found. I don't want anything to ever do with you again. Don't even have you goons looking for me. Ray made sure that they will never find me. If and when I want to be found, I may come back. But I won't be coming back for you. You lost me the moment you deiced not to listen to me. The moment you call me everything you did. The moment you walked out on me without even a backwards glance. You lost me and now you have to live with that choice. I hope you can live with yourself.

I really thought we were going to live happily every after. I really thought that we would be married, have kids, watch them grow up, watch our grandkids and even great grandkids grow up. I really thought that you were my soul mate. My other half. The part of my heart that makes me whole. I never thought you could be this curl to me. I never thought that one day I would never want anything to ever do with you again.

So, in closing, again once you finally know that truth, once you see that YOU were in the wrong, I will be gone, and I don't want you to come looking for me, as again I want nothing to do with you. I may love you, and that will never change, but at the same time, Things will never be the same again. I don't think I will ever be able to forgive you or trust you ever again. So good-bye Christian, Good-bye, I hope you have a happy life.

Ana.

As I am reading the letter, I am getting more and more angry. Angry at myself. I should have listened to her. What have I done? I have a strong feeling or regret that coming over my whole body. Next time I know I am bending down to my trash can just in time to throw up. I sink to the floor and cry, I cry over the past five months. I cry knowing that I just lost the love of my life. I cry knowing just how bad I fucked everything up.

Sir, are you ok? Do you need me to call your mother?

Taylor, how long? How long have you known the truth about Ana and what happened? Be honest with me.

Sir, I have known the minute she told you. I knew there was something about Jack I did not like. The looks he would give her. Hell, even Luke knew something was off. I tried to tell you in the car that day sir, but as you recall, you told me to keep my mouth shut if I wanted to keep this job, and the ONLY reason why I did that, is because I needed to keep taps on Jack, and Ana.

So, you know where she is then? I ask him with a hopeful voice.

If I may speak freely sir?

Yes, you may.

Christian, you are about the dumbest fucking idiot out there! Taylor yells at me. I have never heard him raise his voice let alone yell. This can't be good.

You had the perfect girl out there, and you threw her away. Did you even ask yourself, why would Mrs. Lincoln have photos of Jack and Ana on her phone? Did you ask yourself how she even got the said photos? No, all you saw or thought you saw was Ana cheating on you, because you deiced to be an asshole and ignore her for two weeks, then not bother to show up to her birthday dinner. If I may also say, she is better off without you.

Taylor I….

And to top it all off, you say you love her, you say she is or was the love of your life, but what did you do that same night I might ask? You called that as Ana calls her the She-Bitch and got a new sub! A sub I might add that you have had for the past five months. Where was your love for Ana then? If I were you, I would ask yourself again, how and why did Mrs. Lincoln have those photos?

Shocked. I am sitting on the floor completely shocked to what Taylor just said and told me. Why didn't I even think about how or why she had those photos of Ana. I need to get Walsh to look into this.

Taylor your right. I am a fucking idiot. My goal now is to win Ana back. But first I need to end my contract with Emily. If you could call Gail and have her pack up her things, then have Sawyer take them over to her place. Also get with Walsh and look into Jack and Mrs. Lincoln. I want to know if they are connected somehow.

Yes, sir, he says as he goes to walk away. Oh Taylor 1 more thing. Do you know where Ana is now?

Yes and no sir, and this is all I can say on the matter.

I give a node and he walks out the door. Shit, I feel like a fucking dumbass. I am so mad at myself. Why couldn't I just stop and think? No, I had run my mouth and I'm so hot-headed as Ana would call me. Ana, I think about her again, and I have tears in my eyes. I call the one person in this world who would know what to do.

Mother…