- When I was twenty, I met your mother, then aged fifteen, during the summer vacations. I was working for your grandfather, and needed money for my studies. And one afternoon, I went for a walk with your mother, who, how shall I put it... had sort of pestered me to go with her. So I went with her, and that day she picked some flowers and asked me to make her a wreath. And I confess, I really didn't want to. But I did. And when she put it on her hair, her bouquet of wild flowers in hand, I thought it would be a perfect model, hence my drawing. But some time later I had to leave, and I joined the army. And I never saw your mother again until her last days. This drawing is all I had to remember her by. Now you know everything.
Goren, with a nostalgic smile on his lips, moved his hand away from the top of Lucy's head, letting it fall back onto the sheet.
Was it true...
Had Goren told her everything, down to the smallest detail.
Lucy wasn't sure.
She had the feeling that Goren had forgotten to tell her the most important things.
And above all, why had he left.
If he'd needed money, he wouldn't have left like that.
There had to be a good reason.
In addition, what Goren had just told him confirmed that he had indeed known his mother at the time.
And he'd even drawn her.

Thinking about the drawing, she turned her eyes back to it, admiring the finesse of the lines.
- It really is a lovely drawing...
She brought her hand up to her mother's face, caressing it affectionately.
Yes, it was pretty, even beautiful.
Goren had been able to draw exactly the fine features of her mother's face, and every detail surrounding her mother was carefully drawn.
Lucy could feel that Goren had a strong feeling for his mother.
Could it be that he and his mother had been in love.
When she saw this drawing, so well drawn, with such delicate features, Lucy was sure that Goren loved his mother back then.
But did he still love her.
- Tell me Bobby... Lucy lifted her big brown eyes from the drawing to rest on Goren, looking at him intensely. Do you love Mommy.
At her words, Goren blushed violently, and nearly choked at Lucy's question.
He hadn't expected such a question, which was not only very direct, but also very personal.
And Lucy's big brown eyes, staring intently at him, trying to read the depths of his soul.
At this insistent stare, Goren put his hand to the back of his neck and looked away, not daring to look at her, embarrassed to be observed in this way.
Good God…

Lucy was just like her mother, saying out loud what she was thinking, with a disconcerting innocence.
But Goren couldn't tell her the truth.
It was his secret garden, and he preferred to keep it secret.
In addition, he should have known Lucy would ask him that question.
Admittedly, by telling this story and avoiding certain details, it was easy to wonder whether or not he'd ever had feelings for Alex.
And if so, was it still the case.
And the answer was yes, of course.
Of course he loved his mother, even more than when he first met her.
But he couldn't tell Lucy that.
- Tell me Bobby...
Lucy tapped Goren's arm with her little fingers, snapping him out of his thoughts and turning to her.
- You told me you knew Mom when she was fifteen... Goren nodded. Did you know a boy Mom was seeing at the time.
A boy his mother was seeing at the time...
What a question.
The boy in question...
Was him.
But why such a question.
- I don't remember your mother seeing any boys when she was fifteen. Except for me, who she hung out with.
At his words, Lucy's heart stopped, and she looked at Goren shocked, unable to take her eyes off him, realizing what he'd just told her.
Goren had just told her that he was the only man to have dated her mother when she was fifteen.

Didn't he see what he'd just said to her.
- You... Was...
At Lucy's stammer, and that shocked look on her face, Goren became worried.
What could he have said to put her in such a state.
- So you could be my daddy.
What.
Be Lucy's dad...
And how.
Lucy did have a father, and it wasn't him.
Even if Eames didn't mention it, Lucy already had a father.
In addition, he'd left long before Alex could get pregnant.
At least, he'd never considered the possibility.
But little by little, the words Lucy had just spoken made their way into his head.
Being Lucy's father...
Good God...
Could it be possible.
He'd have a daughter, and it wouldn't be.
It didn't make sense.
But Goren knew that with Jonathan Eames behind his daughter, he'd never have known if it had happened.
The man hated him, especially since he'd discovered that he and Alex were much more than friends, and much more than kisses.

In addition, at the time, he hadn't really thought about using contraception.
He'd never thought about the possibility of Eame getting pregnant.
Mostly, he'd acted unconsciously, thinking only of the desire he felt for her as a child, rather than thinking for a second about protecting himself and avoiding the risk.
At this realization, he felt a cold chill run through him.
Good God...
No.
It wasnt possible.
This couldn't have happened.
Or at least he'd never considered it.
And yet, he'd acted unconsciously, never protecting himself, and forgetting the risks.
But Alex was a virgin, pure of all acts, even kisses, so he hadn't thought about the risks.
So maybe Lucy could...
But no, that was impossible.
Eames wouldn't keep something this important from her.
And yet, he knew she could have.
But only because her father would have stopped her.
- Bobby... Is that you... She put her hand on his arm, shaking him, bringing him back down to earth. You're my father.
At her words, and Lucy's insistence on shaking him, he snapped out of his thoughts and looked at her, analyzing every detail of her face.

His gaze was drawn to the color of her eyes, that brown color, so unique.
A color he'd been used to every evening, when he was little, just before falling asleep.
A color he should have recognized a thousand times over, since it was as similar as his mother's eyes.
Name of God...
Lucy had the same color of brown that his mother had, and that he himself had inherited from her.
Could it be possible...
And if it was.
Why hadn't he seen it.
He should have known.
But he still had his doubts.
And so he couldn't certify to Lucy that he was her father.
It could be a case of mistaken identity.
- I don't know if I'm your father or not.
At his words, Lucy's heart beat violently in her chest, ready to break, and her big brown eyes lit up with hope.
- Can you tell me your age... And the day you were born, Lucy.
Yes, she could tell him.
If it would confirm what she was beginning to believe.
That Goren could be her father.
- I'm thirteen... And I was born on the twenty-fifth of April.
Thirteen years old...
And Lucy was born on April twenty-fifth.

At this discovery, Goren looked at Lucy differently.
As if he were seeing her for the first time.
This date of birth, her age...
All coordinated.
And if he had calculated correctly, Lucy would have been conceived the night Alex had come to his room, and the day before he left.
But no, that was impossible, he must have miscalculated.
After all, he could have been wrong by a year.
But Goren knew he couldn't make that kind of mistake, especially if the day before he'd lost the person he loved, destroying his heart.
And he could also ask Deakins for confirmation.
Because Goren couldn't forget that it was his current captain who had taken him on board at the station that night.
Name of God...
Chances were it was him.
But he needed certainty.
Because maybe, despite everything, Eames had met Lucy's father just after he had, and so he couldn't be the father.
- It could be me... just as it could not be me.
So it could be Goren her father...
But he wasn't sure.

Maybe there would be a way to find out if he was her father.
- Would there be a way to find out if you were my dad.
If there was a way to find out if he was Lucy's father.
Yes, there was, and a very simple one.
A DNA test.
But could he even consider it.
Especially with Alex's permission.
- There would be one... But...
- Which one.
Good God...
Goren was in a bad way.
He could see that Lucy was pinning all her hopes on him, and on his so-called paternity.
But if the DNA test revealed that he wasn't her father, he was afraid Lucy would be very disappointed, and very hurt.
But above all, he was afraid of alienating Alex once and for all.
And that he couldn't bear.
He'd rather take another beating than lose Alex again.
- If there is one Bobby... She rested her little fingers on his arm, and plunged her big, hopeful brown eyes into Goren's gaze. It has to be done.
Name of God...
No.
Anything but this.
Lucy shouldn't look at him like that.
But in the face of her hopeful gaze, Goren felt himself weakening.
Lucy looked so much like her mother at that moment, he didn't have the courage to refuse her.

- Very well... I'll do what's necessary.