Hello! It's been a minute, hasn't it? I haven't kept in touch with any of the people I used to talk to on this platform- or any platform, really. 2018 was the last time I can really remember sitting down and writing something, and that makes me sad. I had a lot of fun here, and I had some really special moments and connections with some really cool people that I genuinely would not trade for anything.

At the tail end of 2018 I took some very large steps back from fandom activity (of all kinds). I watched the kacchacko fandom in particular grow from less than twelve people to hundreds in the span of a year, and with all those creative minds thrown together in one group the same thing happened that always happens with fandoms, it got cliquey and gatekeep-ey and toxic. Suddenly I logged into twitter and saw nothing but people arguing with each other about which ship is better, or who's problematic because they support this ship or this fic, or they're friends with this person who's problematic. This, that, or the other thing, someone had an opinion that was way more important than everyone else's and if you didn't agree you were some evil hell spawn who should be bullied relentlessly, shunned, put in a block chain, and then bullied some more with the screenshots of the whole debacle. In that order. It grew very tiring very fast, and with the added stress of already being a human in the Real World I came to the conclusion that investing my energy and essence into something that was only draining me was not worth it.

Then the pandemic happened. I'm not going to go into details here because we all know, but that shit will change anybody's brain chemistry. I was watching on tv and reading news articles about bastard cops in my country getting paid time off as punishment for MURDER and then logging onto twitter to find that not only did nobody care, but they actually would rather spend their time trying to cancel each other. People were simultaneously saying they came to fandom communities and spaces specifically to escape the real world and its toxicity and problems, and in the same thread were actively accusing people of being rapists, child molesters, etc. All because people disagreed with a trope "so it shouldn't exist." Or even worse, people who looked through tags they hated with specific intent to harass the people in it. People lying about their age to get into 18+ spaces and then gaslighting their way out of it. Needless to say, it didn't sit right with me at all, and I stayed logged out for a very long time.

I spent the past 3 years largely with that energy, but I've also spent the past 3 years figuring a lot of shit out about myself, and humanity in general during that process.

I figured out I was autistic, which answered basically every question I had about my self worth and why it was so hard to communicate with people the way they wanted/needed me to. The stimming, the need to isolate, my eating habits, the list goes fucking on. I have learned and unlearned many things about myself and the society I grew up in, and I would like to think I have gotten much better at giving myself grace and patience when it comes to operating within them. I would also like to think I have gotten better at being a person, setting boundaries that I can control and meeting my own needs first.

I say all this to say: I miss writing. I miss the creative rush, the editing process, I miss posting chapters and reading the comments after. I miss talking to people who are as hyper fixated on a thing as I am! So I think I am going to try again, different this time. The first few fics I posted I was not very educated on content warnings and triggers. I tried but, man, I was bad at it. That has changed. I'm also not going to be interacting with the cesspool that is Twitter, I will stick to this platform for now. I would really like to incorporate a posting schedule this time around. The process last time was to post a new chapter essentially the moment it was finished, and that led to a lot of typos, plot mistakes, and accidentally triggering people. No more of that for me, thanks.

Now that all of that is out of the way, I would like to announce I will be starting my writing journey again by reuploading one of my old (and longest) fanfictions: A Happy Accident. I started this kacchako project in 2018 and it's just not fair that I never uploaded the finished product. For those of you who remember reading it the first time, there are going to be some time zones and school season things that are different. And for those of you who are reading it for the first time and are caught up with the manga, again, I wrote the majority of it in 2018 lol I did not realize the canon plot was gonna take the turns that it did. For those of you reading for the first time who are anime only, you *should* be spoiler free. I'm not entirely sure yet, I will probably go through the anime one more time before I start posting just to be sure, but I usually will have a chapter summary at the beginning of each chapter for spoiler and content warnings just in case.

Since there are a couple of life events in the process for me right now, uploading for A Happy Accident will start towards the end of the month on Sunday the 24th. Barring any incidents, I will upload a new chapter once a week every Sunday until the fanfic is over :). I will be posting shit for multiple fandoms, whom I will tag on this post, but I think I am going to focus mostly on A.H.A. until it is complete for obvious reasons.

I will see you soon!