A Selfish Heart

Chapter 7

By KellyQ

For the past two days, Johan made food for the upcoming tournament. Considering the large quantity, he thought there should be enough food for everyone. Johan leaned over the table and scrubbed the flour with a damp towel. Bowls of fruit. Plates of various types of sandwiches and barrels of water. Johan stared at the clock to see past midnight- and he sighed.

The tournament will decide the fate of Judai's future. Johan's fist clenched. The thought frustrated Johan, and he didn't realize he was shaking in anger.

"Johan ..." came a voice Johan recognized right off the bat.

Johan stiffened at first but relaxed, turned, and smiled to see Prince Judai standing there with a troubled look.

"Judai, shouldn't you be in bed?"

The prince looked away. "I ... I had a bad dream that you ran away, and I couldn't find you ... And I have a headache."

Johan smiled, walked up, stood behind Judai, and rubbed the prince's neck. Judai moaned in pleasure and leaned against Johan. Johan chuckled and wrapped his arms around Judai's waist.

"Come on, Judai," Johan urged. "You need to go to bed and sleep."

Judai sighed and pulled out of Johan's arms. "Alright. But can I have some tea?"

Johan smiled, walked to the kitchen counter, and put the pot on the stove. Judai watched Johan move gracefully. And by some impulse, Judai walked up and moved some hair away from Johan's face.

"Has anyone ever told you that you're beautiful?" Judai asked Johan.

Johan has been aware that his looks attracted onlookers his whole life. Starting at an early age, he was picked on and labeled a sex toy. However, he never blamed himself for the way he looked.

"Johan ...? Are you okay?" the prince asked, seeing Johan's eyes glaze over, and he withdrew within himself.

Then, the kettle whistled, which snapped them back to the task. Johan blinked and took the kettle to the burner. Judai bit his lip, wondering if Johan was offended by what he said.

"Uh ... Johan ...?" the prince murmured. It was clear that Johan didn't hear Judai call out to him. "Johan ... say something, will you? If I offended you, I'm sorry -"

"Don't worry about it," Johan reassured, putting a tea bag in a cup. He poured the hot water into the cup. "I was just thinking about something." Johan turned and handed Judai his tea. "Now, get some rest."

Judai bit his lip again. "Are you sure that I didn't offend you?"

Johan smiled. "No. I'm flattered. Now let's get you into bed."

Johan leads Judai to his room and puts the teacup on the nightstand. Judai crawled into bed and pulled the covers up to his chest. Johan smiled and bid the prince goodnight when Judai grabbed Johan's wrist.

"Johan ... do you ... can you sleep with me ... just for one night?" the prince asked timidly.

After Johan thought about the idea And saw the pleading look in Judai's eyes, he wouldn't say no. "Sure."

Judai moved to the other side of the bed, allowing Johan to lie next to him. The two lay there for a few moments, staring at the ceiling. Judai turned over and looked at Johan until the kitchen boy averted his gaze to the prince. They stared at each other for a moment and smiled. A lot of emotions started to brew around them.

Judai shifted and reached out to stroke Johan's cheek affectionately. Judai leaned in and kissed Johan. Johan's heart began to rise, and his breath hitched. Judai's desire overwhelmed him as he trailed his hand to Johan's shirt caller and moved it down his shoulder. Judai trailed his kisses to the knife wound. His lips hovered over the patch of red and purple skin.

"J - Judai ..." Johan responded in a quivering voice.

The prince was now on top of Johan, ready to go further than just a cuddle. Sexual tension developed between them as their kisses became more heated and intense. It took a moment for Judai to pull away and stare into emerald green eyes glazed over. Johan shivered, and his facial expression flushed and melted Judai's heart.

"Judai ... we ... we need to .. stop," Johan said between kisses and panting. He started to feel horny, and Judai's body grinding against him felt good.

"Please, Johan ... just for tonight? I've always wanted to make you mine," the prince pleaded, nuzzling into Johan's heart-shaped chest and toned rib cage. He, too, felt horny.

As much as Johan is flattered that Judai wanted to go that far, he doesn't think Judai deserves a body already taken. Instead, the prince deserves someone clean, beautiful, and more robust.

"I am sorry, but no," Johan said firmly after using his body to move Judai off him.

It took a moment for Judai to comprehend what just transpired, and he noticed that Johan had left the room; he also realized that Johan did not want sex. The more Judai thought of his sexual urges for Johan, the more he felt disgusted with himself.

To Be continued ...