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And it continues…
It's Thursday already and I've heard nothing from Rick/Carlos/Ranger. I guess he really is an asshole. Not that I've been waiting or anything but…
I know I made the decision to raise Theo on my own, and I know I could have asked Tank for information about his best friend, but I wanted no ties from the past. After all the shit Dickie put me through, I didn't want anyone to take this from me. I wanted to start fresh, that's why I left Trenton and cut all ties. I realize now that I've been a shitty friend. To Lula, Connie, Mary-Lou, and a lot of others. If Lester hasn't spread it around, no one in Trenton even knows that I've had a baby. Daddy might have told Bobby, but why would he? The short and far between contact with Lester didn't include much gossip about my friends. I know Tank and Lula are expecting their first baby and Connie and Ram had a thing, but it didn't turn into anything. I'm quite surprised Lester is related to Rick, that's what I know him by, so that's what I'll call him. He might have mentioned a cousin named Carlos in college, but I don't remember that. What's even more surprising is that Gabby is their aunt or Tia Ella, as they call her. She never mentioned knowing anyone in Trenton. She even knew Tank's real name and the fact that he'd gotten married to Tallulah. Huh, strange. Lula was my friend, and I didn't know her name was Tallulah. I'll have to ask Gabby about it.
Actually, I don't really know much about Gabby. She's a retired pediatric nurse, a widow with no children of her own. She rarely mentions any relatives except her mother Rosa. I've gotten to know her better after her husband died. She shares the same outdated values as my mother did. Women are supposed to be married before having children, well, I was married before I had Theo. Women are not to be having one-night stands, oh, I had one. She hasn't outright said anything, but it shines through sometimes. As long as Theo likes her, and she treats him right I don't see why she can't continue looking after him. I bet she'll be surprised when she learns that he's in fact her great-nephew.
It's been almost a week and she hasn't seen the resemblance between Theo and Rick. Maybe it's just obvious to me when I know what to look for. Or maybe she didn't spend much time with him as a child. You would think that she'd notice. Even Lester has got the same shaped lips, the arch, and the color of the hair. I think I'm the only one noticing the way Theo looks at me sometimes. The way Rick looked at me during our night. I would like someone to look at me again. With utter adoration and unconditional love.
I know I'm busy with work and studying and friends but would be nice to curl up with someone on the couch and talk about everyday things. It's been a long time since I've had that. Not even with Dickie, the douchebag, did we ever just cuddle on the couch. Turned out he cuddled with someone else all along. Before Dickie there was Wade and Tom in college and that's about it. Do I even know how to cuddle with a grown man? What would a relationship with me be like? Am I too set in my ways, could I compromise to make room for another person in my life right now? What kind of man would I look for? He would definitely have to like kids, duh. Be social, have a steady income, I'm not looking for a meal ticket but I'm also not ready to support someone financially. He should be interested in current affairs, be able to converse about different things. He needs to be sporty and active, spontaneous, and open-minded. And a great cuddler, that's a given. I wonder if Rick is a great cuddler? Even though he acted like an asshole I would like to know him better, he is after all Theos father. I unintentionally even named my baby after him, Matteo Ricardo Plum.
Tomorrow is the day that I've got to go and see Silvio, maybe I should call Lester and see if he's free for lunch. I thought the Breeland case would have been more intricate and time-consuming, but I'm already finished with it. Turned out it was his second daughter behind the scam. That's sibling rivalry for you.
TBC