Guilt. Second stage of grief.

I never wanted you to leave me. I said something you didn't like and I hurt you... I'm terribly sorry and I hope you'll forgive me. I know you're not very fond of forgiveness and I resent myself for asking this, but... What am I going to be without you?

I get on the elevator with the metatron, leaving everything behind. Leaving Maggie and Nina's budding love, my books, but most of all... you. But I don't have a choice! I've got to try! For our own sake!