Rin wakes up from her slumber per usual. She gathers her things and heads home. So far, they have been having a weekend love affair, which was perfect for her life.
For now...
She enters her apartment quietly, not to alert her roommate. She finally makes it to her room and lays on her back.
"What the hell was that?" Rin pondered the whole way home about Sesshomaru's behavior. It was becoming stranger with every encounter. She knew they had to be breaking the rules.
Well, it was Sesshomaru who did it first. She kept a facade up and hoped he didn't read through her.
Yes, he showered her with gifts and flowers every time. It showed her that she could be cherished... possibly loved.
She felt warmth and often would fantasize about how it would feel to belong to someone.
Possibly belonging to him, and he would belong to her.
Rin would be lying to herself if she didn't take notice of his behavior.
This may be what he does for all of his clients. Gift them, send money and wine, and dine them. It had to be a part of the contract. The reality is that this was a paid service for him to satisfy her wants and needs.
"Don't question it, Rin." She closes her eyes. Tears begin to fall. "But I am falling deeper for him." She balls her fists up and punches the bed. "This is so frustrating! What have I gotten myself into?" She shook her head from side to side. "I couldn't stop if I wanted it. I must see him as much as possible before my month's trial ends."
She looks over at her calendar on the wall. "There isn't much time left. I have to enjoy it. I will decide once this trial ends if I will continue with the flex-pay account. I want you to feel something for me, Sesshomaru." Tears flow harder down her cheeks. "I love our time together." She wipes her eyes. "I don't know if I can keep up with this facade. Please consider me."
