Okay people I know it's been a while but I'm here firstly to update and second to update. Currently I'm focusing on writing my novel and I've decided to release my novel at least the first one on wattpad and all subsequent novels in the series on and also if I get a publisher, the traditional route. The inspiration for the story are all the things I like and especially the villains. One thing you gotta know about me. I love my villains. Villains make a great story but I also love stories that are far more complicated than that. Stories where there are no villains just various sides. That said my top favorite villains are Darth Vader, Aizen from Bleach, Madara from Naruto, Galactus, Now don't get me wrong I love a ridiculous ton of villains but I can't possibly list them all. Now this novel has one primary main character and two secondary main characters and several others who make up each main character's clique if you will. The Main character is Chase Ren. The other two Secondary characters are named Drayven Meyers and Viron Rios. The story itself is called L.O.T.U.S. Or just lotus and yes it actually stands for something I plan to start posting chapters this 2021 so please be on the lookout real soon. Now without further ado more of this chaos.

(The Day after Halloween)

Elizabeth Allan and her wife Angelica Jones were just coming back from their date to their penthouse apartment. An apartment formerly owned by one Norman Osborn, the grandfather to her child, and mentor to her in the business world. Though armed with knowledge that he was the insane enigma known as Oz the Green Goblin... Well let's just say their relationship wasn't the greatest right now. Not to mention the fact that as Oz Norman tried to murder her father. And also her ex the madman's own son Harry Osborn. Well that put a strain on their relationship coupled with the fact that Harry also donned the green uniform and tried to murder both her and their son. Safe to say divorce came real quick.

At this moment though, she and her wife were startled when they turned on the lights in their living room only to see a familiar, if only distant, face just sitting their sipping her Bourbon. She noticed Peter and Liz could tell immediately something was off. His usual somber and guilt ridden attitude wouldn't inspire Peter to commit to breaking and entering. Plus Skrulls and shape shifters like Mystique were a thing. Liz decided not to let down her guard as she and Angelica went up to the man seated in her chair.

"Hey Liz, it has been a while." Peter said when he finally looked at the pair with a small smile.

Seeing his face and realizing that it was genuinely Peter, and feeling how the sneaking suspicion that was growing within her were all false alarms, Liz exploded in anger inside.

"Why the fuck did you break into our home? Get the fuck out!"

"To... Apologize. Liz we used to be so close. You were my best friend. My best friend in all the world. My first friend ever. And recently I was reminded that I haven't been invited to your birthday party in years. I barely remember the last one I went to. And I haven't invited you to mine either. And when you came back to New York and you visited Aunt May without even looking for me. That... It... Bothered me. And then it hit me after I became friends with Harry and then Eddie and all the rest. We drifted apart. I realized I had no right to be offended that you wouldn't invite me to things when I haven't put in any effort to salvage our friendship."

"What are you trying to say?" She asked as she visibly called down.

"I miss you. I miss being your friend. You're probably the one person on earth that gets me the most, and I'm sorry I haven't lived up to my part in our friendship. But that ends. From now on I promise I'll be there for you. If... You'll have me."

"Why?... Like you said, I know you Peter. The only way you'd come to this sudden realization is if something big had happened. So what was it Petey?"

Hearing the smile in her voice Peter couldn't help grinning back at her. "I promise I'll work hard to earn your friendship back."

Angelica just smiled at the two friends' reconcilation. But she knew she'd have to have a conversation with Liz about certain things since Peter would be in their lives more often. Especially about his insane and immense guilt complex.

"So why are you here Peter?" Angelica asked.

"Well you both know about the other me. So I wanted to show off a bit. I reached out to you gals to show off my newest suit. My Spider suit mk 52...

(Later that night)

"Hey Felicia!" Peter greeted his former lover when he finally tracked her down that night. Halloween had been a very eye opening night for Peter. Today he had been trying his best to rectify certain relationships and he saved the most complex one for last. Peter could freely admit he was extremely attracted to Felicia. He was grateful that she actually pursued him for a relationship all those years ago. And back then she wasn't taking no for an answer. Now standing in front of her and her small crew all Peter could see was a building rage.

Felicia's response to Peter appearing in front of her was to pop out her Adamantium claws. "I warned you what would happen, Spider, if you showed up in front of me ever again." Saying so Felicia immediately pounced striking at Peter and it was clear she had the intent to kill.

"Please hear me out Felicia." At the moment Peter was in fact wearing his newest Spider-Man suit. Funny enough though no one has noticed him today. But that could be due to the new tech in the suit.

Felicia immediately slashed at the web head but that went about as far as you would expect considering Peter's Spider sense. Felicia found Peter jumping onto her arm as if he was some kind of eagle.

"Felicia calm down. I need to-"

"He's dead because of you!" She screamed at Peter hysterically as she tried to plunge her claws into his legs. Only for Peter to jump up but Felicia leaped in an almost choreographed motion to continue her onslaught. Their dance continued for the next ten minutes with Felicia and Peter keeping up with each other but Peter clearly not trying to hurt Felicia, but also not to get mutilated as Felicia repeatedly aimed for Peter's sex organ.

Her fury was almost visible in her eyes as her attacks were always ferocious, vicious, animalistic, and barbaric in nature. Finally as Felicia aimed to impale Peter's face with her claws Peter caught her arms by their wrists. He had hoped he could easily hold her back while explaining why he was seeking her out but he quickly found that Felicia had received further augments to her powers. Not only was her control over cosmic probability more in line with the likes of Scarlet Witch and Domino if not superior but she also augmented her other stats. To put it simply Felicia was now dead even with Peter in terms of all his raw stats like strength and speed. The result was that Peter was finding it extremely troubling to keep Felicia from impaling his face.

As he was struggling to hold her back Peter made a snap decision to try and shock her out of her anger so Peter redirected her attack to his own stomach and to add shock to get her to calm down he added his own strength to her own. The result was her fingers nearly halfway inside his stomach region and his blood flowing visibly. His painful grunt as well as his mask receding to show Peter's grinning face did the trick snapping Felicia out of her anger as a sudden sense of loss hit her.

Peter's life was literally in her hands. If she pulled her fingers out at this exact moment and made sure Peter didn't receive medical attention he'd probably die right here tonight. But she could also plunge in just a little deeper and she could kill him straight away. And it was made possible because Peter assisted her in impaling himself on her claws. Felicia couldn't tear her eyes away from her own hands and Peter's flowing blood. It reminded her of the times Peter's saved her life by allowing himself to get impaled on Venom's claws or Ock's mechanical limbs. In those times Peter had the Fantastic Four or the X-Men nearby to help patch him up. This well this was very different.

"Heh! Do I have your attention now? Have you calmed down?"

"Huh?!" She looked up confused. As if she didn't know where she was. And honestly she didn't. She was focused on wondering how she got to this point. Peter may have been self sacrificing but she had never known him to be suicidal. Was that it? Was he using her to commit suicide as some sort of morbid apology to her for what he caused? The thought of Peter using her to kill himself... It didn't sit well with her. And what was with that grin? It was like he was happy he was impaled. Was this really Peter? He wasn't known to be a masochist. At least the parts of him she knew. "What's happening?"

"Oh good I have your attention." Peter stopped grinning there. He looked at Felicia with a look filled with such guilt and sorrow that Felicia felt horror at what she'd done. It suddenly came to her who she'd been directing her anger towards. Peter Parker also known as Spider-Man. With his guilt complex as angry at him as she was, it would be nothing compared to how angry he would be at himself. And all the thoughts she'd had every time she saw him finally came hitting back at her. Then she finally allowed herself to imagine how much worse those moments would have been from Peter's own perspective. His crippling self hate that she'd been trying to help him work out. And then she heard what he had to say and those feelings amplified. "Your father's alive. They lied to you. He's been at the Raft all this time... well until I broke him out earlier tonight. He's at the Symkarian embassy. I convinced Silver to protect him as part of a deal but part of that deal is that you have to work for her."

Felicia was so confused. Shield and Raft personnel had informed her and her mother that Walter Hardy had died while incarcerated. They also let her know the Spider-Man aka Peter was the one who sent him back to prison. But the old man couldn't handle the strain and died. Since then she had blamed her father's passing solely on Peter and she had slipped back into a life of crime purely out of spite. Still having lived on the other side of the law she dialed down her activities to actively avoid inconveniencing heroes. But now SUDDENLY her father was alive! What miracle was this? Not only that but now the Nation Symkaria was protecting him? It was like her greatest wish had come true.

As bewildered as Felicia was her heart sank as Peter pulled her claws out of himself allowing his blood to flow like a waterfall. She wanted to help keep him standing but Peter collapsed against a nearby wall. He was losing an unhealthy amount of blood. Felicia pondered on what to do. Peter had declared himself retired from hero work already and Felicia wasn't exactly on the various hero groups' speed dial. But Peter cut up her internal debate when he spoke next.

"Go... I know you want to see your father. I'm sorry I got him into that mess and for what I put you through. Go... And maybe tell Silver what happened... that I need help." Peter said to Felicia while grimacing the entire time. For a moment Felicia looked around to hail her crew only to realize that their fight took them across the city. There was no chance she could get them to watch after Peter in time. Not on foot at least. Calling 911 was obviously not an option. Especially since Peter wasn't masked right now.

She eventually made the decision to go to the Symkarian embassy for help. It took her far longer than she was proud of to come to her decision. Especially if what Peter was saying was true. Well that meant that her rage was, while slightly justified was also misguided. So she hauled ass across the city.

When she was finally gone Peter's A.I. spoke up. "Should I bring life support systems online?"

"No. No need. I want her to feel guilty for this." Peter replied mischievously.

"I estimate that you have approximately 30 minutes before cardiac arrest."

"Just kick it in at the last second." Peter ordered.

"Acknowledged," Paris affirmed.

When she finally made it to the embassy she was shocked to see her father sitting around with Silver Sablinova, Silver Manfredi, and Queen Lenka. She was in a daze from seeing her father alive and looking healthy so much so that she momentarily forgot about Peter still being on a rooftop until Silver said.

"You can thank Spider-Man for this."

Obviously realizations set in.

(30 minutes later)

By the time the Silvers and Felicia made it to the rooftop Felicia had left Peter on the group could see a massive pool of blood just lying on the building. But Peter himself was nowhere to be found.

"Don't tell me one of his enemies got to him?" Silver Sable asked the other ladies as the trio all stared at what some might consider a priceless resource in the form of Spider-Man's blood.