Love Struck Eternal
Chapter 31 - Claire.
Claire's POV. Don Verno's Compound. An hour later.
Most of my father's friends were gone for some reason. I hadn't seen anyone since I went to bed. I wonder where they all went?
I grew used to being around everyone, but night time was my favorite time of the day. The man who my dad had in charge of keeping me inside my room always fell asleep an hour after I went to my room. So I timed it and would always sneak out to explore the gardens and yards. Thanks to my natural red fur I was always good at staying hidden at night in dark places.
"Wow." I whispered to myself as I sneaked out the back door to find no one around the courtyard. I had never seen the compound so empty. Even the gate guys were gone.
Sprinting out to the very middle of the courtyard, I looked up at the moon. It was only half of it's usual self tonight. Looked kinda silly.
My attention however changed rapidly as I figured if no one was around I could finally go swimming at night. I always wanted to do this. So I ran as fast as I could to the back of the house to find my father's pool all lit up and blue. The moonlight shining over it made it look magical.
I was worried though that someone would catch me. I just always had a feeling I was being watched. Yet I spent probably five minutes running around the area to make sure it was clear and I still found no one. So I ran back to the pool and sat down to start taking off my shoes. I didn't want them to get wet. They were my favorite pair.
Casting my shoes to the side, I took another quick look around and gently slipped my feet into the warm water.
"Yes!" I whispered to myself as I knew I had done it. I finally got away with this crime. My father would ground me if he knew I was doing this. I wonder when he's coming home? I thought he was gonna be back by now. He usually reads me a story to sleep every night.
With my feet gently swirling in the water, I began to wonder when Twiggy would be back as well. He left too not that long ago. I don't know why, but I hope he comes back too. I miss him so much. He's like my best friend. Twig the stick. I called him that as a joke. He always laughed at it. Always played with me when he could. I miss him.
Letting out a low sigh, I decided now was the time to dive in. It would erase the bad feelings I had coming back. So I took a big breath and slipped into the water. My whole body was instantly taken by the warmth and it felt so good. Plus while I was underwater it felt even better seeing how everything was dark when I looked up.
In a matter of seconds, I resurfaced and took another breath. This time my eyes looked back up at the moon. It was breathtaking.
My mind however came back to reality when all the sudden I heard the cracking of a stick shatter off to my right by the garden. Instantly I dove back under the water to try and hide myself just in case it was my dad or one of his friends coming by to check on the area. But I wasn't good enough to stay down for long so in maybe twenty seconds I gently resurfaced and peered my head over the very edge of the pool to look in that direction to see if I could spot anything. But the only thing I saw was the flowers and a gentle breeze making them and the bushes move from side to side. Maybe that's all I heard. Maybe I was still in the clear. I thought to myself as I let out a deep exhale and backpedaled my way towards the center of the pool.
"Where is everyone?" I asked myself out loud as I floated on my back to look back up at the moon for the third time.
With the world and all it's noises beginning to drown out around me, I felt my heart skip when I suddenly heard a single click go off behind me. In a panic, I broke out of my calm state and splashed up water as I struggled to spin around fast enough in the water. When I did finally manage to see behind me, I widened my eyes to the sight of a female wolf standing at the other end of the pool. Her hands were at her sides, but I spotted a gun in one of them as she had her eyes locked right on me. Like one of those monsters my dad read to me about some nights when he felt I could handle some horror.
Two gold eyes watched me as I tried to find my tongue. I had never seen her before. With my emotions mixed on how to feel, I asked her.
"Who are you?"
She didn't say a word back. She just continued to stare at me.
"What are you doing?" I wondered as I slowly began to swim a few inches backwards.
I didn't know what to think. I didn't know what to say. I only felt fear when she raised her hand and pointed the gun she held at me. With my body freezing up from the event, I screamed as I saw her finger squeeze the trigger.
Sam's POV.
"Toof."
I didn't question my actions. I didn't even try to give her a chance. I just did what I knew I had to do. With one round leaving my Luger, I watched with cold eyes as I shot the echidna right between her brown eyes. The force snapped her head back with enough force that she made an impact with the water behind her. Her blood then quickly stained the pool and brought me to the realization that I had just killed her. I just killed a child.
Lowering my gun, I took a look down at my hands. I wasn't shaking to my amazement. I was just so confused with how I felt. I should feel horrible, but instead I'm just hollow. I didn't regret this. I couldn't feel anything. Roslin's gifts made me impenetrable. Yet was that a good thing? I had to ask myself as I looked back up to see she had begun to float on top of the water's surface.
She couldn't have been no older than ten.
With seconds starting to pass I didn't even worry about the footsteps coming from behind me. I just knew it was over. Minky walked right up to my side. His eyes just looked on at the girl. He too was silent, but I knew he wasn't here to watch. So calmly I put my gun behind my back and asked him.
"Are we clear?"
Nodding, he replied.
"All of Verno's men ran the second the word had gotten out about the meeting. Too bad no one was here to watch over her. But what's done is done. We should get out of here before anyone shows up."
"Did you get the cameras?" I proceeded to ask him.
"We're good. I got the tapes. You ready?"
"Yeah." I replied as I turned to begin walking.
With the cat at my side as we exited through the gate, he took his care to check his watch. After that he informed me.
"I'm gonna drop you off and get to work on claiming the contracts. It'll take till morning, but we'll have our money. A lot of money. The network is gonna love this and so will most of the US. The mob wasn't good to anyone. You did the right thing."
I stayed silent as we got to the car. Once we were back on the road, I asked him.
"What about me?"
"I'm gonna update your profile like I said before. Your record just got a lot more dependable, Sam. People are gonna ask who did this and when they do they're gonna have to pay to find out. I'll keep G.U.N in the dark like I promised. Same goes for the M.E.A.F. But if anyone interesting comes a knocking; I'll ask for your permission first. It's up to you if you want someone knowing your business and I'll make sure it stays that way so long as I'm watching your back like this."
"Okay. That sounds good." I told him back as he then asked me.
"You want me to wait a few minutes before dropping you off? You seem a little overwhelmed."
Shaking my head I replied.
"I'm okay. I just needed a minute. I'll be fine. Thank you again for helping me with this. It wouldn't have been this easy if not for you and your connections. You also make being a busboy look easy."
" Heh. Well you're the genius here. I didn't make that poison."
My knowledge was the one thing that kept me sane. He was right. He didn't make that poison. I did. Add on to one of the few other things I can do with the education I had trying to earn myself a way into college. Before this I actually thought I'd do something different. Something my parents could be proud of.
Nearing Jari's house, I reached up to cover my face with my left hand. I felt my claws dig into my forehead as I turned on my venom for a few moments. I just needed to calm down.
It's crazy how my life did a one eighty. Everything was in the drain six months ago. All my hopes and dreams were shattered when Mocha was taken from me and that was still my fault. I got cocky and tried to use my brain and body to suede my way to make an easy buck. I was blind to my own stupidity and now look at where I was. About to turn nineteen and I had more money in my bank account then I knew what to do with. After this assassination I could just abandon the army. I could just ignore everything and enjoy my life. Yet why couldn't I do that? What was stopping me? I asked myself as we came to a stop in the driveway.
Minky looked over at me to just stare at me. He saw my eyes and knew to just wait.
What was my plan now? Wait till I have to go then do whatever G.U.N asks? It seemed like the only logical thing because in all honesty I knew it would keep me from getting lost on my own. I might have cheated my way into this army, but I still had a reason to feel like I belonged to something more than just myself and without my family here what was stopping me from just finding another? I asked myself as I quickly focused on Jari's family now that I slipped into his life on a more personal level.
How was I gonna be able to face them after tonight? I can't. I need to just go inside and sleep. My mind was all shaken up from killing that little girl. I trusted myself when I pulled the trigger. I believe in Roslin and I do believe in his reasoning for what had to be done. I couldn't take any chances. Yet killing a kid regardless was nothing I ever pictured being able to do. I mean who in the world can expect to be able to do that and escape unharmed mentally? My dad?
Dragging my claws off my face, I let out a small sigh and began to nod my head.
If one thing became clear to me with that last thought; it was that for certain I now had something in common with my father. We both stepped over a line no person should ever cross. Yet were my boundaries worse? He killed his daughter because he had to, right? He didn't do that just because he wanted to. He had a choice. What I did…...I don't think it was the same thing. I made a rational decision to kill this girl. That was where I was worst off. I decided. Even in retrospect it wasn't really Roslin. He didn't make me do it. He just suggested it and I understood.
I was a monster. I could feel how cold my heart was now that this was over with. I couldn't go back. I'm never gonna be the same. I hope because of that I'll be able to adapt fast. I can't hesitate to make a hard choice after deciding this fate for myself.
Letting my venom die back down, I took a breath and finally looked over at Minky to urge him.
"When the money comes through I want you to take some extra for yourself. As thanks. Ten percent? Sound good?"
Nodding his head, he replied.
"You don't have to do that, but…...well I understand. Thank you Samantha."
Very slowly I collected the briefcase I stole from up off the floor of the car. Minky unlocked my door and as I started to step out he urged me.
"Get some rest. I'll text you in the morning to see how you are. You need anything else you know I got you right?"
"I do." I smiled back as I shut the car door to look at him one last time for the night.
"Get home safe."
Minky nodded and in seconds he began to drive off. I was left with myself in the dark out front of this amazing house and it was then that I realized my tattoo.
"Crap." I mumbled as I gently attempted to slip back into my jacket to hide it.
"Oww. Oww." I quickly yelped in pain as it stung going over the ink.
With some effort, I managed to get fully covered up and from there I carried myself to the front door to start knocking. It's not like I had a key. I just hope I'm not gonna get yelled out for coming back this late. I thought to myself as I checked my phone to see it was near midnight.
Thankfully in about twenty or so seconds the door opened with Mario behind it. He was wearing his pajamas which consisted of what to me looked like gray sweatpants and a cheap t-shirt. When he saw me standing there, he just smiled wide and asked me in a quiet voice.
"Where have you been? Jari said you would get back over an hour ago. Is everything okay?"
Nodding my head I replied.
"Yeah, I'm good. I just got distracted and lost track of time. I'm sorry. This isn't how I wanted to spend my first night out while staying here. It's a bad impression that I want to apologize again for."
Shaking his head with some small laughs after, he urged me.
"Don't be so professional. Janice and I are still awake. We typically don't sleep for at least another twenty minutes. We were just worried was all."
Mario let me in and once I was starting to make my way forward I decided to ask him.
"How's Jake doing?"
"He's asleep. No surprise. That kit is a log when he wants to be. What's in the briefcase?"
Mario's dad had me stumped slightly on how to respond as we soon found ourselves back in the living room where Janice was watching tv. She smiled when she saw me and it was then I replied to him.
"Ahhhh…..it's complicated."
"Sam? How are you, baby?" Janice asked me as Mario seemed a bit concerned for my response. I knew I would have to do something, so I just tried to sit down across from where Janice and him were. As I did, I replied to her.
"I'm okay. Just a bit worried is all. I haven't been too honest with you guys. I wanted to try and clear some things up."
"Like what?" She wondered as she quickly lowered the volume on the tv to listen to me.
Taking my hat off and letting my hair fall down, I let out a small sigh and looked between her and Mario to reply.
"Like the other night when I helped you guys with Jake. I know you guys have concerns with me."
Shaking her head Janice replied.
"It's nothing bad Samantha. What you did for my family can't be repaid. We're indebted to you. I don't know what would have happened if you weren't there that night."
"I'd be dead." Mario admitted as I knew this conversation would be a bit deep. Janice nodded her head to agree with her husband and quickly added on.
"You would be. And Jake? Samantha, my little boy could have been killed as well. Even Lola got hurt because of that whole situation. We would have lost everything. Not to mention Jari. That boy loves his family and if he had lost either one of them he would be in so much pain right now. Please believe me."
"I do." I replied back sadly as she went on to say.
"There isn't anyone I know who could have done what you did. It's not like we can stand up to those men. We're small." She chuckled as I gently cracked a smile.
"And the money Sam." Mario threw that in almost a second after and that got me to nod my head. Janice knew it was her time to ask it so I prepared myself as it came from her lips.
"I don't know how you got that kind of cash. I don't know why you even gave it to people you barely knew for a week….but…..Sam? You're the only reason we're okay right now as a family. So I want this conversation to be kept between us three and I want you to please be honest with us when I ask you this. But how did you get that much money and the cat who brought it to the house? Who is he?"
I started to play with my fingers. After a few moments I decided to sit back up straight to let out some air. Janice and Mario gave me all the time I needed as I struggled to pick my words out. Yet in time I had to start somewhere so I started off by telling them this.
"He's a business partner of mine."
Janice nodded. I wanted to be truthful, but part of me wanted to keep them in the dark at least a little about what I do. They can't know everything. Just enough to let me stay in their lives. If they knew everything I know for a fact I may not be allowed to stay here or even stay a friend of the family.
"Has Jari said anything about me to you guys? Has he told you anything?"
Janice shook her head and replied.
"We only know what you know we know. Please hun…..don't feel like you need to hide yourself from us. We're very understanding."
I couldn't help but look down at my own feet and laugh slightly as she said that. Not wanting it to come off as disrespectful, I stated back.
"I'm sorry, but it's complicated like I said."
"Just take your time then." Mario urged me as I nodded and looked back up to lock eyes with them each one after the other.
"Okay." I finally mumbled out as I reached behind my back to grab onto my Luger. Both of the rabbits widened their eyes as I calmly brought it out in front of me for them to see. The suppressor was still on it and without saying a word; I put it down on the glass coffee table that stood between us. Once it was there I said to them both.
"That's number one I guess. I'm sorry I brought it into your house without your knowledge."
Janice reached out to grab it. I watched her closely as she actually handled it very well. She even knew how to unload the clip. So slightly impressed I continued to watch as she flipped it over to check each side. Then she reloaded the clip and put it back down on the table. It was then she said to me.
"It's a beautiful weapon."
"You've handled one before?" I asked her out of interest as she soon nodded her head to reply.
"My father was in the police force a long time ago. I learned a few things from him before he passed a few years prior to us moving here. Now I'm not talented like I'm sure you are, but I can appreciate your caution. I can't be upset with you either. This world is a dangerous place and I believe in gun rights. Everyone should be able to defend themselves. Even more so when it comes to people like myself and my husband. We have no fighting potential. So what can the world expect from us?"
"True." I sighed as she then asked me.
"Do you have anything else in the house we should know about?"
Nodding, I replied.
"I have a rifle upstairs in the guest room. It's in one of my bags. It's my issued rifle but it's also custom."
"Really?" Mario replied as I nodded and looked back at Janice to see what she would say.
Now of course I was lying. That gun was bought from Minky. I bought everything for it from the network. The military doesn't just hand out guns for people to bring home. Yet they shouldn't be none the wiser and I wanted to reinforce that by adding on to my last statement.
"People in the Special Tasks group are allowed to have one outside of the bases. Jari of course knows all of this as well. I told him not long after we reconnected."
"How long till you have to go back to the army?" Janice asked me as I quickly replied.
"A couple days."
Nodding, she went on to tell me.
"I want you to keep them in your room while you're here. That's all I'll ask of you. I don't want my kids getting worried. You can bring the pistol with you when you decide to go out. I'll respect that much. It's of course for your safety that I'm concerned about at the end of the day. But the rifle must stay where it is. Okay?"
"It will. I promise." I replied back respectfully as she pushed my Luger back towards me to suggest.
"Put that away now. The kids are all sleeping, but I don't want to take any chances."
"Of course." I mumbled back as I put the gun back behind my shirt after unscrewing the suppressor. It was once it had been put away when she decided to ask me.
"Now you said the cat was a business partner? Business for what?"
Trying to stay calm I replied.
"It's a personal matter. I'd rather not discuss it. It's for you and your family's benefit that I keep that part of my life to myself."
"The less we know the better, you mean?" Mario wondered out loud as I simply nodded my head to then have Janice ask.
"Are you in trouble Samantha?"
"No. Of course not. I swear."
They both seemed willing to accept that thankfully. After a few seconds Janice then wondered.
"Does your personal matter involve where you got that money from?"
Without looking away from her eyes, I just nodded my head back. Janice had my mother's eyes when she understood that. So it felt only right to tell her.
"I'm only good at a few things in life. I'm smart, but I'm also dumb if that makes sense. My training and career path has led me to a place where I can be useful. Even if what I do is not necessarily good; I'm still trying to understand myself at the end of the day."
"Are you a drug dealer?" Janice asked me bluntly. Shaking my head I replied.
"No ma'am."
"Are you a criminal?" Her next question came fast, but I was still able to truthfully tell her.
"No. Not officially. I work for the government."
"Doing what?" Mario proceeded to ask me as I took a second to come up with a right way to explain what I do. After that I replied.
"I…...I...I do things that normal people can't do. I help make things better. I….?"
"You kill people?" Janice's voice cut me off. Mario widened his eyes at the question and quickly said to her.
"Janice? Don't ask her that."
Janice still had a worried look on her face. Yet it wasn't a worried one for her family. She had concern for me. I saw it in her eyes as she whispered a second later while ignoring Mario.
"Do you?"
With her and her husband looking me right in the eyes, I replied while nodding my head.
"Yeah."
Both of them went silent. Mario didn't know what to say next of course, but Janice went on to wonder.
"And it pays that well?"
"Yeah. It does." I again mumbled as she looked flabbergasted.
Now this is where things seemed to end as far as them being lost with what to say or do. Because as soon as I went to say something Janice asked me.
"Can I ask what you were up to tonight? Clearly there isn't a point in hiding it from us now. Obviously you weren't out there taking in the sights Los Angeles has to offer. Hehe."
Smiling slightly to her sense of humor, I replied.
"You're right. I wasn't. I had some business to take care of with a few people and I got sidetracked halfway through."
"What's in the case Sam?" Mario again asked me as I took a look down at it to reply.
"Money."
Mario seemed surprised, but his wife went on to urge me.
"Don't explain yourself to us. We're done talking about this for now. All that matters to me is that you're back here safe and alive."
"I don't want Jari to know. I don't want him to worry. If he asks any questions can you two keep this a secret?"
"I told you once before baby that this conversation stays between us. Jari's my boy, but I don't want him to worry either. He has a lot to focus on. School being one of those things."
"Thank you." I sighed shortly after. Giving me another smile, Janice asked me in all seriousness.
"Can you do me a favor? We won't speak of your business to anyone, but I need you to promise me you won't get Jari or the rest of us involved in what you do. We won't ask any questions. Even if you come back here covered in blood. Just please keep that part of your life away from us as best as you can."
"I promise. I won't let that happen. I owe you guys a lot."
"We owe you a lot more." Mario chuckled as I took another look at the money.
With a few seconds gliding by, I picked up the case and handed it over to Janice who seemed slightly confused by the gesture. With our eyes locked, I said to them calmly.
"Please. I want you guys to have this. Consider it my way of saying thank you for being so open about this. I wouldn't have been surprised if you had thrown me away after finding out. Just please take this money and let's all agree to drop the subject. You need it a lot more than I do anyway. So this works out for the best."
Janice and Mario took a look inside the case to widen their eyes at the amount of money it held. Giving me a shocked look, Janice shut the case a moment later to reply.
"We can live with that. Thank you so much Samantha. You have nothing to worry about so long as you treat us right. And if it's any consolation; we'll try to find a way to repay you for it."
"You don't have to." I told her back as she shook her head to mumble out.
"No I kinda do. You saved my family. It's only fair and I'm sure Mario agrees with me wholeheartedly on that. Especially since you'll be shipping out soon. We'd like to do something for you."
"I do agree with that Samantha." He jumped in to state as I shook my head to reply.
"Please don't worry about it you guys. I'm not trying to be rude, but I really would just like to relax. I know I'll be really busy once I leave to go back."
"You probably will be. How about we just all go to bed then? Go sleep Samantha. I'm gonna be making breakfast tomorrow morning so you can expect a good start to your day."
"Thank you." I replied as Mario questioned.
"You've donated a lot of money to this family Sam. I think breakfast is the least we can do to show our gratitude."
"Yes." Janice yawned out as I felt like now was the time to get up from the couch.
Coming to my side as bedtime became our mission, Janice came in to hug me. I hugged back of course but I couldn't help but flinch as she squeezed on my arm that just got done feeling slightly better. I held back any faces I wanted to make and any noise I wanted to blurt out. When she finally let me go to start making her way to her room, I waited till Mario was out of sight before letting out a heavy gasp. My arm felt like it was on fire after that and I knew for a fact my job would be to listen to what that girl told me who did the tattoo. I didn't want to fuck this up.
Doing my best to get a move on, I proceeded to the guest room where the rest of my things waited. Taking out my Luger, I stowed it under my pillow and got off this fucking jacket. Once my arm was exposed to the air it felt even worse before it got better. I couldn't help but squeeze my eyes shut to try and ignore it. Yet here I was worried about how I felt towards that; rather than reacting to what I just did today as a whole.
Jari's parents were saints and I owed them again for being so cool about my situation. Jari on the other hand was the only person who worried me. How would he feel if he knew I just got done wiping out the mob and killing a kid? Why don't I feel bad about it? I asked myself as I suddenly felt a cold presence.
Upon reopening my eyes and looking up, I found Roslin standing right there with a small smile on his face. I couldn't help but feel concerned for myself as he asked me.
"You want some help with that?"
Referring to my arm pain, I quickly shook my head and took a seat down on the floor alongside the bed. The echidna didn't seem all that convinced with my response so again he asked me.
"Are you sure about that?"
"No." I replied softly as he then proceeded to wonder.
"Are you okay?"
Shaking my head once, I looked back up at him to question.
"What's wrong with me? Why don't I feel anything? I...I thought I would. Roslin?"
He seemed understanding towards my question and with that being the case the bigger guy slowly sat down next to me. I stared at him with open eyes that were full of concern as he processed a response to come. After a few moments he replied.
"I don't really know what to tell you Sam. Are you surprised by this? When we discussed it you seemed fully convinced you could do it."
"And I did." I informed him back bluntly as he nodded and urged me.
"Give me a second. Just listen."
Obeying his wishes, I quickly looked down between my legs again and shut my eyes. My hands remained on my knees as his voice came to my ears a few seconds later.
"I know you don't like to see it. I know you don't want to admit it, but you're more like your father then you ever will be your mother. That's no secret at this point to me and it shouldn't come as a shock to you. Your dad? Well he's a monster. Despite all the good he's done for the world there isn't any hiding his deeds. The people he killed? The things he's done to get where he is now? It doesn't just go away. Even he would admit to that."
"I know." I mumbled as he went on to state.
"Sam…..you're different. Sure I can claim you're just like him, but you're only the same in your ability to handle the stress that comes with doing what needs to be done. Normal people crack after doing the things you've done to get here right now. If that rabbit in the other room….what's his name?"
"Jari." I chuckled which got him to slightly smile. Putting a hand on my knee, Roslin went on to say.
"If Jari did what you just did he would be in a hospital undergoing mental care. He'd be ripping his fur out. Struggling to adapt to what he just did. You? Look at you. You aren't under any stress. Despite this conversation we're having, it's not a matter of stress making you question yourself."
"Then what is it?" I asked him as he calmly replied.
"You're just confused with what you are."
I just stared back at him expecting to hear more. Yet he just smiled again and squeezed on my knee. After that I asked him.
"What am I?"
I expected him to say I was a monster or special again, but he honestly caught me by surprise when he looked me right in my face to reply.
"Hell's favorite demon."
I lost my tone as he then urged me.
"Embrace what you are."
He had me silent now. What could I say back to that? He was right. With his hand continuing to rub my leg, Roslin also urged me while going forward with his command.
"Don't let that keep you from helping others. You may be a demon like your father, but you clearly have a heart as well. I'm sure a good mix of both will keep you from fully losing yourself."
"What if I want to though?" I asked him as he clearly showed me some interest now. Giving me a somewhat confused look back he questioned.
"You want to truly lose yourself to this fate Sam? You do and you'll find yourself without many friends or maybe even a future. Being an outright demon as a mortal will earn you a reputation. It might even be a reputation that's scarier than your dad's."
"I think I want that though." I told him with a low voice.
Now he seemed intrigued by my state of mind and in all truth I wasn't too sure if I was saying this right. So I took a moment to think to myself on how to word it. Once I had a good start to it I said to him bluntly.
"I don't want to be someone's bitch. I don't want to be used. I don't want to be taken advantage of. Even when I help G.U.N with whatever they're going to have me doing; I want the people in charge to know that I'll kill them all if they try to fuck me over. I want everyone to be scared. I want to be feared. But…..but at the same time I want to know who I am as well."
"You know what you are." He whispered into my ears as I asked myself if I really did.
"I don't think it's a good idea for you to lose your head. Not right now anyway. Does this one experience make you want to become the bad guy? You're smarter than that. You haven't lost everything yet either. Look at what you've gained since losing Mocha. Don't you like this?" He asked me as he must have been referring to the self confidence I gained from the military and Jari and his family.
With my ability to think at a low point, I struggled to give him a response. I just felt lost. Yet despite that I looked him right back in his eyes to state.
"I do, but…...but I like the idea of it."
"The idea of what?" He asked as I quickly replied.
"The idea of having a second side to me. I like the fact that I can have both. I can have a good side to me and I can feel happy about that; while still doing the bad shit I strangely love."
"What about that brings love into question Sam?" Roslin's voice was so smooth despite his size. With my head gently leaning towards his shoulder, I leaned against him to reply.
"I don't know."
Chuckling, he asked me.
"You like killing? You like to murder? You like the money that comes with it? Is it the feeling you get while doing it that's making you feel like this? Or is it simply the reputation you earn? What drives you?"
"All of that if I'm being honest with you." I told him back bluntly as I looked over his chest as I laid on his shoulder.
Roslin just smiled and a moment later I felt his left arm wrap around my back.
"But can I tell you something?" I asked him as he looked over my tattoo from where he was. Giving me a small nod he replied.
"Of course."
Putting my hand on his leg so I could lift myself up to meet his eyes, I said to him directly.
"You also drive me though."
He didn't change his smile for any reason after hearing that. Instead he just kept smiling as I whispered.
"I want to make you happy. I agree that the girl needed to die, but I also feel obligated to listen to you no matter what you ask of me. You make me feel so much better about myself. You make me happy and that's something I don't get a lot of these days from people."
"What about Jari?" He questioned as I calmly whispered back.
"Jari makes me happy too, but not like you do. He's there for the good side of my life. You're there for the bad and you're there for me whenever I need you. I didn't even have to call you to come here to comfort me. You just knew. You always know when I need someone to talk to. You listen and you aren't always judging me like everyone else. You're a god, yes. You're a demon, sure. But ever since I lost Mocha; you're also my best and closest friend. I can't ask for anything better than that."
We just continued to cuddle for a few minutes after that was said. I didn't know if he was satisfied or just thinking of what to say next, but after some time he asked me.
"What do you want now that you've done what I asked of you? I told you I would help you out if you proved you were ready. So the time is here and I want you to tell me what you wish for. More power? Or something more personal?"
The last one got my mind thinking of a million things. Part of me was confused with what he exactly meant by that, but the other part of me was willing to take a gamble. With my one hand on his leg, I asked him softly.
"Maybe just another kiss? One that isn't as rushed? Is that okay?"
Still smiling, he replied.
"I'm not that good at it despite my courage the other night. So if that is what you want then just please promise me you won't judge my performance."
"I won't. I promise. Just…..just go with it. I'm not that good either."
I smiled as he just began to chuckle to himself. After a moment he licked his lips and leaned forward. I was about to ready myself when all the sudden he hit the rim of my hat with his head. Instantly he let out an embarrassed laugh and reached up with his right hand to grab it off my head.
"You can see that I'm not always the brightest." He informed me.
Chuckling softly with him, I noticed the exact moment when he decided to try again. This time however our lips touched and almost instantly I felt my mouth go cold when we began to kiss. It caught me off guard at first and I could tell he noticed that because he gently pulled back an inch or two to ask me.
"Are you okay?"
With my face red, I replied while nodding my head.
"Yeah I'm good. I just forgot; that's all."
"I'm sorry. I wish I could change that but I can't." He went on to sigh as his face looked so vulnerable just then. With my hands still resting on his chest, I urged him.
"Don't be sorry. It's fine."
"Gods are like ghosts. Our presence is surrounded by the cold." He informed me next as I pushed myself forward to go back to kissing him.
The echidna widened his eyes this time because I moved my hands up to his shoulders. Moments later he lifted his arm up to throw my hat on the bed. Then he refocused his efforts and soon began to melt in my arms. I'm sure I was doing the same for him. I wanted to do this right ever since the first time he embraced me and I was so glad it was finally happening.
I've been lonely despite Jari. I've been worked up and I've been craving some relief ever since my first time with Rosco happened. I guess I had my age to blame for these feelings because all I could think about in due time was taking this a step further. I think he wanted that too. Just based on how he was treating me right now. He claims to be bad at kissing but it was quite the opposite. He was good, but most importantly, he was happy.
With my clouded head taking over, I slowly forced our kisses to stop. That was when he gave me a concerned look and asked.
"What's wrong?"
I ran my eyes down his chest and for a moment he seemed confused. Then he suddenly gave me a soft chuckle and whispered.
"Okay?"
"Do you want to?" I asked him back in all seriousness as he caught my vibe. Still he managed to keep on that smile and once he had heard my question he asked me back.
"Do you?"
I knew what I wanted. I made that intention clear to myself long before he had asked. So with my mind made up I replied.
"Yeah."
"Here?" He then wondered as I looked back over my shoulder to whisper.
"The bed is nice."
"We're in a house full of rabbits Samantha."
"So?" I wondered back with a smirk.
Running my left hand down his side, I managed to slip it between where his cloak was parted and rested it on the rim to his pants. I felt the urge to claw at his zipper as he calmly informed me of his concerns a moment after.
"So they have those ears for a reason. I doubt we'd get away with something so….?"
He slowed his words when I finally rested my hand in between his legs. Now he looked right into my eyes with a slightly hot face and even quieter sentences.
"Something so…..personal."
"Are you scared?" I proceeded to ask as it was clear he was being careful.
Roslin looked like he wanted to say something more; so I gave him the time to collect the words. Once he was able to, he said to me calmly.
"Not scared. Just concerned about the noise."
"I can be quiet." I told him back playfully as he went on to state.
"Oh I have my doubts about that. Do you have any idea what you're pushing for? I'm not a normal person."
"I know." I whispered with a small giggle.
Roslin wasn't pushing me away though despite his fears. He instead held me close as I decided to mount him where he was. He laid out his legs so I could and with both my hands back on his shoulders; I went back in to start kissing him again. That's when I knew I barely had to convince him to take a risk. His hands came up to rest on my sides and soon he had me held by my waist. That's when I wanted to try and ask him a question, but I was too busy exerting my energy; so instead I asked it in the safety of my own head, hoping that he was listening.
"Please master?"
The two worded question that I relayed was answered when he broke momentarily away from my lips to reply.
"Fine."
His hands then gripped me so hard I almost thought he was trying to squeeze me, but instead he was starting to work for my ass. All I could do towards the motion was kiss him harder. I pressed him back as hard as I could into the bed and in moments I felt him run his hands back around to my hips. It was that moment he decided enough was enough and he used his body to pick me and him off from the ground. I wrapped both my legs behind his back once I was airborne and for a moment he just held me up.
Disconnecting our lips, Roslin ordered me with a clear yet quiet tone.
"Keep quiet. Otherwise I'll have to move us."
Putting my right hand on his shoulder to balance myself in his arms. I let out a hot breath to inform him of an alternative.
"They have a pool house out back. If you're that worried we could move there now before this goes further."
The echidna took a quick look at the bed. I knew he was thinking that over. A moment later he adjusted me in his arms and replied.
"Let's just try and see what happens."
Before I could say another word he threw and pinned me down on top of the mattress. I still managed to keep my legs around him though, but that became a mute point when he worked himself out of his cloak. I just patiently waited as he threw it down to the floor before looking back at me to say.
"Don't worry. I'm gonna be gentle with you since you've been good to me. Do us both a favor though and take a deep breath."
I did and what followed was him putting his right hand back under my neck. Immediately I got rushed by a wave of heat. It wasn't damp heat and it wasn't unbearable. It was more soothing than anything and with it my mind began to go numb. Halfway through he leaned in to whisper to my ears.
"You won't feel anything but pleasure now. Not till we're done anyway. So don't be scared to move that arm of yours. See?"
My hazy eyes drifted to my right arm which had the tattoo. Roslin gently put his whole palm over it and to my surprise I felt nothing. It felt like it wasn't even there. So I just looked back at him a second later to lift my head back up into his. We kissed some more and not before long I found myself clawing at his shirt. The echidna however had the same intentions and so using his strength he helped me sit up and take off mine. With my breasts exposed a few seconds later I began to claw at his pants again. This time I got them undone and found myself begging for it in his ears.
Roslin waited for nothing else to be said after hearing my pleas. He got my jeans off and positioned himself between my opening after slightly moving my thong out of the way. The rest to come could only be described as bliss to me. I was prepared and this time I truly wanted to have sex with someone. The echidna didn't disappoint. It took all my strength and willpower to keep my mouth shut as the first few thrusts had broken a seal within my own heart and mind. For a moment I even let out a sweet moan for his ears to register.
Hearing my voice break through, Roslin brought himself down on top of me to whisper into my red cheeks.
"Shhh."
What the fuck could he expect from me at this moment? I asked myself as I truly had no idea what I'd be feeling once this happened between us.
I was just so happy. So happy and so horny. I know I told him I could be quiet, but I never realized how wrong I could be by saying something like that just off of a pure selfish need to fuck. My head wasn't in the right place. If it was I would have begged him to take me out of this house. I didn't want to worry since this was what I asked for, but the other half of my soul was starting to fear I'd wake up the family if I was to let out my true inner voice right about now.
Roslin was surprisingly keeping up to his end of the deal. He barely made a noise when he moved his body. However even though my eyes were far too focused on pleasure to register reality, I saw the look on his face. He looked like he was in pain, yet halfway through his next thrust the echidna came back down to embrace me and whisper while grabbing me by my neck with his right hand.
"Damn your fucking tight."
I just giggled and gave him another playful smile as I physically could feel that exact statement and how true it was. It didn't help that he was big either. We each had a part to play.
He went on plowing my body through and through for the next few minutes; which was enough to make my head start spinning. I even began to bite down on his shoulder from time to time to both muffle my moans and get a more detailed taste of him personally.
My body was losing all of its ability to control itself however and by now my tongue was starting to bleed with how hard I was biting it to keep myself from moaning out loud. After another minute Roslin pulled out of me and decided to gently grab my arm. I wasn't going to disobey anything he wanted at this point. So I listened and did as I was told when he urged me with a gentle tug to my right side.
"Turn over."
"Mmmmm okay." I groaned out as I readied myself for him by planting both my knees onto the mattress and arching my back as far down as I could go.
I heard him mumble something to himself a moment after I did that. Then I widened my eyes when I felt his tongue and muzzle press into my pussy. I had to bite the sheets for the few moments he took to personally lube me back up. Then came the familiar feeling of his godly insertion.
"Good girl. You taste like heaven." He whispered as I begged him with blood red eyes from my venom kicking in shortly after hearing his voice.
"Don't stop."
"I don't plan to." He went on to inform me happily as I could only shiver and sweat to the bliss of my own sick desires.
It became obvious that he wanted to get rougher with me as time went on, but it was clearly making him struggle since he knew he had to keep our actions down to prevent any interference. I felt it in his hands as he groped and squeezed my ass. Sometimes even when he decided to spread me further apart. Yet despite everything I had one and only one question beginning to arise from within my head. However I was unable to look at him directly due to my state, so I struggled as well but soon asked him.
"Are you close?"
Shaking his head he replied.
"Not yet. Why do you ask? You want me to stop?"
Instantly I moaned back.
"No, of course not. This is fucking…..ahhhh…..amazing…?"
Roslin chuckled as I lost track on how many times I came from this. My body only wanted to keep going despite that fact. Yet regardless of how I sounded just then I finally managed to say to him.
"I'm not on any birth control. I don't know if you can, but please….ahhhh….ahhhh…..just…?" Struggling to find my words, I rolled my eyes back when I felt one of his palms press on the back of my head pushing me deeper into the bed.
"Worried? You don't have to be scared. The chances of that happening are next to none." He informed me as I felt my tongue slowly roll out from my mouth from the pleasure.
"I know." I moaned again to him as he then urged me.
"Then don't worry about it. Just do what your body wants and let me focus to make sure I give you everything you crave…...even that."
He somehow dug deep into my mind. Further than I expected. He was channeling in on my primal urges and despite not wanting to get pregnant, I was still willing to chance it simply because I wanted to feel every part of his being to the very end. So I stood no chance. All I could do was continue to lay here and enjoy the bliss his body gave me. Damn the risks.
mT Shadow.