"C-Calem... stop! I-It hurts..." Serena cried while I pulled her hair in the middle of frost cavern, watching her cry on the floor while I stood above her, angry at my body for causing her harm. I wished death on others... this makes me a bad guy... I shouldn't hold anymore sorrow! All I feel is anger!
"I'm not sad... Serena!" I sobbed "I'm angry! You need to stop seeing that part in me! Hate me! Hate me enough to give up on me!" I pulled her hair and shook her around, hearing her cry to make me stop
"No!" She cried. I groaned and pressed her body onto the wall while using my hand to press on her neck, but not enough to choke her. I didn't want to hurt her... but what she sees in me was not worth it. I needed her to hate me... hate me so much that she stops looking at me like I was broken and sad. I am broken, but my rage has to live higher than my sadness. I don't want anymore of this... I don't deserve any pity! It's why I left! I can't take it!
"Serena!" I shouted at her face "Why don't you get the picture?! I won't change my mind! I'm devoted to teaching those people a lesson! I won't let any bad person get away with the crimes they committed!" I watched her struggling to get me off her, but she wasn't strong enough "I'll make everyone regret messing with me! You need to learn not to play with fire! I'm with Team Flare! I'm not going anywhere!" her tears finally left her eyes after she's been fighting them off the whole time. I threw her on the ground hard enough to make her fall, but not enough where she may hit herself
"You're better than this!" She cried at me
"How!?" I pulled her hair again, making her scream "how am I better than this when I'm hurting you!? You should hate me!" I shouted too loudly "Hate me!" She shook her head, trying to pull back her hair "Serena!" I shouted. She sobbed and looked down, shaking more than before
"I won't give up on you... I'm desperate" she admit to me like before
"Why..?" I loosened my grip "what's so great about me that you have to keep fighting for me...?" I shook my head to bring myself back to my rage and threw her back again. She rested her hands on the cold floor and shadowed her face with her hair "I'm not worth it... so stop following me" I lifted my foot to push her farther into the floor, but my body wouldn't let me no matter how much I wanted her to hate me. I couldn't keep hurting the girl I cared so much about... "You don't even know me... yet you're attracted... You have bad taste, Serena..." I pushed myself to use my foot to push her, but I couldn't! Hate me..! Hate me!
"Serena!" Trevor ran towards us and pushed me away from Serena "Hey! What's the big idea!? What are you doing?!" He glared
"Teaching her that she shouldn't get involve with people like me! I don't care about what you say... nothing is going to change my mind! This world will be clean! If you won't join me, then I have no choice but to make you stop following me!" I shut my eyes "Don't come near me again!" I ran away
"Calem-! Hey! Let go! Calem!" Serena cried as I left the cavern, aiming to find my way through this city to find my hotel, but I haven't memorized this city enough to track down where I settled in. I stopped in the middle of the street and leaned on my knees, feeling exhausted. Why does it have to be this way..? Why did she have to come into my life and make me feel this way..?
"Kirl" I flinched and looked up at Serena's Kirlia facing me without anyone around
"You..." it kept its eyes on me, watching me struggle to breath after running nonstop for so long "I'm not going back... I don't care what you show me. Serena doesn't deserve me... I'm someone who's now hurt her. She needs to stay away..." Kirlia lifted its hand to me. I didn't want to see what it may show me, but the first vision wasn't clear before, so instead of refusing, I held my hand out to touch Kirlia's hand and foresaw different events happening in our hideout and my team being defeated.
I could see the future Kirlia was showing me, and I knew I wasn't enough to stop it. This world will continue to let those bad people live... and I can't do anything about it
Before I let go of Kirlia's hand, I gasped at a scene where Serena was staring at the moon by a cliff. She looked back at me with a smile... and with one blink, she vanished.
I fell on my knees and looked at my purple fingernails shaking. I didn't know exactly what that was, but the thought of her disappearing was fresh in my mind. My mind was ready to watch the world burn... but along that world was Serena.
"Calem!" I gasped at a memory flashing in my head of young Serena smiling down at me from behind my shoulder "I hate to leave, but I hope one day we can be together again!" She giggled "maybe next summer I'll look for you? Yeah! And then we can get married and stuff! Like adults!" She laughed and rubbed the back of her head "too much? Sorry!" Her bright smile shined brighter than I've seen it before. That smile didn't compare to no other. It was genuine and pure with no signs of sorrow or betrayal...
"I can't..." I cupped my mouth and sobbed "I don't think the amount of rage in my heart will ever ease even if this world is wiped out" Kirlia vanished, leaving me
"We must learn to control what we cannot have" I froze when hearing Serena's voice. I shakily looked back to see her behind me, standing beside Kirlia "Revenge won't be solidified with rage... what we need to do is learn how to cope with what happened to us and grow from the horrors of everyday life. Even in the most peaceful times, something horrible happens... and we can't stop it" I watched her walk up to me, looking down at me with a frown "I won't give up on you, Calem..." she kneeled down to wrap her arms around me. She's hugging me... even if I hurt her... "No matter what you're doing, your vibrations will not change. It still holds sorrow, and during our time together, it reduced" I shakily raised my arms to hug her back, but couldn't complete the hug "I'm sorry..." I broke down and held her close, crying on her shoulder
"I'm sorry..." I cried "I'm so sorry..." she sighed and brushed my hair with her cold hand. I hate myself for what I've become... no matter how much I wish for something... it's not what I needed. I ran away from it all, handling things on my own. I became the person I hated the most... wishing death on others, even if I wasn't going to do it with my hands. It's just as bad, and I didn't have a right to receive closure or forgiveness, but she gave it to me anyway...
"It's okay... I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere" I sighed and relaxed in her arms, knowing she wasn't in a good condition to stay outside when it was snowing outside
"Come on" I carried her up, freaking her out at first, and carried her off to my hotel room. Later on, She warmed up and informed me that Trevor stayed behind in the cavern to go take care of Abomasnow, knowing there was no way Serena was going to listen to him when chasing after me. I was sure I ran faster than her, but her Kirlia made her trip short and stood behind me when I didn't know what to do next...
Just like before when I had her in my room back in Lumiose City, she ended up getting in bed with me. I admit, I still didn't really know what I was doing, but neither did she. I gave her what she wanted and more, all to apologize for what I did earlier that day.
The only difference between today and last time was that she woke up beside me, rubbing her eyes after sleeping in till the afternoon. I was already up, getting messages from my team admin Rin about what Mabel said about me and thanked me for my hard work. I informed them that I got rid of Serena for now and that was that.
I didn't know whether to keep going like this... I know now that what I wanted wasn't the right choice, and I was sticking too low for my own good. What I felt won't change what happened, and that's okay... I can go to a new path, but what exactly..?
"Good morning..." Serena yawned, sitting up a bit, letting her blanket fall from her torso. I flinched and looked away, feeling weird to be seeing her without clothes "hm? What is it?" She asked. I blushed and looked down
"N-Nothing!" She remained silent for a moment before giggling at me "Don't laugh!"
"You're embarrassed even if you've seen me naked before" I rubbed my face and huffed, not knowing how to handle that. Sure, I've seen her naked before, but it's not like I'm still use to it! She's the only one who...
"S-So what?!" I glared, which made her laugh even more "Stop that..." I huffed. She calmed her giggle and lifted the blanket to hide her torso so she can lean on my shoulder to relax. I sighed and leaned on her head, embracing her warmth
"What time is it? I don't think I ever had this great of a nights rest" she stretched a little
"It's 1 in the afternoon" she looked at me like I was crazy "You slept like a log" I chuckled
"Oh wow... I didn't think I'd ever wake up so late" she held her chin "I always wake up early to train and stuff before getting breakfast"
"I do that too, but today is different" I tucked her hair behind her ear so I could see her face. She blushed and smiled shyly at me "It's good to sleep in once in a while" she smiled more
"I agree! But I never had a reason too... until now" I blushed, remembering what we did last night. I still can't believe we did that stuff... how did I get lucky? What an experienced to have twice "how did you sleep?"
"Had the best sleep of my life" I smiled. She chuckled and played with my red hair
"I can't get over how bright your hair is... it use to be so dark" I lowered my smile when she said that, remembering something
"Serena... I'm sorry to suddenly mention this, but why were you desperate for my attention?" she lowered her hand and looked at me "I'm sure there were other people who had just as much potential as me, but you hang onto me instead" I gripped on the blanket "It's because we knew each other before... right?" She sad smiled and looked at the sheets before hopping out of bed to go to the bathroom. I followed behind after getting changed "Am I right?"
"You are" she put on her clothes from her bag and fixed her hair "We met a very long time ago back when my family came to Kalos on vacation to visit my grandparents for the summer" I watched her fixing her hair, slowly thinking back at those memories I forgot I had.
They were one of my favorite, yet I forgot so easily. She was the girl that stayed in the neighbors house next to mine and hung out with me when I didn't have anyone else to play with.
Shauna wasn't around at this time. The best summer of my life was when I met my first friend who didn't care if my family was rich. She didn't know anything about me, but we became friends when she first told me that she liked my vibrations, which had full of potential and dreams...
"That girl from that summer" I said "I'm sorry I forgotten..." she smiled and looked back at me after putting on some mascara
"That's alright. I'm pretty sure I was a pain in the butt for always knocking on your window" she giggled. I frowned at her looking back at her reflection
"Is that why you left the first time I brought you to my apartment?" She put down her hair brush before getting the chance to use it "You were desperate... you wanted to make it up to me by giving me your body I never asked for. Don't get me wrong, that night and last night was amazing! But..."
"I felt like you were getting tired of me, and I accepted it back in the badlands, but then you saved me from probably getting kidnapped or whatever. I felt like a burden... so I wanted to make it up to you. Leaving that morning was just so you didn't have to deal with me after" she stared down at her brush
"That doesn't explain why you were desperate" she gripped on her brush tightly "What made you desperate..?"
"I..." she bit her lips, shaking "I came here to Kalos to find you..." huh? "You were all I had to look forward too. My grandparents died a few years ago, so their home was empty for awhile. I came and lived in that house for a little while after leaving my parent's grave" I flinched "They died... in a hurricane!... they were quick to take me to safety at the highest area, and before they could join me, the water sucked them up" her face was grim, trying her best to not cry "I had no one... all I had left was their money, but what good is money when I've been alone this whole time? I could only think of the only place I can go to to find someone who I can be happy around, but your house was empty. I'm sure you can imagine how it felt... going into a place without anyone there to greet you" I bit my lips and leaned on her head while wrapping my arms to hug her and cry on her shoulder with her
"I'm sorry... I was here thinking of myself. I never thought of all the people that suffered just like me. I shouldn't have left my hometown. I can only imagine how great it would had been if I saw your face for the first time, reminding me of who you were that brought back memories. Kirlia had to remind me..." I felt something touching my leg. I looked down and saw her there, hugging my leg "I remember now. I had thought when seeing her when you left the badlands that it was unusual to see a Ralts in Kalos, but turns out I met this Ralts before and didn't notice"
"Yes..." Serena turned around and wrapped her arms around my neck to softly kiss me "I could had told you before, but remembering me was the least of your worries. I just wanted to get to know you instead of just piling myself into you. I was pretty much a stranger... we were only friends that summer. I really didn't think you'd remember, so why bother?" I nodded, understanding "I'm glad you at least remembered. That's good! It means that our time was rememberable" I leaned in to kiss her again, holding onto the kiss for as long as possible
"I'm sorry..." I said, leaning on her forehead "for making this difficult. I'm sorry that I was difficult..." she chuckled and poked my nose playfully "I've decided... I wont stop you from causing the future Kirlia showed me happening. If you are strong enough to take them on on your own, who am I to stop you? What I've become wasn't acceptable..." I held her hands "I'll be on your side from now on"
"Really?" She gasped "that's great!" I nodded, closing my eyes
"But what do I do now..?" I moved away, confusing her "I'm still working for them. It'll be good to have a spy, I guess, but the plan is already in motion. There's not much else I can do now for them other than stop those who are in the way" I peaked at her, referring to her. she frowned
"Are you saying their almost done?" I nodded "um..." she looked away, thinking to herself "This change... you're not doing this just for me, are you?" I blinked confused "Though I'm glad you decided to join our side, does those hateful thoughts still lure in your mind?" I sighed
"I still feel angry about what those people did, but I shouldn't be selfish. People have it worse than me, so I don't have room to complain. I know that now" she frowned and looked away "what is it?"
"Nothing..." she sighed and smiled at me "So are you planning on following me, or staying to be a spy?" I looked at my holocaster in the room
"I got a week off with pay as an award for stopping you from chasing Mable. I can choose to work in Lysandre café for awhile, or take the week off, so I decided to follow you" she gasped with her hands together happily
"Alright! That's great news! Oh! Say... do you have any idea where the hideout is?"
"Sure I do. Lysandre Cafe" she held her chin
"I knew I felt weird being in that place... I knew from the beginning that Lysandre was bad from just seeing his vibrations when I first met him in Professor Sycamore's lab. He will be stopped!" She pouted. I chuckled and pet her head "You can be a spy later. This week, we'll get to spend time together! I can't wait!" I chuckled and nodded, wondering how far will I go until my mind feels that it's okay to let go. I know this won't be easy, but this isn't about me anymore... I can do this.