Sometimes, my mind drifts back to my school days, before I fled the house with Ryuuko. Thinking about it still, I was a strange girl back then. By day, I was an ace student rather loved by her teachers, by lunchtime, I was a rich thief and a bully, by midday, I just a wallflower, and, by night, there was still no respite, as I may as well had been someone's mother. I played many roles and it was all by clockwork.
Every morning, I threw on my sweater and a long skirt. Protecting my sister didn't come without risks, so the skirt was useful, and, frankly, I knew I wouldn't be believed, though the sweater felt like a much-needed embrace. Somehow, I always found the time to do my homework and keep to my studies. In class, I'd answer the questions and turn in the work but I was always watching the clock.
By lunchtime, I coordinated my thievery of lunches. Ryuuko could be particular about what she'd eat and so I had to swipe something. I knew how to get them. Sometimes, I broke into the other student's lockers but, mostly, I just fixated on a particular group of students. I don't recall their names but I do remember their faces. The group consisted of three boys and one girl, about my age or a little older, perhaps younger. I tended to take their lunches the most.
I think back to that group of group of students who I used to steal lunches from the most. If circumstances were vastly different, I think we would possibly be friends. I did develop some fondness for them, really. If anything, I wish could have apologized at least, to have told them about our situation, the little sister I've had at home. If circumstances were ordinary, I'd like to think we'd be friends and that I wouldn't have to steal their lunches. In retrospect, I've never had any friends during my school days.
Ryuuko, truly, was all I had, and, for her own good, I had to give her up. Solitude leaves me alone with many thoughts. During my school days, I was practically alone and, in giving up my sister, I am still alone.
In my school days, I knew where she is but, currently, I'd have to track her down. I can only hope she'd forgive me.