Music Playing: "These Friggin' Ears" (at about the 0:48 mark) by Tim Dacy and Loren Bouchard
In my dreams, sometimes, I see her walking with me, except I still don't remember her face, so much. Her hair was messy like always and she was wearing that sweater but we were walking among trees. I was really little then and I think I was wearing one of her shirts but no shoes. She was holding my hand. I think I wanted to go play or do something but she was insistent on keeping me with her, so that was that.
I don't know which kind of trees or what season because dreams changed so much but it was either cherry trees or it was autumn with leaves falling It was kinda sunny and I think she smiled at me but her smile looked so sad (somehow). How could a smile be so sad? I couldn't describe her smile other than that it was really sad and, thinking about it, maybe she was telling me "Goodbye." but she couldn't work up the nerve. The more I think about it, it might've been autumn the last time we walked among trees and, in one of those dreams, she looked like she was trying to hold back from crying. If she was smiling, I think she was smiling so I wouldn't be so sad.
I wonder if she knew somethin' that I didn't, then again, she had to have known. In my mind, I got so many "whats". What did she know? What happened years ago? And then "whats" turned into "whys" and I got a really big "Why?!" Why did she leave me all those years ago?
I couldn't quite remember her face but I remember that she smiled at me and that she looked so sad when she did. I was left on the Mako's porch when I was little and it was kinda cold.
It had to have been autumn the last time I saw her.