I Need to Move On

by A Fandom Lover

We all know what happened: Dean said some horrible things and Cas left. But what happened after? What did Dean tell Sam when he got back? A much needed conversation.

p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I need to move on"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas waits a few seconds, hoping that Dean will ask him to stay. He should have known better. emWhy would he?/em So he leaves./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"The sound of the metal door closing behind him makes him flinch with its finality. He sighs and looks up to the sky, wondering where to go. He doesn't have anywhere to go. No one waiting for him. emI should have never been brought back./em/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He can feel tears forming in his eyes but he won't let them fall. Every bone in his body is pulling towards the man behind that door, but he fights the need to just open the door and talk to him. He doesn't know what he did wrong. Lie. He knows. He did many things wrong. Mistake after mistake. One after the other. Always disappointing Dean, hurting him./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Before he gives in to that urge, he gets in his car and drives away. Led Zeppelin starts to play and he pulls out the tape. It isn't the one Dean made for him. That one is secured in his room. For a moment he regrets not keeping it in the car, but he knows it would hurt too much to listen to it now. So he turns on the radio and leaves the bunker behind./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-align: center;" align="center"span lang="EN-US"* * * * */span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He hears the bunker door and straightens up. He hasn't moved since Cas left. emHow long ago was that? Minutes? Hours? /emHe doesn't know./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Hey, Dean", says Sam as he enters, stopping to look at his brother, "what happened?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Nothing, why?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""You look… awful, did something happen? Are you alright?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I'm fine. Everything's fine"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Okay", he says, still not convinced, "well, can you get dinner started? I have to talk to Cas about today", he says as he moves towards the hallway./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Uh, he's not… he… Cas left"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What do you mean emhe left/em?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""He left"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Why? Did he find something? Where was he going? Maybe we can catch up with him"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I don't know! He just left"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Sam looks at him, regarding him with a wary look./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean, what happened? What did you do?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I didn't do anything! Why do you think it's my fault?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Because, for one, you are being defensive. And, he wouldn't just leave, not without saying goodbye"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""That's just how he is. He always leaves"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean, I swear, if you don't tell me what you did-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I. Didn't. Do. Anything. He just got mad and left"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Mad? Why?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Don't know"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Sam! He left. What else is there? He always leaves", and with that he turns to the kitchen to get some beer./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Sam takes out his phone and tries calling him but it goes straight to voicemail./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Damn it, Cas"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He goes to the library to get his laptop to track down his phone./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-align: center;" align="center"span lang="EN-US"* * * * */span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas throws his phone on the backseat after declining Sam's eighth call. He pulls over into a motel down the road and turns off the engine, resting his head on the steering wheel./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He doesn't have a plan. He can only keep working cases and find a way to deal with Chuck. For now, he needs a place to rest. He has to save his grace for the big fight./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"His phone rings again from the backseat and he reaches for it with a sigh./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He has 9 missed calls and 15 text messages from Sam./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"8:47/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"MISSED CALL/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"8:49/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: -0.55pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"MISSED CALL/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"8:52/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: -0.55pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"MISSED CALL/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"8:53/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"Cas, where are you?/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"8:53/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"Cas/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"8:53/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"I don't know what Dean did but you don't have to leave/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"So he didn't tell him./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"8:55/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"Cas, please/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"8:55/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"Tell me where you are/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"8:57/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: -0.55pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"MISSED CALL/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"8:59/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"Let's talk about this/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:03/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"Cas/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:03/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"You didn't even say goodbye/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:03/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: -0.55pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"MISSED CALL/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:06/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"Come on, Cas/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:06/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"Answer me/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:06/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: -0.55pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"MISSED CALL/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:08/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"I'll go get you/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:15/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: -0.55pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"MISSED CALL/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:15/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"We can work this out/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:18/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"Damn it, Cas/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:18/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"I know Dean can be a dick sometimes but you know he doesn't mean it/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:20/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: -0.55pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"MISSED CALL/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:20/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"Cas/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: 13.65pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"9:43/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 36pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-indent: -0.55pt;"emspan lang="EN-US"MISSED CALL/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas knows he should talk to Sam but he's just so tired. Tired of failing, of hurting everyone, of letting Dean down, fighting with him, of feeling… useless./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-align: center;" align="center"span lang="EN-US"* * * * */span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Sam parks in the motel where Cas' phone is, hoping to find him there. Hoping to get him to go back./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He knocks on the door the clerk pointed at after giving him a twenty and waits./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He hears soft steps behind the door and then the click of the door chain. When the door opens he sees Cas in his boxers and undershirt./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Sam? How-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Tracked your phone", he says pushing through and closing the door behind him./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Sam, why are you here?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Because, Cas, you don't have to leave"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Yes, I did"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Look, I don't know what Dean did or say, but the bunker is your home too"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas feels a spark of warm at that comment, but it's not enough./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I can't…"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Was it that bad? What could he say to you that was so awful?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I don't… I don't want to talk about it"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, please, talk to me"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Sam, I don't want to talk about it"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, come on, we've been through too much to let this tear us apart"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""You don't know-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Then tell me!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""This is between your brother and me", he says, turning to try to compose himself./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Look, I get it. Dean is an asshole, but he cares about you-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas scoffs, shutting him up./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas… You know… He really does care"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas keeps his back to him and wipes the tears forming in his eyes./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Come on, Cas! Tell me what he said! What could he say that would drive emyou/em away?", he walks up to him and puts a hand on his shoulder to turn him around, "please, talk to me"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""He…"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Yes?", he can see Cas shut off again, "Just tell me!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""He blamed me!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Blamed you? For what?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas takes a deep breath and lowers his eyes./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas…"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Everything", he whispers./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""He blamed for everything"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I don't understand"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas pushes off Sam's hand from his body and sits down on the bed./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""You brother blamed for everything that's gone wrong in your lives"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Why would he-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Because, I screwed up, again"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""How?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I got Rowena killed"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""You didn't. Did he tell you that?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""He said many things"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas…"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""It doesn't matter. He doesn't care, so I left"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, he does care"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""No, he doesn't"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""How can you say that?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""He doesn't even want me back"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What do you mean?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I died, Sam. I was gone and he didn't care"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, how can you think that?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Because I saw him. The day I got back he was so happy and at first I thought that maybe it was because I was back. Silly me"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""But… He was, he was happy to have you back"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He lets out a hollow laugh./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, he was"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I find that hard to believe"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, did he tell you… Did he ever tell you what happened when you were gone?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""No, he didn't"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Sam sighs and runs a hand down his face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Okay, I'll tell you then"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Why, would-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Just listen, okay?", Cas nods and he continues, "When you were gone Dean was… a mess. He- He stayed on his knees next to your- to your body for a long time. He didn't let me help him get the pyre ready. He was just… Cas, he was broken. He stopped eating, he was always drunk, it was like seeing a ghost. He was just going through the motions. He… He blamed Jack for your… He blamed him. He lashed out at him, told him he would kill him. It was so hard to see him like that, Cas. It was… He was… It reminded me of dad, you know? The grief, the anger, the drinking. He told me that he didn't have faith in anything anymore, not on him, not on me, not on us, not on anything. And then… there was this case. Some ghosts terrorizing some kids and he just… he killed himself", Cas gasps at that and Sam sees fear in his eyes, "he just… he left me. Told me to bring him back and pushed the needle in his chest. I was so scared, I couldn't wake him up. I thought he was gone for good, but then he woke up. After that, he said he needed a win. Just one win, to keep going. That was the night you called. You were his win. I don't… I don't know what he would have done if you hadn't come back"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas has tears falling down his cheeks./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I'm so sorry, Sam. That must have been so hard"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Yeah, it was. But you see, you say the he doesn't care, but when you weren't here he… he wasn't himself"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Then how… how could he say…"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Sam is confused for a second until he remembers, emYou are dead to me/em./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Damn it, Dean", he mumbles, "Cas, what he said…"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""If he was as distraught about my… me being gone as you say he was, then how could he say that to me?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I don't know. You'd have to ask him, but Cas, you need to talk to him"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I don't- I can't go through that again. I can't keep hearing him blame me for things I can't control"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Sam looks at him and sighs, "I get it. But, maybe think about it. Just talk to him again? Try to get him to be honest for once"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas opens his mouth to say something else but closes it again./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean is praying to me"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-align: center;" align="center"span lang="EN-US"* * * * */span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Dean is on his… 12th? 13th? beer. Maybe that's why he finds himself at the door to Cas' room. It's mostly empty, except for some papers on the desk and a box under the bed. He opens the box and gasps when he sees what's inside./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"There're a few pictures of them: Jack smiling to the camera, him and Sam joking around, Sam teaching something to Jack, the picture they took at Bobby's before the end of the world (one of them), Dean and Cas at Bobby's, and some of just Dean. He doesn't even know when he took them. He puts them aside and keeps looking to what's inside. There's a dry flower, some bee articles, a thread bracelet (probably from Jack) and… He picks it up and he can see that it's been used. The mixtape, the one he made for him before he… He thought it had burned with him, but here it was./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He feels a pull in his heart and is scared for a moment, before he recognizes the feeling. Guilt. Guilt for not stopping him. For blaming him. For yelling at him. For sending him to Hell. For telling him… emFuck/em. For telling him he was… emYou are dead to me/em. How could he have said that? After… He could never… He can't go through that again. Specially now. emHe thinks I hate him/em. If he loses him now he will be all alone. No one left to keep him going, to keep him from giving in to the anger. No one to fight for./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"If he loses him again, he will never be able to tell him… He needs to… He has to./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas? Cas I- I- Fuck, I- I don't- I don't want to be alone. I can't be alone. You- Please. I- I can't. Please, don't make me be alone. Don't leave me alone. I don't- Don't want to be alone. Don't want to be alone. Don't want to be alone. Don't want to be alone", a sob breaks through and makes him stop for a breath, "Cas, please. I know- I know I was- I'm sorry. I shouldn't-", he takes a deep breath, "I'm sorry, Cas. I'm sorry about what I said, what I did. I shouldn't- I don't blame you. I know you were just trying to help, and I just… Fuck, Cas, I send you in there with that… that thing. I'm so sorry. I can't… Cas, when I- when I said that… I can't lose you again. Don't want to be alone. Please, I can't be alone. Can't lose you"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He breaks down in sobs and buries his face on Cas' pillow./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-align: center;" align="center"span lang="EN-US"* * * * */span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What is he saying?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""He…", he closes his eyes to concentrate, "he keeps repeating he doesn't want to be alone. Why would he be alone?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Uh… I may have… I may have told him that I… that I wouldn't come back until he fixed things with you"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Sam…"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, he can't treat you like that. I know he doesn't really mean it but just because you never push back doesn't mean he can keep using you as his punching bag"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"emspan lang="EN-US"I'm sorry, Cas. I'm sorry about what I said, what I did. I shouldn't- I don't blame you. I know you were just trying to help, and I just… Fuck, Cas, I send you in there with that… that thing. I'm so sorry. I can't… Cas, when I- when I said that… I can't lose you again. Don't want to be alone. Please, I can't be alone. Can't lose you/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""He's… He's apologizing. For everything"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Really?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""He's drunk"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Makes sense. But I'm sure he means it. He's truly sorry"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas sighs and pinches the bridge of his nose./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I can't keep doing this, Sam. What about next time he lashes out at me? Next time I screw up? Next time our plan fails and he blames me?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I'm sure if you talk to him-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""He doesn't want to listen! I tried to talk to him, to explain, and he didn't even bother to listen"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas..."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""My powers are failing. Soon I won't be useful for you"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, I'm so sorry"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"They stay in silence for a minute until Sam breaks the silence./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas... You know... You're useful even without your powers, right?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas doesn't say anything. He doesn't even look up./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""We love you for you. You're our best friend and we really care about you. Not your powers. You"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas can't hide the tears running down his face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Th- Thank you, Sam"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Fuck, how long have you been feeling like this?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas shrugs and Sam hugs him, trying to comfort him./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-align: center;" align="center"span lang="EN-US"* * * * */span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Dean doesn't know how long he's been in Cas' room. But at some point, he starts to look around and notices that it's empty. Nothing there that says Cas lived there. How sad was that? He didn't even bother trying to make it his own./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Why is it empty, Cas? This is you home. It should scream "Cas was here!". Did you even use it? You know, when I gave you this room, I chose it for you. It wasn't random. It made me feel better knowing you were just across the hall. Made me feel safe. You made me feel safe. But maybe you didn't want to be here. All you have is a box full of pictures. I didn't even know you took those pictures of me. Though, I must say, I took some picture of you too. Fuck, I really screwed up, didn't I? I really messed up this time"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He tries to stop the sobbing but he can't, so he moves down the hall until he reaches the kitchen and takes a bottle of whiskey to his bedroom./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I really don't want to be alone. I hate it. Every time you leave it hurts worse. How- how can it hurt this bad? I thought nothing could hurt as bad as when you- when you- I think you broke me, Cas. I can't function without you. I used to be able to shrug these things off, keep going. But now, I feel like I can't breathe if you are not here. And I know that this time it's my fault, but it still hurts. You were- you emare/em my rock. How am I supposed to keep going as if nothing happened? When all I want is to watch movies with you, talk to you, do anything with you. I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm so sorry. I just- I know is no excuse, but I was so angry at Chuck and at me, and I took it out on you. And it's not fair. So of course, you won't come back. Why would you? You deserve so much better. And I obviously don't deserve you"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He's drank almost half the bottle now, trying to numb his feelings./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""You know, I always hoped... hoped that you and me... but of course it didn't happen. I screwed up even that. But there were times when I was sure you wanted it too. Silly me, I guess. Thinking you could ever return my feelings. Ha! I'm a piece of shit. I'm only good for hunting, and even then I failed so many times. I'm sure the world would be better off without me in it, everyone would so much happier. You would be so much happier. I wouldn't hurt you anymore and Sam could finally leave this life behind and have a life with Eileen"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"The bottle is almost empty now and the pressure in his chest keeps getting heavier and heavier./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, I want it to stop. It hurts. And I know you don't care anymore but I- I need to believe you're listening. That I'm not completely alone, yet. That somehow everything will be fine and this pressure in my chest will disappear. Is it normal? Perhaps it's my time. Uh, I always thought I was gonna go down fighting. Am I really dying? I would have liked to see you one more time. To tell you- I should tell you to your face, but I'm a coward. I could never find the courage but this might be my last chance. I- Cas, I love you. I've loved you for years, probably since I met you. You're the best thing to ever happen to me and I'm so sorry I didn't show you, but I truly love you, Cas. My angel. My guardian angel. The love of my life"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-align: center;" align="center"span lang="EN-US"* * * * */span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Sam feels Cas start to tremble and sob loudly against him./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas? What happened? Why are you-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""We have to get to the bunker", he says between sobs./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What? Did something happen?", he says worried./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""It's Dean"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"They get in the car and drive as fast as they can./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Once they reach the bunker, Cas jumps out of the car before it has even stopped./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean?", he yells down the hall, "Dean!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He reaches his room and finds him lying on his front on the floor surrounded by bottles of beer and whiskey. He turns him on his back and sees blood running down his temple./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean! Please, wake up!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Sam arrives at that moment to the door and immediately falls to his knees next to Dean./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What happened?!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I think- I think he tripped with the bottles and hurt his head"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""He won't wake up", cries Cas./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What can we do? Cas, we have to do something!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas runs his hand over Dean's cheek and looks at Sam./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Shut your eyes, Sam"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Just close your eyes"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Sam does as he's told and waits for whatever Cas is about to do./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas leans his forehead over Dean's and holds his face in his hands, letting the last of his grace pour out of him and into Dean./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"A white blinding light fills the room and Sam has to cover his eyes with his hands against the brightness./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean, please. Wake up. You have to wake up. I need you to open your eyes. Please"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Hm", he mumbles as he wakes up and covers the hands holding his face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He finally opens his eyes and sees Cas's face so close to his that he can feel his breath./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas? What- How-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He pulls him in a tight hug, covering his body with his./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I was so scared! Dean, don't ever do something like this again!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Why are you back?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I heard you. Heard your prayer"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Dean blushes and turns his head, only to see Sam there with tears in his eyes./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Sam?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What were you thinking, you idiot? You almost gave me a heart attack"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I'm sorry. I-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Sam hugs him now and lets the tears run down his face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I was a mess. I'm sorry for scaring you"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean, you can't keep going like this. What if Cas hadn't heard your prayers? Who knows how long you would have been laying here"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I know, I-", he glances at Cas and turns back to Sam, "can I talk to Cas for a moment?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Sam sighs but hugs him again as he whispers, "fix this, Dean", and leaves the room closing the door behind him./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean..."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, let me... I need to say this"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I heard you"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Dean lifts his hand and touches Cas' cheek, running his thumb over the tears running down his face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""But you deserve to hear it in person"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas lets out a quiet sob and holds Dean hand on his face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I meant it, Cas. I might not remember everything I said but I know I decided to tell you everything. So, I'm sorry, Cas. I- I shouldn't have ever said those awful things to you. I could never mean them. I was just... the anger took over me and I couldn't stop it, but I didn't mean any of it. You're the most important person in my life and I-", he holds his face now with both hands, "I love you, Cas. For a while now, and I should have told you sooner"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean..."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""And I'm gonna make it up to you. Somehow and no matter how long it takes me. I won't ever feel like this again. I'm gonna show you how important you are and how much I need you"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""But... I don't have my powers anymore"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What? When did this happen?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""They've been failing for a while now and... I- I gave you the last of my grace to heal you"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Dean feels tears gather at his eyes and he can't stop them from falling./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Why- why would you do that, Cas?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""You were dying"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""But I'm not worth it"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean, I would gladly give my life for yours in an instant"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Please, don't. Don't say that"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Why not?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Because. I don't deserve it. Don't deserve you"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Well, tough shit. Because I love you too"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Dean gasps and has trouble finding his breathing for a few seconds./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Wha- what?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I love you, Dean. Ever since I pulled you out of Hell"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""No, no, no. Cas, you can't love me"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas feels a pain in his heart he thought given their conversation he would never feel again./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""But you said- I don't understand"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, you deserve so much better. Someone who treats you right and respects you"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""But Dean, I want you. I've always wanted you. Despite everything, I never stopped loving you"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Dean drops his head and looks up from under his lashes as he whispers, "Say it again"./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas smiles and lifts his hand to his cheek, "I love you, Dean Winchester"./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Damn it, Cas!", he whispers as he leans closer and brings their lips together./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas moans quietly and pushes against him, opening his lips. He runs his fingers through Dean's hair, producing from him a sound he will deny for eternity, and making him pull him in until he's sitting in his lap./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean..."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Fuck, Cas. I'm sorry. I got carried away"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Please, don't stop", he moans as he tries to kiss him again./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Dean kisses him once, twice... a few more times and pulls back again./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, I need to know you are okay. That we will be okay"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Yes, yes, we are fine"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, I'm serious. We have many things to talk about"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas lets out a deep sigh and moves away from Dean's lap until he's sitting on the floor./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I know. But I'm tired of fighting"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""We don't have to fight"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas frowns at him and scoffs./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Yeah, I know, my record isn't exactly on my favor but I'm willing to try"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas looks at him and suddenly his eyes fill with a sadness that has no right to be there./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, what-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Sam said... When I... How... He told me what happened"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""When? What did he tell you?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""He said... Dean, did you really kill yourself?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Dean looks down, unable to meet his eyes./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Why would you... How could..."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I was lost, Cas. I didn't know what to do anymore. I've lost many people, but every time I lose you I don't know how to function anymore. And this time...", tears gather in his eyes as he recalls that dreadful moment, "your wings... It was the first time I ever saw your wings... burnt. It made it all very real. I didn't have any hope of getting you back. It felt like the definitive de- death, you know. And I... I shut down. I tried everything to keep going but I was just tired of the void in my chest. So, when I saw the chance, I took it and I convinced myself that it was for a case so it was alright"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean..."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I know. I was weak and a coward, but I meant it when I said that you are my rock. You keep me grounded and without you here I just... I didn't see any reason to stay"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What about Sam? Jody? Donna? J- Jack?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Yeah, they don't need me. And Jack... I wasn't really welcoming before you got back"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas looks at him with so much sadness and guilt that Dean tries to look away, but he lifts his hand to his chin and leans forward until their foreheads touch./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean, you can't... it's not healthy for you to depend so much on me"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I know. I know that, Cas. I didn't do it on purpose. It just happened. One day I just realized that the world without you is just dull and dark"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I know it's fucked up"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I'm worried, Dean. I can't control what happens to me. And now I'm human. I'm more vulnerable and if something happens to me I need to know you will be okay"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I won't. And I'm not saying that I'm gonna kill myself the next time you die, but I won't be okay. And you can't ask me to be"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas takes his face in his hands and lets out a deep breath, trying to forget everything about either of them dying./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Okay, okay. We'll be fine", he tries to smile but he knows it's a weak one at most./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""We will be, Cas. I plan to make you the happiest man on Earth", he says as he brushes their lips together./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"But Cas tenses and jerks back./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What did you say?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas gets up and paces the room as he thinks. And Dean just looks at him, not understanding what's happening./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Suddenly, Cas turns around with a tearful smile on his face. Dean is worried he said something wrong but Cas looks happy somehow. Relieved./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Dean!", he cries as he falls to his knees in front of him and grabs him by the nape of his neck./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, what's hap-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I can be happy!", he says laughing while tears run down his face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Are you okay?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I'm great! Dean, I can be happy! Finally! No attachments, no deals. Just pure and truly happy. No consequences to fear"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What are you talking about? Consequences?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I- I made a deal. With the Empty"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What!?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""But it's okay, Dean. I always thought that I would never be truly happy, so it didn't matter. But now, I'm human. The Empty has no power over humans. It can't take me!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas, you have to slow down"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas sighs and tries to calm his breathing./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""When Jack died last time, I made a deal with the Empty. I told it to take me instead but it wanted me to suffer, so it would only take me when I was truly and honestly happy. But I never thought it was possible"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""You didn't think you could be happy?", asks Dean trying to hide the hurt he's feeling./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I never thought I could have what I wanted", he looks at him pointedly, "You. You are what makes me happy. Right now I'm the happiest I've ever been and it hasn't come for me!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Fuck, Cas! We have to stop making stupid deals like that. What if you hadn't been human?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I told you-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Yeah, yeah. You didn't think you could be happy. We'll talk about that later. What if I finally decided to get my head out of my ass and confess my feelings for you?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I never thought it possible, Dean", he frowns./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Dean holds his hand and squeezes to get his attention./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""So you haven't been happy for the... what? past year?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""It's complicated. The world was ending, and then everything with Jack... and us... It's not that I wasn't happy, I just... I was... There were many bad times"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I'm sorry, Cas. I should have noticed"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I didn't want you to"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Will you tell me if you are not happy?", he asks./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas bring his fingers to his mouth and kisses the tip./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I promise"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"They both lean in for a kiss and Dean suddenly finds himself pushed on the floor with Cas on top of him. He opens his legs to make room for him and moans as he brings him closer with his hands on his back./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Guys, I'm making din- Agh! Didn't need to see that!"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Fuck off, Sam"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Sorry, Sam"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Don't apologize! It's his fault for being a noisy bitch"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Jerk"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What did you want to tell us?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I'm making dinner. Burgers. They'll be ready in 5 minutes"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Thank you. We'll be there"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""How many did you make?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Two?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What about Cas?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What about him?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""It's okay, I-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""No, he will make you one too"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Why would he-"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Because he gave u-", Cas squeezes his hand quite hard, making him stop./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I... I'm human now", he says lowering his eyes, not being ready to see the disappointment on his face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What?! When did this happen?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""It just happened. Keep up, Sam"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Asshole"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I used the last of my grace to save Dean"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas..."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""It's fine really", and he smiles broadly, "I can be happy now. I am"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""What do you mean?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""We'll explain during dinner"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Okay", he sighs, "I'll go make Cas his burger, then"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"He looks at them with a suspicious look on his eyes, "don't take too long"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Bitch"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Jerk"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Once they are alone again Dean runs his hands up his chest, to his neck, to end on his face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""So, you really are happy, then? Truly happy?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""The happiest", he says nuzzling his hand./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Good", he mouths against his lips, "I really, really love you, Cas"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Mmm... I love you too, Dean"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"They kiss for a few minutes more before Cas breaks it off saying that Sam is waiting for them./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; text-align: center;" align="center"span lang="EN-US"* * * * */span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"After dinner, once they've told Sam about the deal with the Empty and have promised that they won't make any more deals like that, they move to the Dean-cave./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Shouldn't we talk about Chuck? Make a plan?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Not today. Today we celebrate"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""And what are we celebrating?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Us. I thought I had lost you both and now I would say we are closer than ever. So, we are celebrating", he says pulling out a bottle of whiskey./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas stops him from opening it and looks at him with sadness in his eyes./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Please, don't. Not today. Not after... I thought I was never gonna see you again"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Cas..."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Just today. Maybe tomorrow too. Although I would recommend to try a more healthier life style, seeing as I can't heal your liver anymore"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""My liver? Are you saying you've been healing me as I drunk my weight in alcohol?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US"Cas frowns and looks at Sam as if asking him if he's for real./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""Did you really think that after everything you drank and everything you ate you could be as healthy as you are?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""I-", he blushes in embarrassment, "thank you, I guess"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-right: 0cm; margin-left: 0cm; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; font-size: 12pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"span lang="EN-US""My pleasure", he says kissing his cheek, making him blush even deeper./span/p