Chapter 17
Sailor had heart surgery…fixing the wound on her left ventricle, and helping her to sustain proper blood flow. Sailor did well during her surgery. And afterwards, she was in the hospital for a few days. But she eventually came out, she came home, and rested for a few days. She rested one day, drinking her Oat Milk, and taking some more medicine. I came into the big room one day, mine and Nazz's room, checking on Sailor. "Hi, darling". I said, kindly with gentleness. "It's so nice to see you…you look so beautiful, coochie". I whispered, gently. "Thank you". Sailor replied. I laid beside Sailor on the fold-out bed. "How are you feeling, honey?". I whispered, kindly. "I'm ok…kind of". Sailor said. "I kind of feel tired…I don't know..I just kind of been…it's been hard…because…I can't do the things I used to do…not for a couple weeks at least".
I nodded, kindly. "You'll be back at it in no time". "You're very resilient, Sailboat". "You can do anything…anything you wish to…just believe in yourself". "And know that it will all be ok". I whispered, kindly. Sailor nodded. "It will be ok…I'm confident". Sailor said. I smiled, brushing her cheeks. "I'm here to mend your ties". I whispered, kindly, massaging her cheeks. "Clean up whatever mistakes we made, formerly, and forgive the past…however hard it may be". I massaged her cheeks, making circles on her face. "Do you forgive the past?". "Do you forgive the hardship it's brought you?". I asked, in a kind, gentle whisper. "I do forgive it…because…it's not useful holding onto anger". Sailor said. "Besides, once the past happens, it's over…and it can't repeat itself unless we make it". "I can move forward, and be a better person than I was yesterday". "That's what makes it all worth it".
I smiled a gentle smile. "The past can be a tricky thing…but once we clear ourselves of it, we find a better version of ourselves, and our livelihood we never knew was there". "We're better because of it…and we are nicer people due to what we've experienced, exactly". "You learn to forgive others, and learn from the mistakes you've made". "You are extraordinary because of it". "You've learned….you've grown…and you've developed…but now, it's time to flourish in the freedom you have born from resilience". "You are young still, but you can enjoy yourself now that your injuries are healed…both emotional, and physical". I said, kindly. "I really can". Sailor said. "I'm better now because of the things I've experienced…and I'm someone that knows what I'm capable of, exactly". "I am stronger, and more affluent…and whatever happens, I can handle it". Sailor drank her Oat Milk.
"You can handle anything….because you're smart as well". I said, gently. "You're the most intelligent child I've met…and you're the most mature". "You are capable of anything…because you've had experience". "Experience is the best teacher…I've always thought". "I've always thought that because…I can learn anything from a book…books will always state things in letter, and numeric form". "But it's the wisdom to know how and when to use that knowledge". "I love learning, but I love the experiences I've had as well". "I've experienced much in marriage, and in education, business and the workforce, and now, I'll experience fatherhood, which will be a new avenue for me". "Fatherhood is the best avenue".
"Because of the time, and tenacity it takes to raise a child?". "And the life experiences gained from doing it?". Sailor asked. "Definitely because of that". I said, kindly. "Experience gives us wisdom…and there is a copious amount of wisdom needed to raise a child". "Children are the most precious gifts….and it is the toughest, and most important job to raise them". "We need children, just like they need us". I breathed some strained breathing.
"Eddy's girlfriend, Lee is pregnant". I said, gently. "Lee is pregnant?". Sailor asked. "She is pregnant". "And she's expecting the same time as Nazz". I replied, gently.
"They aren't married either". I said, kindly. "Lee is divorced, though". "She never had any kids with the last guy".
Sailor nodded. "Why is she divorced?". Sailor asked. "Perhaps because she and her husband never got along". I said, gently. "Lee has been divorced for a few years now". "But it's just as well…a Kanker". I sighed.
Sailor looked around. "Eddy asked me to sleep over one night". Sailor said. "Mm, he wants you to sleep over?". "That'd be nice…he and Lee would like it". "They have the pool, and hot tub, they have the indoor bowling alley, they are rich…you'd like their house". I said, kindly. "Maybe when you get better, you can sleep over his house".
"Ok". Sailor said. I smiled a gentle smile. "You're a small baby still". "Just a tender kitten with the wisdom and maturity of an owl, and the heart of a lion". "But you're still just a little girl, so young, only 8". "You need so many kisses, and hugs, and cuddles". "You need love…tender, soft love, with a side of massages, and nuzzles…and cream cake". I said, kindly. "I guess I do". Sailor said. I massaged her cheeks, rubbing her belly…massaging it up and down. "There we are, darling". "There's that love, and gentleness we adore". "We are the best because of it". "I love you, coochie". I whispered, gently. I kept massaging Sailor's stomach, kissing her stomach along with it while she laid…falling asleep.
"I love you too". Sailor said, as she fell asleep. I rubbed her belly, kissing her as well. In the kiss, I spoiled her, massaging, and loving her copiously. She fell asleep, ready and ebullient for tomorrow. I smiled, laying beside her, snuggling her as we relaxed, and fell asleep, yearning for tomorrow. We fell asleep….well into the night. And I hugged Sailor….from behind.
Though in the night, as Sailor was enjoying a pleasant dream, I gently brushed her cheeks, kissing both of them. Sailor turned over, sighing. "Yes?". She asked. "I hate to wake you…I really do…and I apologize for it…in propensity, but…could we possibly take medicine now?". "Remember, we have to take medicine every 3 hours". I whispered, kindly. "It'll only take just a few minutes". "Whenever you want". I coaxed Sailor into getting out of bed. "Ok". Sailor replied.
I smiled a gentle smile, helping Sailor sit up, as I handed her some of her syrupy medicine. Sailor drank the syrup, as she moaned a bit. "I know, coochie". "I understand". I whispered, gently with kindness…seeing the tears come from Sailor's eyes. "Let's have some milky bye, it'll be ok". "There we go, coochie". "You've got it". "You're almost there". I whispered, kindly. Sailor drank her Oat Milk, as her vulnerable eyes looked upwards. She looked even more fragile now. More tired, more vulnerable, as her eyes had bags under them. She looked human. And more like a worker…someone with effort. Sailor drank her milk, laying back down. "Ok". Sailor said. "There we go, coochie". "Back to sleep we go". I whispered, kindly. I gently tucked the blanket over her, laying down beside her, as she slept. "I love you, coochie". I whispered, gently. "I love you too". Sailor said. We went back to sleep…laying down, as we snuggled close…enjoying the evening…in a great amount. We were close…we were always close. That was something we adored. We adored it very much. Well then…goodnight.*
Sailor held her bag a few days later as she stood at the door to Eddy's house. Now, it belonged to Eddy and Lee. Lee answered the door in her silky robe. Lee Kanker…she was less than exciting to see. She oftentimes made bad decisions just to see what others' reactions would be. She was a basket case…I've known her for a long time.
As stated in previous chapters, I've had an affair with a Kanker…Marie Kanker while I was with Nazz. We didn't have sex…but we were close enough. Marie Kanker was as beautiful as she was stately. She had become someone stately. As for Lee, she hadn't changed much.
Lee's lips curved into a smile as she saw Sailor. She smiled a kind smile now. "There's my darling….beautiful as always". "I forget how beautiful you are to me…at times…but then I remember, and it feels like home to me". Lee said, kindly. "Thank you". Sailor replied. Lee smiled a gentle smile as she kissed both of Sailor's cheeks gently. Sailor smiled.
"Come on in, honey". "We have all sorts of delightful things to do". "Whatever you're in the mood for". Lee said, kindly. "Ok". Sailor replied. Eddy rubbed his eyes as he came in. "Hey, honey". Eddy said, gently. "Hi". Sailor replied. Eddy smiled a kind smile, hugging Sailor. "Hopefully, you'll find something you like". Eddy said, gently. Sailor nodded as she sat down in front of the T.V.
"I love you, darling". Eddy said, gently. "I love you too". Sailor replied, as she sat down, seeing the T.V.
The T.V. was on, as Sailor watched it. Eddy sat down in his easy chair, seeing that Sailor was lonely. Sailor looked on as she had her blanket wrapped around her. Her princess blankie.
Lee smiled a gentle smile as she joined Sailor sitting beside her. "Can I sit beside you?". Lee asked kindly with gentleness. Lee brushed Sailor's cheeks with a kind hand. "Sure". Sailor said as she felt Lee's gentle hand. Lee smiled a kind smile. "How are things going, baby?". Lee asked, lovingly. "They're going really well now". "I got the surgery and fixed the thing in my heart…and I feel better now". "I'm not as tired or scared". Sailor said. Lee nodded kindly. "You see this as a step in the right direction?". Lee asked, kindly. Sailor nodded. "I do". Sailor replied. Lee smiled a kind smile. "I'm proud of you too, coochie". Lee said kindly. "I love you so much, honey". "We both know how much I do". Lee kissed Sailor's cheeks, lovingly. "Thank you…and I love you too". Sailor said. Lee smiled as she stroked Sailor's cheeks…gently. "Lay your head right here, baby". Lee suggested kindly patting her lap. Sailor laid her head down on Lee's lap, as Lee stroked her cheeks, lovingly. She provided some weight for Sailor as well. This helped comfort Sailor when she was tired. Lee whispered kindly as she comforted Sailor. Sailor laid her head down, falling asleep. Lee smiled a gentle smile, comforting Sailor as her kisses meant love and gentleness. Sailor was calm in her sleep as Lee whispered, kindly. Eddy came by, massaging Sailor's back as well. "Love you". Eddy whispered, gently. Sailor was asleep, as Lee laid her head down on Eddy's shoulder, as he fell asleep too. In the midst of it, Lee was woken up as she headed to the bathroom, having to pee.
Lee rolled her eyes, sighing. "You've got to be kidding me, little dude". Lee sighed as she got up, going to the toilet…though, half asleep. When she returned, she took Sailor into her lap again, comforting her peacefully in a gentle state. Lee smiled as she fell asleep again. All were asleep, as they were content. Even Eddy was asleep. It was fair and safe to assume everyone was good.
Sailor woke up later to the softened brush of someone gently stroking her face. She looked upwards, seeing Lee brush her face in a kind manner. "Hi, coochie". Lee whispered, gently with kindness. Sailor glanced upwards, tiredly. "Hi". Sailor said, in tiredness. "I don't wish to do it..but..we have to take medicine now". "If you don't mind it". Lee whispered, kindly. Lee smiled as she brushed Sailor's cheeks, gently. "It's ok". Sailor replied. "You know I'm so happy you could spend the evening with us…we love having you so much". Lee whispered, kindly. "And I love being with you, too". Sailor said. Lee smiled a kind smile. "You're my favorite, honey". "You know you always are". Lee said, kindly. Sailor nodded. "Thank you". Sailor replied, as she got up now, walking to the kitchen in the dim light.
Lee's pregnant stomach was abundantly clear as she walked with Sailor to the fridge. "Here we go, coochie". "Let's just drink some of this now…very nice, and we'll have some more Oat Milk". Lee said, kindly with gentleness. Sailor nodded, as she drank some of her heart medicine. Lee massaged Sailor's cheeks, lovingly. "Shhh, shh, shh, shh". "Everything is alright now, lovey". "I promise you…we'll be back to sleep in no time". Lee whispered, kindly.
Sailor nodded, drinking her medicine…after she did, she went ahead, and drank her Oat Milk. The Oat Milk had a lovely taste to it, Lee's and Eddy's always was good. Sailor nodded, sipping more from her sippy cup. Lee smiled a gentle smile. "You did so well, coochie". "Mommy is so proud of you…I love you so much…and I'll give you a nice, big, smoochie boot kiss because you're my sweet pea". Lee said, kindly. Sailor nodded, as she felt a warm, moist, gentle, softened kiss from Lee. "Thank you, honey". Lee said, kindly. "You always make me so happy…each and every day".
Sailor nodded. "You make me happy, too". Sailor said. Lee smiled, as she hugged Sailor. "Mm, want to curl up and go back to sleep now?". "I know you're much more tired than you let on". Lee said, gently. "I am kind of tired now". "I guess I'd like to go back to bed…if it's possible". Sailor replied. Lee smiled a gentle smile, as she hugged Sailor, kindly. "I was just headed there, myself, actually". Lee said, kindly. Sailor nodded, as she walked with Lee back to the couch. Sailor helped prop Lee onto the couch, as Lee smiled a kind, sappy smile. "Thank you, honey". "I love how you did that for me". "I greatly appreciate it". Lee said, kindly. Lee rewarded Sailor with a gentle, kind kiss. Lee patted her lap, and legs, kindly. "Lay your head down right here again, coochie". "Let me massage you for a while…it's ok". Lee said, kindly with softness. Sailor decided to lay her head down, as she closed her eyes, feeling the massage on her back. "Thank you, honey". "I really appreciate your kindness today". Lee said, gently with softness. "You're welcome". Sailor replied. "Thank you for helping me, too". Lee smiled a sappy, soft smile as she stroked Sailor's forehead. "I love you, honey". Lee whispered, kindly. "I always love you…from the time we met". Lee kept tickling Sailor's cheeks, as Sailor closed her eyes. Sailor had her head down between Lee's legs. Lee wore a silky negligee, and silk shorts.
"How's your heart feel?". Lee asked, kindly in a gentle whisper. "It feels ok". Sailor replied. "I kind of…I don't feel it hurting at all…and…they fixed the wound the right way". "Which is nice".
Lee nodded, kindly. "Your heart feels ok…which is good". "Sometimes, when a heart feels nice, it makes all the difference". "I know sometimes, injuries are pretty bad". Lee whispered, kindly.
"I had a stomach injury a long time ago…I was in a motorcycle accident". Lee said, gently. "What happened on a motorcycle?". Sailor asked. "I was riding one…some guy curtailed me…and I flipped over". "It was pretty bad, I burned my stomach on the engine". "From that point on, I never rode a motorcycle again". "I was 21 years old when that happened". "I've always decided to acknowledge somebody if something ever happened, but…whatever it was". Lee said, kindly.
"I remember they had to do surgery on my stomach…and I took like 12 different medicines for it". Lee said, gently. "But I liked it, and I survived, which was pretty nice". "Mmm". Lee mumbled, as her lips moved, from side to side, while she scowled.
"Your plane crash…that was painful, huh?". "Losing your mom and dad…going through the motions of PTSD…that must've been hard…it'd be hard for me, too". Lee said, kindly with softness. "It was hard…at first…but…now I know…and now I remember that everything will be alright". "I guess I kind of…know now that I am stronger than I know…and better than I was…because I'm more mature". "It kind of made me grow up fast". Sailor said.
"Mmm". Lee nodded, as she moved her lips, her scowl. "You had to grow up quickly in that moment…when you flew the plane…all by yourself….and saved everyone". "Well, the few that survived". Lee whispered, kindly. "It did make me grow up fast….and really…it made me see that…everything is relative". "Everything has a reason…and everything has rhyme". "I knew within me that they needed to be rescued". "So I did…and…I benefited from it". "And I still consider them my family, too". "I meet with them every week..and…we're good friends". Sailor said. "You're a heroine". Lee whispered, kindly. "You're someone who's here to protect..and bring forth the element of safety". "You're very wise as well….you can do anything you wish to…because you have the tenacity". "I always knew you did….and you always have…anything you wish for…anything you dream of…is yours now…because you are a protector…you are someone truly amazing". "And you've survived everything as well". "You can do anything…I believe in you…and I always will". Lee smiled a kind smile.
"Thank you". Sailor said. "But you've been a protector now for a long time…you protected your baby sister….little Ana after birth mom passed…it seems". Lee whispered, kindly. "I did?". Sailor asked. "You did…you've always protected her…and you…even though you were a newborn, you still protected birth mom in many ways, too". "You were there with her…blessing her with your presence". "She loved you so much…she was so honored to have you…you were with her…so much". "You did an amazing job, baby". "She loved you…in so many ways". "Just like how I love you". Lee whispered, kindly. "Please don't be sad, or blame yourself for what happened in childhood". Lee's lips moved as she spoke. Her painted lips…her womanly lips that were usually sexual and vulgar regarding her as a Kanker. Now they emulated altruism, and a motherly wisdom.
"It's not your fault". Lee whispered, kindly. "You and I both know…no one is at fault". "It just happened…you did so well, honey". "You protected her…and she loved you very much". "Everyone loves you, Sailor". "You are so amazing and wonderful…you've kept everyone safe…and saved countless lives…you can do anything, honey". "You've kept us safe, and protected us…now, let us protect you". "Just lay your head here, and breathe it out". "Just be at peace, knowing it'll all be ok". "I love you". Lee whispered, gently. Sailor nodded. "I love you too". Sailor said, as she sniffled. Lee smiled a kind smile, massaging Sailor's cheeks. "What's got you upset, darling?". Lee asked in a kind whisper. "nothing…I just…I think about my birth mom…and my parents…I don't know". "I guess…it makes me sad". Sailor said.
Lee nodded, gently. "It's natural to be sad, sometimes". "I get sad too". "Sometimes, what we want to do most is…just breathe it out….know it'll all be ok". "Cry if needed, and let it out". "You'll get through it…I promise you will". Lee whispered, gently. "Ok". Sailor said. "I love you…you and I both know I always do". Lee whispered, kindly. "I know". Sailor replied. Lee smiled, as she held Sailor close. "You're my favorite". "We know you are". "Because you have been….since you were a baby". Lee whispered, kindly. "Thank you". Sailor replied. Lee smiled as she kissed Sailor's cheeks. "Remember when you were a baby?". "You came to us…and I was excited?". "You were equally as excited to see me". Lee whispered, gently.
"I do remember". Sailor replied. "It was an exciting time…I was always excited".
"You're the best…and our bond is magical….in every single way". Lee whispered, kindly. "It is a nice bond". Sailor replied. "It definitely is". Lee whispered in reply. "And what we've gained…is equally as special…because it's us…and no one can supersede us". "You and I…we are invincible together…and anything we achieve…we do it together". Lee smiled, as she brushed Sailor's cheeks. "We can". Sailor said. Lee smiled as she kissed Sailor's cheeks. "You and I are soulmates…you know that?". Lee whispered, kindly. "I do, in fact". "From when I was 3". Sailor replied. "Yes, and we were together…in 1995, and I kissed you, anointed you…we made a pact with God that we were soulmates….you and I…we're the best in many ways". Lee whispered, gently. "We really are". Sailor replied. Lee smiled as she kissed Sailor's cheeks again. "Mm hmm". "From the beginning, and onward". Lee whispered, kindly. Sailor nodded as she looked around.
"Want some coconut water, now that we're both awake?". Lee asked in a kind whisper. "Coconut water?". Sailor asked, screwing up her face. "Yes, you've had it before". "It has chocolate drizzle and is minty and sweet". "It's like drinking cake". Lee whispered, gently. "I have a couple prepared for us in the other room". "Ready?". Lee smiled as she rustled, sneaking out of bed, and past Eddy. "I am ready". Sailor replied. Lee and Sailor took their coconut waters, sneaking out to the porch. "Let's toast, to the amazing best friends we are…and the wonderful times we've had…as friends…as soulmates". Lee whispered, kindly as she and Sailor clinked.
"This tastes good". Sailor said. "It is good". Lee replied, kindly. "This coconut water I got is from Atlanta". "They imported it from Florida, and sent it up". "It's beautiful, amazing, luscious coconut water". "Eddy likes it…of course, after I introduced it to him…but, he still likes it better than anything". Lee said, kindly. "I'm sure". Sailor said. "So, in any aspect, how are things going?". "Things must be pretty good, I'll bet". "Even after the surgery". Lee said, gently as she lit a cigarette. She waited until the tip became ashen to bring the cigarette to her lips. "The surgery was good". Sailor said. "They put a pacemaker in, and stopped the swelling caused by my injury". Lee nodded, tapping ash from her cigarette.
"My ex-husband has a pace-maker if you'd believe it". "It's a weird thing, he got it after he screwed up his heart by smoking weed". "But…all is good, and he's able to eat meals, and fish, and do whatever". "He's had a much better diet since then". "He hasn't smoked, drank, did the weed, or anything in a while". "One has to feel good for him, after all". Lee said, kindly.
"Yes, it is always nice when someone takes on a healthier diet". Sailor said. "That usually means they're willing to do what is necessary".
Lee nodded. "That is always nice…sometimes, when someone has a rude awakening like that, it gets them going". "I almost had one as well…and…I ended up on a ventilator with that". "Drugs were a part of my story as well". Lee said, kindly. "They were?". Sailor asked. "They were…and I was addicted for quite some time". Lee said, gently. "I was on heroin, and meth…I was addicted to a lot".
Sailor nodded. "I was just always educated on the premise that drugs were bad for you". Sailor said. "Yes, I was always educated on that as well…however…the 1980's were a different time". "I was someone that was offered drugs..in early middle school….and they really were bad". "Don't ever try them…usually, in those days, if someone was offered something, they tried it…but, the 1980's were pretty bad…early middle school and I…not a good mix". "But luckily, I got out of that, went into rehab, and cleaned myself up". "There's more to life than the bad of it". "Rehab is one of those things we're thankful for because…it makes us grateful for what we do have…and what we enjoy". Lee whispered, kindly.
"How were things with your husband…like I guess he would be called…an ex?". Sailor asked. "My husband was a horrid man…he beat me several times a day when he was using, he would come home drunk, he was just a nasty man". "And while I've called authorities on him, he still would be let back into my house". Lee said, softly. "But the nice way it ended, and would be mended into a friendship is…his heart ischemia". "He learned a lot from that, stopped using, and found a way to be nicer". Lee said, kindly. "Ex-husbands do that a lot…then, they want you back, and it's like…why?". "But I forgave him, and all is well". "I never will marry again…made that mistake once". Lee tapped ash from her cigarette. "What about Eddy?". "You're having his baby…". Sailor mentioned.
"I knew when I came in, what I was getting into". "I've done it with tons of guys…and I know what I'm capable of". "Fortunately, though….guys are cool with it". Lee said, gently. "I've almost gotten pregnant in high school with some guys…but it was a miscarriage…fortunately, so my parents didn't find out". "But when I was your age, I hung from the monkey bars, and let all the guys see my underpants". Lee chuckled as she said this. "Really?". Sailor asked. "I'm serious…I did do that, and got put in the corner at the end of the day". Lee said, gently. "I was a bad kid growing up…and really, all the acting out I did, it was a show, anyway". "More than anything, I proved I was tough". Lee chuckled again.
"Toughness is a part of it". Sailor said. "Maybe so…in a variety of manners". Lee said, kindly as she chuckled. "But I did what I did…and benefited from it". "I like guys…I do…and now, the pregnancy is a welcome aspect on my part". "Because I'm ready to be a mom…in every way". Lee said, gently. "That's nice". Sailor replied. "I'll love being a mom…it is a very freeing thing…in every aspect". Lee said, kindly. Lee drank her coconut water. "Motherhood is a big thing…hopefully, you're prepared". Sailor said. Lee nodded, kindly. "I am prepared…and whatever comes my way, I'll do it in confidence". "Because that's what part of it is…confidence". Lee said, gently. "It truly is". Sailor said. "But part of it is responsibility as well". "I hope you're doing what you need to do". Sailor looked off to the side.
"I am, honey". "Trust me…everything is under control now". "And besides, I have my best friend beside me to help me". Lee said, gently as she and Sailor chuckled. "You know I love you so much…and that what's mine is yours….and what's yours is also yours". Lee reminded, kindly with gentleness. "Ok…?". Sailor replied, as she and Lee chuckled again. "But I do love you, honey". "And I wish so much happiness for us….because you and I share everything…and we always will". Lee whispered, kindly. Sailor nodded. "I know". Sailor replied, as she drank her milk. "I love you so much, coochie". "You are always my baby". Lee whispered, gently. Sailor nodded, as she drank from her sippy cup. "What else do I have?". "Mm, would you like to be our baby's godparent?". Lee asked, in a gentle whisper. "You can teach him Christianity, you can be at his baptism, you can do so much with him". "I hope you accept".
Sailor nodded. "I do accept the offer". "I would be honored to, in fact". Sailor said, as she and Lee shared a loving smile. "Thank you, coochie". "We'll be ready for his baptism soon". Lee said, kindly. Sailor nodded. "I'm sure we will be…and it will be amazing". Sailor said. Lee smiled as she hugged Sailor. "I knew I could count on you". "You are my heroine…in so many aspects". Lee said, kindly as she smiled. She smoked her cigarette, as her warm smile became proud. "You truly are the reason I get up every morning". Lee said, gently..shedding a happy tear. "I am so indebted to you, honey". "You are mine…in every way". Lee began crying as she sniffled.
"That's very kind of you to say". Sailor said. "You are my heroine too". Sailor smiled, as she got up…hugging Lee, as Lee gave her a nice, warm squeeze. "Baby hormones, or actual happy tears?". Sailor asked. "A bit of both, actually". Lee said, kindly. "But I like it…it's all good". Sailor and Lee nodded, as Sailor smiled, drinking her milk. "Glad I could help". Sailor said, as she stayed in the warm hug, feeling the joys of kindness. Kindness was very nurturing, and inspiration…was very amicable. Sailor knew it as well.
