Disclaimer: I don't own Castle!
Sooo – This is a really big step for me. Ten years ago I used to write all the time but then somehow stopped. In the last few weeks, I really wanted to start again. Unfortunately, there isn't a community for the stories I like to write in my native language (German). But writing isn't really fun when you have nobody to read it. So I decided to give it a try and write in English. And to make it even more awkward I decided to make my debut with 100% smut. But in my defense: I have a whole storyline figured out following this. But let's start with a oneshot and then see where it may go.
So, this scene is set right after the finale scene of 4x23 Always, including the deleted scene. You may want to rewatch that first to you know… get yourself in the mood…
So please, read and tell me what you think. But don't be mean to me, please! I really tried my best.
His lips slowly trailed down the path of her neck along her collarbone down to the valley of soft skin between her breasts. Her damp skin tasted salty and sweet at the same time. He placed soft kisses among the edge of the black lace covering her, covering what he had desired for so long. A part of him wanted to tear away every piece of clothing between them as fast as he could. Make her his as fast as he could before she had a chance to change her mind. But no matter how present the fear of her pushing him away again was, he wanted to make this moment last for as long as he possibly could. Burn every image, every feeling, every taste of her into his mind. Just in case in the morning all his worries would become true and the memory of what was happening now would be the only thing he would have left.
He pushed all these thoughts and fears away way back into his mind and firmly placed his lips back on hers. She eagerly kissed him back, raising her body into his. Her fingers found their way into his hair, holding his head in place as if she never wanted him to stop kissing her. He settled on his elbow, letting his body sink deeper into hers, while his other hand trailed down her side. He felt every curve under his fingers and felt the unstoppable urge to touch her. He needed to feel her skin. He tugged on the edge of her blouse and pushed it up her waist so his hand could find his way under it. She felt so soft and warm even though the wet fabric of her clothes was cool. His fingers traced up her body until he reached the black lace again. There were only four more buttons to open and within a few seconds, he removed the dark blue fabric and let his hand roam over her stomach. He did not want to stop kissing her. But he also wanted to feel more of her. Carefully in pulled his lips away from hers and ran them down her body. Placing them on every spot they touched, down between her breasts over her belly until he reached the rim of her jeans.
That was the first time he heard her moan. Quiet and soft but it was enough to send waves of electricity through his body as if he had been struck by the lightning outside of the window. He kissed her skin harder and his fingers started to unbuckle her belt and then the button of her jeans. She arched her back, pushing herself into him as he heard her breathe as if she was running. He could feel his hard beating inside his chest just like that.
Just as he was about to pull at the edge of her jeans she slightly sat up and pulled him up back up to her. She kissed him while she unbuttoned his shirt, shoving it over his shoulders. Running her hands down his back she straightened up a little bit more so that her body was pressed against his bare chest. His hands quickly found the little claps on her back and opened it. He slowly pushed her back down on the mattress and as the black bra slid down her body he fully removed it and caught a look at her. He felt the sight of her almost naked body lying underneath him, breathing heavily, eyes filled with desire burning itself into his memory. Still looking at her his fingertips caressed their way down from her shoulders along to the sides of the soft flesh of her breasts. He was in awe of how perfect she was. More perfect than he had ever imagined. And he had done that countless times. She laid her hand around his and pressed it into her body as she pulled him back down to her.
His hand cupped around her breast, slightly squeezing it. He kissed her again, harder and faster than before. She moaned into his mouth and shivers started to run down his spine again. He let go of the soft warm curve of her breast and reached down between them again. Slowly his hand slid under the fabric and he did not make the effort to take the long road. He had waited long enough. His lips still on hers he let his fingers glide down between her legs. She gasped and her warm breath brushed his face. He buried his face down her neck, his lips never losing contact with her skin. He closed his eyes only wanting to feel what was her.
She squirmed under his touch her moaning turning into a soft groan as he softly grazed his fingers over her, deeper down between her legs and along her entrance. She searched for hold tightly holding on to his arms. He let his fingers glide up and down again and she pressed her head into the bed, biting her lip to not let out a scream.
Normally a soft touch like this would not affect her like that but it felt like all the years of tension flowed into his touch almost driving her insane. Her reaction only spurred him on more. With more pressure his fingers slid down her again, this time not stopping but entering her just enough so she could not hold back anymore. „Castle.." she groaned and clung to him even tighter. Hearing her say his name like that, her voice filled with lust nearly let him lose all control. He wanted to hear that again. His fingers found their way inside her again, as deep as they could with her still wearing her jeans. She let go of him and he almost did not notice because all he could take in was the feeling of her and her body against his. But suddenly her legs lifted and her jeans and slip were gone. Her legs parted a little and again she laid her hand on his, guiding him deep inside of her again and again. With every movement, she moaned and her body underneath him grew more tense.
He could feel her coming close. It cost him all strength and willpower left in his dazed mind to realize that he did not want that. Not this first time. His movements slowed down and reluctantly he lifted himself from the bed. He looked down on her lying on his bed between the rumpled sheets. Her damp naked skin glistened in the dimmed light of the bedroom while the rainstorm still roared on the other side of the windows. She looked back at him, her eyes still filled with the lust from moments before. He took in every inch of her body and then his eyes got caught on her face again. A warry smile played around her lips and tore him out of his stare.
A warm smile spread over his features as he slightly bowed back down to her. At the same time, she sat up, taking his face between her hands and resting her forehead against his. He undid his belt and shoved down his pants and boxers, not for a second disconnecting the look into her eyes. „Are you sure?" he whispered. A little hint of fear she could pull away from him crossed his mind. But instead of pulling away, she drew him back down on the bed with her breathing a soft and yet firm „Yes" against his lips.
She closed the gap between them and kissed him again. Closing her eyes she anticipated what was about to happen. Her heart was racing and every fiber in her body longed for him. She could feel him move above her. His body touching hers, his hand sliding down her side until he reached her hips. He slightly pulled her thigh up and placed himself between her legs. His body rested heavy on hers and she felt him pausing his kiss but still not leaving her lips. With a sharp breath, he leaned down even more onto her body and entered her slowly and so carefully as if he was afraid to break her.
Her breathing stopped as she felt him pushing himself all the way into her. His groan hit her lips and she released a deep breath making a soft almost whimpering sound. Her hands still on his face he slowly started to rock his hips against hers. One time. Two times. Three times. He felt his arousal building up inside of him like a wave getting ready to crush down on them. She pressed his lips on his again and wrapped her arms around his back pulling him even closer. As he moved against her she rose her hips a little allowing him to reach even deeper. She could feel him become faster and groaned into his mouth.
At this point he let go of every last bit of control holding him back. He hooked his arm under her knee, pulling her leg up to his shoulder, and dove deep inside of her again. Their heavy breathing on each other's faces, moaning and kissing he thrust into her again and again. Her nails dug into the skin of his back and he could feel her growing tighter around him. This time he would not and could not stop. She let out a soft scream muffled by his lips on hers and arched her body against his as she reached her high.
He had never felt anything even coming close to this. He desperately wanted to make this feeling last a little bit longer but he was not able to hold back anymore. As her body relieved all her tension and grew soft under his he poured into her, his body collapsing on hers.
He buried his face against her neck again inhaling her scent and refusing to leave her body. Gosh, he wished they could lay like this forever. Like the only thing existing was the feeling of their sweaty connected bodies. But he knew that was not possible as she slightly stirred underneath him, rolling them over onto their sides. Still tangled up in each other their faces almost touching a beaming smile spread over her features. Her fingers grazed his cheek and he put his arm around her back, firmly holding her in place close to him.
He smiled back at her and felt a warm feeling of peace washing over his body and mind. He had dreamed about this so many times and none of his dreams met what it really was like to hold her in his arms. The rough road they had to go down to come to this moment started to fade from his mind. Instead, a firm certainty formed inside of his heart. As long as he could or as long as she would let him, he would never let go of her again. And with his very being he hoped that would be forever.
