I was taken to some sort of hall a few days later after my arms had ossified in their odd painful position permanently. My arms were weak because no new bone had grown into them. The tomato and herbs had weakened me a lot already, I was bruised and tired, vomiting from time to time.
The Indian researcher was pleased with my progress. This life is not fair. First I recovered from the shed session thanks to Mimosa's new strap then. Well, luckily I have a pretty well-stocked medbay, as long as I can get away with it sometime. They put me on a table with restraints, no chains needed. This device that was brought in was somewhat similar to the one Damon had used on me. But bigger.
An Indian man came over to the table and sat in a chair and said " So this is our new surgical robot, but this one has no empathy. This one wants to operate. It has one of the most sophisticated AIs on the planet attached to it and it's curious. It knows who it's cutting and we've told it a lot about you. It's going to study you.
The AI is sure it will beat you. Everywhere. That's why we haven't weakened much, just a little bit to keep things moving forward. In fact, the AI asked for those herbs and tomatoes. Now it's coming for you. It's studying and studying you at the molecular level while wreaking havoc. I'll let you know where we go from there. But this takes time.
AI has developed smaller surgical assistants, but it doesn't want to use them yet. It knows all about your drugs and then decides for itself how sedated it wants you. This will be interesting and this will be recorded and sent to quite a few interested people." The man stood up and pressed the switch.
The machine moved and out came all sorts of probes and blades that started to go into my orifices, ears, nostrils, pussy, ass, and mouth. Into my belly button. Soon I started to have sensations and none of them were nice. The pain was pretty soon in my whole world.
The machine was horrible, it had dozens of different heads and probes and blades, who knows what. It wasn't even always medicating me, it was probing. The Indian guy was always going around explaining what was going on, and how it had now overcome my immune defense and my digestion. My nervous system.
I had slowly endured the pain and developed my chaos power into armor or something. Then I decided to combine it with my will. The force I felt in my head was a whole new thing, it was a subtle pressure or charge and at least when I explored I could amplify it.
There was one probe that I hated the most. I focused on that. I imagined how I wanted it to bend upwards. The feeling of power in my head grew. There was pressure. It should be released. I looked at the probe and whispered softly, venomously, "Bend." I felt a wave or something go out of me and the probe turned upwards. The machine didn't notice immediately.
I started to build up another wave of power. Now one bigger arm. I wanted it to rip all the wires off. I gathered the power again and said, "Rip." And the wires came out, accompanied by a sea of sparks, and the machine stopped.
The investigators came to see what was wrong with the machine. They took me back to the room. I gathered strength for the rest of the day and at night I tore myself away and left. I didn't even destroy the whole plant, just found one car and tried to drive it out of control. I finally made it to my house in Nevada.
Damon knew he should have killed himself in tick form, it would have been so easy to tell this friend to put him in a giraffe or elephant enclosure or even a meerkat which would have quickly finished him off. He had done it again. Another shed session.
On the plus side, he hadn't killed Mimi but Damon very much doubted that Mimi would survive. Then he'd had to act. First, he'd saved Mimi just like old times and he'd been happy to find himself back, it had felt so perfect to help Mimi. But the volcano had been short-tempered, angry. Something inside him had exploded out of him for having saved Mimi. It wasn't going to work out.
He couldn't take it anymore. The hope he'd felt when he'd helped, the feeling. And that was taken away from him and then he was about to do another really nasty session. He decided to kill himself in some way that the volcano couldn't handle. This would end and end for good, at least he would never hurt Mim again. He thought of a way. An iron coffin at the bottom of the sea would guarantee Mimi decades, if not centuries of peace, but what then.
If he could somehow get into a space rocket to be shot into space it might work too. He wondered and wondered. He felt the way the volcano had erupted and he knew that a shed session where Mimi would die again would only be a matter of time. Suddenly he was on a rainbow island. A big fat white cat walked up to him, it was a pale white cat and Damon realized that his brain saw that color as white even though it was so much more. This was a God.
The cat sat down next to Damon "I am here for you Damon" the white cat said "I want to understand, tell me, talk to me."
Damon didn't know what to talk about "Leave me alone, let me die". Damon said. "Why? Why do you want to die?" the cat continued. "When I'm bad, I make shed sessions I don't even understand, sometimes it makes me feel good but it's not mine either. I saved Mimi and cured her, but something inside me got angry and that's the end result. I thought I was better, I thought I'd found myself again, I was quite wrong."
God came closer " Go on, when did you feel better? Other times when you save or help Mimi" Damon thought for a moment. Then he remembered and laughed "Those were several of our weddings, flank weddings though Mimi didn't appreciate them. They made me feel free somehow. I imagined I could control this evil I felt by controlling Mimi, it helped at first, but something got so strong and I started to enjoy the wrong thing too much. I know I'm evil. I feel it"
God said quietly "Because you were free at that wedding. And Mimi's control gave You power and strength. " Damon furrowed his eyebrows.
God stood up and said, " Follow me" he led Damon to a fountain and said, " Look deep into the water, just look. " Figures began to emerge.
" Mother?" Damon asked.
" Everything starts as it always does at birth, now I've been slow myself, this thing could have been fixed a long time ago but it was meant to be. He only revealed himself to me recently, well someone downstairs will suffer for this as long as I can get there. You've been suffering for a long time. " God continued.
Damon watched his mother clearly in labor. Finally, the child came into the world his mother smiled and was happy. She held the wrap for a moment and then started pushing again.
The cat said "Now watch closely "Damon saw his mother take the second child and noticed the mark on the palm of his hand. It was the same as Damon's. The mother quickly gave the baby away and took the firstborn and let it eat. Only when this baby was full did the mother take Damon and Damon was allowed to drink what was left.
The pictures were changed, and the boys were identical 18-month-old. One of the boys was sitting on his father's lap, who held out a fireball in the palm of his hand, the boy reached out and took it for his own. The father was clearly proud. Then the boy looked at a skinny dog that was skulking in the yard and threw the fireball at the dog, the dog howled and there was another burn mark on its side. The mother went to kiss her little boy proudly.
The second son was severe, stood off to the side, and while both parents praised and hugged the first son, the second son toddled over to the dog, put his palm on the wound, and healed the wound a little. The father saw this and came and tore the boy away so that he flew to sit on the grass.
The father then took and snapped the dog's neck, slowly so that the boy started crying, the image slowly faded as the boy hugged the dog and cried, the boy's palm glowing slightly.
The image changed again, the child in bed coughing, powerless. Mother and father sat on either side of the bed. This was the first boy. A doctor, whatever, came into the room. Talked to the mother and father and shook his head, and the mother started to cry.
The picture changed again. Both boys are on the stone slab in the basement. There were magical symbols drawn on the slab. The boys' hands were tied together. One of the boys was barely breathing, the other was trying to get up. The boy was given something to drink so he was unconscious.
The ritual began. The energy passed from one boy to the other. The sick boy stopped breathing. The healthy boy had tremors running through him and then a light appeared as the palm mark disappeared from sight.
Damon was silent. He tried to understand, hoping for a simpler explanation.
God said" Two sons good and bad, one destroys the other heals. What happens when these two are put in the same body?"
Damon said, " I suppose I did."
The cat said " Yes, you had a twin brother, Damien, who was the firstborn and had no mark of salvation. Now your palm doesn't show the mark because Damien is still inside you, but when he leaves your mark will appear. You have magic, you are probably a wizard and somewhere in your subconscious you know it. "
Damon wondered what was him and what was Damien, could they even be separated?
The god said " Your parents performed a black ritual when they put Damien inside you, hoping of course that Damien would take over completely, but that didn't happen. They would have gladly exchanged your body but Damien's body wouldn't have lasted and the ritual wouldn't be complete by the time the body died. That would have been the end of Damien. If the white witches had done this ritual, they would have broken you both into tiny little pieces and then merged you into a whole new being, a balanced one, light and dark.
Now what your parents' ritual accomplished was a battle, a constant battle to see who would be on top. You have blackouts so you know that by then Damien had taken over completely, but for example, at that wedding, you took over. The whole three days. That flanking gave you the kind of power boost that helped you stay in control. Because Mimi was in your control the whole time. And likewise, whenever you helped, healed, or did what you were supposed to do, Damien couldn't help it. That's why you always wanted to help Mimi even after the sessions because that's your nature."
Damon asked, "To be in charge I have to flank Mimi?"
The god laughed "No no, I can get Damien out of you permanently so he can never get back in, but the only downside is that Damien will have a body. Now he's come out enough. I had my suspicions about that, but I couldn't act until Damien came out enough that he couldn't hide anymore. But it's worth remembering that he could still come after Mimi."
Damon wondered aloud "What does he want with Mimi? Why would he hate Mimi if he's been inside me all these years after all he's been with Mimi for decades."
The god said wisely "That's what you would want to know and maybe one day you will"
The god walked to the beach and sat down, Damon sat down next to him. Damon started talking, he told about Mimi, their relationship, the parties, the other women, he remembered the first time he saw Mimi in Nick's bed, how he had nursed her back to health time after time, he told about a couple of his teaching sessions, how he tried to protect her from demons.
How she was almost coined. He didn't talk about the events in chronological order or finish the story, he recalled half out loud and half in his head. There was bitterness in Damon's voice, regret, a deep self-loathing in it, but there were also decades of love, a love that could never be what it could have been. A love that had been stripped of its wings.
Damon said " What we once had may not be there anymore. Mimi's given up, I've given up. It's time to let Mimi be happy with Adam and Charles. I should have just been stronger and given her her happiness and security sooner. I know it's not me."
The decided it was time. He summoned the chaos cat and Viivi, the order cat, and together they did a spell or used their powers and ripped Damien loose. The added a part of the spell or power that Damien could never look exactly like Damon. Damien flew down to the ground. Damon couldn't care less at that moment. He was free. He was himself.
Damon could feel the evil leaving him, not all of it was his own demons and evil ways, but the kind of evil that had always enjoyed the Shed session or getting Mimi killed. He was himself. And he didn't know who it was at all.
The Volcano had disappeared inside him. For a moment he wondered if Volcano was going to kill Mimi or not, but that thought was not significant.
God said to Damon "Do what you want to me, modify my body. " and Damon did. For some reason, he turned God into a girl cat and started fucking. Apparently, he was a sex machine. For centuries he could fuck and he was a legend among vampires. It was him, apparently.
Damon remembered the disgust and revulsion that had permeated when apparently Damien got fucked and especially Mimi. Damon asked the Cat God "Why did Damien want a baby with Mimi so badly?"
The Cat God said "It is prophesied and before you ask I am a god but believe there are powers stronger than me in the universe, it is prophesied that Mimi's first child if it is dark will have the power to destroy worlds, but if it is light will heal worlds. "
Damon said, "I've never heard of that."
The cat replied. "it's one of the world's most closely guarded secrets. That's why it's been very important that Mimi can't reproduce until the time is definitely right." Damon wondered if he knew who light was and the thought brought bile to his throat. Mimi and Charles would make the savior of the world.
The cat looked at the man for a moment and asked " Why the long face? Aren't you a child lover?"
Damon said "I know Mimi and Saint Charles will make a baby or else holy Adam. It's just a bit hard to digest."
God was laughing. "why are you taking yourself off the equation?"
He raised Damon's right hand, it now showed a pale mark. "You're a healer, wouldn't it make sense that the father of the healer of worlds would be a healer too."
Damon replied" But the shed sessions, I don't know who I am and in fact what my feelings are towards Mimi."
Damon spent time in the rainbow isles, occasionally giving the Cat God a ride, but much of the time they talked. Damon talked and talked. He talked about his past and made observations about who he really was. Slowly, he began to feel human again.
The cat god said, "You have one more task, about Mimi, come here and see." He showed how Mimi had been captured and how her hands were crushed and twisted. God showed how Mimi escaped, alone and in pain, and ended up in a house in Nevada where she retreated into a tightly winged shelter all alone.
God showed how Mimosa's heat was difficult and long, and how Mirella was becoming impossible. Damon could now see clearly that Mirella was not in the right place.
The cat god said "Mimi is about to call Mirella. Now remember that detergent with the germs in it, Mirella. Other players are involved in this thing, but they haven't come forward yet. You are, Damon, a wizard, you have magic, and you are also Mimi's protector. You always have been. I know what you want to do. Go. I'll be waiting. I'll have you here as soon as you get Mimi fixed. Do you really dare leave Mimi at Mirella's mercy?"
Damon stood up and said "Fine Mimi is in the wing, I can't get in there. It's been done that way. "
The cat god said "Why don't you call Charles and tell him everything? Everything. Including Damien. Mimi is vulnerable to him too, remember that."