AN: Hello guys! I hope you all had an awesome time during the holidays! I had family visiting me so I wasn't able to update but you all have my undivided attention now. Don't forget to follow along on the story and leave a favorite so I know that you are enjoying it! Also feel free to review any constructive criticism.

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This story contains mature content (Rated M)

SASUKE'S POV

I watched as the wheels began to turn in her head and Sakura's green orbs widened at the realization of what had occurred. I took a deep breath to steady myself and tried to wrap my head around what I had just done. It is going to be okay. A lot of people I have heard try for quite some time to conceive a child, so the chances of me and Sakura conceiving one on the first time is very slim. I relaxed at the thought and finally got my facial expressions back to their usual calm demeanor. Sakura on the other hand was still frozen in her spot. I stood up and pulled her arm with me as she trailed behind still in a daze. I opened the bathroom door and leaned over to start the shower. The noise was almost deafening compared to the silence that surrounded us. I turned around, eyeing Sakura curiously. She was staring at her hands as her fingers moved one by one in a counting pattern. She noticed I was looking, and they dropped down to her sides once more and I tugged her hand to motion for her to climb in the shower with me. She smiled up at me and I felt the smoldering sting of the water hit the bare skin of my back. I adjusted the temperature and Sakura joined me wrapping her slender arms around my waist.

I snaked my own around her shoulders pulling her cool chest tighter against mine. I put my mouth onto the top of her head brushing my lips against her down dampening hair. "I'm sorry Sakura. I should have been more careful. It's just... when I am with you intimately. I lost control and for that I am sorry." I murmured against her, feeling my cheeks heat up at the honest words that poured from my mouth. Sakura stiffened a moment before laughter fell from her lips. I pulled back feeling confused and felt my eyebrows pull together as I glanced down at her. Her eyes were closed tight, and face looked at ease. Her mouth was twisted into a smile as the laughter rolled out. She stopped abruptly, eyes snapping open to look at me and her hand flew over her mouth trying to stop the laughter. "I'm... Sorry... Sasuke-Kun, it's just funny to think... that I have that kind of control over the famous Uchiha Sasuke!" She finally managed to get out between fits of laughter. I felt my eyes narrowed, and I turned to wash off, ignoring the giggling pink haired woman next to me. I was mid-wash when she placed her small hand to my chest and the other urged me to look at her. I refused. "Sasuke-Kun... Alright, alright... Now I am the one who is going to apologize."

When I still didn't look and continued to wash my hair, I felt her hand drop from my chest. I felt an emptiness fill my skin where her hand had been, and I began to turn my head towards her until I felt it curl around my member. My head snapped down to see her gently stroking it and I somehow found the will to pull away shaking my head. Her face turned hurt in an instant as her hand dropped to her side. "No Sakura." I said firmly, even though every cell of my body was screaming for her touch. "Why not Sasuke-Kun? Is this because I laughed at you?" Sakura questioned, shaking her head. "No, it's because I don't trust myself not to lose control again. End of discussion." I spoke words coming out sounding harsher than I intended. "So, we have one slip up out of how many times and now you are just going to 'cut me off' by touching you and being intimate?!" She questioned her voice and came out more annoyed than anything else. I turned away, trying to get my blood to quit pooling in my lower region and stepped out of the shower with a "Hn." I heard Sakura groan loudly as I shut the shower door behind me starting to dry off. I heard her mutter some more about being so unfair, and 'she will see about that'. I brushed my teeth and put on deodorant before exiting the bathroom leaving her to finish in peace. I felt slightly guilty about my choice, but it was best this way for the time being.

I dressed slowly thinking about what it would mean if Sakura were to carry my child. I felt fear wash over me as I thought about my younger years and everything that led up to my and Naruto's final fight. All of the hatred, the loneliness, and the pain. I couldn't do that to an innocent child. I couldn't bring one into this world knowing that it would be cursed from its first breath. I know from experience how almost impossible it was for me to find a shred of light to brighten my bleak existence and I could not do that to someone who had no choice in the matter. It was bad enough that I had decided to be selfish as I have been and drag Sakura down. I couldn't take the chance of her loving heart to form love for a child just to have it's life be filled with misery and pain like mine had been. I sighed and pulled on my shirt as I heard the shower shut off and the sink turn on. I sat on the bed looking out the window. I noticed it was a tinted window meaning we could see out however you couldn't see in. I was pulled from my thoughts at the sound of the bathroom door opening and I turned to follow the sound. My eyes widened momentarily at the sight. Sakura had walked from the bathroom butt-ass naked. Not a stitch of fabric to be seen. She noticed my expression before I averted my gaze and stuck her chin up turning her head from me. I cursed myself mentally noting that she was going to make this be a lot harder on me, pun intended.

She bent down exposing her full backside to me and rummaged through her drawers taking her time before she finally settled on a tight long sleeved white shirt and slid it on. With no bra. She then pulled on a pair of black sweatpants. No underwear. She brushed her hair out and pulled it into a sleek ponytail exposing her milky white skin of her neck which had faint love marks all over. "I'll be back in a bit." She called over her shoulder and started to walk to the door. "Where are you going?" I asked, feeling my temper start to flare. "To the market." Sakura said matter of factly not bothering to turn around. Without even thinking I was to the bedroom door before her blocking the exit. Her eyes widened for a moment before rolling. Mine narrowed and I spoke through clenched teeth. "Change your clothes." She opened her mouth to respond but closed it with a snap at whatever expression she saw on my face. Groaning she turned pulling off her shirt to put on a bra and pull her shirt back on. It was see-through and you could see her red lace bralette underneath. I growled and opened my drawer reaching in to grab a navy sweatshirt of mine with the Uchiha crest on the back and tossed it to her. Sakura's eyes shined looking down at the sweatshirt and she hesitated before finally glancing up at me and staring for a moment. Her eyes finally softened, and she sighed pulling the clothing over her head. I relaxed slightly and turned to open the door and she followed me out.

There was no way in hell I was letting her go back alone to the market especially now that it was later in the evening. Sakura didn't complain this time as she knelt down to put on her shoes at the front door and I did the same grabbing my cloak and hers. She stood up and smiled slightly at me leaning forward and I stiffened slightly as she kissed my cheek softly. I sighed and ran my hand up her back pulling her in for an embrace. This was going to be harder than I thought. I released her after a moment and opened the door at the same time Naruto was reaching for the handle. "Oi! Teme! Where are you guys going?" Naruto asked, smiling at the two of us. I walked past him not saying a word. "To the market, I wasn't able to grab everything this afternoon... so we are going to get the rest now for dinner. Do you guys need anything?" Sakura asked, still standing in the doorway. Naruto looked at Hinata as she slowly nodded her head. "Yes actually, do you guys' mind... uh- if we tag along?" I heard Hinata's quiet voice ask shifting her weight uncomfortably. "Not at all! That gives us all a chance to grab stuff collectively for meals!" Sakura exclaimed, smiling brightly at the raven-haired girl. "Like ramen!" Naruto yelled loudly, thrusting his fist into the air with a big smile. I rolled my eyes and settled my gaze on Sakura. She gave me a worried look before replying. "That's fine right Sasuke-Kun?" She asked timidly. I nodded and stared into her eyes letting her know it was indeed okay. Her smile returned and she skipped happily to my side, and we all continued down the stairs and out through the front doors of the foyer into the icy air.

SAKURA'S POV

I laced my fingers in with Sasuke's as the four of us walked leisurely towards the market. He stiffened slightly but didn't pull away. Sasuke had been acting really stressed and distant since our incident earlier. It confused me majorly. It was honestly an accident; I know and if roles were reversed, I guess I would feel a little stressed knowing I hadn't stopped something like that from happening out of loss of my own self-control. But I mean I don't blame him. I was just as dumbstruck in the moment if not more. I am sure everything will all work out. I am a medical nin and I know firsthand how difficult it is for a woman to conceive a child. It almost always takes a few tries and perfect planning to work in the favor of a viable pregnancy. My mind then wondered to the thought of a raven-haired child looking identical to the man holding my hand. I let myself imagine for a moment a beautiful bundle wrapped up in my arms, jet black hair, rounded little face, and onyx eyes. I felt my cheeks heat up as I glanced over at Sasuke who was staring straight ahead trying to tune out Naruto's conversation. What would Sasuke be like as a father? Better yet... what would I be like as... a mother. No doubt I would love the child unconditionally and protect it with my life. But would that be enough?

I shook my head lightly to clear it of the thoughts I let wander too far. I was worrying again for nothing. I heard Naruto call my name once more and I focused back on his words. "Sakura-Chan are you listening?" Naruto whined tapping my shoulder. I rolled my eyes playfully feeling slightly embarrassed. I was thinking about such a topic with other people present. "Hm? Yes Naruto, what did you ask again?" I questioned looking over at him. "Hinata hasn't been feeling the best since we got here and she told me it's not a big deal, but I just wanted to see if you could give her a checkup..." He asked looking over at Hinata who was blushing and waving her hand around. "Naruto-Kun, I told you it was no big deal. I think it just might be a cold from all this chilly weather." Hinata said quietly, placing her hands behind her back. "Of course, I will! Once we get home, I'll give you a checkup, it no bother I promise. Anyways as the lead medic on this mission it is my duty to make sure all of our teammates stay healthy." I finished trying to sound stern letting her know I would not be taking no for an answer.

She shyly nodded her head in agreement as we approached the market street. Sasuke stepped slightly closer to me which I didn't mind. I knew his reasoning. I gripped his hand tighter, and we entered the first stall on our list. The trip to the market was uneventful thankfully and we picked up enough groceries for the four of us for a week's worth of meals. We were just leaving the last stall when a vendor approached us asking if we would like to sample their tuna rice balls. We agreed and took a bite, it tasted amazing even though I was more a fan of sweets. I paused hearing Naruto's concerned voice. "Hinata are you okay? You look a little...green and-" He was cut off by the sound of Hinata dry heaving and turning on her heel to book it away from the crowded street. "Hinata!" Naruto yelled attempting to chase after her, but I caught his arm. "Let me go check on her. She probably doesn't want you to see her like this. We will meet you guys back at the house." I explained hoping to reason with him. He reluctantly nodded and Sasuke released my hand giving me a look that I knew meant be careful and I will be here if you need me, I returned the look letting him know I got the message then I sped after her. She had made it to an alleyway before bending over and hurling her entire stomach contents onto the snowy ground. I held her hair back while my other hand began to glow as I poured some healing chakra into her as an attempt to alleviate the nausea.

After a few minutes passed and the heaving spell finally subsided Hinata looked at me with tear filled eyes glistening from the gut wrenching feeling she had just experienced. "I-I... I am so sorry Sakura. I feel awful that you had to witness that." Hinata quietly spoke out her voice hoarse. I reached into my bag and pulled out a little canteen and offered it to her which she accepted graciously. "It's no problem Hinata, I see this kind of stuff all the time. It's no biggie. But I am concerned about your health. I thought you said it was just a little cold?" I questioned looking into her face with concern thick in my voice. Hinata hesitated for a while before answering quietly after taking a swig of water to wash out her mouth. " I didn't want Naruto-Kun to worry. You know how he gets. I feel like I may have a mild flu. My muscles are achy, and I am so exhausted. I hadn't felt nauseous until I tried to take a bite of the food. I am so embarrassed. I hope no one noticed." She said her voice sounded strained as she ran her hands through her hair. I thought for a moment analyzing her symptoms, I would need to do a thorough exam on her without a doubt. If Hinata was ill and exposed to something it could also mean the rest of us were exposed as well.

"It's going to be fine Hinata, let's head home so I can't do an exam, okay? I told them we would meet them back there." I told her, grabbing her hand gently pulling her along. Her hand was clammy but no signs of fever I noted. Once we made it back to the house more color had returned to her face. "I am feeling better already." She told me as we climbed the stairs. Maybe it was just the food? It didn't taste bad to me, but maybe she got a different batch? I nodded and reached for the doorknob but the door flung open before I could grab it. Behind the door stood a panicked Naruto who exhaled loudly at the sight of us, his eyes never leaving Hinata's face. She blushed deeply, bowing her head and muttering an apology but Naruto ignored it, brushing past me to hug her tightly. A little too tightly. "Naruto, I know you're concerned but you really should squeeze her, she just started feeling better." I scolded but tried to sound somewhat kind. I felt myself go into doctor mode once he released her and rubbed the back of his neck sheepishly. I grabbed her hand once more and we walked past Naruto and Sasuke who was sitting on the couch eyeing me with a look only I would get. As if asking me was I okay. I smiled slightly at him and continued to walk to the spare bedroom, opening the door and flipping on the light. I attempted to shut the door behind us after Hinata made it through the doorway, but Naruto was close behind and stuck his hand in the door frame.

I gave him a glare not liking to be interrupted and he didn't even look at me, his eyes were still focused on her. "Naruto, I promise she is going to be fine. I just need a few minutes to do an exam and I am sure you are very concerned but she's in my care and you know I wouldn't let anything happen to her. I will be done shortly." I said trying to sound more sympathetic to let him understand I had this. Naruto finally glanced away from her to look me in my eyes before his shoulders relaxed slightly and he removed his hand from the doorway with a slight nod before he disappeared back down the hallway without another word. I shut the door lightly and turned to face Hinata. "It's really sweet you know. I mean I know Naruto doesn't like to see anyone hurt really. But I have never seen him be so serious and worried about someone before. I am so happy that he has someone who he can put all of his love into." I finished with a smile. Hinata returned the smile and just nodded her head softly as I gestured for her to sit on the twin bed. She complied and I raised my hands to her head lightly placing them and closing my eyes as I moved my chakra to my palms and began my exam. I sensed a few dilated vessels in her head, probably a result of the extreme heaving she did earlier. I healed and continued on moving to her shoulders and chest. Everything seemed to be fine, no signs of illness, just fatigue in the muscles.

I lowered my hands again, feeling at her stomach. There was tenseness and rumbling as it sounded uneasy still and I assumed she still felt a little nauseous, so I began to heal and soothe once more. That's when I felt it, I wasn't sure what it was at first until I remembered back to my second year of medic training. It was a lesson we briefly covered but one I will never forget. The feeling of a new life forming in utero. My eyes shot open, and my hand retracted as the glow disappeared instantly. Hinata looked up at me with her eyes big with worry. I am a doctor who always prided myself on being able to keep my emotions in check, but this was different. This was Hinata and this was Naruto. Naruto who had saved my life and saved countless others. Naruto who had been there for me even when he had no one ever there for himself. Naruto was going to be a father, and Hinata a mother. He was finally going to have a real family. Something I knew he had dreamed about his whole life. This was one thing I am sure of that Naruto would cherished even more than being hokage even. I felt a hot tear run down my face as I blinked rapidly still staring at Hinata who was now even more visibly scared. "Sa-Sakura... What's wrong? Tell me what's wrong with me..." Hinata stuttered out pulling her hands close to herself almost as if to give herself a hug. Just then the door shot open, and Naruto stood there with Sasuke by his side both looking at me with worried expressions. "Sakura-Chan, what's wrong? Hinata and your chakra just went haywire and are all over the place!" Naruto exclaimed taking in my facial expression and the tears that were now flowing rapidly down my cheeks. His face grew more concerned if possible and he reached for Hinata. Sasuke stayed rooted at the door.

I need to get it together. This is not like me, this is so unprofessional I scolded myself, finally remembering my oath to keep my emotions in check in front of patients no matter what or who they were. I took a deep breath before smiling smally and reaching over to grab Hinata's hand. "Naruto, I need you to take a seat please." I informed him, he looked at me with an odd expression but didn't protest taking the spot on the bed next to Hinata. I steadied my voice and looked between the both of them. "Hinata. Naruto. It looks like you two are going to be parents." I said slowly observing their faces. Naruto's eyes grew wide and then he froze for a moment before the biggest smile I ever saw broke across his face as he turned to Hinata. She on the other hand quietly repeated the last part of my statement. "We... Are going to be... Parents." She repeated before the realization set in and her eyes grew big, then ever so slightly rolled back into her head as she went limp on the bed face first into Naruto's lap. "She has always been prone to passing out..." Naruto said still smiling before Hinata quickly came to and sprung up almost knocking heads with Naruto. He grabbed her shoulders and pulled her into a big hug and the tears started to pour from her eyes. I caught Naruto's eyes for a moment and motioned that I was leaving to give them their privacy which he smiled back at me and nodded slightly. Once I made it to the doorway, I noticed Sasuke was no longer standing there.

I softly shut the door behind me and went to find him. I found him in the kitchen putting the food we had gotten away and keeping out what we would need for us to prepare dinner. He made no sign of acknowledging me once I walked up beside him as he continued his original task. I could feel the tension in the air and my mind finally became clear as I remembered his uncomfortableness from earlier about our situation. It was still very fresh and now this was happening, probably worrying him more. I took a silent breath to steady myself and I walked to the cabinets grabbing a pan out for the food. He still kept quiet. I still didn't know how to talk to him about this stuff. His family and childhood traumas were a very touchy subject, one that we hardly ever brought up. I still needed to talk about this with him and I can't stand the distance this was bringing between us. " I am very happy for Hinata and him. They deserve this. They will be awesome parents." I started trying to sound nonchalant and happy, but my voice wavered slightly. If he noticed, he made no mention of it. "Hn.'' He responded, not even bothering to look up at me as he grabbed a knife from the kitchen drawer and started chopping the meat into small squares. "Who would've thought Naruto would be the first of our generation to start a family?" I tried again with no response this time.

3 minutes and 15 seconds passed as I counted each one trying to rack my mind for something else to say. Normally silence with Sasuke was comfortable and pleasant. This was far from it. I could almost take the knife out of his hands and chop the tensions in half in this room with ease. "I think it's crazy that-" I started but was cut off by Sasuke exhaling loudly and dropping the knife down loudly on the cutting board while running his hand through his hair. He turned walking quickly to the door grabbing his shoes and sliding them on. I wiped my hands on my pants and made a motion to follow him, but his head shot up, eyes not meeting mine. "I'm going out for some air." He said sharply, stopping me momentarily in my tracks. He grabbed his cloak off the hook and went to open the door. "I'll go with you." I said hurrying over to grab my shoes. He shook his head once. "I want to be alone right now." Sasuke said harshly and his words cut me deep, finally stopping me completely in my tracks. I stared up at him, willing myself not to cry. But I nodded briskly and turned on my heel back to the kitchen and froze once more at the kitchen sink, letting the feeling of sadness finally wash over me once I heard the door slam shut. I let the tears run freely and stared motionlessly out the window until the light purple sky turned dark and the stars started to fill the night sky. I don't know how long I stood there but the only thing that pulled me from my thoughts was the voice of friends.

"Sakura-Chan? What are you doing standing out here? Are you okay?" I heard Naruto ask, putting a hand on my stiff shoulder. I finally broke from my trance and turned to face him. His eyes narrowed once he saw my face. "Where is he? What did he do?" Naruto said in between gritted teeth. I shook my head not wanting to talk and wiped my face roughly. "Never mind me being a crybaby, Naruto. I am fine." I waved him off trying to collect myself. I looked down at the clock and noticed how late it had actually gotten. "Shit." I muttered to myself grabbing the knife Sasuke had been previously using and chopping my meat quickly trying to finish this dinner before it was too late. "I forgot to say, Congratulations Naruto! I really am so happy for you. You guys are going to be awesome parents!" I said, turning to look at him. He was still eyeing me with suspicion but finally a smile broke across his face. "You really think so? He asked as his face grew red. "Absolutely, and hey with Hinata as your child's mother there might be a chance, he or she will be a little tamer than you!" I joked, shaking my head at him. He chuckled and rubbed the back of his neck. Just then I felt a searing pain in my hand as I turned back to see my two fingers cut clean down to the bone. I yelped, dropping the knife and grabbing my hand instinctively as the green glow shot from my opposite palm. Blood had splattered everywhere covering the food. "Damn it!" I yelled examining the food as my hand continued to heal.

"Sakura-Chan!" Naruto screamed running up to me and trying to assess what had just happened. I brushed him off stating that I needed a minute as I hurried back to my room. I shut the door behind me and sank to the door glancing down at my fingers once more. They were almost fully mended with the exception of two pink puffy lines going through the first two bends of the fingertips. I groaned at myself for being so stupid. I looked at the sweatshirt I had on which was covered in blood and I swore at myself once more, noting that I had ruined Sasuke's shirt. It seemed like I was ruining a lot of things recently and I didn't know how to stop. There was a soft knock at the door, and I held my breath. "Sakura-Chan are you alright?" Naruto asked quietly through the closed door. I sighed once standing and adjusting my clothing before opening the door with a fake smile on my lips. "Right as rain" I fake laughed, flashing my freshly healed hand to him while shaking my head. "Clumsy me, you would think after all these years training with kunai I would know how to chop meat with a knife." I joked waving my hand. He didn't look the slightest bit convinced as he pushed into the room. "This isn't like you, Sakura-Chan. What's wrong? Tell me." He asked with his face looking gravely concerned. I held my smile but felt it slowly dissolve at his unrelenting eyes. The tears stung at my eyes once more and I felt him grasp me tight as they fell loudly. I began to sob uncontrollably into my best friend's arms. I cried until there were no tears left in me, but Naruto did not complain once as he continued to hold me upright.

"I'm so sorry I am ru-ruining your special d-day." I sobbed attempting to pull back. His arms did not loosen but his head pulled back to look at me with intense eyes. "Don't ever say that Sakura-Chan! You are my family too. I will never be too busy to be there for you, no matter what. Believe it!" He said sternly. I took a deep breath letting it fill my shaking lungs as they squeezed in protest. "I will be fine Naruto. I promise. We just had a... fight I guess, but it will be okay." I said more trying to assure myself at this point than him. His eyes softened as he put two and two together without my saying a word. "This is probably just overwhelming for Sasuke. He doesn't have too great of a track record when it comes to happy moments or family. So, when stuff like this comes along, he is bound to get a little...pissy if you would. He probably just needs time to process everything and think things out. But he will be back. I know he will. Even if I have to drag him back myself." He smirked at the last part, and I couldn't help but let one form in my mouth as well as our pact we made many years ago. I nodded in agreement and Naruto finally released his grip from my shoulders. "I am going to go pick us all up some food from this shop I happened upon earlier. So, it seems the one I found is a ramen shop that stays open late... I'll bring you back your favorite!" He laughed lightly pushing my shoulder as I smiled back. "Of course, you of all people would find a ramen shop in this village." I joked, shaking my head. He chuckled in response and quietly left the room. I sighed walking to the bathroom to examine myself in the mirror. I looked like a mess. My eyes were swollen and puffy and cheeks all blotchy. There was blood on the chin and all over my neck where I had held my hand. I shut the bathroom door and slid off Sasuke's sweatshirt. The blood had soaked through onto my white shirt underneath and onto my stomach. I rolled my eyes. It looked like a murder scene. I pulled down my pants and started the shower waiting for the water to get hot.

I was once again so lost in my thoughts. The steam swirled around the room making my skin feel sticky. I started to open the shower door when I heard the bathroom door sliding open. I turned around quickly as my hands shot over my exposed breasts and vagina. Sasuke stood in the doorway, face pale and eyes blazing. They locked onto the sweatshirt on the floor along with my stained white shirt before they snapped to me examining my body and growing wide with worry when he saw the blood covering my stomach. He was to me in an instant, pulling my hands away to examine me properly. I stayed frozen until I realized I had not cleaned up the mess I had made in the kitchen that most certainly looked like a massacre had taken place only for him to find me in here covered in blood. "Sasuke-Kun, I am fine." I said quickly, pulling my hands away from him and grasping his face. His eyes were still scanning sharingan and all looking for any trace of danger on my face. "I am fine." I said softer rubbing my finger along his cheek and he finally let out a small breath fanning his sweet scent fan across my face. His eyes slid closed, and his forehead slowly rested down against mine. When his eyes re-emerged, they were back to just black and lavender, but worry was still swirling around in them. "Sakura, what happened?" He asked slowly, his arm slinking around my waist pulling me closer. I shook my head feeling stupid for having to admit my foolish mistake. "I just had an accident with a knife. I was talking with Naruto and not paying attention while cutting the meat and I guess I mistook my fingers for a piece of pork." I laughed nervously. Sasuke however did not laugh. His expression grew angry, and he started to pull away.

"This is my fault. If I would have just stayed and cut the damn meat like I was doing this wouldn't have happened." He growled. I locked my arms around his neck holding him with force in place. "It is not your fault that I made a mistake with a knife." I argued. His eyes narrowed. "Sakura, you have used kunai since you were 6. You are a surgeon. You are around sharp shit every day and not once have you made a mistake and hurt yourself with a knife." He snapped. I shook my head. "Honestly Sasuke-Kun I was turned around talking to Naruto. I was congratulating him and wrapped up in our reminiscing that I wasn't paying attention. Accidents happen all the time. I am a surgeon. I would know." I stated not giving up. He shook his head angrily. I sighed. "I need to wash up. Can we talk about this after?" I asked, looking into his eyes. He just nodded and I released my grip. He slipped away grabbing my clothes off the floor as I climbed into the shower and began washing away the blood. Once I was done, I turned off the shower and climbed out using my towel from earlier. I dried off quickly walking out into the bedroom to see Sasuke sitting on the floor by the coffee table with a bag of take out presumably the one Naruto went to pick up sitting on top. I smiled lightly and grabbed some underwear out of the drawer and noticed another one of Sasuke's t-shirts sitting on top of the dresser along with my sleep shorts. I glanced behind my shoulder to Sasuke who just sat still staring at his hands. I turned back, dropping the towel from around me and tugged on the shirt he had given me over my head before pulling up my underwear and leaving the shorts off.

I slowly crossed the space to the table before sinking to the floor along with Sasuke as his head finally came up and he reached for the bag pulling our food out and setting mine in front of me along with some chopsticks. I thanked him quietly and also whispered my thanks for the food before beginning to eat. This ramen was pretty good, but it didn't come close to Ichiraku. I chuckled to myself thinking that Naruto was rubbing off on me. We ate our food in silence, but this time it was slightly more comfortable. By the time we were finished I felt braver than I had been, and I brushed my hands off while glancing at him out of the corner of my eye. He was finished eating and toying with the corner of the table nervously. I pushed my luck and got to my knees and climbed up to sit on his lap. He stiffened again instantly. I straddled my legs around him as he gently tried to push me off. I leaned my head onto his shoulder, our chests touching close. I laced my fingers through his hair and slowly began running my fingers through its silkiness. After about a minute Sasuke finally realized, I wasn't trying to do more than just embrace and he sighed, relaxing his shoulders while leaning into my embrace. Sasuke's arm slowly made its way to my waist, and I quietly hummed a song I always sang, and we sat there for a while just enjoying each other's company.

I felt his heart slow against my chest and my hands continued to work through his hair. Eventually his fingers drew patterns on my back through the shirt. It was then that I realized what pattern he had been drawing all these times. The Uchiwa Fan. I gasped and pulled away looking into his soft endless eyes. He stared back before standing, setting me on the bed, and gathering our takeout. Quietly he exited the room and was gone for a moment. I remembered my mess. I stood walking to the dresser grabbing my shorts to tug up when the door opened, and he eyed me curiously. "I have remembered I have a mess to clean up." I said awkwardly. He shook his head grabbing my arm, pulling me to the bed turning out the big light leaving only the bedside lamp on. "I got it cleaned up while you were in the shower." He started quietly. I groaned. "You didn't have to do that Sasuke-Kun." I complained. "I know I didn't have to. I never do anything I don't feel like doing." He stated simply. I sighed gently tugging at his shirt. He pulled away from my grasp. "Sasuke-Kun... I am not going to attack you just because you are shirtless. There are other ways of being intimate without sexual acts." I said sternly looking up at his face. Sasuke hesitated for a moment weighing his decision before sitting up briefly and undoing his pants, kicking them off and tugging his shirt over his head. He did so with such skill it was hard to believe he only had one arm. He tossed his clothes off the bed towards the hamper before flicking off the lamp and settling back under the covers. I cautiously drew closer to him, feeling his warm raitated through my shirt and I let out the first comfortable breath since this morning.

One thing was for sure I didn't care what Sasuke thought, there was no way this feeling I felt with him could possibly be wrong. Just being close to him put me in such an at ease state it would put Gandi to shame. I would never grow tired of it. There was no possible way. Nothing could ever ruin this feeling that I felt laying here with him. "I don't want to have children. Ever." Sasuke said ever so quietly. Except that. I was so caught off guard, I thought he didn't want to discuss this anytime soon let alone right now. I tried wrapping my mind around what he just said. It went against everything I wanted with him. I mean I guess I could give up that pipedream. As long as we are together, I don't really mind the rest. I realized I needed to say something, anything. "Then we won't have kids. I will look into getting birth control for the time being and then later look into a different procedure that I can have done in order to assure that I won't be ster-" He cut me off shaking his head feeling tense again. "No Sakura. That is not fair to ask of you. I won't." He said, sounding resolute. I felt confusion cloud my mind trying to wrap my head around what he was saying. "Sasuke male condoms aren't really as effective. If that's what you mean by that. I guess you could be the one to have a procedure done, I suppose I can look-'' He cut me off once more. "No Sakura. You're not understanding." He groaned sitting up and my head falling off of his shoulder and onto the cold pillow. Sasuke leaned over, flicking the lamp on with a loud click. Okay now I am really lost then...

"That isn't fair for me to ask of you Sakura. To take away your chance at potentially being a mother one day. I can't and I won't ask that of you." He said once again. Then I realized what he meant. "That's not fair Sasuke." I spit out at him growing angry as I sat up. "Like you said I never do anything that I don't feel like doing. You don't get to make that choice for me." I said to him my voice began to shake. I knew what he was doing. Trying to push me away yet again. Why can't he just let himself be happy for once. "Exactly Sakura. By me letting you stay with me, that is me making the choice for you. You can't possibly tell me if I hadn't said anything you wouldn't be happy to have a child with me eventually?" He questioned. I knew he was right. I would love to be the mother of his children without a doubt. I narrowed my eyes. "Again, that's not a fair argument." I replied with annoyance dripping from my voice. "Hn. Maybe not but it's the truth. I can't take that away from you Sakura. I know you would be an amazing mother to your children and that is why I have to make this choice for are stubborn and will refuse to the end to make it for yourself. Then It really wouldn't be fair to you. I don't want you to let me influence your decision. You were just so ready to give up that option for yourself just like that." He softly said eyes boring into mine pleading for me to understand. "Then we will figure it out later if the time comes." I said practically begging him in return. Only problem with that is he was right... We are both so stubborn.

"I can't do that to you Sakura. That will only lead to worse heartbreak for the both of us." Sasuke replied. I rolled my eyes, throwing my hands up. "You don't think I will be hurting now? If you leave me and walk away after all of this?!" I said loudly, motioning between us and grabbing the shirt he had given me to wear. "I'm not saying it won't hurt now, and I am sorry for that, but you can't tell me it wouldn't hurt further down the line especially if our innocent child got involved." He growled, finally becoming angrier himself. I turned away from him. I didn't want to see his face when he answered my next question. I needed to know why he didn't want to have a child with me. "tell me why...Is it because you don't truly love me, was it all a lie? Or because I am not from your clan? Tell me Sasuke. Is it because I am weak, and you don't want your child tainted with my blood?" I asked, feeling the tears come silently for the millionth time today. I felt his hand grip my chin roughly pulling my face to look at his. I have never seen such anger in all my life of knowing this man than I saw in this moment. His eyes were swirling wildly lit up and glowing as they spun out of control. "How could you ever think that about me? Is that what you honestly think? You must really think that way of me to utter those words Sakura." He growled in a venom laced voice. There was hurt swirling between the anger, and I knew I had gotten it all wrong and I couldn't take my words back.

"I would want nothing more than for you to bear my children. For me to have countless babies and grow old with you Sakura. Don't you see? It is not your blood that is the problem. The blood that runs in my veins. That ran through all of the Uchiha's before me. It is cursed. It knows nothing but heartbreak and suffering. Only pain and more hurt than imaginable. I didn't want that for myself, and I certainly wouldn't wish that on my child. Especially not one with you of all people. You're so pure and loving and that would kill me as much as it would kill you inside to see our child go through the curse that can't be broken known as Uchiha blood." Sasuke growled, finally releasing his tight grip on my face and going to push off of the bed. Without thinking I grabbed his wrist. He attempted to pull away, but I forced my chakra to my hand keeping him in place. His eyes snapped up to mine again. The hurt was far more evident in his eyes this time as he looked away. " I am sorry Sasuke-Kun. But you are not cursed." His eyebrows pulled together before he scoffed. "I am serious." I said sternly.

"Where are you right now? How many people have you helped, and lives have you saved?" I asked. He shook his head. "How many lives have I ended? Do you even know how much blood I have spilled?" He replied sarcastically. "It doesn't matter Sasuke-Kun. That wasn't you. Because by the looks of the man in front of me right now, he is far from cursed. He is a man who has learned from his sins and continues to make up for them every second of every day. You let love outweigh the hate. You won your battle Sasuke-Kun, you are strong and there isn't a doubt in mind that if you had a child, whether it be with me or whoever-" His eyes snapped to mine flashing anger. "Okay if WE had a child there isn't a doubt in my mind that OUR child wouldn't go a second in its life without feeling love from any and everywhere it went. Because our feelings are connected and if our child has even a drop of our blood running through their veins then he or she too will be connected to us, and I don't know about you but there is no way they wouldn't feel the love that I feel for you or them. So, I have not worried about some curse. Love will win. It will always be with us." I finished quietly looking down at my hands. Sasuke pulled me close, and I felt all tension leave his shoulders as he breathed into my hair. "I guess we will find out if your theory is true whenever the time comes." He whispered into my hair. I smiled knowing with every fiber of my being that it was the truth.